Pain and Pleasure

by Overlordfluffy

Eren sleeps in after several days of exhaustion only to wake up to a very cold, clean Levi staring right at him. The day (and the days following) becomes filled with Pain and pleasure. Eren x Levi, Some Mikasa x Eren at the beginning but this is a Levi and Eren fic.(Does not follow canon manga verse)

37. Mail day

Chapter 37: Mail Day

~A week after the group returned from Sina, the brats are on another one of Levi's dust crusades~

Levi: Bertolt! Can you reach the chandelier?!

Bertolt: Uh… maybe?

Reiner: That's pretty high, even for him.

Bertolt: Yeah, if I try, I'm going to swing from that chandelier.

Levi: Hold off on that swinging! Get a chair or something, you big ass child. And be careful.

~Bertolt mutters something under his breath~

Levi: What was that?

Bertolt: Nothing, Sir.

~Mike walks into the mess hall with the mail. Some of the cadets stop what they're doing and go over to see if they got anything from their families. Jean is among them, although he doesn't seem too excited~

Jean: I really hope my mom didn't send me anything embarrassing again…

Eren: AT LEAST YOU HAVE A MOM, YOU UNGRATEFUL SONOFABITCH!

Jean: SHUT IT, JEAGER.

~Levi goes off to clean a window alone somewhere. Reiner began to speak with a low voice~

Reiner: Hey, Bertolt. What did you say to Levi under your breath?

Eren: Why is this important?

Ymir: Oh, you can't tell just by looking, but Bertolt is quite sassy.

Connie: I don't believe it.

Bertolt: You guys wouldn't want to hear what I said anyway…

Reiner: When he says that, it means that it's really interesting.

Krista: If he doesn't want to tell us, that's fine.

Eren: Why not?

Bertolt: It was kind of mean.

Reiner: Mean for whom?

Bertolt: Eren and Levi….

Reiner: Holy hot damn I bet you anything I can guess what he said.

Bertolt: I really shouldn't.

Eren: It's okay I can take it.

Bertolt: You sure?

Eren: Yeah, I'm a cool guy, right?

~The other brats say nothing and don't make eye contact~

Eren: I promise I won't get mad.

Bertolt: Okay... If you say so… When Levi called me a big ass child, I said, "I don't know if you should be calling me child, I mean… you are kind of fuckin' someone my age."

Levi: Wow, that's actually a pretty good comeback.

~They all turn around to see Levi standing behind them on a table. Bertolt starts sweating profusely~

Levi: Now, with sass gold like that I don't know why you don't speak up more often.

Bertolt: Captain Levi, I-

Levi: Shut it. I hope that comment was worth sharing with your friends because I will work your little bratty fingers to the bone until you discover a world of pain you never thought possib-

Mike: Hey, Levi! You have a big package!

Levi: Yes, Mike. We're all aware of that, thank you.

Mike: I wasn't talking about your dick, short stuff. I was saying you got something in the mail.

Levi: Me?

Mike: Oh, I'm sorry was there another Captain Levi of The Survey Corps around?

~Levi hops off the table and walks over to look at his package. Bertolt, Reiner, Ymir, and Krista slink away into the shadows hoping to avoid Levi's wrath until later~

Levi: Who's it from?

Mike: Your best friend.

Levi (reading the address on it): Commander Nile of the- why is commander unicorn sending me shit?

Mike: Maybe it's a matching set of dildos, compliments to the new couple.

Levi: You shut your whore mouth, Mike.

Mike: Whatever.

~Levi opens up the box and pulls out several local Sina newspapers covering the past week and a note from Nile~

"Levi and the rest of you crazed officers at the Survey Corps, I hope you're happy."

~Eren had walked over to Levi to see what he was opening. The rest of the cadets had either run away or were too busy with their mail~

Eren: It doesn't seem like he really hopes we're happy.

Levi: Looks like the man discovered sarcasm. Finally.

~Levi flipped through the papers and found one with a striking headline~

"SCUMBAG COMMANDER ERWIN CAUGHT MOLESTING TITAN SHIFTER. NEW COMMANDER IS A WOMAN"

Levi: Subtle. I like it.

Eren: Look at this one:

"COMMANDER HANGE: HOW LONG WILL SHE LAST?"

Levi: I like that one, too.

Eren: There's also:

"CIVIL UNREST IMMINENT. HOW WILL SINA COPE?"

