Word Prompt: Glare
Edward continued to hold my hand as he drove to his aunt and uncle's house. The music played in the background, but I was too deep in thought to really pay much attention to anything. Even Edward was taking the backseat to the new information I was now processing. For some reason, Edward's secrets didn't surprise me as much as I thought they should. I wasn't sure what it was, but somehow I knew there was more. But, I would have never guessed that he would give up a comfy King sized bed for a room in a fraternity house. I also never would have guessed that his parents really could be as awful as I was imaging them to be. I had hoped that I would think of the worst and they'd somehow surprise me, but since that didn't happen, I didn't even know what square I was back to with his mother and his father could jump off a cliff for all I cared. Well, that was extreme, but I wasn't sure I'd ever like him.
The realization that Edward was a little more well off than I had originally figured was a little unsettling. I wasn't lying when I said money didn't matter, but then how did I factor how much it mattered to him? Was there eventually a path he saw himself on that had me in pretty dresses and pearls entertaining guests all the time? Or, did he expect to send his children to a ridiculously priced private school we'd have to be interviewed for? Initially, I hadn't thought of any of that, but it all came to a glaring head the second he turned entered through a large black cast-iron gate.
I nearly held my breath when I saw exactly how big most of the houses near his aunt and uncles were. They weren't traditionally built on top of each other, most had fences of their own with an ample amount of yard. One or two could easily be mistaken for castles, but there was no doubt every house in this area would be considered a mansion and that was a lot to take in. Edward said he had intended on buying out here later in life, but did I want that? My parents had a lot of money compared to most where I grew up, but I was still raised in a modest house that I wouldn't need a team of maids to keep clean.
When Edward pulled up to park I wasn't even remotely surprised that Carlisle and Esme's 'house' was more on the castle side, though I did admit that it was gorgeous in an old fashion, gothic kind of way. But, this wouldn't be the type of house I'd want to come to everyday.
I gave Edward a small smile when he let go of my hand to reach for the emergency break and again, when he reached my door.
"Are you nervous?" he asked quietly as I shook my head no and attempted to lighten my thoughts "What's wrong, then? They won't notice we're here yet."
"Can we talk about it later?" I replied knowing that our conversation wasn't fit for this place nor would it be a short one.
"Um, sure," he stuttered out and looked down. I immediately felt guilty that I had made him nervous, because I had no intention of making him antsy. It made me wonder if some of his insecurities were a result of his parents treatment, but I decided not to think about that and instead soothe his newfound worries.
"I love you, that won't change," I reminded him with a brightened smile. Without thinking I reached up and touched the lavaliere hanging around my neck before smiling almost to myself and looking down. "You're still my forever, Edward" I told him as I looked back up realizing what I was doing.
"Well, as long as that hasn't changed, whatever it is can wait," he accepted before leaning down to take my lips with his. Getting lost in him was so, so easy, but knowing we had to get inside for lunch had us walking up to the door minutes later.
Once inside I felt like we were in a whirlwind getting to the backyard and to the table Esme has set up for lunch. Emmett though it would be funny to take it upon himself to bow before me like I was some foreign princess or God, so I may have taken it upon myself to hit him in the head with one of my crutches.
"What was that for?" Emmett whined as he stood up and scowled at me. Edward and Carlisle were laughing at the sight.
"Really?" I deadpanned with a glare. "If you drop to your knees again, I'll hit you harder."
"Look, all I'm saying," Emmett started before taking a giant step back so he was out of my immediate range of fire, "Is that in a fight, I'm betting on you. I can't believe you quoted Matilda."
Emmett's words made me roll my eyes and shake my head because it really was insane. Of all the quotes I could think up at the time, how I came up with Matilda's I'll never know. Edward eventually called for him to knock it off and Emmett just shrugged, but he shut up in time not to be caught teasing me in from of his mother or Rosalie. Carlisle hadn't said a word as I sat down, and Esme and Rosalie were coming out of the kitchen with two large trays of food before sitting down themselves.
"Hey, Bella," Rosalie greeted as she took the seat in front of me.
