"So hold up" I said not walking in a straight line, the officer up a head was directing us to Roy's office in Central command. "I missed Ling turning into Greed, Scar getting his butt kicked as well as that little girl-"

"May" Al said interrupting me.

I stared at him.

"Yes, whatever Al" I snapped at him for interrupting me, "MAY, Getting her butt kicked and then you teaming up with Scar?" I asked them.

Ed glared at me.

"We didn't team up with him!" he snapped.

I bumped into him.

"And we're still in central HQ Lexie, so shut it!"

Ed whacked me away from him.

I frowned.

Al put his hands on my shoulders so I would walk straight and not into Ed who was still getting frustrated at me.

"Sorry" I said rubbing my head, these pain killers were still affecting.

"I just don't think id believe it until I saw it" I explained.

I took in a deep breath.

"I can't believe I missed all that though" I whispered loudly.

Ed glared at me again.

"Thats hardly a whisper Lexie" he said in frustration.

I waved him off.

"So where are we going now?" I asked rubbing my head, I could feel the pain coming back slightly but shook it off.

"First we have to go see the Colonel and then go see Dr Knox" Al said tapping his belly informing me we were taking May to him who was still inside Al knocked out.

"Oh" I said when the officer in front of us stopped and pointed to the door in front of him.

I waltzed straight in like I used to.

"Hey! Roy guess wha-" my voice instantly stopped when I saw Bradley.

My face turned into a scowl.

Ed stepped in front of me grabbing my attention.

He crossed his arms.

"Let us do the talking, got it?" Ed asked.

I frowned at him.

"But-"

"No buts Alexis, you're still high and the last thing we need is you saying something stupid"

I rolled my eyes in defeat.

"Okay" I moaned at him.

Ed dragged me by the arm and sat me next to Roy.

"Keep an eye on her" he muttered to Roy.

Roy leant towards me.

"Are you high?" he asked.

I nodded.

"I thought we discussed that you weren't going to do that anymore" Roy growled at me.

I stared at him and shook my head.

"Im legally high!" I protested, "not illegally high!"

Ed looked at me.

"Illegally high?" Ed and Al asked.

There was still a lot about me they didn't know.

"Legally high?" Roy asked confused.

I sighed throwing my hands in the air.

"The nurse gave me some strong pain killers" I explained in a huff, "now most people would say we should discuss the elephant in the room but in our case I think it's the homunculi in the room" I said pointing at Bradley while he sipped his cup of tea watching us.

Ed and Roy rubbed their heads.

"Shut up Lexie please" Ed pleaded to me.

I held my hands up.

"Okay okay" I said nodding at him.

He put his hand on my head.

"And stop nodding you look like an idiot" he growled.

I nodded again.

Ed sighed.

"Is there a problem?" Bradley asked.

I shook my head.

"No sir" Everyone else said together.

Bradley watched me while I kept shaking my head.

Ed kept his hand on my head to keep it still.

"Stop it" Ed growled at me through his teeth.

I stopped and he let me go.

"So whats going on?" Ed asked taking a seat next to me.

"Sgt. major Fuery is in the South, Warrant officer Falman is in the North and 2nd LT. Breda was sent east" Roy stated. That wasn't good for Roy, if all his subordinates left him then he wouldn't have anyone to rely on but I guess that was the point. "And from tomorrow, LT. Hawkeye will be the presidents personal aide" Roy added.

I lent back and shoved my feet up onto the table rubbing my head. It was starting to hurt a bit.

"What?!" Ed exclaimed in shock.

"The conspiracy turned out to involve more than just a portion of the military high command, everyone is guilty" Roy said keeping a sharp eye on Bradley while pushing my feet off the table.

"Achoo!" a little noise came from Al's armour.

Roy and Bradley looked at Al in confusion.

Both mine and Ed's face had turned into shock.

My feet hit the ground with a loud bang making everyone look at me and away from Al.

I sat there with a grin on my face.

"P-president" Ed said louder than was needed. He totally made the situation worse after I had just resolved it. "back when I was in hospital, you came to see me. At that time I had no idea you were working for the other side, you had me completely fooled" his voice had calmed down a little.

"Not me" I stated, "I'm not an-" Ed put his hand over my mouth making the rest of my sentence a mumble.

I looked at him.

"What part of be quiet doesn't that mind of yours understand?!" he whispered sharply at me.

I shrugged not being able to answer with his hand over my mouth.

