A/N: Not a hundred percent better but I guess I'll live. :) I still will be doing slow updates, but I thought I would post this update for now. Thanks everyone for the reviews.
Helga plopped down right on the stoop steps right outside the medical center. She had just finished her appointment with, Dr Bliss. Her hand felt the spiral of the sketchpad that was given to her. Something that, Dr Bliss wanted her to express through a different form. Opening up the book, Helga ran her finger delicately along the paper. It felt thick. It felt like it was inviting her to press anything against it.
It felt almost too raw.
While she was feeling a little deranged.
She closed the book to place it against her. She was treasuring it now like it was her journal. Protecting it from harm. She almost smiled, but felt a little lost. The last time she actually drew something she was still in grade school. She wasn't, Arnold. He at least knew all sorts of mediums.
Her eyes refocused on the sketchbook as it called for her attention. Helga placed a tiny haunting smile on her face. This was all due to her session with, Dr Bliss. All due to the fact that she told her everything that she had been feeling. The abduction. The thought of her about to die. Knowing what her father was really planning on doing with her.
She had a horrible dream last night. Something that made her jerk up in her bed last night. Something in which her second dream was her sister trying to calm her. Helga was glad to see her at least. To see a positive rather than a negative.
Hearing the squeaking of the brakes in front of her, Helga got up quickly to dash to the bus. It was time to get home. It was time to do her job for, Stella.
Yet another admirer for, Ruth. Arnold never counted how many she had since he gave up his crush a long time ago. Still he guessed it was nice for her to get. He was just glad that she was his last stop for the time being.
Ringing the doorbell, Arnold waited patiently for someone to get the door. Hearing the door click open it was Ruth standing there in her underwear. She grinned at him before grabbing his wrist to bring him into her house. Arnold of course protested even when she placed him on the couch, and straddled him.
"No! You can't leave until you see it." Ruth took the flowers to place aside.
Arnold tried to avoid her breast rubbing against his face, but couldn't. As she sat there reading the note, Arnold just glared at her. "Why did you pull me into your house?"
"I found an actual legit-o-mite agent to represent me." Ruth started to bounce on top of him. "I even had my dad check his cretin-tionals. The agent is honest."
Receiving more bouncing from her, Arnold stopped her. The girl turned her large eyes on him seductively. "First of all that is great for you, so congratulations." Ruth grinned. "Second of all it is legitimate and credentials. Third of all, I am in love with someone else."
Ruth pouted. "I know you are. I just wanted to let you hear my good news since we are friends."
"Seriously, congratulations." Arnold told her honestly.
Reaching back to scratch herself, Ruth sighed. "This previous agent wanted me to have a boob job. As if! I think my boobs are perfect." Releasing her bra, she revealed her chest to him. "See!"
Looking away, Arnold would rather see Helga's. "Yeah they are nice. Please put them away."
"Oh god you are so cute." Jumping up and down on him again, Ruth than hugged him. "If you were mines, we'd be in that bedroom every day." Pulling back she got off him when the doorbell went off again. "Helga is so lucky to have you."
Getting up, Arnold smiled at her. "She isn't mines yet."
Ruth pursed her lips together in thought as she wandered to the door to open it up. Arnold was shocked she just didn't care who was on the other side. Seeing her open the door she squealed at the guy as she hugged him.
"Oh I love the flowers." She cheered. "He just delivered them."
It was the rich male, Arnold still had no idea about the name. He jut knew he didn't like him. Waving hi to him, Arnold excused himself.
"Let's go into my bedroom." Ruth suggested loudly.
Hearing the door slam behind him, Arnold shook his head at how crazy she was.
After work, Arnold always loved seeing Helga wandering towards her room. She was dressed in her robe from just leaving the bathroom. He privately swooned. Wait! Can guys swoon too? No matter, he was doing it at watching his dream girl walk into her room to close the door behind her. Wandering up to the bathroom he was still able to breath in her fresh scent she always wore. The slight tint of vanilla hung in the air. He smiled at the thought of her being his one day.
