Second Chances

Billa, Thorin, Fili and Kili wake up three months before they to start the quest. All remembering what had happened, and knowing that they had been give a second chance to get things right, but there is more to it than that. The blessing of the ancients of the is upon them, and all their kin. But who are these two new Istari and what is their connection to the two blue Istari and Gandalf?

Pairing Shipping Fili & Fem. Kili Thorin & Fem. Bilbo Dwalin & Fem. Ori Dori & Fem. Balin Bofur & Fem. Nori Bilbo & Dis Elrohir & Fem. Elladan Estel & Arwen Gimli & Tauriel (Yes, there two Bilbos and they are twins)

Disclaimer: I have no rights to any of J. R. R. Tolkien works and am making no money from this.

AN: Respectful reviews most welcome. May all who read be blessed, strengthened and encouraged by it. Lord be will done.

Chapter 37

Dreaming and Waking part 3

Nori was so thankful that she was only needed for a small part of counsel and was glad to leave at their first break. 15 of Thror's old counselors that had held out until now had been trying to sweep all the dirty dealings with orcs, petty dwarves (those exiled because of crimes in the third age), and men that had dealing with the dark lord and his follows instead of doing as Thrain had told them to do and cut their ties to what was now being called, thanks to Nori, Ori and Dwalin, the blackmarket. Rin, Dain's grosmim and Trin only living son, blocks Nori path. Nori her eyes. "What do you want lord Rin?"

Rin glares at Nori appraising her. "You hate it don't you cousin?"

Nori only quirks a brow, she did not have the time for this, Kili her prince, needed her. "Hate what Rin, I don't have time for petty non since. My princes just came back today, and I need to make sure prince Kili is resting and not pushing himself."

Rin gives her an odd look. "I only meant the fact that so few of our former king's lords are willing to change for the better, and are willing to still having dealing with filth despite proof of those self same dwarrows and atani had killed not one but all of my nadads in cold blood for profit."

Nori smiles sadly at her cousin. "Aye, I do hate that.. Your Nadads.. They were some of the best at gathering intel that helped my papa and I clean out those filthy traitors in the first place... Your nadads were all honourable and true hearted. Dwalin and I miss them at our sides in this work. They always did it with zeal and brought courage to those that didn't feel that they had a voice. Lord Mahal is most like very thankful to have their counsel."

Rin smirks his eyes misty. "Lord Mahal.. you think that they now serve him."

Nori smiles widely wiping a few tears. "Little to no doubt, once they have rested, he will have them in his halls among his people to take the place of those faithless that are in the void, as Eru wills it."

Rin looks at Nori with new eyes. His cousin who he had always been at odds with because of so many different things had just proven him wrong again and he was more than glad. Rin smirks and clasps Nori arm and taps the forehead together. "I'm sure he will be coveting yours then later cousin. Forgive my cold heartedness, your are a true Dwarrow.. Dragon blood or not."

Nori was shocked for a moment and laughs heartly. "I knew you couldn't be your amad's son, you will do your line honourably I think. I always thought you would turn out alright.. I would like to catch up and all, but prince Kili can be just as stubborn as his uncle."

Rin's eyes soften at Nori loyalty. "Which one?"

Nori smirk and claps his shoulder. "All of them, the elf inclued. Eru be with you and Mahal keep you cousin, and keep doing our blood honourably."

Rin smiles in away that reminds her of Ori and her auntie Nali. "I know you will do the same. Tell your papa we miss him in counsel, sorry your a poor substitute."

Nori chuckles as she had heads out. "Don't I know it.."

Trin comes to stand by his son with a quirks brow. "Your Amad must be rolling in her tomb you know."

Rin shocks Trin by turning cold and looking grim. "Let her turn. I only would that Grosamad's lies would have finally died with her. Well, they will die with me."

Rin heads back into the counsel room. Trin smiles and chuckle. "I knew you were my son... Your grosnada will be glad to hear it."

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Nori was greeted with the sight of her papa laying with the chin of his snout pillowed on his robe half asleep looking peaceful but worn as she came into the common for their halls. "Rin said that they missed you in counsel and that I am a poor substitute."

Smaug cracks an eye wider and purrs sleepy at her. "So was it said kindly or with the usual venom?"

Nori scoffs with a smile. "He's coming around. He has to much of cousin Dain and Auntie blood not too."