Erwin: I bet Nile's jaw hit the floor when he read that.

Levi: Ah, Squad leader Erwin, Nice of you to join us.

Erwin: You don't have to point out my new title, you know.

Levi: Oh, but it's only proper. Right, Eren?

~Levi looks over to Eren, who nods in response~

Eren: Right.

~Erwin rolls his eyes~

Erwin: I can't believe I'm asking you this, but if you could go back to the shitty foul-mouthed nicknames, that'd be nice.

Levi: Okay, Mr. Not-the-fucking-Commander-anymore, why is the leader of the Unicorn Brigade sending me this?

~Erwin sighs in defeat~

Erwin: He's trying to make you feel guilty for the stuff that's going on in Sina, but there isn't anything much to feel guilty about.

Eren: How do you know?

Erwin: Those people may be educated and rich but they sure are dumb. If you actually read the article, their biggest concern is the naming of a new Commander.

Eren: That's good, though right?

Levi: Not really.

Erwin: What do you mean?

Levi: Everyone has eyes on Hange. If she fucks up bad enough once, the chances of the people turning against us more than they already have increase and we still might lose the support of the King.

Eren: So we just make sure she doesn't fuck up. Simple, right?

Levi: But she's bound to-

Erwin: Have a little faith in her. She may be a crazed titan maniac but she's brilliant and I trust her. She did figure out your little affair with titan boy over here before anyone else, remember?

~Hange busts through the doors carrying a huge white box. Reiner and Bertolt follow her carrying two more~

Hange: I got sweets for everyone!

~Bertolt and Reiner set the boxes down on a nearby table. Hange flips the tops open to reveal assorted pastries fresh from a bakery~

Levi: You know, as happy as I am to see this, I gotta ask how you got this stuff.

Erwin: Yeah, where'd you find the money in our budget?

~The cadets began to swarm upon the boxes like hungry piranhas. Hange grabs a cookie and begins to stuff her mouth before she speaks~

Hange: I just used some of the funds for our food to get this stuff. It was pretty easy.

~A dark and violent aura began to surround Erwin~

Erwin: You did what?

~Hange swallows the last of her cookie~

Hange: I just used some of the-

Erwin: Hange!

Hange: What?

Erwin: BELIEVE IT OR NOT WE ACTUALLY NEED THAT MONEY. EVERY PENNY COUNTS! HOW ARE WE GOING TO PREPARE FOR AN EXPEDITION INTO WALL MARIA – A VERY EXPENSIVE EXPEDITION – WHEN YOU'RE THROWING AWAY OUR ALLOWANCE WITH SWEETS?!1?!

Hange: Erwin, calm down.

Erwin: I AM CALM!

Hange: Erwin! We won't be ready to move for at least another two weeks! We still have to plan out a route and practice and go through-

Erwin: DO YOU REALIZE THAT ANYTHING YOU DO WRONG WILL BE SCRUTINIZED? LEVI AND EREN HAVE FUCKED UP ENOUGH NOW THAT YOU HAVE TO BE ABSOLUTELY PERFECT! ANY LITTLE MISSED DETAIL COULD MEAN-

Levi: Oh shut the fuck up.

Erwin: WHAT?

Levi: You heard me. Shut the fuck up. She'll do just fine. This will come out of her pocket and that'll be the end of it. Use your head and move on.

Erwin: BUT-

Levi: You've already made a scene and unless you want to embarrass yourself further in front of the brats I suggest you stop.

~Erwin looks around to see everyone had stopped mid-chew to look at Erwin yelling. He marches out of the room like a child who was just sent to his room~

Hange: Wow he is taking this whole commander thing worse than I thought.

Levi: I actually think he's being quite mature.

Hange: You call that mature?

Levi: If it had been me, I would have thrown a much bigger bitch fit.

Hange: Oh, I know. You're such a diva.

Levi: Shut up.

~Levi takes a look around the room and sees bread crumbs everywhere. He sighs and heads for the broom closet. The closet is a cramped little area. It's bigger than most closets, but because of all the shelves and supplies for cleaning the standing space is reduced so that only about three or four people could stand in there at one time. Levi looks around and notices that the shelves in the closet are a little dusty~

"Tch. Disgusting."