"Uh, what are you doing?" Helga's voice sounded very amused behind him.
Startled, Arnold fell into the bathroom to see her still in her robe. His fantasies went into overdrive to the point where he hoped he wasn't showing down there. "It smelled good so I just thought."
Helga seemed amused by his half hearted excuse as she stepped in. "Do you think this way when the others take a shower?" Grabbing what she forgot in there, Helga turned to see him still laying there. "Need help up?"
He felt like if he could angle his head properly, Arnold will be able to see past that flap. "No I don't think like this always." Scrambling up, Arnold sighed. "You won't believe what Ruth did today." He grumbled before moving past her.
She had a feeling this all wasn't about Ruth. Heading to her bedroom to change up, she went to his bedroom where she just wandered in. Seeing him half naked, Helga lifted her eyebrows up. "I should of knocked."
"Yeah, but it isn't something you haven't seen before." Arnold informed her as he went into his closet. "What is it?"
"So what did that little crack pot do?"
"I delivered flowers to her from another admirer. She answered the door in her underwear, and than hauled me in there. She put me on the couch where she straddled me just to take off her bra. She told me she was signed by an actual agent. Why she couldn't tell me with her bra on is beyond me?" Hearing her giggle, Arnold wandered out of his closet with a robe on. "What?"
She had her hand covering her mouth. "No, I can't." She just continued to giggle.
Rolling his eyes, Arnold came closer. "Please tell me."
Releasing her hand, Helga looked like a devilish little imp at that moment. "That is probably the only way she is able to think. She has to release her breasts from captivity in order to make the subject stupid in comparison." Poking him she just couldn't help herself. "Admit it. You love seeing a free peep show. I bet you loved seeing her free them."
Coming even closer, Arnold whispered to her. "Yours are priceless compared to hers." With that, he left her alone in his bedroom as he went to the bathroom.
Closing her mouth up, Helga knew he just said that to shut her up. Moving fast she went into the bathroom behind him. "Listen here, Bucko." She poked him in the chest. "I'm not an idiot here. That girl has more of a body than me, so don't give me that bull."
There she goes with demeaning herself again. Arnold narrowed his eyes at her. "Helga, even though I have seen you naked." He loved that blush that played on those cheeks. "I will still say that even when I haven't before, I think you are ten times more attractive than Ruth, or any other girl out there. If you want to tell me otherwise right now than do it." He stepped closer to her. "I dare you."
Swallowing, Helga excused herself from the bathroom to head back into her room. Shutting and locking the door, she rested her body against the wood. She breathed in and out. "Stop feeling this way about him." She admonished herself softly. "It won't do you any good."
It suited him just fine that, Lila was particularly quiet as of late. Baxter didn't need to hear her whiney voice as she spoke. Didn't need to see her generic looks that he had seen a billion times already from other girls. Nor have that personality that was mostly something that was the equivalent of running your fingers down a chalkboard.
It wasn't lost on him that she had feelings for him. Something he would rather ignore. It wasn't lost on him that she would come home looking a little sweaty. Something he didn't care to question. He did have to question something when he noticed the car she got into. It was the only question that popped into his mind.
Is she out of her fucking mind?
Walking over to his Step-Mother, Baxter hoped she at least met him. "Annabeth, do you happen to know who Lila left with?"
She smiled at him. "Oh she told me it was her friend, Rhonda. I told her to have fun, and to not come home late."
Lila lied to her own mother. Baxter thanked her before telling her he was heading over to his friend's house. As he left the house to go to his car, he muttered out, "Stupid fucking idiot."
XX
Lila found herself at a warehouse on the docks. Her date just had his arm around her as he cheered on his friends. As he did that, Lila saw how out of water she seemed. Every girl in there was dressed scantily. Most of them were grinding against their own dates. Some were kissing either one guy or several. There was heavy drinking happening along with smoking. Glancing down to her outfit, Lila felt like a neon sign.
"Come one." Her date guided her towards an area where he put her on top of a mattress. "Stay here while I get some drinks. Edmund! Stay with her."
That goofy sounding laugh started up. "Sure thing, Wolfgang."