Smaug smiles and nuzzle Nori who close her eyes and all but purrs nuzzling him back. "Dwalin headed back to work."

Smaug smile sleepy and give a slight nods. "Aye, he has. He nearly fell asleep nursing. Poor lad, Fundin and Ofur were taken from him far too soon, but sadly he has turn out even better than Balin in many ways."

Nori scoffs. "Because he wasn't spoiled, not because his papas are gone.. They will wake one day won't they papa."

Smaug blinks back tears. "That is up to Balin, and where her heart is by then, other wises we must await their birth in the dawning fourth age."

Nori nods sadly. "Papa..?"

Smaug looks into Nori's eyes that remind him so much of Fundin's. "Yes, my mim ze?"

Nori smiles softly. "Thank you for nursing and comforting me even through your hurting, but don't let Dori know or he will pout and throw a fit."

Smaug chuckles and bumps her with his snout. "Go tend our jewel, your gem humm."

Nori blushes and nods hugging his neck as best as she can. "I am and I will papa, I love you."

Smaug smiles warmly and nods as she goes, her eyes shining with tears. "As I do you, my mim ze, I thank Eru, Mahal and Yavanna for each of you."

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It was not the first time Nori had bathed Kili and washed Kili's hair while she was snoring softly and talking in her sleep and would probably not be the last but she got a kick out of the fact the Kili would not only talk in her sleep but would answer your questions, but either not remember a bit of it or only bits. "Why wouldn't you use Sulimir on me again." Kili gets a silly grin on her sleeping face. "Nori-Tru-dove, you know that it only heals what Eru wills.. You not ready.. Just deal."

Nori nods smiling thinking it was something like that. "So... Maedhros then."

Kili snickers. "What you like him too.."

Nori blush and look put out. "That wasn't.."

Kili smirks. "I think Bofur might think it a bit odd though.. Nelyo being a Lil and all."

Nori cracks up at this. "Oh is he." Kili falls into a deeper sleep, and Nori smiles fondly. "Yeah, Kili.. I am fond of him, but that is years.. decades off if it ever happens. I only hope that he and Maglor never hurt you..."

"Amad..."

"Nori amad..."

Nori smiles hearing Norbri, Frodo and Fela calling to see if she was there or out. "In here mim zes, your nana's back too."

Nori smirks at the sound of tiny bare feet on stone, it warmed her heart though she didn't quite know why. Frodo and Fela all but ran into her back not quite winding her, as she smiles widely as she hears Norbri tiny booted feet and their measured steps. He was her child through and through. Frodo smile down a his sleeping nana from under Nori's arm. "When did she get back Nori amad?"

Norbri answers before Nori can. "A bit after luncheon but well before dinner which she slept through.. Amad can I go put our things away while they wash up? I'll get mine after Training."

Nori give Norbri a glance that meant 'you had better or your papa will deal with you' and shakes her head smirk. "Fine, go ahead, but make it fast."

Fela and Frodo move and Nori pull Kili gently out of the water and lays her on a huge towel, wraps her up and pick her up. Fela chuckles and smiles. "Nana the little one now."

Frodo quirks a brow. "Mim ze."

Fela smirks. "Little one."

Frodo smirks back. "Mim ze."

Nori rolls her eyes chuckle softly at their batter. "She is neither and both."

Norbri rejoins them but Fela and Frodo just continue as they wash each other and Norbri roll his eyes as Fela whisper 'my little one' in Frodo's ear finally making Frodo go quiet as Fela starts washing Frodo shoulder length dark calico hair. Nori quirks a brow at the blush on Frodo's cheek. "So how did your lessons go today?"

Norbri smiles thankful finally have a change to rag Fela, so that Frodo would stand up for him or at the least show the fabled dwarrow jealousy. "Aye for the most part amad, but even as 'fun' as our lessons were, by the way the elves did not think the first few parts where. We started sindarin today. The real 'fun' if you want to use auntie's word for today."

Nori chuckles as Frodo glares and Fela blushes looking indignant at Norbri who just give them her devil's may care smirk that had been passed on to him. "I'm heading back to my room. If the two of you want to talk to your nana when she wake come when your through. Norbri come and stop baiting them."

Norbri gives her a pout that looks like Ori's. "But Amad I have not even told you yet and I want..."