"'When the time comes I will call on you'" Bradley spoke up, "that is what I said to you. 'Assume the entire military is the enemy, I will not allow you to speak of this to anyone or stick you neck in this matter any further'. The three of you are valuable sources" I knew I wasn't included in this I was just curious to why I was still involved in it if I wasn't a valuable source. "Theres no need for you to know anymore than that, just stay quiet until the time comes and I promise no harm shall come to the three of you" something caught Roy's attention.

He stiffened in his chair.

"You just said three but theres four of us in this room" Roy said.

"You are correct" Bradley stated, "I'm telling you this now Colonel, if you do not stay quiet or plan on quitting the military. I will, without hesitation kill Alexis before she can even blink"

I looked at Bradley in shock, I may be high but I was not going to allow this.

"You're using my life against Roy!" I snapped standing up.

Bradley nodded.

"I'm leaving!"

Bradley already had his sword pointed at my neck, everyone shot out of their seats defensively. My body tensed and I could feel the drugs wearing off, the soft voices in my head were taunting me again and my body was aching. This wasn't a good sign.

"Move an inch Alexis and you will be dead before anyone can lay a finger on me" I didn't move, "I know you told your brother to leave and he can hide just as well as you can. I know for a fact if we lose sight of you, you will be gone and never to be found again. Harm will not come to you if you stay by both Elric's sides and continue to protect them, like you have been doing for the past several months." Thats why I was wanted, I was a body guard for Ed and Al and being used against Roy.

"And if I don't!" I snapped cringing at the pain in my stomach.

"I will hunt down your little brother personally and kill-"

"Lay one fucking finger on Danny and I will tear your throat!" I snarled. My head started to throb but I ignored the pain.

"Very creative Alexis" Bradley smirked, "but I'm not scared of you, now do you understand my orders?" he growled at me.

"Do it" Roy growled at me.

"You've got to be kidding me" I snapped at him.

"Do it!" he snapped back.

I sat back down swallowing hard.

"Fine, I understand"

Everyone sat back down and Bradley put his sword away.

"So when this time comes" Ed said speaking up, "what happens to everyone else including Lexie who isn't lucky enough to be a human sacrifices?" I was ready to rip Bradley's head off, the drugs had worn off and I was in pain which only made me more agitated and angry.

"I said that doesn't concern you Fullmetal" Bradley said calmly.

"Fullmetal huh?" Ed laughed mockingly, "the alias felt like a badge when you gave it to me, but I never thought that badge would represent something so evil" Ed said shaking his head.

Ed looked down at his watch in his hand.

"I'm casting aside this alias!" he snapped slamming his watch on to the table, "You can have this back! I no longer want to be a dog of the military!"

"No" Bradley said firmly, "you will continue to serve the military of your own volition"

Ed gritted his teeth.

"why the hell would i-"

"What was that girls name again?" Bradley asked interrupting Ed, "Oh yes it was Winry Rockbell" his face was emotionless.

"Don't touch her!" Ed snapped slamming his hand on the table, Bradley had a satisfying smirk on his face. He had something on all of us so we all had to do what he said.

"So? What will you do now?" Bradley asked, "if you don't want it, I will cut you down" I was fuming with rage and the pounding pain in my head wasn't helping.

"Dammit it!" Ed snapped picking the watch up.

"Very good" Bradley said pleased with himself.

I stood up and leaned over the table gritting my teeth at Bradley.

"You really are the lowest scum on this earth" I snarled.

I felt something drip down my chin.

"You have blood coming out of your mouth" Bradley said in disgust and leaning away from me.

I wiped the blood from my mouth and turned around.

"Shit not again!" I snapped stumbling over my chair. I felt the blood rise in my throat and drip through my hand that was clamped over my mouth. I had to get out of here, I needed food and water. I knew whatever was wrong with me would heal quicker than usual from the stone in my leg but it was going to keep recurring if I didn't put anything in my stomach.

I stumbled over to the door slamming it open.

I let go of my mouth leaving a bloody hand print on the door and collapsed to the ground, my eyes rolled back into my head and I passed out before I could get out of the room.

I was lying on a bed slipping between reality and my old memories.

"Vomiting blood can be a cause from many things" Dr Knox stated. My body wasn't ready to wake up yet even though my mind was wide awake. "It could be a stomach ulcer or it could be coming from her lungs but I won't know until she wakes up" he explained, whatever it was probably healed anyway but he wasn't going to know that.