Lila wondered what she got herself truly into when he sat down next to her. She tried to pry his hand off her leg, but he told her it would anger her date. All this just to forget about, Baxter.
"Drink this!" Wolfgang ordered as he thrusted a beer at her.
Lila swallowed hard. "I'm ever so sorry, but I don't drink."
Wolfgang sighed as he sat down to take a full swig of it. After he did that, he grabbed her as if to kiss her, but forced the liquid down into her own mouth. Looking at her sputtering from that, Wolfgang handed it to her. "It might be easier if you just drank it."
Nodding her head, Lila began to sip some of it. She immediately hated the taste of it. She wanted to gag.
XX
Baxter growled wondering where he could of taken her. Her parents would kill her if they found out. Stopping in front of the Sunset Arms, Baxter stopped the car, left, and ran up the stoop to ring the doorbell. He was actually so happy to see some sanity standing in front of him. Sanity that happened to look way too good at the moment.
"Helga, I need your help."
Giving him a critical look for a second, Helga relaxed. "What's the haps?"
"That idiot went out with Wolfgang. I don't know where she went to and I know that guy will do something to her."
Impressed that the guy cared enough for Lila, Helga lifted her phone up to contact Ludwig. "Hey there! I have a very quick question here. Wolfgang took Lila somewhere's and her step bro is looking for her. Do you know where that idiot caveman would of taken her?"
On the other end, Ludwig didn't take too long to answer. "Oh that's easy enough. There is a big orgy happening at the docks in a warehouse. I was invited to it. If she is there than she is in danger."
"Ugh. Thanks, Ludwig." Hanging up, Helga looked at Baxter. "He took her to a big orgy at the docks. Ludwig says she is in danger there." She felt Arnold's presence behind her. "Figured you would show up."
Arnold watched as Baxter sped off. "I should go down there too." Seeing her shake her head he was surprised at her. "You want Lila to be-"
Helga stopped him from saying such an awful word. "No I don't want her in trouble. Ludwig and Torvald are heading down there." Placing a gentle hand on his wrist, she added, "I heard Torvald over the line that he's coming with. They'll call once she's safe."
"Still I should do something."
"Call the cops. Say there is a wild orgy down at the docks. Worst thing that will happen in that scenario is that, Lila will be arrested." Helga told him. "Still the best thing for her is to be safe. I know she didn't sign up for that junk."
Arnold opened up his mouth to speak, but only had Helga putting her hand over it. He could only narrow his eyes at her.
Helga understood his do-gooder attitude, but he was playing with fire again. "Arnold, we just got out of the hospital from what Bob did. You are in no shape to do anything about that. Just call the cops and say that you have information about a party. Let them get involved."
She had a point. Nodding his head, Arnold decided to head into the kitchen to call the police on the party. While Lila wasn't an innocent person, she still was compared to, Wolfgang.
XX
Lila noticed something in her hazed mind about, Wolfgang and Edmund. She blinked back a few times to really see it as she laid between them. Noticed how they both met in the middle. At first she thought they were speaking to the other, but they were both kissing at times. It was odd till she heard, Wolfgang mutter a name out. He didn't think Edmund was him, he thought he was a girl. Lila almost laughed.
Almost.
She knew if she did laugh it would bring attention onto her, so she remained still. She felt sick wondering what was in that drink, Wolfgang forced her to drink. She hated him and thought she was safe. Safe until a hand snaked up her dress. Lila brought her hands down to prevent it from happening. Feeling hair thrown on her face, Lila brought it back to find it was a blonde wig.
"Put it on." Wolfgang barked out his order. "You aren't her, but you'll do."
Her stomach flipped as she examined the wig. "Who do you want me to be?"
No answer as she felt herself pulled back by, Edmund. The wig was forcefully put on her, and Lila gagged at how her arms were held back. Feeling Wolfgang's lips upon her, Lila hated herself.
Wolfgang laughed in a hushed way. "Oh don't worry. I just want to kiss you. I don't want to fuck you like this. It isn't any fun."
