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Nick once told me that the worst part about being crazy was knowing that you were crazy. I was only a little bit worried when I heard a voice saying my name in the locker room. But when I saw a stargate in my closet it was time to get pretty worried in deed. I knew it wasn't real. I knew that there was no way there was a guy grabbing me out of the locker.
There has to be some explanation. I work for the Stargate program, and really weird things have happened, things way weirder than this. Jack doesn't believe me.
I would believe him if he told me something this odd.
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They are shutting down the gate because of me. It's the most amazing thing that has ever happened to humanity, and it's over because I went crazy.
I opened this gate, and now I am going to be the reason that I closed it.
At least they haven't shut me up, or locked me away yet.
My current plan is just to pretend that none of this is happening. I am just going to go about my business like nothing is wrong. If I try hard enough they are not going to notice.
That is until a Gau'old starts to threatened my friend. Am I really supposed to sit here, and watch that thing slither all over his arm? I sit there focused calmly telling myself that it isn't real as long as I can, but in the end I have to try to wrestle it out of his arms.
Just like the last time, I fall to the floor when it's done, and by the time I wake up I'm already on a transport.
They had to ship me off after all.
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They come and visit me in the nut house. I'm so embarrassed that they have to see my like this. I can't see their faces well enough to see if there is pity or empathy on their faces.
I apologize for being crazy, and I can hear in Sam's voice that it is empathy.
I still tell them, that I'm not just crazy. There is something that brushed past me, there is something inside of me, and I can feel them coming. I know they are.
Teal'c tries to assure me that I am among friends. Jack uses his Colonel voice which should be enough to snap me out of it, but it isn't.
And then I see him. I know he's not there. I know that no matter what they do they are not going to see him. I laugh at how ridiculous it is. I point. I try to explain to them, but I know that it's not real.
I try to rush forward, to explain it to them, but they don't believe me. Something goes into Teal'c but they don't believe me. I hear Machello's voice, but all they do is shoot me full of drugs.
Dr. Moon they are not.
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I wake up, and my mind is clear. Well, that's not accurate perhaps. But the cloudiness is not caused by not knowing what is real and fake. It's the medicine induced cloudiness of drugs. I need to clear out my head. I can't think. I can't walk.
They want to give me more medicine. I know that they could hold me down and shoot it into me, so I try to explain it them. I try to talk clearly, but I know it doesn't work. I don't have a clear enough mind. They want me to be calm, but I feel like I have to move, I feel like I have to walk.
I try to calm myself. I try to sound calm, and rational.
I know the story is crazy. I'm explaining how a dead alien spoke to me. I see how they don't believe me.
I know my angle, I know how to convince them. If Teal'c is sick, they have to let me talk to Jack.
McKenzie is no Dr. Moon, but he is willing to at least do that for me.
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Jack thinks that I am crazy, but he still treats me like a human. That shows the measure of a man.
They listen to me. Jack listened to me. I guess I didn't need to join the military, or grow boobs to get respect from him. Oddly enough, I just had to go nuts briefly.
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The test results confirm that I am fine. I knew I was fine. I knew I wasn't crazy, but it is an unbelievable result to find it out from a reliable source.
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Notice: SGC Paintballing next weekend. We've reserved the whole place, and the workers will be at home during it. So bring your best "Enemy of the SGC" outfit, and let it all lose.