Title Change: That Certain Someone
We arrived in Hawaii and went to the house we're staying at. Alice was thrilled by the view of the ocean. So much, that we had to go swimming immediately. So, maybe a lot of that time in the water was spent with me holding Alice and us making out. Whatever, we don't have to get technical.
Now, Alice has gone off to bed and I know what she wants to happen. Emmett and Edward cornered me about it at the wedding…
"Sex," Emmett whispered, wiggling his fingers and getting all up in my face.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, pushing him away and looking at Edward, who had his arms crossed and was shaking his head and laughing at Emmett's idiocy.
"What do you think happens during the honey moon?" Emmett asked.
"Well… sex… but I don't see why you're talking to me about it in this corner," I said, trying to back up but feeling my back hit the wall.
"Emmett's just being stupid," Edward said.
"And trying to make you nervous, is it working?" Emmett said, grinning.
"No," I said.
"Yes!" Emmett shouted, seeing past my lie and running off.
"Don't mind him," Edward said.
"Well, now he has made me nervous. The idiot," I said.
"Don't worry. Alice is just as inexperienced as you."
"But she…"
"Was raped. That's not the same as having sex with some one you love."
"This conversation is becoming even more weird."
"Just don't think about it," Edward said and he walked away. However, the two planted the subject in my head and for the rest of the night I couldn't look at Alice without thinking about it.
Now I don't think I'll be able to sleep. I know, it's our honey moon and I should be relaxed but I'm not. I'm freaking out and not just because of the whole sex thing. It's more than that.
I walk out onto the porch and sit down on the steps. They end down on the beach. The view is amazing, I just want to drink it in and remember it forever. Of course drinking ocean water is bad but it's just a figure of speech.
"You know iced tea isn't going to help you fall asleep," Alice says. I turn around and see her standing there with two glasses of iced tea in her hand. I realize one was mine. I smile, thinking about my tendency to leave drinks I've just poured sitting where I poured them. Alice sits down next to me, hands me my glass and takes a drink from her own. We sit there silently, until we're both finished. Alice picks up the empty glasses and goes inside. When she comes back out she kneels behind me and wraps her arms around me.
"Come to bed, Jazz," she whispers in my ear and then kisses my neck.
"I don't think I can sleep, Ali," I say.
"Mmm, we don't need to sleep," she mumbles into my throat. I grab her and pull her in front of me. She sits on my lap, with her legs wrapped around me. I kiss her hard on her lips. Her hands knot in my hair and we sit there. But I feel like we can't do more than what we currently are doing.
"No," I mutter, "no we can't Alice."
"But why?" she asks, pulling away looking hurt. "I want to, I love you."
"Your dad… we can't," I say.
"What about him?" she asks.
"I called the police station a few weeks ago," I say. I can't keep it a secret from her any longer.
"You what!" Alice exclaims. "We were going to go together, Jasper. After the wedding, after we came back from Hawaii." Alice looks even more hurt now.
"I'm sorry Alice, but I couldn't stand it," I say getting up and pulling Alice off of me. I put her on the stairs and I walk down onto the beach. I look up at the stars and run my hands through my hair. I need to tell her what I found out from the station. She needs to know that he won't be in jail for long.
"What happened?" she asks.
"He's not going to be in jail for very long," I say.
"He…. He's not?" she asks.
"No, and I'm so sorry Alice but I'm freaking out. I feel like I can't love you the way I should be able to."
"Don't be ridiculous Jasper."
"I don't want to bring any children into a hostile environment. As long as your dad is around they could be at risk."
"Jasper, haven't you heard of birth control? Just having sex doesn't mean we'll have a baby."
"I know, but.-"
"But what?"
"I don't know!" I exclaim, sitting down in the sand.
"Jasper," Alice says, sitting down next to me and rubbing my back. "I love you. My past is just that… passed. He can't get to us."
"I'm just worried that he will."
"I know, hun."
"I'm not crazy, am I?"
"Of course not?"
"So…" I say, turning and looking at her. I raise my eye brows and she throws her head back and laughs.
"Come on, Jazz," Alice says, standing up and holding out her hand. I take her hand and she tries to help me up. I have to admit that I don't offer any help and actually try to make myself heavier. Alice starts to laugh.
"Jasper, stop it!"
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Just get up and come to bed with me you stubborn idiot."
"Nah, come down here lil' lady," I say, pulling her down so she lands on top of me. Alice laughs, I assume it's because I went all 'Texas' on her.
"I love you," I say.
"I love you too," Alice says and I kiss her, right there on the beach because for now I've forgotten my paranoia about her father. Right now, it's just me and her.
All done guys. Sorry for the long wait. I don't know if you noticed that message about the title change. It's going to be called 'That Certain Someone' now. I've gotten a banner for the story, too. Check it out on my profile.
~EM~