"This isn't any fun right now." Lila had to think of another thing to say. "I enjoy kissing you when I'm sober. You are a great kisser."
"That's good." He grinned at her as he ripped that wig off. "She's the only blonde I want. As for you, I will just settle with you."
Lila frowned till she heard the loud gurgling from both, Wolfgang and Edmund. "What's happening?"
No words were said as they threw up what they both have been drinking. Wolfgang cursed at whomever was responsible for the beer before grabbing her. "Throw up. I mean it. I feel poisoned."
She watched at how he turned away from her to throw up some more. Getting up, Lila moved to run out of there. She ran unhindered towards the door and through it. She ran loving the sea air as it hit her. She ran until she hit the edge where she threw up into the water.
Wolfgang ran out after her. Hearing her spewing into the water, he ran over to her to rub her back. "Oh man." He swallowed a lump in his throat. "I'm sorry girl. I thought it was just beer."
"HEY!"
Lila heard Baxter's voice rushing up towards her as she continued to spew. "Did you just think it was that? Why did you bring me here?"
No answer came from him when, Baxter punched him in the mouth. "Why else do you think he would bring you to a fucking orgy? Are you this stupid on a daily fucking basis?" He asked her.
Ludwig and Torvald came rushing over as they listened to, Baxter berate the little red head. Ludwig stood there as he told, Torvald to help him to the car. Wandering over to Lila, he brushed her hair back. "Right now she doesn't need that. She's sick obviously." Ludwig told Baxter.
Lila turned her head towards, Ludwig. "He says there was something in that drink. Something he didn't know about. Edmund got sick too. He might still be in there."
Nodding his head, Ludwig picked her up. "I'm taking her to the hospital. You go home and I'll bring her back. She doesn't need any more negative emotions coming from you." He told Baxter.
Baxter walked after him. "Excuse me? That girl deserves to have a sledgehammer driven into her head. She doesn't listen to anyone at all. She just wants to do what she wants."
Turning his head around to regard him, Ludwig countered with, "Sounds like someone who is speaking right now." Moving away back towards his car he was fortunate to spy, Edmund. "Yo, Edmund! Get in the car now! The cops are coming."
Edmund stumbled towards his vehicle where he fell into the backseat. Hearing the sounds of sirens going off, he ducked more further down in the car in a voluntary action. Wolfgang just groaned as he held his stomach. Lila's blurred out eyes decided to shut while she hummed away the pain.
On the dock, Baxter slipped into his own car to drive out of there. Knowing they were headed to the hospital, he did too.
XX
At the boarding house, Helga lifted up her phone to answer it. Not much was said before she hung up. "She's alive, but they are busy pumping her stomach out. Also they are doing the same to, Wolfgang and Edmund. They drank something that was added to the beer. Wolfgang kept apologizing to, Lila."
Arnold blinked a few more times. "Anything more?"
"Lila wasn't taken advantage of. Looks like she had no idea she was heading there. Also she was forced to drink that crap."
Arnold had no clue what was going on through, Helga's mind. She just was staring at the television set. "Helga?"
She knew he would wonder what she was thinking about. "Arnold, the thoughts that are going through my head right now is something I don't wish to repeat. I've had to live with enough knowledge of knowing of what, Bob wanted to do with me." She turned her head to him to hiss out. "Don't force it out of me. I feel bad for her. I do, but don't make me live with that memory that is already still there."
With that, Helga stood up to stomp out of the living room. Helga just wanted to put that whole past thing behind her. The more she thought about it, the more she hated as she threw open the roof access door to stomp up those stairs. She needed air.
XX
Lila wanted to go to her dad's house instead. She needed quiet, but first she needed to deal with, Wolfgang. Someone who had the longest face in the world right now. "Well I'm not the girl you want. Also the girl you want is with someone who she deems as special." She kept a smile on her face in spite of her misery.
Wolfgang couldn't smile back. "Eh, I just like her spunk. She's also nice to look at." He studied her feeling regret once more. "I didn't bring you there to try to rape ya or anything. I just wanted fun. Wanted to see how you'd take it. You are pretty, and I thought I'd give ya a try."
