Different Worlds
Chapter 34 – "Adjustments"
Three days had passed since I gave birth to my son and I was glad to finally see my home. Kili had been the perfect husband and father, pampering me constantly.
Thorin and Dwalin leave us at the River Valley, Fili riding with them to bring his mother back.
Kili carries me to our bed as I protest. "Kili, I am well enough to sit by the window. It has been three days and I have healed well."
Arvandora assures him I am mending but he will not hear of it, pulling a blanket over my lap. "You need to rest. The journey back from the Northern Mountains was a rough one and you haven't slept well since Kilan was born. You rest and I'll bring you something to eat." Arvandora lays Kilan in his cradled next to me.
Kili returns soon with a tray of fruit and cheese. "Thank you love but I think I'd like something a little more … meatier. I thought I would stop craving meat once the baby was born but I still have a taste for it."
His nose crinkles as he gives me his pleased grin. "I think you're becoming more dwarven every day."
I devour the roasted chicken as Kili watches me. "Are you going to watch every bite I take?"
"I love watching you lose yourself. There are times I think you forget you're an elf." He ducks as I toss a pillow at him. Kilan wakes up letting me know it was time for him to eat as well.
Kili places Kilan in my arms so he can nurse. I see the beatific smile on my husband's face and my heart melts. "Do you want to hold him, he is almost done."
As Kili rocks Kilan in his arms I drift off to sleep. Dis wakes me when she comes in, her voice carrying down the hallway. "Where is my grandson?"
Kili goes to the bedroom door, his finger on his lips. "Ruunya is sleeping mother."
Dis ignores her son heading straight for the cradle. I lift my head watching her pick my baby up. She holds him to her chest, her tears flowing. "I'm sorry Ruunya; I didn't mean to wake you. He is so handsome, just like his father."
The evening turns to night and Dis finds it hard to leave. I have Arvandora make up her bed for Dis; Fili hoping Arvandora would bunk with him. She makes up the spare room next to Fili's instead, dashing his hopes.
With my husband's arms around me and my son sleeping peacefully I let myself relax. Kilan wakes twice during the night, Dis coming in our room each time.
Thorin has a large feast in honor of his new nephew the next day, a banquet hall full of dwarves passing my son around. I try to find my elven civility, not wanting to ruin Kili's merry time.
Over the next week, we greet summer and Dis's extended stay in our home. I find it increasingly hard to handle not having a moment alone with my husband or my baby.
Arvandora takes me for a walk, my anger about to boil over. We sit in the arbor, the summer breeze sending the scent of my flowers swirling around me.
"I sense your anger Ruunya; you need to talk to Kili. He asked me to bring you out her and talk to you. He says you have not had relations since the baby was born and I know you are healed enough to do so. Tell me what is on your mind and we will try to work things out." Arvandora takes my hand, her blue eyes gleaming back at me.
"You know I love Dis, she had been like a mother to me but I have not had a moment to myself since we got back from the north. She is there when I wake, there when I sleep and there every time Kilan cries. The only time I have held my baby in the last week is when he needs to be fed." I feel my tears fall, my bottom lip trembling.
"I see, that is a problem. Kili and Fili have enjoyed having their mother here but Fili told me last night he feels odd kissing me or holding me with his mother in the room. I think we need to have this conversation with the brothers." Before I can protest she hurries in the house.
Kili and Fili sit down in the arbor, Kili looking at me as if I might break. "Arvandora told me some of what is bothering you and I agree, my mother has to go. I love her, I do but I am a husband and a father now. I need my wife back; I need all of you back."
"Good luck with that Kili, you can tell mother to go. I like my head where it is." Fili chuckles as he sits back against the stone table.
While we sit discussing our house guest, Dis comes out to the garden with a screaming Kilan. "I think it's time to feed our baby."
Kili holds to my hands as he sees the ripple of rage across my face. "OUR BABY!" I scream at her.
Dis gives me a confounded look, her eyes narrowing. "Calm yourself Ruunya, you're upsetting the baby."
Kili jerks me to his lap, holding me down. "Don't do this." I squirm free of him, my anger carrying me forward. Fili grabs me about my waist, holding me tight.
"Mother, give the baby to Arvandora and go inside." Fili gives me a calming smile, his arms wrapped around me tight.
Dis hands my baby to Arvandora, crying as she goes back in the house.
Kili gives me a stern look, his brow creasing together. "Why did you have to upset her like that?"