Nori gives him a look as she picks Kili up, Kili's long wet hair dripping water on the floor as she start to walk. "Isilbelnorbri Telchar Azaghal child of Bofur, come and stop baiting your cousins."

Norbri pouts even more but follows. Nori smirks once they are out of Fela and Frodo's sharper than Dwarrow ears shot. "Now, lad, tell me what you were baiting them with and why... unless it is not truthful."

Norbri glares up at his Amad. "I know better and ya have taught me better than that amad.. And I do not know that I should voice it without my brother sire and his mate present.. oops.."

Nori eyes widen. "Oops is right.. Mate huh.. all of you are too young for all that..."

Norbri blushes faintly and looks away looking older than his years 6 3/4. "Amad, Those two have most of their memories, just not 'that kind'. They remember their bond, their love, that they had children together.. Heck they even remember that we had mim zes together, but the way they think and feel is far closer to their bodies' age than mine.. than it is with me."

Nori had known most of that. "What about yours, how are your memories comparable with theirs?"

Norbri holds the door open for his amad and go in after her pulling extra towel on the bed as best he can at his height of a foot and a half. "They have more of their memories than I do, but I can remember more details than they can.."

Nori nods laying Kili down who makes a face in her sleep. "Curufinwe, leave Nolofinwe be he is far younger than you..."

Nori tries not to laugh and Norbri just quirks a brow a logs that bit of info away. Frodo and Fela come in Frodo scowling at Norbri, and Fela blushing brightly, both now fully dressed but their hair was dripping wet. Fela sit on the wet towel and Frodo sits down behind him with a comb. Nori shakes her head at the tension that was coming off her and Kili's tots almost in waves. "So.. your lessons, you still haven't told me much. Fela, Frodo what did you think?"

Fela relaxes a bit as Frodo sigh and lets go of the fact that he feels he has competition. "As Norbri, the traitor..."

Norbri growls. "Hey, I am no traitor Durin.. all of you..."

Frodo looks at Norbri with a sad angry look. "That wasn't what I meant and I apologized for whatever I did in my gold madness with the ring.. I.. I do not remember.."

Norbri eyes widen and a grateful look passes over his face. "I forgive ya, but do not call me a traitor.. Traitor." Frodo laughs at this and stops combing Fela hair to run his hand down Norbri arm and then cup one on Norbri lightly fuzzy cheeks. "Your traitor.. nadith."

Norbri blushes and Fela huffs. "Dur stop flirting with your lover and finish my hair please."

Norbri and Frodo both blush crimson. Nori watch all this silently she looks for Kili comb and hair snaps, she had been so out of it when she came back she had forgotten where she put them. Frodo smiles softly and whispers in Fela's ear so Nori can't hear what he told his twin but it seem to calm him. "Norbri why don't you give a summary to your amad we will give the details after." Norbri nods the blush slowly fading from his cheeks.

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Lord Ibun did not think of himself as a traitor in trying to help his brother Khim who was, but they were brothers and mates at that. And now to find out the very dwarrows that he had trusted to look out for his precious Ze, were dealing with the dark lords servants, he felt like a traitor and if he were going to go down as a traitor and lose his place among his people he planned to be an honest one. "Young prince Adanedhel, forgive me.. but.."

Turin turns looks up from the tome his grandada had given him to read as part of his lessons for the week, and his young face lights with a sad smile. "Ibun.. It is good to see you have aged this time.. How my I serve you, is you nadith well?"

Ibun swallow thickly going down on one knee and bowing his head. "Neithan.. My dear prince.. no he is not.. I beg you help.. and .. Lord Beleg... my prince."

Turin pales a Beleg puts a dagger to Ibun's throat. "Adanedhel, dear prince, I would not trust a word out of this thrice named traitor, shall I go and find your sire or mine to deal with him."

Turin relaxes seeing a hidden smirk on his best friend's baby face. "No, dear lord cousin.. nada is due in soon but I would have you sheath your blade, he was a friend once long ago, when I was also call a traitor but was wrongfully named so.. Let us hear him out."

Beleg does but stands between lord Ibun and Turin. "Speak on we are listening."