Lila almost felt a little insulted by some of that. "I'll take that for now. This will be a no for future dates with you though."
Shrugging, Wolfgang didn't find too much of a loss with that. "Sorry still."
Moving to kiss his cheek, Lila stepped away from him. "I appreciate it."
Baxter came closer just to find her shaking her head at him. "What?"
Lila moved past him. "I can't be around you right now." She said as she continued to walk towards, Ludwig. "Ludwig? May I have a ride to my dad's?"
Nodding his head, Ludwig asked if Wolfgang needed a ride, but all he got was him falling asleep on the chair. "I guess I'll come back later."
Walking with him, Lila felt a little better as stayed by his side. She appreciated, Ludwig even more as this mature version of himself. She loved how it seemed that Helga became far more cultured. Was she always that cultured or was this a new thing?
"So you don't wish to be around your mom?"
Lila sighed. "I'll be over there. Right now I just need quiet. I don't need my brother and sister running around right now. I need quiet for this pain."
Understanding what she meant, Ludwig kept quiet.
XX
Arnold stepped outside feeling guilty over bringing it up. The person who was supposed to love her, never did. The person who was supposed to protect her, never wanted to. Her father was evil.
"You are such an angel." He started to say to her. "You truly are, and I am proud that I've seen it."
Helga turned her body towards him. "Look, I'm not really angry at you. I'm just very angry at him. I can destroy everything that he held dear to him, but it still won't matter. Funny how I can probably forgive him for killing me." Her body deflated. "How would you feel if your parents tried to sell you on the black market to be a whore?"
He came closer. "About the same. My feelings would be pulled in so many directions like a taffy machine." Taking her hand gently, Arnold brought it up to kiss it. "I'd still be figuring it out like you."
"I'm also still so angry at him that it is hard to let go of it." Helga stepped closer to him. She needed to be held. She needed human contact. Feeling his arms gently enclose around her, Helga put her head on his shoulders. "I killed his favorite chair. I did a number on his lucky belt. There is still more, but it still isn't enough."
His hand went up and down on her back softly. "You living is enough payback. Each smile you produce will be a victory. Just imagine each accomplishment you achieve. Anything that is positive will be a huge middle finger to him. Anything positive will bring even a smile to your mom's face. Just imagine how even, Olga would react."
Helga smiled. She loved that. "I guess I can see it that way."
"I hear a smile in your voice. You just sent a middle finger towards him in hell." Arnold heard a chuckle. "We both know where he is. He attacked an angel and he will live to regret it."
Pulling back, Helga kissed his cheek. "I'll look at it like that."
"Sometimes I feel so useless around you. I think I make things worse."
She was surprised he would say that. Her hands went to cup his face. "We both say things sometimes that will make the other feel like shit. Thing is you do a lot for me even when I don't want it. Who else, besides Brainy, would run off to locate me? Who else would engage my own dad in a fight?" Helga kissed him on the tip of the nose. "Lots of things are forgivable with you because your goodie two shoe nature beats out the rest."
Arnold smiled at her as he placed her back in his arms. "You are an angel."
Helga spotted Lila walking with her tray in her hand. She scanned the lunch room for a place to eat, and seemed to settle for a table that hadn't been cleaned in months. All her friends looked towards her in a mixture of questions before, Helga called for Lila to come over.
Lila felt jolted as she heard her name being called. She felt surprised at, Helga calling for her attention. So timidly, she came over to stand at the head of the table. "Yes, Helga?"
Helga didn't answer. Phoebe did. "Would you like to join us? We have plenty of room."
Her eyes went over to everyones face. She swallowed hard as she spotted a free spot near Rhonda. Thanking everyone, Lila wandered to that spot to sit down. She felt her body shaking. She looked up to, Rhonda making her groan out.
"Oh seriously? Just don't pull any tricks and you can come back and join us." Rhonda sighed out even as she whacked, Curly's hand away from her upper thigh. Whispering to him, she said, "Not here in public."
"Then when?" Curly wondered knowing her own patience level.
