Hiiiiiii! So this chapter is a lot of fluffy angst (is that a thing?) Hope you enjoy it.
I don't own anyone you know.
Blaine couldn't breathe. he was away from the warehouse and away from his abusers but he still couldn't breathe. he needed Cooper to go, Cooper was hovering and fretting and he just wanted Kurt to be there and hold him and whisper that He loved him in his ear.
"Cooper, I think You should go," Kurt's voice said over him and Blaine could have sobbed in relieve that Kurt had picked up on that.
"Go?!" Cooper said hurt and hysterical. "he's My baby brother I can't just-" Blaine appreciated that Cooper cared, but Blaine couldn't handle it, he just needed to be with Kurt, to focus on Kurt without another Dom around to have to impress.
"Look at him, Coop," Kurt said and apparently Cooper did because there was a moment of silence. he was still naked, some of his whip marks had reopened upon leaving the warehouse and the car ride, his ass felt like it was gushing blood it hurt so much, and his entire body just ached. "I promise I will call You later," Kurt pleaded. Cooper didn't say anything but Blaine heard footsteps walking away from them.
"I'm always here for you, Blaine, whenever you need to call, I'm here," Cooper said. Blaine nodded into Kurt's neck, he loved his brother, but he needed his Dom. The door shut quietly and Blaine let out a shaky sigh of relief and then he realized, so had Kurt.
Kurt didn't know when He would be able to let Blaine go. In that moment the very idea of Blaine leaving His arms made Him want to vomit. His sub was safe, he was back in His embrace and Kurt needed to feel him breath, feel him warm and soft under Him and despite the trembling, at least he was there.
"B-Bwana," Blaine whispered and for a second Kurt wasn't sure He hadn't imagined it.
"Yes, Precious," He answered. Blaine hesitated, Kurt could feel him tensing, concerned with Kurt's reaction.
"i'm thirsty," he whispered before flinching, he shouldn't have done that, Kurt would want to hold him and Blaine was just shortening the amount of affection he would get before Kurt realized what he really was.
"Oh god, I'm sorry baby, of course you are, if I let you go for a minute will you be alright?" Goddamn it what kind of Dom was Kurt, of course Blaine would be thirsty and probably hungry too, he hadn't eaten or drink anything since the night before at dinner time.
"Yeah," Blaine murmured sounding sad. Kurt kissed his cheek gently, watching for any sign of distress but instead Blaine leaned into the affection, humming softly at the warmth. Kurt carefully maneuvered Himself off of the couch, detaching from Blaine, though neither of them were particularly eager to be released. Kurt nearly ran into the other room to get a bottle of water before coming back. He found Blaine much as He had left him though tears were streaming down his cheeks and he was curled even tighter into a ball.
"Zuri," Kurt breathed as He approached Blaine cautiously waiting for permission. Blaine whined at Kurt being so close but not touching him, but why should Kurt want to touch him? Kurt held out the bottle and Blaine guardedly took it.
"Thank You, Bwana," Blaine said softly.
"May I-?" Kurt asked, motioning to sitting back where He had been. Blaine nodded quickly and shuffled slightly to allow Kurt more space. Blaine clung to Kurt in a way that caused Kurt's heart to ache. How could this have happened to His sweet lover, Blaine deserved nothing but love but it seemed like he always got the short end of the stick. He wasn't supposed to though, being with Kurt was supposed to have meant that no one ever hurt him again and yet he had found himself yet again abused and raped for Doms' sick pleasure and own gain. It wasn't until Blaine whimpered quietly in pain that Kurt realized He'd been squeezing Blaine tighter and tighter.
"I'm so sorry," Kurt groaned, when would He stop being the cause of the pain? Blaine managed to smile weakly,
"it's okay," he said. Kurt sighed, moving slowly to kiss Blaine's lips but was careful he wasn't pushing him past what he was comfortable with. Kurt knew Blaine in the head space he was in he would let Kurt do just about anything He wanted. Blaine however met the kiss with desperation and need, moaning softly into the kiss. his brain recognized instantly it was Kurt and he stopped shaking. he was really home, and safe, and loved, at least for a little while longer.