Ibun trembles knowing who he kneels before and they are both giving him a chance to redeem, both himself and his brother, if he has honour. "My lord princes I beg your forgiveness, for the wrong of the past and of the present.. I love my kin.. all of them but my nada and nadith were all I had then.. and now.. my nadith is all I have.. but he.. he is in the hands of fowl and traitorous men and orcs.. He.. He, my lord Turin... is and was my mate.. my ze.. If I am a traitor for being loyal to the one I love only after the One Most High.. than I am a traitor.. but please tell those that can help him.. Or my last years will go down in grief as my nada's did.. He did truly love you my prince.."

Turin pales and Beleg glares as Gimli stand behind Ibun his axe ready to strike off his head. "Adanedhel, Cuthalion leave your eyes need not see this."

Turin shakes his head and moves to stop his nada but Beleg puts an arm out to stop him. "Stand down cousin, jail, him. Question him, but do not slay him. He owes both of us a life debt still, and my dear Adanedhel has offered him mercy."

Gimli eyes widen. "Lad is this true?"

Turin bites his lip and nods. Gimli huffs and growl. "Both of you take his weapons then."

'Dwal?'

'Aye cousin what do you need?'

'Found the 16th traitor Nori was looking for.. and he owes both my Turin and little Beleg his life. A lord Ibun son of Burin.'

'Aye, thought as much we can reunite him with his nadith, where is he?'

'Here in the Greenwood halls, he must of found the kings portal.'

'I will be right there, don't kill him.'

'Turin won't let me.. No worries cousin.'

Gimli smiles at Turin and Beleg. "Lads, take you lessons elsewhere, your uncle Dwalin is.."

Ibun start to sweat. "No please lord Gimli.."

Gimli sighs lifting him to his feet by his collar. "You'll not be slain. He has your brother in the brig.. and you will be joining him, after you prove that both of you are worth sparing. Cuthalion my young prince.. lead my son out of here."

Beleg nods to Turin who glares and stays put. "Nada I will never forgive either you or lord Dwalin if they are slain without reason.. I claim them under my protect until their guilt is proven worth death.. If it even is."

Gimli stares in shock at Turin as Beleg grins and rolls his eyes and kisses Turin cheek. "Your Nada heard you, let us go.."

Turin take and deep breath and nods reaching for his book which Beleg grabs and winks at him. "I will carry our things my prince.."

Turin nods and pats Ibun's arm. "Do not fret Ibun mellon nin, they know I mean it, but I think they will be fair.. or at the least just. I will see the both of you tomorrow if all is well."

Ibun smiles tears coursing down his cheek. "Thank you Turin my lord and prince.. the life and service of Khim and I are in your hands once more."

Turin nods and follow Beleg out. Gimli scoff once he knows the two elfling were out of earshot. "My lad may be merciful but if you and your nadith prove true traitors, he will end you his self if we let him."

Ibun smiles widely as Gimli lets him go. "Better death at the hand of Turambar than few others. I am truly thankful of his return, there are none more honourable and few more merciful among the elder or younger kindreds and to see him born into the line of Durin, the most loyal and honourable of dwarven folk does my heart good."

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Kili woke to Nori's hand comb through her still wet hair, while she listened to Norbri, Fela and Frodo talk about their lessons with Balin from that day(Nori found the comb and snap beads but Kili hair was still too tangled for the comb). "And We didn't know that Maedhros was the same Maedhros.. "

Kili smirks at the growl in Fela's voice. "Tomorrow I am going down there.. and giving him a few choice words to chew on.. How could I be so blind.. And Moryo.. Blast.. If she pushes me one more time.. I am going to uncle with it."

Kili hears Frodo giggle and Norbri snicker. Nori smirks and asks. "What's so funny you two?"

Frodo smiles impishly. "Maybe he is fond of you Finrod.. We all know his nadith is.."

Kili opens her eyes to see her seven year old glaring at the bedspread like it had wronged him in some henus way. "Do not speak to me of our cousin and the fact that he once called for my death from my own people now moons over me like we had been lovers and mates.."

Kili smirks as a memory only another young Finrod and Curufin sitting with Fingon, Turgon, Caranthir and Celegorm smiling and laughing. "Perhaps he does not remember as much as you, my mim ze."

Nori looks down smiling her love at Kili, knowing that their mim zes will think nothing of it. Fela huff relaxing his fist. "As if that would matter nana.. Curvo is lost to me.. As is.. As are so many others.."