Rhonda squeezed her thighs together. "Soon." Was all she said.
Helga shook her head at those two's, 'Not so private relationship.' Helga glanced up at Phoebe knowing she was thinking of the same thing. It was just ridiculous in how perfect those twos were for one another.
XX
Lila decided to play baseball with the rest of the group after school. She decided that today, she would act different. She wouldn't be so ladylike on the field. She would just have fun. She may of wanted a boys attention, but Lila wanted something more even as she slid into home base. It was strange and very exciting.
Helga nodded her head at her. "Well that was different for you. Now go sit on the bench." She told her before Arnold took the base to bat. There was always something so perfect about this view. He really did have a perfect rear. "Come on, Harold. Pitch the damn thing!"
Feeling the first pitch, Helga noticed that strange weakening sensation she still came across from time to time now. She didn't let it show as she threw the ball back. Over and over it happened, and Helga finally felt relieved when they were at bat. This was something she was allowed to sit out. She watched and cheered her team on.
When Sid hit the ball and it went towards Lila, Helga watched hoping she would miss. To watch her catch the ball and not toss it to Arnold at the next base, Helga watched as she ran towards that base.
"What does that girl think she's doing?" Rhonda asked.
Helga had no idea in what context she inquired seeing she was in rapt attention. She watched as Lila personally collided with, Arnold. She watched as they both landed on the ground. Lila on top of him as, Gerald called out on Stinky. Vaguely, Helga heard her teammates speaking as both, Arnold and her got up. Lila put her hand on his chest. She lingered there. She moved her hand around as that flirtatious giggle played up, and carried over to, Helga.
Arnold felt uncomfortable. That half lidded expression from, Lila. "Uh, Lila." She giggled.
"You developed more muscle since we dated." She moved closer to him.
"HELGA!"
Hearing Phoebe calling, Helga's name, Arnold turned his head to see Helga on the ground. He pushed away from Lila as he ran to her. "She was saying that maybe she should head home, and I noticed she looked very pale." Phoebe told him.
Feeling her head, Arnold saw it was normal in temperature. "I don't think she was ready to play ball yet." Lifting her up in his arms, Arnold rushed over to their home. His mom was home so he knew she'd get better in her care.
Phoebe opened the door up for him as she called out, Stella's name. Seeing Stella come in to see Helga like that, Phoebe told her what happened.
XX
Gerald had the intention of heading in after his friends. He saw that out of all of his friends, Lila seemed not so worried. Releasing a huff of annoyance, he approached her. "What's your game?"
Lila blinked at him. "Game? I am ever so certain I don't know what you meant, Gerald."
Back to the innocent act. "You know what I mean. I've watched you since you've come into town. Watched in how you strung my man around. Always made him believe he had a shot with you, and than snag it away."
Giggling, Lila cocked her head at him. "Oh, Gerald. We were in the fourth grade. That was different." As she continued her giggling it fizzled away. She sighed. "You're right. I know you are. I'm an ass for even acting this way when I do want friends."
Gerald was actually shocked to hear the girl curse. "How do I know this isn't an act?" He stared at her.
"You don't, but it is obvious I need more time away." She shrugged. "I've been confused lately, and honestly I need to figure out a lot of things on my own right now." Her attention went towards the boarding house. "I hope she gets better."
Gerald watched as she left quietly. She didn't say anything to anyone else as she left. Rhonda was standing there staring after the girl. He could see that she was washed over with disappointment. He saw how, Curly wanted to console her silently with his arm around her waist. Knowing that his best friend and girlfriend will need him, Gerald made his way to the boarding house.
XX
Her head was already spinning before she opened her eyes. Helga felt like she was wiggling around. She felt nauseous. She moved to her side as it assaulted her once more. It was this feeling like someone placed her on a Tilt-O-Whirl, and wouldn't stop the ride. She felt the muscles in her body. Each one that was injured, assaulted her.
"K-Kill me." She begged weakly.
She jerked at a tiny hand on her arm. A hand that reminded her of, Phoebe. "Helga, It's Phoebe. You passed out. Could you tell me what happened."
