Thirty-six

Walking into school for the first time in a while was different, nothing had changed, it was like we hadn't even been gone. The only thing I missed was having Derek by my side, when I had woken up this morning he had already gone.

I felt someone nudge my arm I looked to see Lydia, "what?" I asked.

"We are meant to be doing this science project," Lydia nodded down in front of us. I looked to see there was some test tubes and bunsen burners in front of us. "Have you been listening for the last 20 minutes?"

"No," I admitted sheepishly. "Sorry I was just-" I trailed off and shook my head. "Got distracted."

"Want to talk about it?" Lydia asked softly. "You know you can, about anything."

"Erm, I just it's the first time I've been away from Derek," I admitted. "I know that sounds sappy and silly but after being with him the past few days it's weird to be without him." I rubbed my head, "ugh idiot he turned me into sappy little bitch."

"That's what happens when you love someone," Lydia laughed. "You miss them when they aren't with you." I grimaced, "oh you and Derek make me laugh, you love each other and you refuse to admit it to anyone but yourselves."

"Well, that's why we are the way we are," I shrugged. "We've never been the show romance to other people type of people." Lydia grinned, "do you not miss Jordan when he isn't with you?"

"Sure," she smiled. "I do but I know I get to sometimes spend time with him after school and that is fine with me. You get used to it Felicity. Now look back to doing the science project and then you can go back to thinking about your man."

I nodded I tried to focus on the science project. One thing was for sure. I was glad I got Lydia to do the work because something told me I would be distracted during this, that and I wasn't very good at Science. I had a tendency for making things blow up and I don't mean that magically, I meant chemically. Although I could now do magically too.

"Liss" Lydia said nudging my arm. I looked at her sheepishly, "poor the chemical." I grabbed the closest one to me and began to pour it, "not that one." I dropped the test tube and it smashed onto the floor. "Move!"

She shoved me out the way and I turned to see it bubbling, "What did I put in there?" I asked curiously.

"You just made chloroform," she said.

"The kind they kidnap you with?" I asked raising an eyebrow. She glared at me and I smiled sheepishly, she ran over and pulled the fire alarm. "I take it, er, I'll never by your science partner again?"

"No you will," she laughed. We walked out the classroom and made our way outside, I sat on the grass.

Freya saw me and came over, "what did you do?"

"Er made Chloroform accidently," I said. "I don't even know how I managed it." She cocked her head to the side, "I'm serious! Last time I did chemistry I made a fire." They all stared at me and I shrugged, "I don't know how I do it!"

"Really Floss?" Scott asked. "You managed to set a fire? Why do they let you back into chem again?" I shrugged, "but from where I was sat it didn't seem like you were even paying attention." I bit my lip and looked away. "Where was your attention Floss?"

"I don't know what you are talking about," I lied.

"I know," Freya said. I shot her a look and she grinned, "you all forget I have a twin connection." The others looked at her hopeful and she smirked, "which I would never betray because she lives with me and it goes two ways."

I grinned, "Derek," Lydia said. I reached out and slapped her arm. "What they could have been thinking something worse, she was thinking about Derek. She misses him."

Stiles laughed, "you feel things?" He teased. "Derek feels things?"

"The classroom has been aired you can go back in," a teacher called. "Felicity a word please."

"I think they know it's me," I said with a laugh. The others left me and I walked up to our teacher, "yes sir?" We slowly began walking inside and he didn't say anything until we reached the classroom. "Sir, is it bad?"

"Yes," he said. "Shall we start with you not paying attention in that experiment or the fact that you are failing physics, chemistry, and biology." I sighed. "I know you've had some troubles since moving here, with being attacked and in hospital and then your mother and it seems that your school work has taken a back seat. Now I know teens don't think it's important, but you need to pass all your classes to graduate." I blinked trying to keep tears away. "If you don't begin to raise your grade we will have to keep you behind."