"Hey," I replied back. I hadn't seen Rosalie until she stepped outside so she hadn't had a chance to see my necklace yet. I had no intention of making a big announcement about it, nor would Edward I had hoped, but it didn't seem to matter because the second she looked down, her eyes widened and she gasped.
"You okay?" Edward looked over at Rose, not paying attention to what had caused her demeanor to falter.
"Of course," she stuttered before looking at my necklace and back over to Edward and then back to my neck. He just gave a small smile before putting his arm around the back of my shoulders and I was pretty sure I saw Rosalie nod, but by that point, I felt like a stranger in the middle of a conversation being spoken in a language I didn't understand. I knew Rosalie and Edward were like siblings and they had spent a better part of their teenage years around each other, but it still felt odd when they did this.
"You okay, sweetheart?" Edward whispered into my ear as I nodded my head.
"I'm fine," I answered him as he leaned over to kiss me.
"You two are so sweet," Esme gushed as she finally took her seat. I blushed and looked down, though it didn't seem Edward was as affected by her words as I was. I didn't mind PDA, but PDA in front of his family was still weird.
After a quick prayer lead by Carlisle, food started to be passed out. Esme had prepared a full sandwich buffet with just about every topping available, potato salad, macaroni salad, devilled eggs, and a full tray of fruit. It all looked delish, but I knew my eyes were bigger than my stomach so I tried not to overload my plate.
"So, Bella, how did you like the service?" Carlisle asked out of nowhere as my attention snapped towards him.
"It was nice," I answered politely. "It's been a while since I've been to church, everyone seems very welcoming."
"Yes, everyone is very friendly. It is part of what drew me in when Esme and I first started attending," he agreed. Carlisle had spent the better part of two minutes looking towards my neck, but once my eyes met his, he looked away and I didn't catch him again. I had a feeling the meaning of what I wore was not lost on anyone, but no one directly asked me about it. In fact, no one brought up my altercation with Edward's parents either when I half expected it. Carlisle, at the very least, could very well be angry if he felt I treated his own brother badly, but if he was it didn't show.
The conversations bounced around the table about everything from school to the future to where the three seniors were looking at living come summer. Emmett didn't want to move home, so he and Rosalie were already apartment shopping in the city, and once everyone realized I knew about Edward's condo, that was a no brainer.
"Did you like it? The first time I stepped inside I was surprised how big it was," Rosalie commented as I laughed a little.
"I would say shock was my first reaction, but it's decorated really well, though I guess credit goes to Esme for that one," I noted and looked over at Esme who was grinning.
"Yes, well, he told me what he liked, I just stuck with that." Esme brushed off my compliment, but I knew she was truly the mastermind behind the décor even if Edward had picked he colors.
"Are you staying on campus next semester, Rose?" I asked and she nodded.
"Yeah, we'll move into our own place in the summer and start hunting down jobs, I guess. I'm not ready to grow up yet," she teased as Esme laughed.
"I'm not sure anyone is ever ready to grow up," Carlisle interjected with a laugh.
"Well I'm ready," Emmett boomed over the table as we all laughed. Edward looked over at him and shook his head slightly, and for a second I felt like I was missing something, but didn't really focus on it as we all finished our food.
Esme invited me inside while she cleaned up in the kitchen and I was waiting for someone, well, Esme or Carlisle, to corner me about earlier and figured this would give her a chance. Edward didn't seen phased as I hobbled away and inside, while the guys walked over to the bar area to sit down with Carlisle. Rosalie had offered to clean up outside, so she was left to her own devices.
"Take a seat, Bella," she instructed and pointed to several seats that I could choose from. All of them sat high enough so I could see over the inside bar area and into the kitchen.
As I adjusted myself on the seat, she came over and set my glass of water in front of me. "Thank you," I told her as I swiveled towards the kitchen. "Are you sure I can't help?"
"Of course not," she brushed off with a laugh. "For one, you're in a cast and for two, you're a guest."
"Okay," I conceded knowing I wouldn't win, but figured it would be more polite to offer than assume.
"Your necklace is beautiful," she spoke though she wasn't looking at me when she did so. "I haven't seen it before, when did you get it?"