She sighed even as other shapes started to form in the room. Helga knew she wasn't alone, and understood why. "I ignored my body complaining. It wanted to rest, and I made it suffer." She adjusted herself. "It finally caught up to me."
Stella stepped closer to her as she brightened the lights some. "You are so lucky that you were with your friends. Please don't extend your body again."
"I just don't want to be weak." Helga couldn't take this weakness any longer. "I want to push past it."
"You will, but not if you keep what you are doing. Rest and don't stress yourself out. I don't mind the occasional games, but for right now I don't want you playing even baseball." Stella ordered gently.
She had to appreciate the caring she guessed. Helga nodded her head before falling back asleep.
When she next got up, Helga smiled at Phoebe laying next to her. Her protective little friend. Moving to get up, Helga was stopped from moving any more by her. "Need the bathroom and I wouldn't mind taking a bath."
Phoebe nodded her head. "Than I'm coming with. I don't want you passing out in the water." Spotting Helga wanting to object, she stopped her. "Do this for all of us."
Figuring it was better than an argument, Helga slowly removed her clothes before grabbing her robe. As Phoebe grabbed her shower caddy, they both made their way across the hall where she told them she was taking a bath.
In the bath, Helga and Phoebe were just making small talk as they silently tried to laugh. Helga still thought it was funny to hear how, Gerald thought he was still this ladies man. The smoothness. The romance. When all he did when he did all that, was to do a figurative slam in the face.
"I have to admit though." Helga told her in between her laughing. "Gerald does love you girl."
Phoebe blushed. "He does. I think it is so sweet when he is like that too."
Seeing one of her bullet wounds, Helga moved her hand over it. "I know I will never get over this." She viewed her body from this angle. It was an angle that wasn't any better. "I'm already ugly enough as it is."
Phoebe wanted to slap her friend. She knew this was a years worth of verbal abuse handed down to her. "Helga, you aren't ugly. You are very pretty in my opinion." She smiled at those glistening blues. "I never told you how much I wished I had your eyes. They are certainly incredible in hue." Her eyes went to her long legs. "You are tall, so yes you are on the skinny side, but I think you have perfect dimensions. Also those legs are beautiful."
Helga almost wanted to hide away at all of that. "Should I worry about you liking me too, Pheebs?" She joked.
"No, but I do hold a certain envy to you." She admitted. "I always wanted to be tall like you and bold too. I always wanted those eyes. While I'm certainly happy with the way I look. I just wish at times I could look a bit like you."
The warm water against her skin was so relaxing. She wondered how, Kyoyo will really look at her if she took her clothes off in front of him. Helga blushed at the thought. She already knew how Arnold viewed her. "Your cousin has already seen me in my underwear." She confessed. "I shouldn't of done it over webcam, but I did. He didn't pressure me."
Phoebe knew her cousin wouldn't do no such thing to her. "I had a feeling something would happen like that one day." She winked at her friend. "I don't think anything less of you for it."
"I know. I just needed to share it." Helga lowered her voice even more as she leaned closer to her. "Arnold has been flirting with me a lot. Telling me how my breasts are better than, Ruth's. I'm sure he is blowing smoke up my ass, but it is interesting."
She already knew how, Arnold felt for Helga. "So has he said anything else to you?" Phoebe almost wanted to press, but didn't want to give anything away.
"No. Just mild flirtations." Helga resumed her previous stance.
"I love my cousin and I love Arnold like he is my brother." Phoebe started out with saying. "I want you to know that if something were to happen with Arnold, I won't stop you. I want you happy."
Helga gave a side glance to her friend wondering if she knew anything more. "Well you know we already got freaky the one time. That is about it."
Pursing her lips, Phoebe was curious. "What is it like to perform oral on someone?"
She did a gasp sort of smile. "With someone that you have been crazy about in the past." She paused as she reviewed her words before saying it. "I wanted to take it all in. It wasn't hard for me, but that is me under alcohol."
Phoebe knew it was something more. She wasn't gullible or trying to sweep something under the rug.