"But she's going to be all right though?" I heard Ed ask, "she wasn't doing too well when we were stuck in Gluttony" he added.

"When she wakes up ill do a few more tests and if she passes them then everything should be fine" the tension in the room dropped. "Okay now bring the other girl into my room" I heard Dr Knox leave with Al. I had no idea who was in the room around me but all I wanted to do was wake up and eat.

"I have a few calls to make, stay with her until she wakes up" Roy spoke up.

I felt someone stand up next to me.

"Yes sir" Hawkeye responded, everything went quiet when he left. Hawkeye sat back down beside me again and she put her cool hand over my warm forehead, "he worries about you Lexie" she whispered to me, "even if he doesn't say it."

I tried with all my strength to move, open my eyes but there was no use, I was in some sort of sleep paralysis.

"You don't have to worry about her Ed" Hawkeye said to him, "she's stronger than you may think, she will get through it, I've seen her suffer through a lot but she always gets back onto her feet."

"I know" Ed muttered, "but I have this bad feeling this wouldn't have happened if I hadn't pulled her through the portal" he dropped into the chair on the other side of me.

"But you had to, theres not point blaming yourself when it had to be done" she explained, "she's had worse. Last year when she was found on one of Central streets she was barely breathing" why she was telling Ed all this I didn't know. He had no reason to know, it was in the past and I hated bringing up the past. "When we saw her she could barley speak, she had a broken rib cage, sternal fractures and we thought possible brain damage."

Hawkeye sighed.

"But that wasn't the case, she recovered, got back to her feet and was the same old Lexie" she was wrong, I wasn't the same and I never will be.

"How?" Ed asked, "I don't get how she manages that, who would want to do something like that to a kid?"

"Bad people, we don't know much of what she got up to but she worked for a drug lord" I couldn't believe she was telling him, I had kept this information to myself for a reason and now she was undoing all that I had tried to keep to myself. I tried forcing my body to wake up but it still wasn't responding.

"A drug lord?" Ed asked, "how could she even manage that?"

"Im not sure but she managed it and I can only assume she did something she wasn't supposed to" well she wasn't wrong but I still wasn't impressed she was talking about me like this to Ed when I had specifically not told him.

"Do you think she killed someone?" he asked, "I've seen her kill someone but the way she did it was like she knew what she was doing."

"I don't think it was someone, I think it was someones"

Roy had figured it out, I was only just remembering but he had figured it all out.

"Just before she was found someone was picking off low life drug lords, assassinating them, we're not saying it was her but I think she was involved some how" I wasn't just involved, I was doing it but I thought I had put it all behind me. My past kept following me no matter what I did to try and get rid of it, it was there lurking behind me and always be a part of me. I might have not worked alone but I had still done it, I was trained to kill and thats why I could do it so easily, but now I was just understanding that.

"I had my suspicions but I didn't want to believe she was capable of something like that, its sad to think that she felt the need to lower her self" Ed muttered. I didn't want his pity, I wanted him to be mad at me.

"I don't think that was her intention, theres a lot more than we know that she will never tell, unfortunately she's very secretive and what she wants to hide usually stays hidden unless she gets careless" of course there was more to it. There was the abuse, the brain washing, the spying and the killing. It was the life of a street kid that I chose because I was lost, now when I'm trying to do better it just kept being shoved in my face. I knew Hawkeye meant well but it was my decision to tell Ed not her and having this conversation over me was just making me angry.

"Go have this damn conversation somewhere else and not over me!" I snarled when my eyes opened sitting up and allowing my muscles to wake up.

They both jumped.

"Fucking talking about me like I'm not even here well I am damn well bloody here!" I was angry and when I was angry I couldn't control what came out of my mouth.

"Alexis" Hawkeye warned me.

I turned to her.

"No! You had no right telling him any of that!" I snapped.

"Someone had to, you were never going to tell him and I think he needs to know just the kid you are" she said crossing her arms at me.

I gritted my teeth.

"So since you and Roy know all of each others secrets that means me and Ed have to share ours?!"

"Lexie" Ed warned me.

I turned to him.

"And don't you dare pity me!" I snapped turning to him, "you think I don't get enough from them!" I said gesturing to Hawkeye.

"Im going to go get the Colonel" Hawkeye stated standing up.

I clenched my fists.

"Yeah you go get your knight in shining armour!" she ignored my outburst like she usually did when I turned like this, it wasn't the first time I had turned on her.