~He looks around for a duster and spots one up on a high shelf. He reaches for it on his tiptoes but still can't reach. Suddenly, a hand is touching his waist and another hand reaches for the duster and pulls it off the shelf~

"You know, you look really cute reaching for things up high."

"Eren, you scared me!"

~Eren laughs a little~

"I know!"

"You jackass."

"Aw, don't be mean."

"I wasn't trying to be. Here go sweep the common room. I've got to try to dust some of this dust off of these shelves…"

~Levi hands Eren a broom and turns around to begin dusting. Eren stands there in the closet doing nothing. Levi doesn't stop his dusting to scold him~

"Did you not hear me, boy? I said go sweep."

"Uhrm.."

~Levi turns around to see what the problem is. Eren is blushing and his hands are in front of his pants~

"What's going on?"

"I don't know, it's just…"

~Levi looks down as Eren removes his hands to show his very apparent boner~

"Well. That's certainly there."

"I don't know why it's up it just-"

"Don't worry, that happens sometimes. Especially when you're young. Sometimes they just spring up on you for no good reason."

"Yeah, well I hate it. I can't go back out there like this!"

"Shh."

~Levi walks around Eren and peaks out the door. There are not too many people still in the common room and they're all preoccupied. Levi closes the door slowly and locks it~

"Levi… What are you doing?"

"You can't go back out there like this."

~Levi takes a step closer to Eren and kisses him. His left hand softly grabs a tuft of Eren's hair and his right hand slides down Eren's chest to his abdomen and then to his belt. Eren panics and breaks the kiss~

"Whoa wait… I know we're out already but they told us not to show public displays of affection!"

"Shhh… it's not public… We're hidden. Nobody's gonna look in here."

"Are you sure?"

~Levi continues kissing Eren and unbuckles his belt~

"I don't know, Levi…"

~Levi reaches into Eren's pants and pulls out his dick~

"Do you want me to stop?"

"I…"

~Levi grabs on to Eren's dick and begins to rub his tip with his thumb. Eren exhales and lets out a soft moan~

"Fuck no… don't stop."

~Levi begins to move his hand up and down Eren's shaft. He can feel his own dick getting harder~

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I'm sure."

"Then be quiet."

~Levi kneels down and slides Eren into his mouth. Eren leans his head back and enjoys every second of it. He feels a slight breeze on his face and turns to face the door just as it closes back up~

"Who the fuck was that?"

"I don't know I didn't see."

~A knock at the door startles both Eren and Levi~

Jean: Hey, uh guys? …We need to put the cleaning stuff back… So if you wouldn't mind…

"Damn that horse faced fuck."

~Levi gets up while Eren fixes his dick back into his pants~

Jean: Or maybe I should just leave the stuff outside?

~Levi opens the door and glares at Jean~

Levi: There is no way in hell you are all done with your cleaning. Jean, sweep the room again. Everyone else is dismissed.

Jean: but I-

Levi: Just do it.

~Levi grabs Eren's hand and drags him out of the room~

Connie: Jean?

Armin: Are you okay?
Jean: …That was something I could have gone my whole life without seeing.

~~Levi and Eren make it to Levi's room and Levi closes the door behind them~~

"Eren. Get on the bed."

"But what about-"

"What about what?"

"I was just thinking we could…"