"A few hours ago," I answered cautiously as she made a humming sound. "Look, I know my behavior outside of the church wasn't very appropriate, but…"
"Oh, Bella," she cut me off, "I'm not mad about the church. What you did, what you said…" Esme paused and finally turned to face me showing the tears in her eyes. "Edward is more like a son to me than he is a nephew. He's spent more time here or with us than his own parents at times, and I think once you become a mother you'll understand what I mean when I say that the only thing I've ever wanted for both Emmett, and Edward, was for them to find someone who completed them." Her words struck a chord with me as she paused to collect herself before continuing on, "Life isn't just about making somebody happy or loving them because those things come easily, Bella and you find out over time that when times get hard, it's never for a lack of love. And, unlike Emmett who has always needed someone to settle him down, Edward has always needed a defender, someone who would go to bat for him when he couldn't do it on his own. Edward is very strong, too strong sometimes, but when he's not, and when everything has finally gotten to him, he cracks, and" Esme paused again and wiped her eyes with her hands. "And, he's found that defender in you, and it worries me because you both are so young and that is a lot of pressure…"
"Can I stop you there?" I interrupted quietly with a cringe to my face. I had a feeling that I knew where her words were headed, but they were unnecessary.
"Of course, I didn't mean to unload on you," Esme replied. "I just saw your necklace and…" She shook her head as I moved to speak.
"I know we're young, it's been pointed out more than once by my parents, Carlisle, and I'm sure more if I tried to think about it, but age is a number. I realize the next few years are going to be a challenge. I need to finish school because I didn't start not to finish and what I'm going for, I genuinely want to do with my life. Edward has medical school and a residency, and neither of those will be a picnic for him, but I want you to know that I didn't accept this lightly." I moved my hand to my necklace and pulled it from my neck to gesture what I meant. "I know the strings attached to it, I knew why he held off from immediately throwing it on me, and despite the incredibly short period of time we've officially been together, we actually have talked about the future. I feel like sometimes we've done things backwards and we've gotten all the hard stuff dealt with upfront so now we can just enjoy our time, but I don't regret anything I said this afternoon and I'm only sorry if it somehow affects your membership at the church. Edward's parents don't scare me and I'd do it again. So, I get it; just trust us because we know what we're doing."
Esme looked straight at me and nodded before a smirk played across her lips. "Well, then, I guess you should get off your butt and start doing these dishes."
"Okay," I answered with a shrug and moved to stand up.
"I was kidding Bella, but your guest status has been upgraded," Esme told me with a wink and I knew from that point on, I had officially been accepted in her eyes. And, for some reason, that meant more to me than it would have from Edward's own mother.
Esme's immediate shift in personality was a little startling, but I was starting to see exactly how protective Edward's aunt, uncle, and even Rosalie, could be. Part of me wondered if they were selling him short, but another small part of me wondered what Edward looked like it at his lowest. Regardless, I'd never let him fall into that same hole again and I wasn't lying, big bad, lawyer hot shots didn't scare me now and they wouldn't scare me later.
We were still laughing about Esme's change of heart when Edward came up behind me and asked me what had been so funny, but I refused to tell him. He even pouted but I shook my head before he leaned down and kissed my forehead.
"It's my secret," I whispered as Esme pretended to ignore our exchange.
"Well, what if I don't like secrets?" he countered as I rolled my eyes playfully.
"Then, you'll have to think of ways to extract them from me, but for now my lips are sealed," I replied back innocently as Edward's eyebrow raised up in a challenge.
"Game on, Bella," he challenged and didn't even pretend to be quiet as he said it.
Emmett just happened to be walking behind us and shouted that he was betting on me, which of course sent us all into more laughter.
The rest of the afternoon was spent lounging around Carlisle and Esme's house, though I decided not to take the official tour until my cast was gone. There were four levels of stairs I just didn't want to fuss with though I pretended to be shocked when they said there was no elevator. Edward rolled his eyes.
Once we were back in the car and driving back towards campus, I lazily looked over at Edward and started playing with the back of his neck. I could feel the pain meds kicking in for my ankle and they were making me feel a little bit goofy. I avoided taking them as much as possible, but days like today when I was on my feet more than off, were my weakness. I loved how roomy Edward's Volvo was as I stretched out and continued to play with his hair.
