Dear Zack,
Why is it that whenever I ask people about you they give me an odd smile or a sad frown? They assure me that you are okay and quickly change the subject. I know something is wrong. Their smiles are too tight. Their words are borderline defensive, though I don't want to offend anyone by asking when you are coming home. Kunsel gets the worst though. He gets quiet and it's concerning since he normally has so much to say. It's not just right seeing him so silent so I normally change the subject so I normally change the subject for him. But it's still the fact that everyone is lying to me. How can they tell me you are okay when they don't even believe it themselves? It makes no sense, Zack! Why do people act like everything is okay when it really isn't?
It hurts, to know people don't trust me with the truth or that they feel that I can't handle it. Why is it that they feel the need to lie to me? Why can't they just tell me what's going on? What is going on? Where are you? I'm so frustrated right now that I want to scream at the top of my lungs on the top of the highest building. Even that doesn't seem like enough to get rid of this disgusted feeling inside of me. I'm so tired of being lied to. I'm so tired of being hurt.
I don't need to be protected. I am not a little child. I refuse to be coddled like one. I am not made of glass. I do not need to be handled with care, at least not with things like this. You're important to me. I'm not the only one who cares about you. And it's upsetting that our friends are keeping something hidden from me. I would understand if they said it was classified because of Shin-Ra but right now I feel in the dark. I don't like being kept out of this. I'm worried about you. I just want some sign that you're still okay. Anything would do. I just want to know how things are. Zack, I just want you to send me a sign. Even a text message to Kunsel would be okay.
Aerith