-How to save a life-
The doctors all look at one another, fearing Rukia's reaction they shove the closest one forward who nervously approached Rukia, "Kuchiki sama..."
Rukia looks at him with optimistic eyes, hoping he would tell her everything would be all right.
Hoping Byakuya pulled through the surgery and all he needs it bed rest is what Rukia wants to hear...
But.
Life likes to play a little game called, "Let's fuck up Rukia's life!"
"I'm sorry to tell you but-"
Rukia's mind went blank.
It's impossible.
Byakuya is Rukia's super hero.
He can't just die like that.
He's suppose to grow old and watch his grandchildren group up.
He's suppose to be there to spoil his grandchildren rotten.
Save them from an inevitable ass whipping from the parents...
But, alas, nothing good lasts forever as Rukia just stood there.
Void of all feelings.
She couldn't cry no matter how much it killed her inside. Tears just wouldn't form no matter how much it ate at her...
That's when she realized the pain Byakuya endured when Hisana died in his arms was what she was going through.
The very pain he hid till his dying day.
Is this how Byakuya sama felt like when Hisana sama passed away?
Rukia thought to herself as Ichigo tightens his hold onto her. Trying to make her feel loved for.
Trying to show her she's not alone...
But Ichigo couldn't truly fathom the pain Rukia is going through.. Right?
"Rukia.." Ichigo quietly whispers to Rukia as she loops her arms around Ichigo's neck and he carries her out of the hospital, "Let it out... Just let-"
"I don't want to-
Ichigo looks at Rukia confused, "What do you mean you want to? It's a natural-"
"I can't-"
Ichigo sighs, "You're just putting up a stoic look because you're a Yakuza. You keep telling me this and it's your Yakuza side that's holding you back . It's-"
Rukia's eyes darkened as she loosens her hold around Ichigo's neck, "Let me go."
"What?! W-"
"I said let me go!" Rukia wriggles free from Ichigo's hold as she lands on her feet, "I'll back home-"
"What the fuck Rukia!?" Ichigo furrows his eyes, "What did I-"
"I said I'll be back home later on. DO NOT FOLLOW ME."
And so, Rukia walks away. She just walks. Away from everything.
Away from the explainable emotions.
Away from the chaos.
Away from everyone...
Away from a confused Ichigo.
-Mental Healing-
It's getting dark out and Rukia isn't back home nor did she call back home...This is expected from Rukia because Renj and Shirayuki both know Rukia needs space when coping over a loss that traumatic... Though, what Renji and Shirayuki didn't know was Ichigo's callous way of handling things.
Ichigo just didn't know how to talk to Rukia.
"Oi," Ichigo walks towards Renji as he plops down on the couch next to him, "Is Rukia still mad at me?"
Renji arches his eye brow, "What did you say?"
"Does it matter?"
"Depends on what you said..."
Ichigo sighs as she explains to Renji what had happened.
Renji face palms.
"You idiot! You never EVER tell Rukia the reasons why YOU think she's feeling the way she does. You have no idea what she has been through..."
The cool night breeze wisps through the empty park where children giggle and play in the bright warm daytime.. Just Like Rukia when she was younger...
When she had both Hisana and Byakuya with her.
The memories of running around and playing with Hisana on the slides and swing set were all to inviting for Rukia.
Just to relieve a few moments of the past to brighten her mood would suffice...
She lets out a huff as she reaches for her phone, No missed calls...
Rukia looks down at her belly sighing, You would have loved your Oji san... He would have spoiled you rotten too... She takes a look at the moon and basks in it's midnight glow as she slowly sways herself on the swings. Relieving one of the many memories she has with Byakuya... The only difference is, he's not there...
"You're just putting up a stoic look because you're a Yakuza. You keep telling me this and it's your Yakuza side that's holding you back . It's-"
He said the wrong thing at the wrong time... But still... He can't possibly know I how I feel. He can't possibly-
"Rukia..."
Rukia's eyes widen as she feels a pair of arms wrap around her torso, pulling her towards him as he nestles his face on her neck, letting out a huff, "I really loved my mom..."
It was Ichigo. Rukia knew it was him. Just from his voice, she knew, she knew he was hurting when he started to speak of his mom. She knew he was trying to relate to her...
Trying to tell her he tries to understand the pain she went through.
Rukia found herself loving Ichigo more as she stops swaying and gently holds his arms wrapped around her, "It's okay if you don't want to talk about it..."
Ichigo kisses Rukia's neck, "I've never told anyone about my mom... Not even "her"
"Her?" Rukia asked quizzically, "Do you mean Or-"
"I've never seen my mom crying or angry, not even once." Ichigo resumed, "That's why, no matter how bad things were, I'd forget everything when I was by her side. It just wasn't me just me, it was Yuzu too... Dad loved mom greatly..." Ichigo continued as he tightens his hold onto Rukia, "It was raining that day...It was also raining the day before and the day before that. The water level rose significantly... Due to the that girl stood there, swaying on the bank without an umbrella, as if ready to jump in any minute... I ran towards her, thinking I could help her before she fell into the raging river... That's when my mom followed me, trying to pull me back... The cause was unknown. It was clear that while trying to save me, it turned out that way."
She heard the hurt in his voice. There was no way she couldn't notice it. It was the same hurt she heard in Byakuya's voice when Hisana passed away...
Rukia turns her head as she looks at him in the eyes, "I love you."
A slight smile creeps onto Ichigo's face as he lightly kisses Rukia on the lips, "Ditto."
"Baka." Rukia slightly smiles as she playfully hits him as she looks at her belly, "Let's go back home..."
I'm in a romanticish (not even sure if romanticish is even a word) mood because I've been watching romantic comedies with friends who came by with all things sugary and unhealthy to keep my mind off of that *shakes fist*
Right now is just the middle of every thing cause the plot will get twisted to the point where it'll become a wft moment for me because I daydream way too much.
Ichigo telling Rukia about his mom was something I thought was a really heart felt thing to talk about because he never opens up and talks to anyone about it.
^ It's from a shonen jump episode called memories in the rain
Sooner or later I'm gonna indulge you folks on a super long chapter...
reviews and likes are greatly appreciated...