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I looked back at Bella and sighed when I saw no change. I looked back at Alice and opened my mouth to talk to her but was cut off by a moan. "What was that?" Emmett asked.

I looked back at Bella. "Love if you can hear me squeeze my hand." Edward said smiling at her.

I watched Bella hand and like mine did not so long ago her finger twitched. Carlisle came over and flashed the light into her eyes and she moaned again.

Chapter 35 (Edward – POV)

She's awake! My Bella is awake. Dad had kicked us out of the room a half hour ago to do tests and check how she is doing for the most part. He was also explaining to her what was wrong with her. Dad walked out and went straight for Mom. He smiled and hugged her kissing her and whispering into her ear.

"H-how is she?" I asked hesitantly.

"Well she's as good as can be expected. The last thing she remembers is going to school the day she was kidnapped. She faintly remembers Jasper and you saving her and she remembers Jasper falling and the sound of a gun." Carlisle spoke to all of us but my concentration wasn't on him only it was also on the door leading to Bella.

"But she doesn't remember about him . . . Hurting her?" Emmett asked. We all knew he was referring to the fact James had raped her. I flinched at the thought.

Carlisle looked down in anger. "No, no she doesn't and honestly I'm kind thankful she doesn't remember that at the moment. Sadly eventually she will most likely remember everything but for now let's just try and not force information on her."

We all nodded. "Can we see her?" Jasper asked as Alice wheeled him out of his room again.

"Sure but do not crowed her, Emmett." We all looked at Emmett.

Emmett stuck his tongue out at all of us before turning and running towards Bella's room. Carlisle sighed in annoyance before following him. I slowly followed Emmett and pushed open the door and smiled brightly when my eyes landed on Bella's warm brown ones.

I inter body was filled with relief and happiness. Nothing could compare to seeing her eyes open again or her beautiful lips stretched into a welcoming smile. "Edward." She whispered and I walked over to her kissing her softly on the lips. I lingered as I was pulling back. She smiled at me her eyes filled with happiness. She reached her hand up and wiped away the few tears that I hadn't known had fallen. I chuckled seeing her make me happy when I should have been the one making her happy.

Bella – POV

I wiped away Edward's tears and kissed his lips again before he pulled back sitting in the chair beside my bed. He intertwined our fingers and brought my hand to his lips kissing my knuckles. I looked around and saw Alice bouncing at the foot of my bed. I rolled my eyes. "Just do it, Alice." I croaked.

She squealed and attacked me in a hug. "Oh Bella I missed you so much and Emmett hasn't shut up with stupid jokes that usually tells you. Edward hasn't left your side. Nessie has been crying and Jake has been moping. Esme hasn't gardened and Carlisle has been working all the time. I haven't had a shopping buddy and Rosalie hasn't looked in a mirror since you left." She gasped trying to get more air into her lungs.

I looked at Edward and he shrugged. "Alice I have no idea what you said but I think I'm going to see how the others are." Alice nodded before bouncing back to sit on the edge of my bed near the end of it.

I sighed, my entire body hurt and I mean my entire body. Places I didn't know existed were hurting and most likely bruised. My face felt better than the last time I remembered but it still ached slightly near my cheek bone. I looked towards Emmett.

"What's up Emmett?" I sighed realizing I probably made a mistake asking Emmett of all people what's up.

"Nothin' just Chillin' like a villain." He smiled at me and it wasn't then how much I actually missed his dimpled smile.

I rolled my eyes. "Some things never change huh?"

"Not when it involves that nincompoop." Nessie giggled. I looked at her and saw how she was barely containing her tears.

"Get your butt over here Nessie." I demanded opening my arms up for a hug. Nessie power walked the few steps to my bedside and hugged me. Her head resting on my neck, I patted her back. "It's okay, I'm fine and I will be fine." She pulled back and nodded wiping away her tears and giggling slightly.

Jake came over next. "What no hug for me?" For the next ten minutes I hugged Jake, Rose, Emmett, Esme and Carlisle.

I stopped when Alice wheeled Jasper over. He wasn't wearing a shirt but he had a housecoat on and I could see the white bandages on his chest covering what I assumed was the bullet wound over his heart. Jasper frowned when he saw my glare at him. "What?"

I slapped his arm as hard as I could. "Are you stupid? Why would you do something like that?" I demanded in a growl.

Jasper turned defensive. "I was thinking I could help save you!"

"By getting yourself shot? Brilliant plan, jeez what's your plan to stop world hunger; feed people your toes?" I yelled.

He looked at me for a second before bursting out laughing and I started to giggle. Everyone else was staring at me after my outburst. Jasper stopped laughing and smiled at me. "I'm sorry Bells, I'm really happy your okay."

I sighed smiling at all of them. "Me too, honestly I didn't my life would be this hectic when I was younger."

"When does anything work out like it should?" Rose asked hugging Emmett to her side.

"Good point." I yawned and blinked back the tears it brought with it.

"Okay time for everyone to leave, Bella needs her sleep if she is going to recover completely." Carlisle ordered shooing everyone out. After our goodbyes and Edward's goodnight kiss I sighed and fell back onto my pillow only to be bombarded by nightmares of what happened three weeks ago. By morning I had gotten less than five hours of good sleep. I would wake in a cold sweat thinking of everything he did to me.

By lunch I remembered a lot of what happened with only a few black spot needing to be filled in. I looked up when I heard the door opened and I saw Edward walk in smiling. He frowned when he saw my hands in my lap and tears streaming down my face. He reached up to wipe my tears away but to my annoyance I flinched away. I knew Edward would never hurt me but it was just habit now.

I don't know why I didn't feel this absolute fear last night when I saw him, but then again I couldn't remember everything like I do know. "I-I'm sorry, Ed-Edward." I stuttered between my tears and hiccups.

"No, no, shh, shh you have nothing to be sorry for. You were hurt and it's only rational to feel the need to protect yourself." He slowly reached out again and this time I didn't flinch away. He wiped my tears away and smiled at me.

"How can you say that? I'm tainted, broken, I have nothing to offer, fuck Edward I lost my virginity when I was ten." I sobbed thinking back to what my father did.

Edward looked at me with a small sad smile. "Bella you didn't want that to happen, you wouldn't have willingly done that he did that against your will and he's gone now."

"But what about James? I know what he did Edward." I yelled at him.

Edward flinched. "You remember?" He whispered horrified. I looked away and nodded. "Bella James was a sick bastard that used you for his own sick pleasure, just like Victoria and Phil did okay. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you then but now I can, nothing will ever hurt you again I promise."

I looked into Edward's eyes looking for the lie but never found it. I gave him a watery smile. "I love you Edward."

"I love you too, Bella with all my heart." He whispered leaning in slowly gauging my reaction and kissed my lips softly.