Fili pulls to me again as I lunge at my husband. "Upset her? Is that what I have done? Let us not forget I gave birth to Kilan … not her. I carried that child for nine months … not her. I love her, I do Kili but she has to go."
Kilan continues to cry, his little hands shaking. Fili releases me and I take my baby. He begins to nurse, his hunger causing him to gulp.
Kili walks away, his hand rubbing his face. "She's my mother Ruunya, I can't just kick her out. I need to do this right."
"And she's not asking that brother, she is only asking for a moment to breath." Fili kisses the top of my head as he walks out to Kili.
The brothers walk toward the stables, discussing our predicament. I rock my baby as he eats, my anger starting to dissipate.
Dis comes back out to the arbor, a doleful look upon her face. "I have overstayed my welcome and I am sorry. It has been so long since my boys were little and I miss my babies. I only hoped to help you with Kilan; he is my grandson after all."
"He is your grandson and I want him to know his grandmother, to know her love but Dis he is my baby and I need to adjust to being a new mother on my own. If I need any help I will ask you first. You are welcome in our home any time, just not all the time." Holding Kilan over my shoulder I pat his back, Dis stroking the soft dark hair curled upon his head.
"I understand Ruunya." She turns to go, Fili and Kili standing behind her. They both hug her, Kili kissing her cheek.
"We will visit Uncle's often I promise." Dis hugs her sons again, her blue eyes misting over.
"When did I lose my little boys? Thorin told me this day would come but I didn't think it would come this soon." The brothers walk Dis out to the stables, Fili riding with her back to Thorin's Hall.
That night I decide to get reacquainted with my husband, both of us eager to be together.
Kili's hands run over my body, his lips at my neck. I feel my body reacting to his touches, to his lips. I kiss him back, my fingers twisted in his hair. I moan as he kisses me over my tender breasts down to my clenching stomach. His hands part my thighs, his lips coming closer to my lower lips. I look down at him as he gives me a most mischievous grin. Before he can continue his ministrations Kilan begins to wail.
I let out a loud sigh as Kili flops back on the bed. "He can't be hungry you just feed him."
"Ruunya … Kili … do you want me to watch the baby for a few hours?" Arvandora speaks softly from the other side of the door.
Kili glances at me, his lusty brown eyes eager to pick up where we left off.
Pulling the blanket over us I ask her to enter. She takes the baby, grinning bashfully as she leaves. Kili looks at me like a mountain lion about to pounce. "I think Uncle Fili can handle his nephew for a little while, now where were we."
Kili begins kissing the inside of my thighs till I'm breathless. His tongue teases my sensitive bud till I am screaming and while I'm recovering from my blissful high his lips travel back up my body as he slowly sinks his long hard length in me. We move together in the darkness our bodies connecting in a way they had not in so long. The moment is over too quickly but every inch of my body feels like it's on fire.
We lie satisfied next to each other, Kili catching his breath. "We have to do that again."
I crawl on top of him, my energy still strong. I kiss and touch, nibble and suck till he's hard and ready. Sliding down over him I grind and swivel my hips till we are both groaning and moaning. This time we last a little longer, Kili turning me over to my back to finish us off.
Kili falls asleep soon after, his urges satiate for the moment. I creep to Fili's quarters finding Arvandora asleep in Fili's bed. Kilan was sleeping soundly on Fili's chest and Fili was snoring like a slumbering bear.
Trying not to wake them, I gently lift Kilan from Fili. A pair of sleepy blue eyes gazes up at me. "You can leave him, he's fine."
"He's going to need feeding soon. Kili is sound asleep so I think I'll take him back with me now. Thank you Fili, I think you may have your hands full already." I nod my head towards Arvandora, trying not to look too pleased.
"We have never, not that I haven't tried. She is determined to wait till our wedding night." Kili tries to free his left arm from under Arvandora.
"Good things come to those who wait Fili but I know it can be hard having her this close and you cannot …" I choose not to finish that sentence.
"She is worth the wait. You know I thought Kili was foolish for falling in love with an elf, how wrong was I." Fili looks over to his sleeping love, the back of his hand stroking her face.
I give Fili some simple advice, hoping he would take it. "If you want to persuade Arvandora to be yours before your wedding night try the tips and back of her ears, trust me."
Fili's face perks up, his smile growing into a wicked grin.
Climbing back in the bed with my sleeping husband I lay Kilan between us. I knew the months to come would be challenging and many adjustments would have to be made but for my family I would do anything.