"Yes sir," I said. He walked into the classroom and I shook my head, I could feel the anger rising in me, I ran out the school as I did the doors blew off the hingers shattering into pieces. "Shit." I ran towards the woods and I didn't stop until I was away from the school I looked at my hands. "Stupid powers." I pulled out my phone and dialled a number. "I need you. I'm in the woods." I didn't give them a chance to reply, I ended the phone call and a few minutes later I heard a howl. It didn't take long until she arrived, I saw my mom instantly and she pulled me into a hug. I wrapped my arms around her. I heard a clap of thunder and jumped, I looked up and saw a flash of lightening. "I can't stop it."

"Why did you call me?" She asked curiously. I bit my lip, "Well I'm not the one who can help with your magic. I've never been able to help you."

Rain began and I looked up, I was becoming more and more panicked, "I don't know how to control it, mom!" I said panicked.

"Breathe," I heard another voice say. I looked behind my mom to see Derek, he came over and pulled me into his arms. He spun me around pressing my back to his chest and placed his lips near my ear, "breathe." I took a breath in and let out another one. "Clear your mind. Think of a happy memory, or a memory that means a lot to you."

I closed my eyes thinking of the first time we snuck out the house and spent it around the lake, I breathed in and out again and slumped into his arms, "you really do know how to calm her," mom said. "I'm glad that someone can." Mom looked at me, "are you ok?"

"Good now," I whispered. "I didn't phone Derek because I rely on him a lot. He may not be able to come one day and I don't want to be in that position."

"I'll always be there," Derek promised. I scoffed, "hey I am."

"I know but what happens when you aren't," I whispered. "I just I need to learn to cope with it you know?" I nodded. "Anyway thank you for coming and calming me down."

"What happened?" Mom asked.

"I'm failing Science and I got mad because he just brought up what happened over the past few months and I kind of snapped, I just I don't have much control, once it started I can't stop," I sighed. "I don't know if I can control it."

"We'll learn," Mom said softly.

"What if I hurt someone again?" I asked shaking my head. "I already hurt you mom I threw you downstairs and Derek I blew a whole in your ceiling!"

"That was different," he said pointedly. "Felicity I know you worry but we handled Freya magically changing and sure we had a few close calls, a few drownings" I smiled a little. "We've gone through a lot worse so Felicity I know we can find a way to control your powers. We just did, it's going to take time."

I sighed, "but I struggle to find balance at school especially when I am confronted like I was today, but I knew it didn't mean anything, it's me doing it," I explained. I scratched my head, "this is what dad was worried about wasn't it?"

"Yeah," she said softly. "But your dad he's protective of you two girls, he used to sit in the nursery just watching you both and he would hate to leave you. He was very much a mother hen when it came to you."

I smiled, "I think I'm good, I should get back to school," I told him. "Don't need to fail anymore."

"Do you want a tutor?" Mom asked.

I scoffed, "no." She raised an eyebrow, "Lydia promised to help me, or I also accidently managed to make chloroform." I hugged mom and she left the woods, Derek grabbed my hand and we began making our way towards the school I wrapped my arms around his waist. "You know I could knock you out now."

He chuckled, "Felicity you could magically knock me out," he smiled.

"Not the same," I shrugged. "I can chemically knock you out." We arrived at the school and I pressed my lips to his, he kissed me back softly and deepened the kiss.

"Come over after school?" He asked.

"Pick me up?" I asked.

"Always," he promised. He pressed his lips to mine again and I pulled away looking at him, "you don't need to be scared that I will never answer you, I'll always find a way."

"How did you get here? Did mom call you?" I asked curiously.

"No," he said. "I felt your anger." I looked at him surprised. "You may not be a wolf but you are still part of the pack, just like Stiles. Also I love you."

"I love you too," I said softly. "I really wish I could skip" I groaned and rested myself against Derek. "Stupid school."

"How about we go on a date tonight? Before the fireworks tomorrow, have us time before we have to share with the rest of the pack," he said.

"Of course," I smiled. "You can pick me up from home at 6," I told him. "I'll see you later."