Kurt wanted to stay in that kiss forever, never leaving it, never wanting to deal with failing Blaine and what that meant for them both. The rest of the evening passed quietly, Kurt never moving away from Blaine for more than a few seconds and Blaine not speaking unless spoken to. Kurt hated it, He hated that the playful, mischievous man that had been in their bed just that morning was now hardly able to meet Kurt's eyes.
"I think maybe we should get you in the bath, beautiful," Kurt suggested. Blaine grunting weakly shaking his head and saying something into Kurt's neck. "What was that, Zuri," Kurt kept His voice pleasant and gentle, not wanting any of His words to be misunderstood. Blaine paused before pulling away enough to answer,
"It's going to hurt," he breathed. Kurt flinched and nodded,
"Maybe, but I think it would be better if it was cleaned up,"
"I don't want to hurt anymore." Blaine whispered and tears began falling from Kurt's face. Blaine was covered in dried blood and Kurt knew He needed to be washed but the pain and fear in Blaine's voice took all the air out of Him. How could He argue with that?
Blaine curled further into him and whined quietly when Kurt didn't respond. he shouldn't be talking against what Kurt wanted, isn't that what got him sent to retraining in the first place?
"Sorry, sorry, i'll do it, i'll be good i-" Blaine began breathing harder and pulling away from Kurt, away from anger and disappointment, he threw himself on the floor, kneeling at Kurt's feet. "Bath, i will-" his voice was weak and cracking in desperation to not earn more pain.
"Zuri," Kurt said firmly, knowing He had to calm Blaine down before he did more damage.
Blaine slowly looked up to see Kurt with so much distress on his face that Blaine could have died. "My love," Kurt whispered, carefully reaching out, waiting for any kind of negative reaction. It didn't come and Kurt gently touched Blaine's cheek, a sob slipped out of Blaine's mouth at the gentleness of the touch.
"Bwana," Blaine breathed, Kurt wasn't the one that had hurt him, Kurt had never hurt him.
"Hi baby," Kurt soothed, using the pad of His thumb to further memorize the lines and curves of Blaine's face. Blaine stared at Him for a moment more before putting his head on Kurt's knees, sobs tearing themselves from his chest. Kurt crawled on the floor with Blaine, pulling him into His arms. "I'm here, you're safe," Kurt repeated this over and over until Blaine seemed to truly calm down, until the sobs were merely whimpers and the shaking at the force of the sobs was only the trembling of exhaustion. Blaine was almost asleep when Kurt moved to pull away. Blaine let out a cry of displeasure and desperation, clutching on tighter, not letting Him get too far. Kurt shushed him gently and moved back to holding him, rocking him soothingly. "If you can't handle a bath love, I'm going to have to at least wash you off with a wash cloth," Kurt admitted. Blaine cringed and tensed severely, unsure whether to pull away or move impossibly closer to Kurt. "After we clean you up I'll put salve on your back and we'll… we'll see if there is anything I can do for your butt," Kurt said, flinching at the same time as Blaine, thinking of what had been done to him. Blaine flinched more because of the thought that Kurt would see the damage and not want him anymore, because who would want to fuck someone after they'd been wrecked.
"They cleaned me off with a sponge, i think i'd rather have a bath," Blaine whispered. Kurt kissed his head, nuzzling into his curly hair,
"I promise I am going to make this as painless as I possibly can for you." Blaine nodded, he knew that, he knew Kurt would go out of his way to insure Blaine didn't hurt anymore than he had to. Blaine expected Kurt to start to pull away and take him to the bathroom, but Kurt didn't move, Kurt just sat there on the floor with him, holding him as close as He could. Kurt couldn't let him go, it was safe here, and if Kurt closed His eyes He could imagine it was the morning again and Blaine was just waking up in His arms, cuddling against Him and begging for five more minutes. The smell of blood however and the weight of Blaine becoming heavier in His arms however brought Him out of the beautiful dream of this all going away. Blood.
Kurt hadn't noticed that through all the struggles Blaine had broke open several wounds and was bleeding again.
"i'm tired" Blaine whispered. The blood loss and panic attack and pure emotion of the day was hitting the sub. he was dropping and he was dropping hard. he was shivering, curling tighter into Kurt, chasing the warmth.