Kili sits up so that Nori could tend her hair and so that she could talk down her angsty tot. "Can you not forgive him and give him the benefit of the doubt.. As Eru would will and his theme would tell you if you would but listen Fela my lad. You do not hate him do you? Can you not befriend him once more?"

Fela looks brokenly into his nana's eyes and nods all the anger leaving him as tears fill his eyes. Norbri and Frodo share a look as both look guilty. Frodo hugs Fela putting his chin on his twin's shoulder. "Sorry for baiting you nadad.. I think he really does love you and so what if your Feanorian cousins now love you rather than hate you. Having them as mates or lovers would be better than having them as foes."

Fela tences and moment and then looks into Frodo eyes. Norbri looks nervous and jumps off the bed. Nori gives him an odd look and quirks a brow. "Norbri son of Bofur.."

Norbri give her her own smirk. "Nori child of Ri.. Teasing amad.. teasing.. Frodo kiss him for me... Fela sorry for being a git, but I best not stay.. See ya in the morning."

Norbri runs off. Fela takes a deep breath and smiles rubbing his nose against Frodo's. "Your right my beautiful nadith.. it doesn't matter.. But I will not have them as mates.. I have mates.. I have you.."

Frodo blushes. Nori rolls her eyes. "Aren't you both a bit young."

Fela blinks as he look at Nori. "No.. why would we be.. The Ancient were always mates.. that does not mean we do the part of ...muhtuss.."

Frodo makes a face as Fela licks his hand. "Fela just you wait."

Fela nods unphased. "As I was trying to say nadith, that is what we must and are and will do.. But come.. We need to go eat. Nana.. are you coming up tonight or are we to return here to sleep?"

Kili smiles. "I am sleeping down here, so either you choose to let Bofur and you Nada nurse you.."

Both Frodo and Fela make a face for different reasons. "He eats too much meat.."

"Since when does Nada nurse us.. can he even make milk."

Nori cracks up. Kili quirks a brow. "You'll need to show Legolas the way.. he and uncle are brothers after all."

Frodo glares a moment and the sigh. "So I.. pity.. Come Fela.. Training.. Ori will make it worse if we're late after tea. See you at dinner nana, Nori amad."

Fela nods they both kiss Kili's cheek before running off calling behind them. "We missed you nana.."

Kili smiles contentedly. "Eru blessed me with sweet mim zes. He will help them through.. Nori.. what is it.."

Nori stops combing the part of Kili's hair she was about to braid holding it but putting the comb down. "I have a lot on my mind.. I missed you too.. all us did.. but.. that only the tip of my worries. I am not about to unload them on you.. but what do you want to know?"

Kili takes a deep breath as Nori pick the comb back up and continues to tend her hair. "You know that you can still talk to me.. I'm still.. I'm still.. yours.."

Nori blink wonder if she had imaged the last part. "Yours still what?"

Kili pales looking brokenly at her palm tracing the lines. "Yours.. your mate.. It's like .. you don't.. was it all just a wonderful dream.. I mean some of it was like a nightmare.. but.. the parts with you and I.. they weren't... they.. Nori..."

Kili breath catches in her thoat as Nori moves her hair from that right side of her neck, and kisses the hidden mateing mark tenderly and rest her cheek against Kili shoulder a moment before finish her hair. "It wasn't a dream.. It wasn't nightmares, Kili my kitten, my prince.. It was both the horrors and blessing of our life, of our youth... Someone .. Someone out of our mates.. former mates rather.. blocked everyone but me.. and someone else apparently. But I haven't forgot a bit.. How.. how long and how much to you remember that you didn't before.. and when did you start to.."

Kili turns looking Nori in the eyes and Nori looks down not meeting her eyes, afraid to know, afraid that she was mistaken. "I don't think I have forgotten all of it.. whoever blocked my memories and everyone else's.. didn't block much of my memories of you.. just the ones.. having to do was a hasher side of Fili.. Nori.. I was beginning to think.. you didn't want me.. because I .. I could give Fili, Fela and Frodo and not.."

Nori looks up pained shaking her head. "Sweet Eru, blessed Mahal Kili.. no.. I'm.. kitten I'm happy for you.. I just assumed that since you forgot.. that you forgot me.. Forgot us.."

Kili looks down and nods and moves to cover her body, still nude from the bath but Nori takes her hand and shakes her head. "I want to see you. Your beautiful.."

