How?
I still don't know when things started to change. I don't remember having a "light bulb" moment, when I looked at her and it hit me. It wasn't like that at all. I can't even remember when I began falling in love with her. I can't give you a day, week or even a month when I know it started.
All I do know is that now I feel so differently about her. I can't really believe it myself, actually. It's been sneaking up on me for so long that I didn't realize it was even there. But now…I can't imagine what it was like to not love her.
I know there must be a reason I fell for her. Well, sure, there are plenty of reasons – she's smart, funny, beautiful, strong, amazing…. But how did I fall in love with her? I have no idea, and it really makes no sense. We have nothing in common. It's a mystery to me, how it happened.
How are people supposed to fall in love, anyway? She wasn't about to get married to someone else when I realized I wanted her for myself. We didn't get stranded on a desert island together. We didn't have to work together to get ourselves out of the dungeon of an evil king. We didn't have to pretend to be a couple for an undercover mission. Isn't that how it happens in movies?
I guess we used to be friends, but not like how I'm friends with Cyborg. We talked, but most of the time it was arguing. And now, I talk to her even less, because I don't know what to say. I'm scared- no, I'm terrified – whenever she's around me now, because I can't bear the idea of only being her friend. I don't know how to act around her anymore.
Is there any way I can tell her? Is there a way to tell her something so important without blowing something up? How am I supposed to tell her, when I have no idea what she feels for me?
"Hey Raven, want to spend the rest of your life with me?"
Somehow I think that would end with a few broken bones on my end. So what do I do, now that everything has changed for me? How do I tell her that I'm hopelessly in love with her?