"Come on, baby, let's get you in the bath, that'll be warm and then we'll get in bed and you can sleep all day tomorrow," Kurt promised. There was no way He was going to work that week, job be damned.
"Okay," Blaine muttered, Kurt saw his eyes were unfocused and blank, shit, sub drop was something He had only been through once with Adam and He swore He'd never let it happen again, but here He was, failing yet again. Kurt stood carefully, lifting Blaine in His arms, trying so hard not to pull and tear at the injuries already there. It twinged a little but nothing Blaine couldn't handle, he didn't even make a face, he just laid his head on Kurt's shoulder and inhaled deeply.
That smell, that clean, familiar, safe scent grounded Blaine just long enough for him to look up at see his Dom looking completely helpless but pretending to have it together all the same. "i love You," Blaine whispered, feeling as if in that moment Kurt needed to hear those words, though Blaine couldn't quite figure out why.
Kurt almost broke at those words, three words they said all the time, multiply times a day, suddenly nearly sent Kurt to his knees. The beautiful person in His arms still had the ability to love Him. What did that say about the strength of Blaine? That he could love the person who had failed him.
"I love you too, Zuri, I love you so much and I am so sorry," Kurt claimed. Blaine tried to focus, tried to figure out what Kurt kept apologizing for, was He apologizing for knowing He wasn't going to stay with Blaine? There was no apology needed for that, Blaine completely understood. Blaine wasn't sure when he drifted off but the next thing he knew his entire body felt like it was on fire and yet like it was being healed all at the same time.
"AHH!" he cried out, arching away from the pain but unable to get further away as the water was over his chest.
"I know, baby, I know," Kurt soothed, He was shirtless now and had His arms halfway in the water, knowing perfectly well separating Blaine from physical contact was literally the worst possible thing He could do to the falling sub. He had His hands on Blaine's face, and hair, stroking and gently scratching, in caring, comforting motions. Blaine groaned as he became accustomed to the pain, and let himself enjoy Kurt's quiet ministrations. Then there were quiet melody casting even more balm on Blaine's nerve and pain.
Seems like there's always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about Me and you
The verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury's out, My choice is you.
So don't you worry your pretty little mind,
People throw rocks at things that shine and life
Makes love look hard, stakes are high, the water's rough
But this love is ours.
Never know what people have up their sleeves
Ghosts from your past going to jump out at Me
Lurking in the shadows with their nasty smiles
But I don't care, cuz right now you're mine
So dont you worry your pretty little mind,
People throw rocks at things that shine and life
Makes love look hard, stakes are high, the water's rough
But this love is ours.
And it's not theirs to speculate,
If it's wrong and,
Your hands are tough but they are where,
Mine belong and,
I'll fight their doubt and give you faith with this song for you.
Blaine smiled softly, looking at Kurt who smiled as well, the first one the two had shared. Kurt reached over and grabbed the shampoo, He wanted to make him feel as good as possible before He had to clean the injuries. There was a part of Kurt that wanted to soothe Blaine asleep but he also didn't want to wake him put with pain so whenever Blaine would drift off Kurt would stop massaging his scalp and lean forward and kiss him. Blaine began faking falling asleep so Kurt would kiss him and Kurt soon caught on, smirking and this time when Blaine 'fell asleep' Kurt paused and instead of kissing his lips, nipped his neck so gently, but Blaine gasped and his eyes shot open and for a second Kurt thought He'd scared Blaine but instead Blaine whined, pleading and wrapped his arms around Kurt's neck.
"Awe come on, precious, you know we can't do that," Kurt murmured, kissing Blaine's lips and face softly. Blaine nodded but held on tightly and put his head on Kurt's shoulder.
"i know," Blaine whispered. "Just a beautiful dream," Kurt didn't think he intended to say that aloud.
"you need to heal babe, then we'll get back to that," Kurt promised, not seeing the look of surprise on Blaine's face. Maybe if He had seen it they could have had the conversation now instead of having what happened happen.
I will hopefully be updating soon! I always say that lol. If you have anything in particular you would like answered or if you'd like to see anything (not making promises) Thank you all for sticking with me. It means the world to me.