"Meds kicking in, Bella?" Edward teased with as he smiled in my direction before turning his attention back to the road.
"Maybe a little," I replied with a sing song voice. "Your car is so comfy, but not as comfy as your bed."
"You're never going to let me live down the bed are you?" he questioned, as I sighed.
"Nope, if we could sleep there tonight, I would," I answered seriously. Sure, the meds were making me feeling a little goofier, but I was still me. Maybe just a happier me, though my senses were still intact.
"What time is your first class?" I looked over at Edward with my eyebrow raised.
"Monday's are my late morning, you know that," I relayed, my voice sounding more normal than before as I tried to figure out why he would ask.
"Well, I mean, I guess if you really wanted to, we could stay there tonight as long as we woke up early enough to get back to campus in the morning," Edward suggested and it took me a second to figure out if he was serious or not.
"For real?" I finally asked. "Like, you're not teasing because it would make me really sad if you were joking."
"Sure, if sleeping in the big comfy bed will make you happy, why not? It's just one night," he replied as my eyes went wide.
"Okay, I promise not to throw a pillow at your head in the morning when you wake me up ridiculously early and all I'll want to do is stay asleep," I promised as he laughed.
"Your wish is my command," he replied and changed course on his GPS as I smiled widely.
The drive over wasn't too long and I felt a lot more comfortable coming back a second time than when I was surprised with its existence earlier this afternoon.
"The frig won't have much and I don't keep too many clothes here, but I know I'll have a few shirts you can pick from," Edward informed me when I walked through the French doors and spied the bed I wanted so desperately to lay down in.
"Whatever you have is fine," I replied with a shrug. "I did sort of strong arm you into staying tonight."
"I wanted to," he relayed as I smiled. He turned around and handed me an oversized ASP shirt.
"Marking me some more?" I teased. I had expected him to say no, but instead he just smirked and I knew he had picked this shirt on purpose.
"Maybe just a little bit," he replied before leaning down to kiss me. "I love you, Bella."
"I love you, too," I whispered back as he pulled away leaving me in a complete daze.
"Did you want to use the bathroom first?" he offered and I nodded. "I'm going to run out then and grab a few things at the corner store for breakfast in the morning."
"Okay," I replied and offered to go with him, but he said he'd be fine.
"The bathroom is fully stocked, use whatever you need," Edward told me before he stepped out of the bedroom and walked to the elevator. I sighed as I looked around and took in my surroundings. I didn't have my cast bag, so a true shower was out of the question, but once I got inside I realized the tub was so big I could actually take a half way decent bath with enough room to put my foot up.
I grabbed a few extra towels to wrap under and around my cast just in case, but the ledge was long enough so that I could comfortably sit in the bath and have my leg up without an issue. I flipped the TV on, yes he had a TV in his bathroom in front of the bathtub, to a station that played music and just relaxed. I had found a thing of bubble bath under the sink that had never been opened and I adjusted the lights down so that they barely glowed.
When Edward asked me earlier if I could see myself living in this condo I actually had to think about it, but had I seen this bathroom first, I wouldn't have even needed a second. I was so relaxed that I hadn't even realized thirty minutes had passed until my hands turned pruney from the water. I let out the water before moving to stand up and then dried myself before throwing on the shirt Edward had given me along with a pair of his boxers. It was gross enough that I'd have to go back home in day old panties, so I didn't want to sleep in them to.
I was a little surprised Edward hadn't come back yet so I took the time to clean up the bathroom before climbing into bed with my phone. I started checking my text messages, e-mail, and then my facebook updates to see what had happened throughout the day. I also texted Alice to let her know I wouldn't be home tonight.
'Night with Edward, see you tomorrow.-Bella'
It didn't take her long to text me back, 'Sexy time with Edward?-Alice'
'I wish.-Bella'
'Just get naked, it works with Jasper.-Alice'
'TMI, Alice, TMI.-Bella'
'Oh please, like you hadn't thought about it.-Alice'
'Well, I'm not wearing any underwear.-Bella'
'TMI, Bella, geez! LOL Good luck.-Alice'
'Night, dinner tomorrow?-Bella'
'Sure, usual time and place?-Alice'
'Yup. Night-Bella'
'Night, I'm gonna go get laid.-Alice'
'Bitch!-Bella'
I groaned as I put my phone down next to me and relaxed into the pillows. When I looked up, I saw Edward looking at me with a confused expression and I had to wonder how long he was standing there.