Kili blushes and blinks away tears of both pain and relief that come unbidden to her eyes, and speaks in a choke whisper. "But my body is so different.. My breast are.."

Nori smiles fondly and lovingly. "Fuller and just as lovely."

Kili blushes darkly and feels her heart beat pick up, glance at Nori and then down. "My hips are..."

Nori moves closer lifting Kili's chin. "Are also fuller and I love them.. you can no longer wear male clothes without your wrap and wear longer straighter lined tunics to hide the fact that you are now a beautiful young Dwarrowdame that is both gendered.. Tell me.. Why would you think I or any of the rest of our mates would not be please with the changes in you body from an adorable youth to a lovely and still adorable young Dwobbit lass..?"

Kili bit back a whimpered sobs at the tender, lovingly devoted look of adoration and longing in Nori's eyes. "Nori.. I .. Fili barely touches me and .. I fear that since you have not touched me since he has.. that you no longer.. wanted me as you mate.. I.. I still love you.. I have never stopped.. but I didn't.. I didn't want to push you."

Nori smirks but an honest fond one and purrs. "Shall I push you.. Push you as like Caranthir pushes your Fela when they spar.. Or do I need to give you some other proof of my affection.. Since all my flirting is useless to get the message across."

Kili swallow as Nori comes close moving the blanket away. "You.. Your affections.."

Nori nods fighting back tears, waiting not want to hurt Kili by making a wrong move. "The flirting you meant it?"

Nori nods again and Kili sit up straighter parting her legs and swallows, and with a trembling hand gentle wipes Nori tears away longing to kiss her but not want to hurt her, Nori had been hurt so much.. "I'm still yours.. you make the pace.. I'm yours in all ways.. Nori, my dove.. my.. my lovely flame..."

Nori eyes widen for a moment and then she smiles and leans down slowly her nose by Kili's, her eyes slip closed. "Yes, I am.. your dove.. Your lovely flame.. I never stopped .. I never will.. Your stuck with me Kili Baggins child of Vili.. my brother child.. my mate.."

Kili whimpers and gives Nori her cheeky grin that she hears but does not see. "I would and am thankful to be stuck with you Nori child of Ri.. Auntie as Bafur and Arfur call you.. but I would rather.. you be stuck in me as well."

Nori closed the gap kissing Kili with tender, love but almost disappearing in longing as she rid herself as quickly as she could of her small clothes, and then pulls back looking in Kili eyes. "Do you really want this.. Us mated.. I.. Oh.. Oh kitten.. Yes... I am yours."

Kili keep her eyes locked with Nori's. "Of course as am I.. one problem.. won't they feel it.. Fili.. Bofur.. Ori..?"

Nori sighs closing her eyes as Kili's finger gently and lovingly trace her scars, her fuzz and the lines and curves of her body. "They may.. Fili won't.. Bofur and I are blockers.. Ori may not even be able to feel it, much less Dwalin. Bofur doesn't neglect our matehood in anyway but Ori and Dwalin are too wrapped up in each other.. and to busy wooing Fili.. Yes.. please.. touch me my love.. my kitten please.. I need you.. It's shredding me not to.."

Kili kisses her softly and Nori press her back gently sighing as she carefully lays on tops of Kili, between her legs. Their breast and members touching lightly at first and then Kili holds Nori closer moaning into the kiss. Nori pulls back whimpering. "Kili .. how can I do this.. I don't want to hurt you.. please.. If your only doing this to comfort me, don't.. I love you. You mean more to me than that.."

Kili smiles baring her neck making Nori whine. "Though it is a comfort to us both.. I give myself to you in love, as I always have and always will for no other reason and with no other reason. If you want, need and love me still Nori.. my dove.. my lovely flame.. Have me.."

Nori laying down beside her kissing her neck and then the tears in her eyes. "I will.. We can take it slow can't we.. take our time.. like we did during our week.. so long ago.."

Kili swallow blushes at the though trying not to be shy of body and Nori shyly touches her. "Yes, Nori.. I would be glad not to rushed.. but I .. I feel so cold.. and unwanted.. Your sure you still want me and your not just.."

Nori kisses her deeply her finger gently running along Kili member and slowly lower to her female open tease it with her fingertips. "I will not leave you cold.. just let me warm you up slowly.. so you stay warm.. How long has it been since Fili.. Kili.. shush.. do not weep.. oh kitten come here... Come here."

