I want to send a thank you to Shane for kicking my butt to get this update out. You Rock Sister!
A huge thank you also to River for pointing my in the correct direction once again!
Disclaimer. I do not own South of Nowhere or its characters. I also do not own the song used. It belongs to Leslie Roy and is called Thinking Out Loud.
I woke up in the morning and I'm wrapped in Ashley's arms again. I haven't slept like that in years, it was that peaceful safe sort of sleep. I'm really glad that Ashley agreed to make this trip with me. I've been so confused for the past few days and just having her here has helped. Not to say that I have any answers but just knowing that she is near.
I am wondering if I should mention the kiss to her or not. It was so soft and sensual, nothing like any kiss I've ever had before. I can't believe I did that, but she just made it feel so natural to kiss her.
I look at Ashley and her beauty just takes my breathe away. Its not just her outer beauty but also her inner beauty. The only other person who I have felt this safe with is my Dad. Just thinking about him puts a smile on my face.
I hear my phone ringing from the bathroom, I slowly untangle myself from Ashley trying not to wake her, to go and answer my phone.
"Hello"
"Hi Spencer?" I hear
"Yes this is Spencer who is this?" I ask, I check the caller ID but it listed an unknown number.
"Oh sorry Spencer its Carmen, I didn't recognize your voice. The reason I'm calling is to let you know that I get the restraining orders against Tom for you and Clay. I will be served soon with the papers. Ashley's partner is going to handle that for us. So what that means is if Tom comes with 100 ft of you or Clay he will be violating the order that would also cause him to violate his parole status. So if this happens you just need to call the police and let them handle it. Please don't try to do anything yourself." Carmen says.
I get the sense that there is something that she is not telling me. "Carmen is there something else going on? I thought Tom would have at least two more weeks in jail?" I ask
I hear Carmen take a deep breath before replying.
"Tom is going to be released later on this afternoon. Once again the jail has over crowding issue and because of that Tom will be getting out early. I will call Clay and let him know also. I'm really sorry about this Spencer I tried to fight it, since this is Tom's first offense and he has been behaving himself there is not much I can do"
"Its okay Carmen I know you tried. Ashley and I should be back in L.A. late tonight. Can I give you a call tomorrow and maybe we can meet up for dinner or drinks? I want to thank you for everything that you have done for me." I asked
"That sounds great. Would you mind a few other people tagging along? I mean since you are going to be back here for good, you might as well meet some new people." Carmen excited says now.
"I'm not sure Carmen…" before I could even finish Carmen jumps in
"Don't worry Spencer, I was thinking about having Clay, Madison, Ashley, Aiden and Kyla be there. We can be your own little welcoming party."
"You know what Carmen that does sound like a lot of fun so I'm in. Depending on what time we get in tonight we can talk about it then. If not then I'll talk to you in the morning." I tell her. We say our goodbyes and hang up.
I walk back towards the bed and find that Ashley is up and rubbing the sleep from her eyes. "How was that?" I hear her ask me.
"It was Carmen. It seems that because of jail over crowding Tom is getting out early, she also let me know that the restraining orders are all set up for Clay and I"
I see a small frown on her face about Tom getting out early but she seems pleased about the restraining order.
"We were talking and since we are probably getting back into town later tonight, that maybe we can get together tomorrow night. It would be Carmen, Clay, Aiden, Madison, Kyla and you and me. I hope you don't mind but Carmen sort of insisted" I try to explain.
"I guess that sounds fine" Ashley says while yawning. She slow gets up and out of bed and starts digging in her bag for something. I see her pull out her I-pod and search for a song, once she has found it she hands it to me along with the ear buds.
"I want you to listen to the song while I take a shower okay? I think the listen will really help you" She tells me. She gives me a peck on my cheek and then disappears into the bathroom.
I put the buds into my ears and start the song.
I've been losing my mind
I've been living a lie
I've been running away
For so long
I try to put on a face
And cover my heart
But I'm needing it now
So bad.
I don't know
How I feel
Maybe I'm mad
Or maybe I'm proud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
Don't know what I'll say
I'm just thinking out loud
Thinking out loud.
No, no I can't explain
What's happened to me
I feel like I'm right
And wrong
Inside everything's upside down
Everything's spinning around.
And It's freaking my out.
I can feel the tears start up in my eyes. How did she know this is what I've been thinking these past couple of days?
I don't know
How I feel
Maybe I'm mad
Or Maybe I'm proud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
Don't know what I'll say
I'm just thinking out loud
If only for a day
I could be free
I bet you'd feel the same
If you were me
I'm gonna spit it out
Just let go
I've been losing my mind
I've been living a lie.
I've been running away
For so long
I don't know
How I feel
Maybe I'm mad
Or maybe I'm proud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
I don't know what I'll say
I'm just thinking out loud
I'm thinking out loud
Thinking out loud
Can't find the truth
Can't speak my mind
I don't know what I'll say
I'm just thinking out load.
When Ashley comes out of the bathroom room she finds me curled into a ball crying. She just comes over and pulls me into her whispering, "Everything will be okay and when ever you are ready to talk I'll be here. I'll always be here for you"
I just nod my head in response. I can't believe how patient she is being with me. I pull my self together and take head to the bathroom to take my shower so that we can be on our way again.