"Stop it Lexie you're being nasty" Ed spoke up grabbing my arm.

I whacked his hand away from me and turned back to him. I pulled the sheets off me and put my feet on the chair he was sitting on it and kicked it making his chair slide back away from me.

I laughed cynically.

"You wanna know nasty?" I asked getting off the bed and leaning down so my face was in his. I gripped the back of the chair trapping him between my arms.

He glared up at me.

"You trying living as a street kid, all the drug lords lure us to work for them with pretty ideas of wealth" I shook my head laughing, "but thats a lie. They brain wash us and I can tell you exactly how they do that. Isolate us, expose us to inconsistent messages, mix with sleep deprivation, add some abuse, get us to doubt what we know and feel, keep us on our toes, wear us down and stir well! Thats how you fuck up a kids mind! Thats how they fucked up my mind!"

His face softened.

"Lexie-" he said softly but I pushed his chair back making the two front legs lift off the ground for just a few seconds. His eyes widened and he gripped the chair.

"Stop pitying me!" I shouted at him, "I chose that life, no one forced me into it!"

I gripped the chair and my head hung forward.

"You're supposed to be angry at me" I whispered, "why don't you hate me?" I shrunk to my knees in front of him staring at the ground.

"Im not angry and I don't hate you" Ed said putting his hand on my head, "and I won't ever pity you."

I looked up at him.

"Then why do you look at me like that?" I asked.

He sighed.

"Because I can see the pain in your eyes, when you think no one is watching you, you look sad but now that pain is even worse since you stepped through that portal, that portal I pulled you through"

I shook my head at him.

"That has nothing to do with you" I blurted.

He raised his eyebrows at me.

"So you saw something?" he asked curiously.

I stood up shaking my head and turning away.

Ed stood up grabbing my shoulder making me turn back around.

"No, I saw nothing" I muttered lying to him.

"You're lying" he growled.

"Am not!" I snapped defensively.

"Then what did you see?"

I gritted my teeth in frustration, I didn't like all these questions.

"None of your damn business!" I snapped at Ed again.

I jerked my shoulder out of his grip.

"So you did see something?!"

"I didn't say that!" I shouted.

We glared at me.

"Look to be honest I don't know what I saw okay?! So just stop bugging me!" I snapped.

"Maybe if you told me I could help!" He snapped back.

"What part of no do you not understand?!" I shouted again.

Ed stormed out the room.

"You're so bloody frustrating!" He shouted throwing his hands in the air.

"Me!" I shouted following him, we both stood in the hallway shouting at each other. "You're the frustrating one!"

"I swear I'll hit you!" He snapped throwing an empty threat at me.

I laughed

"Go on then! Hit me! I'll just hit you right back!" He didn't hit me, "Go on hit me!" I shouted. I was hit across the head by someone else other than Ed.

"Stop shouting both of you!" Dr Knox snapped, "I have other patients here so if you want to fight each other like petty little girls, go outside!" We both looked at him in shock. "And you shouldn't even be out of bed!" He snapped at me.

"I'm fine" I mumbled at him.

"Get back into that bed now!"

"Make me!" I snapped.

"I thought you two were up, I could hear both of you from the other side of the house" Al said coming into view.

Roy stepped past him walking towards me.

"Do as the doctor says" Ed said pointing at me.

I crossed my arms.

"Make me" I growled at him.

He shrugged.

"Fine I will" Roy said grabbing me by the arms and pulling me with him.

I struggled but I had no chance of getting out of Roy's grip.

"Get the fuck off me!" I snapped at him in anger, he ignored me pushing me down onto the bed and held me there leaning over me and looking me in the eyes.

"For once start controlling yourself and stop acting like a bloody street kid because your parents didn't bring you up to be like one" he snapped down at me.

I stopped struggling and stared up at him.

"Yeah because they were here to bring me up right? Instead of leaving us to fight in that war" I snarled.

Roy still stood over me with fire in his eyes.

I roll my eyes.

"Fine" I growled in defeat, "but he's not going to find anything wrong with me" Roy let go of me letting me sit up.

Dr. Knox pocked around my stomach, had a look inside my mouth, asked me how many fingers he was holding up and checked my eyes but found nothing of interest like I had said.

"Amazingly you're fine" he said taking a step back from me.

"So I can go right?" I asked.

He nodded.

"You're free to go" I hopped off the bed.

"Good because I'm bloody starving and need some food" I muttered, my stomach grumbled in agreement.