Nori sits up pull Kili into her arms as Kili sobs to shake with quiet sobs. Kili buries her face in Nori shoulder and chest. "He.. He doesn't want me.. Nori.. .. months.. It's been months.. it had been months before we left but for the day we left.. No one wants me.. not really.. not since Azog.. Fili .. Fili .. I don't know how he feels or where we fit.."

Nori stoked Kili's hair and back. "We sort it.. I'll let him know.."

Kili looks up shaking her head, and Nori just smiles lovingly. "Relax kitten, I will only find ways to remind him of his love, need and desire for you..."

Kili starts to tremble flashing back the night of Ori's 40th birthday gaila.

~ Kili grits her teeth and with a loud growl kick to tree and turns to face Fili. "I will not be seen with someone who hates me." Fili's shakes his head at a lost at this. "I don't hate you, Kili..." Kili glares harder at Fili as the tears come. "But you do not love me either. You want Ori. You ask Ori to dance with you in front of all those people, you flirt with Ori every time Dwalin and Nori are not in sight. You call to Ori in you sleep as you press your body into mine..." Kili looks down broken. Fili comes closer and reaches out and Kili pushes his hands away. "Kili, is this really about Ori?" Kili laugh hollowly. "No, Ori is the only one of the four of you that cares to show it right now, Nori looks at me with annoyance and mistrust half the time, Dwalin looks at me like some treasure to guard and not touched, and you. You do your best to keep me yourself without really getting close, but deny I am of any worth or value to you by your heartless and thoughtless actions. Go back a leave me alone." Fili growl and throws up his hands. "I am not your mate Kili, you're my little brother.. " Kili shakes her head trembling, as she unlaces her tunic and unhooks the elven wrapping. "You didn't think of me that way this morning did you. When you were begging me to be your male lover, before amad call for you and stopped your plans. You have been too busy to bathe with me in the last few months... Now you know the truth." Fili blushes as his feel his body react and tries to look away as she removes her tunic and small shirt and wrap laying them and her bow at the foot of the tree. Kili closes her eyes and wraps her arms around herself and sobs, as Fili looks away in disgust. "You you think I am disgusting, Fili. Your both too. I know your my ze..." Fili looks at her in shock a moment and then backs her up and press her against the smooth bark of the birch behind her, kissing her neck. "What if I do not want to be your ze, Kili?" Kili sobs harder as she feel him grind his hips into hers as her body reacts. "Then I must resign myself to the fact that none of my mates want me, and at best you will use me for sex." Fili closes his eyes at these words, lefting her to his waist and pins her hands above her head against the tree. "Your mine Kili, whatever you are to me. You.. are .. Mine.." Kili nods brokenly not having the will or heart to fight her nadad and soulmate off and whimpers as Fili has his way her body through her clothes without deflowering her. Fili lets her down and then turns to leave as Kili shakes with sobs. "Don't make a fool of me again Kili, or I will make you scream my name for all to hear, and then you will know I am not ashamed of you, but I will not mate you, because I will not have you taken from me. Whether or not I want to be your ze is not the problem. My only choice as the heir is to have you in secret or be separated from you, or worse there are those of our lords that would move to have you killed. I do not know that Amad would stop them. My threat is empty, but my desire to do so is not, but if I find anyone has touched you..."~

Nori pales. "Kitten please.. Oh Kili.. please my prince..." Kili comes out of it. "Is that all I am.. your prince.. and Fili.. Fili sex thrall.. that he has become tired of.."

Nori eyes widen and holds Kili tighter sobbing into her hair. "Oh Eru, please.. Blast Kili.. I love you.. If he is still a pig that changes nothing between us.. I am your as much and Bofur's.."

Kili looks up brokenly. "Nori.. don't do that.. Eru, then your ze, then Ori, then Dwalin, then.. "

Nori smiles brokenly. "Then Narloth, then you, then Helcar, then Fili.. But I need to .. we needed each other.. we still need each other and I will not leave you to this.. Either he loves you.. or.. he doesn't, I won't let him hurt you again.. not again.. I can take it.. I will do all I can.. to help him see.. and if he doesn't.. I I don't know what I would do.. I can't kill him.. I love him too much.."

Kili stares awe shocked into Nori face. "You still do.. your remember everything.. and you still love him.."