NTYP Chapter 35

DISCLAIMER Stephenie Meyer Owns Twilight

A/N: A short chapter but I love it nonetheless! I hope you do, too! J*B are too cute. In the next few chapters, there will be lots of happiness for you guys to read! Yay! xoxoDGMU

Bella's POV

After Jacob's phone battery died, I was immediately sad at the loss of his deep, husky voice . Maybe if I waited a couple hours for his phone to charge, I could call him again.

I sighed and thought of what a relief it was that I had taken a shower before running into him the night before. If I smelled like Edward, would Jake have even known that was what he was smelling? A vampire? Well, he would now since I had just told him what one smelt like over the phone.

Hours passed by slowly without him. I wondered if I should fight through the woods again. I just needed to see Jacob. I couldn't wait til tomorrow.

But I did wait. I spent the whole day alone, so hoping he would show up and flash me his glorious smile...the one I was so in love with.

By now his phone should be charged again...so why wasn't he calling me? Maybe he didn't want to talk to me. I wasn't anything special, anyway. My doubt got the best of me and I plopped myself down on the sofa, watching LMN. All those sad movies just made me cry and miss Jake even more.

I decided I needed a job. I couldn't just spend my life doing nothing now that school was over. My life with Jacob would be easier if I got a job and started saving right away. We could get a place of our own someday. Since I didn't have a car, getting a job and holding one would prove extremely difficult. Ugh, life never gave me a break.

The day dragged by, and after I ate dinner with my dad, I went to bed with tears in my eyes. I had spent the last few nights beside Jacob, and tonight I would be alone.

I went to my window and looked out, hoping I would see the glowing eyes of a wolf staring back at me from the darkness. But I didn't see the eyes of a wolf.

I closed my eyes and let the tears fall, then I unlocked my window, hoping he would remember how he used to climb in. Oh I so hoped he would climb in tonight. I removed my hands from the glass and mechanically entered my bed.

The sheets were too cold, everything was too cold. My room was missing the lightness that Jacob brought to it. I reached over and opened my side table drawer, taking out the little bracelet with the carved wolf and shining heart.

I angrily ripped the heart from it and threw it across the room, hitting the window. The little wooden wolf was the only Jacob I could have that night, and I would sleep with him without the stupid reminder of Edward.

Though there was no warmth radiating from the little wolf, to my disappointment, just having the little symbol close to my heart would have to do.

"I want to hear your voice again, Jake. I need to feel you. I miss you. I love you. You can come to me. You can always come to me if you need to."

Charlie woke me the next morning with a kiss and a hug. He wished me a good day and told me if I saw Jake, to tell him he's welcome in his house anytime. I was surprised but also excited. I was so going to invite Jake over immediately, though I would have whether or not Charlie approved.

I hoped he would come see me. I needed his warm touch so much. My lips needed to feel his lips again. I wanted to kiss him so bad, the butterflies were making me ill.

I jumped out of bed and snatched my cell from my dresser and dialed his number. It rang for a long time. I got concerned and hung up. Was something wrong? Was he avoiding me or something?

I pulled a blue long sleeved shirt on and some comfortable jeans, grabbed my cell and ran downstairs. Luckily, I caught Charlie before he had driven off.

"Dad! Can...you please..." I nearly dove into the open window of his cruiser, my upper body hanging inside. "Can you take me to Jake's?" God how I missed the old red truck Jacob had given me. I missed it so badly.

He waited a second and then nodded. "Sure, kiddo. Hop in."

"Thanks!" I was so relieved. Smiling, I climbed into the passenger's side, completely giddy to see Jacob.

We pulled up to the little red house and I couldn't stop smiling. My heart swelled at just being so near him. I could feel he was so close, all I wanted was to hold him now. Hold him and never let go.

I told Charlie goodbye and he told me to be careful. Ugh, he seriously needed to chill. I started toward the front door, pulling my hair up into a ponytail. Then I noticed Jacob's garage door was open. I ran to the red building that was surrounded by tires and other car parts, stopping when I heard Jacob grunting.

"Jacob?" I whispered. "Are you okay?" I walked inside and he was leaning over a car engine, tools clanking and his back heaving. "Jacob?"

He turned around and his eyes were bloodshot. I put a hand over my mouth and couldn't believe how bad he looked. "Oh my god what's wrong baby?"

I went to him quickly and embraced him with as much strength as I could. His body actually gave a little at the impact. "Why do you look so terrible? Tell me what's wrong. Please, Jake."

I felt his warm hand on the back of my head and he tugged my hair gently, pulling my face from his chest. He slowly leaned down and brushed his lips over mine, causing goosebumps all over my body at the light touch.

"I can't sleep."

"Why?" I breathed against his lips.

"They're in my dreams."

"Who?" I asked him. He turned his face away, breathing heavily against my cheek and squeezing his eyes shut. "Who?" I asked again.

"Red eyes. All of them. They all have red eyes." His voice broke and he rested his head against my shoulder.