"You okay?" he teased as he came to sit next to me.
"Yeah, just Alice being Alice," I replied completely omitting what we had been talking about.
"Well she is Alice after all," Edward went along before leaning over to kiss me. "I'm going to jump in and out of the shower and I'll be right in, okay?"
"Don't take too long, please. I missed you," I whined with a pout. Edward chuckled and disappeared into the bathroom.
I picked my phone back up and started reading my facebook updates. Nothing really held my attention as I started to think about Alice's earlier words in her text. Of course, Edward walked out seconds later before I had gotten too far into my thoughts but still I wondered what would happen if I tried? I wasn't sure I could take the rejection if he told me no though, so I pushed it all aside in my head as the bed dipped down next to me.
Edward opened his arms up and I immediately scooted over so that I could snuggle up to him. We didn't say anything at first; instead he used his hand to brush up and down the side of my arm and my back.
"So, are you still keeping your secrets?" Edward broached and I hadn't even thought he'd bring that stuff up.
"What do you mean? With your aunt or earlier?" I asked and looked up at him.
"Both," he answered as I sighed. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, I'm just curious."
"Well, your aunt told me that I couldn't help clean up because I was a guest and then she upgraded my guest status and told me to get off my butt to do dishes, which was why I was laughing when you walked in," I explained and I could feel his chest vibrate under my ear.
"That's a pretty fast upgrade, babe. Did she say something to you or," Edward's voice trailed off.
"She's just worried because we're young," I replied, which essentially what her fear is, but he didn't need to know the rest.
"I see," he answered. "She didn't say anything about church did she?"
"Oh no, nothing like that," I quickly clarified. "I think she's just worried like any mother would be."
"Okay," Edward accepted and I knew he was happy with my answer. I then had to weigh how to address the second half of his question.
"I really like your aunt and uncle, and their house is really beautiful, but when you said you wanted to buy a house out there did you mean like the same area, same community?" I asked as I tip-toed across the line of trying to be honest yet not offensive, while deciding how to pose my next statement. Obviously Edward came from money, I had to in some ways, but not like he had.
"I meant the area," he answered. "I saw the way you looked when we first pulled in, your face was pretty easy to read."
"I'm sorry," I apologized. "I don't want to offend you, but I don't want a house like that."
I moved up so that my face was in line with his on the pillow and I rolled so that I was facing him.
"I love you, in fact, I love every part of you, but I don't want extravagant, and their house is extravagant to me," I told him honestly and then waited to see his reaction. I figured he could go one way or the other, but I hoped he wouldn't think I was picking on his aunt and uncle.
"What do you want?" he asked and I had to admit that question surprised me because it was so simple. Here I had expected some sort of argument and all he wanted was to know what I wanted? Could things really be that simple?
"I'm not sure, I know I want a house with a yard, maybe a hot tub or a pool, a swing set is a must, but inside I want it to be manageable. I want it to feel homey and I want to be able to clean it myself without needing a maid or a cleaning service. I want artwork on the refrigerator and dirty shoes by the front door. I really want a fireplace though and a comfortable couch with bookcases filled with books along the wall. I want a house filled with laughter and happiness and hope and honesty and safety, I guess I kind of do know what I want," I finished and looked down. Edward hadn't taken his eyes off of me as I spoke, and his expression never changed.
"It sounds like you do," he told me quietly as he adjusted his body over mine as he propped himself up on his arm. "Bella, will it make you feel better if I say I want the same? If you don't want a big house, I'm fine with that. I know money sometimes goes to people's heads, but I've tried very hard not to let it go to mine, and I promise my needs and wants aren't extravagant."
"I know, it's just…" I sighed not sure what else to say.