~Eren nods over to Levi's closet. Levi says nothing as he strips and walks over to the closet door. Eren follows him inside and shuts the door behind him~

~~~~~~Erwin sits in the commander's office with his head on the desk~~~~~~~

Hange: You know this isn't your office anymore, right?

~Erwin makes a whiny noise but remains unmoved~

Moblit: Should I get Mike to try to move him?

Hange: No, that won't be necessary. Leave us.

Moblit: Yes, Commander.

~Moblit leaves and the door closes. Hange walks over to Erwin's side and sits on the desk. She puts her hand on Erwin's head but he still does nothing~

"You haven't been truly sober since we've gotten back, have you?"

"Shut up."

"This doesn't suit you, Erwin."

"Neither does the commander's title suit you."

"That hurts, Erwin. But, you know this is not permanent. No one here respects you any less. We all think of you as our true commander."

"Then why must you be so kind to them?"

"What?"

"I've always had to make tough calls. The decisions I've made have literally killed people. Then here you come with the same power as I had and you treat them sweetly with treats and goodies. They are easily swayed and soon enough they won't respect me anymore."

"You're kidding, right?"

"I wish I was. I feel like the bad parent that no one likes."

"Erwin, you're so petty. Why are you worrying about who they like better? We all know you're a genius and that you're the only reason that-"

"No. I'm not being petty. Our entire operation outside these walls depends on us being able to work with each other. They all know I didn't disclose the entire plan to Eren. They think I still don't trust him. What if they keep thinking he's dangerous? Or what if they decide that I'm the one who can't be trusted for not disclosing plans to the team?"

"Erwin, they trust you with their lives."

"No the ones who truly trusted me with their lives are all dead. Petra, Auruo, Günter, Erd..."

"Erwin! Levi trusts you. Mike trusts you. Nanaba and…"

~Hange lifts Erwin off of the desk~

"I trust you."

"And yet you all keep secrets from me."

~Hange scoffs~

"We may trust you with our lives, but we know you. Yes, Levi kept secrets. I can bet you anything that you hide secrets, too."

"Like what?"

"Like the fact that you're sexually frustrated."

"Excuse me?"

"Everyone can tell. Mike and Nanaba were planning on asking Levi to lend you a toy or something because you, sir need-"

"No need to be vulgar, I get it."

"Don't be so down, Erwin.

"Whatever."

~Hange leaves the room and Erwin lays his head back on the desk~

~~~~Eren and Levi lay on the table in Levi's closet, catching their breaths and still embracing each other. Their skin sticks together as the both of them are still hot from the activity~~~~

"If you grow any more I think I might actually die the next time."

"Am I becoming too much for you to handle?"

"Oh please, even if you grew the size of 15 meters I'd still take you on."

"That's a damn lie."

~Levi laughs at the idea~

"Do you think I'm getting taller?"

"You're still growing. Who knows how tall you'll be."

"What If I grew taller than Mike?"

"I'd leave you."

"Huh?"

~Levi laughs again~

"I'm kidding. If you were that tall… hmmm…. I'd have more of you to love."

"You're so terrible."

"I know. That's why you love me."

"Do you think I'll get to be your age?"

~Levi sits up and looks at Eren angrily~

"Don't ask shit like that."

"What?"

"You are going to live to be my age. And older. Much older. You'll die an old man, warm in your bed."

"You can't promise me that."

"Oh yes I can."

"Will you be there with me?"

"…With our age difference, there's probably going to be a time when I die before you do… If I survive long enough to retire from the Survey Corps."

~Eren sits up and looks back at Levi~

"Now you're the one saying stupid things. Of course you're going to survive long enough."

"Eren. I will not retire from this place until you do."

"What? Why not?"

"I have to be here to protect you."

"You're starting to sound like Mikasa! I don't want you to think you have to protect me all the time. I'll always be well protected as the titan, but you have to look out for yourself, too!"

"Eren, I just want to make sure you have a chance at life if I don't make it."

"A chance at life? What, without you? What the hell kind of cruel life would you subject me to!?"

"A normal one! Hell I don't know find a girl. See if Mikasa still has eyes for you. Marry. Get a house together. Have brats or something."

"Levi, why don't you understand that I want those things with you! Only you."

~Levi stands up and looks at the floor~

"Eren, if we were ever together in that way, I would already be dooming you to a decade or more of loneliness. I am just so much older than you."

~Eren gets off the table and walks over to Levi. He softly lifts Levi's face so that they are looking eye to eye~

"Levi, I'd rather spend the years mourning you and reminiscing the sweet memories of us together, than to mourn the time we could have had if you had given us a chance."

~Levi stares at Eren fondly for a few seconds~

"When did you become so wise?"

"When I fell in love with you."

"Damn your sweet talk."

"You can protect me if you want, but don't you dare rob me of a good life with you."

"Okay. Now kiss me."

~Eren kisses Levi sweetly~

~~Chapter 37, Fin~~

~~~~~~~~Author's Note~~~~~~~

I hated writing this Chapter. I wrote and re-wrote this Chapter so many times. So, there will not be a segment of "shit I almost wrote in this chapter" because the shit I almost wrote in this chapter was really dark in a way that I was not comfortable with. So if you didn't like the ending of this chapter for any reason, or if curiosity calls to you, please privately message me and I will give you the full version of my first draft with the alternate ending. If you do ask for it, all I ask for in return is a review on which version you liked better, so that I know I made the right choice.

Fluffy Out.