"I'm here, Jake. I'm here. It's just a dream. That's all." I held him and rubbed my hand over his strong back, kissing the hair at the nape of his neck.

"The worst part is...they were after you." He brought his face up to meet my eyes. There was so much fury in them, he looked like he wanted to kill somebody. "They were after you, Bella. They were after you."

"Jacob. Those were probably the Newborn vampires that you fought."

I could feel the tenseness in his body. He was wound so tight, I was afraid he would snap.

"Newborns?"

"Yes. They're new vampires." His brow furrowed even more as he stared into my face. "You were bit by one of them and the venom is deadly to your kind, so you almost died. That's why you were in the coma. That's how you got the scar on your neck if you've ever wondered." His eyes had gradually widened as I explained. "Their eyes are red."

His gaze was no longer meeting mine, but he seemed to be in deep thought. He just stared over my shoulder, seemingly at nothing. I took his face in my hands and kissed his jawline. "It's all just coming back to you, Jacob. That's all it is. You don't have to worry about me. I know I have the strongest man in the world protecting me." I kissed his plump lips, but he only closed his eyes and did not return the kiss.

I pulled back and looked at him. He pulled away from me, slowly turned around and began working on the engine again. This upset me. Had he not missed me at all? I couldn't stand one day of separation and here he would rather work on my stupid truck instead of kiss me?

Wait, he was working on my truck?

"Jake." My mouth hung open in surprise. "You...you're fixing my truck?"

"Yep. My girl deserves a working vehicle, and I'm not going to let you wander around in the woods alone ever again." He groaned as he tinkered with the engine, his face scrunching. There was a loud noise that sounded like something broke. "Shit, that was not supposed to happen. " He sighed.

"Jacob, I can't believe it." I was ecstatic. " I thought that truck was history after Edward..." Oops, I knew this wasn't a good time to mention that name. I looked down at my feet afraid of what his reaction would be.

"You're right."

Huh? I looked up at him and he didn't look angry at all. "Edward destroyed it, tore it nearly apart, but I'm going to put it back together." He grinned and took a towel from his back pocket, wiping grease from his face.

I smiled and wrapped my arms around his bicep, kissing his arm. "Thank you. Thank you so much."

"Sure, sure. It's no big deal, Bells." I stared up at him in awe as he worked on the engine. Oh god, I loved him so much. How did I survive a night without him?

Fifteen minutes later, I was still holding onto his arm and rubbing it with my cheek as he turned, screwed, twisted, yanked, shimmied and fumbled around with the engine parts. I didn't see how he was able to work with me hanging on him like that, but he never complained or asked me to go away.

Despite how sweet it was that he was working on my truck, I couldn't stop wondering why he didn't kiss me back. We were both so quiet and neither one of us had said a word within those fifteen minutes that I figured I would be the first to break the silence.

"Jacob?"

"Yeah?"

"You didn't kiss me."

"What?"

"You didn't kiss me back. Why?"

His hands stopped working and he turned his head to look at me. "I'm sorry. I...I've just got a lot on my mind." He stood up and turned to me, wiping his hands on the towel.

"You've got a lot on your mind?" Now I was angry. "My kisses won't ease your mind at all? You don't need me? If I kiss you, it does nothing for you?"

"No, Bella. No. It does everything for me. It makes everything better. I don't want to hurt you, I don't want to love you physically because I can hurt you. I'll live with whatever shit that is going on inside of my head without a kiss from your perfect lips to ease the pain, because I love you. I love you more than myself and I'm willing to give up what I want if it makes life easier for you."

"Jacob, all I want is for you to kiss me! To love me however you want to! Please, just let go and let me help you. All I want is to love you and make you happy!"

"You do make me happy you do, Bells!" He took my hands in his and squeezed them tight. "You make me so, so happy. I hope you know that."

I made him happy? Jacob Black was happy, oh my god. And it was because of me? I brought joy to him, no longer pain? Just to hear him say those words, it was incredible. I blinked the tears from my eyes.

"I make you happy, Jake?"

"You make me so happy, Bella. You make all my pain go away just by being here."

"Jake." I reached up and tangled my fingers in his hair, bringing his head down so his lips could meet mine. They were so warm, so hot, and the perfect balance of moisture. Honey was all I tasted as I caught his lips over and over with my own, until our lips were swollen and we were panting.

"See, you didn't hurt me." A small smile crept upon his lips and he dipped his head down to kiss me again.

"Bells, will you stay with me?" He said between kisses and pulling on my bottom lip with his teeth. "Stay here with me?" He kissed my cheek and then my temple. "You can live here with me. Don't leave. Don't go back home. I'll make you happy" He breathed. " I'll protect you, I won't let myself hurt you again. "

I groaned. Did he still think he hurt me? Gosh, he was so hard headed!

"I will stay with you forever, Jake. I need you."

"I need you." He breathed with his eyes closed, our foreheads touching.

I got on my tip toes and grabbed his cheeks in my hands, sinking my lips into his and tasting his sweet honey again.