"It's okay, I get it," he informed me before leaning down to kiss me. Instead of pulling back after a few seconds, Edward actually pressed his lips deeper into mine as I moved my hands to his shoulders. My mind was starting to go blank in the daze he was putting me in, until I felt Edward's hand under my shirt and on my back. The simple sensation made me moan through our kiss and then groan as he pulled away. We both looked at each other, both slightly out of breath, and though I waited for him to pull away I realized I didn't want him to. This was more than just a peek of sexual frustration, after today, hell, especially after today, I wanted this, I wanted him, and I so badly wanted for him to want the same thing. To hell with my cast, he couldn't hurt my ankle any more than my car did and if I stayed on my back and just bent my knees, he couldn't hurt me and it wouldn't hurt him. I realized I was rationalizing everything in my head while Edward just continued to look down at me, almost like he was searching for a clue as to what I was thinking.
"Bella," his voice finally broke with a crack. I couldn't read his expression, but he looked torn, and I would have had to have been naive not to realize that a certain appendage was physically poking my thigh as he continued to lie next to me.
"Don't," I ordered. "Not today, please don't stop," my voice stuttered as I worked to control my emotions and desires. "Please, Edward. I want this, I want you."
"Oh, Bella," Edward whispered as he hovered over my lips. He gently pressed a kiss on my lips before pulling away to move his lips to my ear, "I have never even dreamed of wanting somebody, as badly as I want you right now." While his words caused a shiver down my spine, his lips on my neck set a flame to my entire body.
I had never felt anything quite like I was feeling and I couldn't tug at Edward's shirt any harder for fear of actually hurting him. His lips didn't detach from my neck though he moved down very slowly as his body moved to settle between my legs. He seemed to pay special attention to where my cast was at all times, but at that point, I wasn't sure I could feel pain even if he knocked it.
"Off," I finally ordered my voice breathless as I pulled at his shirt until it was over his head and tossed to the side. While my own shirt had ridden up during our make out session, the heat of his skin just on the bare strip of stomach that lay exposed made my back arch slightly at the touch. Edward appeared to smirk before moving down and gently pulling off my shirt. I wasn't wearing a bra and with the lamp in the corner still on, I knew there wasn't much of me that was hidden from him anymore. All that covered either of us was very thin fabric from the boxers, which I didn't anticipate wearing much longer.
Time seemed to have frozen as we both spent time kissing and exploring each other's bodies, though I didn't move much, Edward trailed kisses from my neck down to my breasts over my stomach and back up to my nipples, which he spent several minutes lavishing over. I had never realized how good it could feel to have his mouth and tongue sucking and teasing me as he trailed from one to the other, but at that moment I wasn't sure there was anything Edward could do that would elicit a response from me.
I took a deep breath when his fingertips dipped under the waistband of the boxer's I had been wearing and I knew Edward was sensing my nerves because he looked up at me before proceeding. I wasn't a virgin, per say, but I definitely lacked much experience and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous for Edward to see me naked. But somehow, as the boxers were pulled from my body, my nerves seemed to drift away despite laying open and bare for Edward's eyes to see.
"Don't be nervous," Edward whispered as he tossed the boxers to the side. "Baby, you're gorgeous, even more beautiful than I had dreamed, and I wasn't sure that was possible."
I stifled a laugh momentarily wondering how he could even form a complete sentence right now as I felt like a pile of goo before him.
When his hand came out and touched me my body actually jumped a little at the sensation and given Edward's reaction I would say he was pleased, because he continued to use his fingertips to rub up and down my clit for a few seconds longer. I would be lying if I said I didn't love the foreplay, but I so desperately wanted to feel him inside of me that I actually raised an eyebrow at him and then looked at his own boxers.
He nodded his head, but before he removed anything he reached over to the nightstand to pull out a condom.
"I'm on the pill," I told him quietly as his eyes snapped up towards mine. I knew with the history of his past that probably wouldn't give him any comfort, but I felt like he should know just in case. I was protected and I took my pill religiously, I wasn't on any medical that would interfere with it, so condom or no condom, I was okay with either. "If that makes you more comfortable its fine, I just wanted you to know that there is a backup."
"Thank you for that," he replied and I could see the debate going on in his head just by his face. He looked down at the condom and then over at me like he was weighing his choices, when he sighed and continued to open the package I knew his decision was made and I wasn't the least bit offended. We weren't ready for children yet and doubling up on birth control was not a bad idea at all.
