DISCLAIMER: SM OWNS IT ALL
(The chapter y'all have been waiting for, why he left)
Tap.
Tap.
Tap.
I jump back to the moment.
Masen is patting my face.
I left them both that day.
I left them because I couldn't handle the responsibility.
There is no great story here.
I wasn't cheating.
There was no one else.
There was never anyone else.
Only Bella.
It's only ever been Bella.
I didn't have a demanding job that took up all my time.
I didn't have parents who wanted me to be with someone else.
They loved Bella.
I loved Bella.
Everyone loved Bella.
There was no reason.
Other than my immaturity.
Immaturity that cost me my family.
Immaturity that cost me everything.
I have only ever thought about myself.
I knew this.
She knew this.
It took her 2 months to tell me she was pregnant.
She knew what my reaction would be.
She knew I would leave.
And I did.
When my Dad called and told me I had a healthy baby boy.
Everything changed.
I couldn't be away any longer.
I needed to be with them.
I packed my bags and headed to the hospital.
Everything was great for a while.
Then I left.
Again.
There wasn't a reason.
There has never been a reason.
I was immature.
Simple as that.
It is my fault.
Everything is my fault.