My eyes didn't move as he removed his boxers though I did bite my lip a bit once I actually got to see it. I had known he was big from his comments and then the morning in my room, but to see it in person was a totally different experience. I knew there was no way I wouldn't feel that and for a second I wondered if it was going to hurt fitting inside of me.
With the condom in place, Edward pulled the blanket up over his shoulders as he came to hover over me.
"I'm going to take this slow, sweetheart," he told me sweetly, as I nodded.
"I trust you, Edward," I whispered back as I felt his body line up with mine moments before he pushed his way inside.
"Dear God," he moaned out breathlessly seconds later as I groaned a little before shifting my hips. I wasn't virginal, but it had been a while, and I had never been with someone as big as him. "I love you, baby." He started to kiss and suck my neck, which was all it took for me to be lost in the sensation while he slid the rest of the way inside of me.
"I love you," I managed to whisper back as he began to rock his hips into mine. I moved my knees up slightly which seemed to make things more intense for both of us as we seemed to let go of shaky breathes in unison.
"Does it hurt at all?" he asked as he continued to rock, but I shook my head no. The initial entrance was slightly painful, but that feeling was long gone as a feeling of butterflies seemed to build inside my stomach.
My answer pushed Edward to move faster with more precision in his movements, one of his hands rested under my knee as he raised my good leg almost to the height of his shoulders.
The angle pushed me over the edge I had been teetering on since we started and I came down crashing into a million pieces, moaning and stuttering out screams I was almost too embarrassed to claim.
"God, yes," he groaned hoarsely as I crashed and he crumbled. I could feel his movements become more ragged and uneven as his breathing turned to short gasps into my neck. His shoulders blades flexed under my touch as I continued to hold myself close to him. Our bodies both slowly calming down as we both came back to reality.
Edward's lips came to find mine in a hungry, needy pull for attention as I surrendered myself up to him for the taking. The only thing I wanted to do was feel that over and over again, as the aftershocks of my orgasm still pulsed through my body.
Even after he pulled away to roll away from my body I could still feel my heart pounding and I wondered why we had waited so long to do that.
"Bella," Edward called my name as I turned my head to his attention and caught sight of the condom he had been wearing that was covered in blood. My eyes widened before I moved my hands up to cover my face in complete embarrassment. I wasn't due for my period for another week, so I knew it wasn't that, which meant it really had been a while.
"I'm so sorry," I immediately apologized, but Edward just shook his head silencing me.
"Let me help you to the bathroom and I'll clean the bed up," he offered and I accepted because I had no other choice, though I knew my cheeks were about as red as my thighs. I couldn't even remember bleeding this much when I lost my virginity, but one night with Edward and I was back to square one.
Because I couldn't take a traditional shower, I basically took another bath just without the bubbles and in half the time.
Edward brought in another shirt for me to wear, but I still had a hard time looking up at him. He didn't press and moved to hop in the shower himself as I exited the bathroom to find he had changed all of the sheets already. There was also a bottle of water on the nightstand waiting for me next to my phone. His thoughtfulness was not lost on me and I wondered how I'd face him once he got out of the shower.
When Edward finally came back out of the bathroom he turned the lamp off immediately before climbing into bed and taking me into his arms. I wasn't sure whether or not he'd want to talk about what we had just done, so I waited to see what he would do, despite my exhaustion kicking in. In truth, I wasn't really ready to talk, but I would if he wanted to.
"I love you, baby," he told me a few seconds later.
"I love you, too," I replied and snuggled deeper into his chest.
For the next several minutes all I did was focus on his heart beating under my ear and his hand as it trailed up and down my back. The morning was already going to come too soon so as my eyes began to close, I didn't even bother trying to fight it as I gave in to the best sleep I had ever had.
So, I'm sorry this is so late. Life really didn't get super busy, but that actually wasn't why. I had written this chapter in full shortly after I last updated and ended up hating the direction it went into. So I've kept my word doc open and added a bit each day until I got it perfect. This chapter was a bit more difficult than most, but it's also almost 7K words long so hopefully that makes up for it. The next update shouldn't take me as long, I promise!