I rolled my wheelchair towards a large opening in one of the walls. It was a door to one of the Autobot recovery rooms. Daddy had asked me last night to come in the morning. He didn't tell me what it was about, just that it was important. I wheeled myself slowly thinking of yesterday. Sunstreaker had willingly allowed others to see our relationship. He had made the point that we couldn't keep hiding it. He had also explained that if he wanted to start showing others who he was then he had to stop hiding. Well, we weren't hiding anymore and now we had his twin brother pissed at us. I sighed and continued to wheel myself towards the large room, thoughts tumbling around in my head.
"Like I said, it is possible. We just need a bit more information."
"What if it does more harm then good? She has already given up so much."
I blinked in confusion. Daddy and, was that Wheeljack?
"Um, am I interrupting something?" I said as I entered the large room. It had basically everything I expected; a bed, a small table, some medical looking equipment. It was all just oversized. To me anyway. The two mechs in the room looked just the perfect size for the room. I moved a bit closer.
"Ah! Perfect timing!" I smiled as Wheeljack's fins lit up. He seemed excited. I wonder why.
"Here. Let me." I let Daddy pick me up and place me on the large bed.
"Thank you." I smiled up at him. Looking at Wheeljack then back to Daddy. "What exactly were you guys talking about?" They shared a glance.
"Katie, bitlet, I, we, well, we might have found a way for you to walk again. It's only theoretical of course, but we really think it just might work!" Daddy's optics glowed brighter then normal. It was obvious that he was excited. He really thought this could work.
"Daddy, you don't have -" I raised a hand.
"Bitlet, please. Let me try. Let us try. Ironhide and I have spoken and we both agree, we want to try this." I could hear the pleading in his voice. I could see it in his optics.
"Look, if it's any constellation, we've been working on this for a while now." Wheeljack said, his fins glowing softly with each word. "I think we can actually do it. We just need a little more information. A few more calculations and we might just have it." I sighed. There was just no way around it.
"Okay. I guess. What do I do?" I saw the joy in their optics. I looked down at my lap. I honestly thought that this would end up failing, but I couldn't say no. The look of joy on Daddy's face. I just couldn't do it. They told me to sit still as they scanned me several times with what I could only assume was several types of scanners, but that was only me going off of the pretty colored lights they produced. When they were done, I was placed back on the ground as they continued to jabber on about things that made no sense to me. I just shrugged and exited the room, fully planning on going back to mine and trying to find a way to ease them when this didn't work out. I neared my door, mumbling to myself about this and that, mainly about the craziness of desperate parents. It wasn't until I nearly ran someone over that I realized there was someone calling out to me.
"Jeez. What does my brother see in you?" I took a deep breath before looking over to Sideswipe. He was using his holoform. Goody. I looked him in the eye.
"If you are here to complain to me about 'stealing' your brother away, please come back later. I am currently dealing with a problem or two of my own, I do not have the time nor the energy to deal with yours." I maneuvered my chair away from him and began to move again, but he placed his hands on either side of me and pushed me back far enough so that I was looking at him.
"Kitty has claws after all." I bit back a retort. I just wanted to get back to my room, to safety.
"If you'll excuse me." I said, a bit harsher then I probably needed to.
"What has you all worked up?" Sideswipe asked, straightening up. I sighed.
"Look, I'm not trying to be rude. I just was given a lot of information to process and yesterday was a lot for both you and me. I wasn't expecting him to just come out with it. He was the one who took extra care to keep things a secret. I just kind of stayed put. Now, if you would, I'd like to go lay down now." He gave me a look and I groaned. "Don't. Just don't. I know that look. Sunny gives it to me all the time. I am not answering any more questions." I made to move again but he stepped in my way. I glared at him. "Ya know, the two of you are far to much alike." I almost deadpanned. He blinked at me, shocked.
"We are?" I nodded.
"Yep. You are both overly insistent." he gave me another look. "And you both do that!" I motioned to his face. "He is constantly giving those looks..." I grumbled and shook my head. "Anyway, I'm going to go lay down now. I have much to contemplate." I moved past Sideswipe, almost completely, before he pulled me back again. "What?" I said moodily. This was really getting old.
"Do you love him?" He didn't look me in the eye when I glanced up at him.
"Yes." I said. "He's the first person I have ever felt like this about." He looked at me then, searching my face for any trace of lies. I already knew what he'd find: none.
"He loves you too. I can sense it. The whole split spark thing and all." I nodded. "I wondered what it was. Guess I know now." I sighed. I really didn't want to deal with this, but it looked like I was.
"Sideswipe." He looked at me again as I took his hand. "He cares for you. A lot. You mean the world to him. I can't tell you how many times he's told me stories of things the two of you have done. He's always talking about you. Sunstreaker is always telling me how he wished things between you could go back to how they were. He's afraid they never will." His eyes grew wide. "He loves you. You are his brother, his twin, after all. You mean everything to him." I paused and looked towards the door I knew was hiding my boyfriend. "Go to him. Talk to him." I looked up at Sideswipe, making sure I held his gaze with mine. "But most of all, listen. Listen to what he has to say, don't argue or try to tell him he's wrong. He knows better then anyone what and how he's feeling. Trust him on that. Who knows, maybe you might just see something you may have missed." I smiled up at him. Sideswipe just stared at me with wide eyes. "If you'll excuse me." I said quietly and began to head back to my room.
"Wait!" I had already made it several paces past the bewildered mech when he called out. I turned in my seat.
"Yes?" I asked. He looked at the ground then back up at me.
"How do you know all this?" I could see he was a bit shaken up by all the insight I had on his brother. I smiled. It was a small, sad smile.
"It's simple really. He told me some of it." I turned back towards the door to my apartment. "Other stuff I know from experience. Then some of it is what I wish my own sibling, hell everyone I knew back home even, would have done." I looked back at him. "He's been going through a lot on his own. He's made it this far, but he has you. He shouldn't need to go it alone. And I know he won't." I began to move forward again.
"But what about you? Who do you have?" I smiled again as my eyes teared up a little.
"Until now, I had no one." I looked over my shoulder. "Then I met someone who was just as guarded as me. He saw what no one else could. He did the impossible" I smiled a little bigger, it was still a small, sad, sorry excuse for a smile, but it was genuine. "He saw me. The first person to truly do that. Sideswipe, go to him. Talk with him. You both have a lot of catching up to do. I can g a day without seeing him you know." I turned around and pushed on. "Besides, I have my own problems to worry about."
"You keep saying that. What problems could you have?" He asked. He didn't sound like he was trying to be offensive, but there really wasn't much of a way to take it that wasn't.
"Sideswipe, my problems may be few, but they are still every bit important and taxing as any that I am sure you have had. I took in a shuddering breath. "Since I got here I was labeled a spy and an enemy. I am still considered as much, despite being trapped in a wheelchair. I still have no memories of exactly what happened at the ravine, other then a few colorful glimpses and some whacked out nightmares that try to keep me from any sleep I should be getting. And now, to top it all off, my boyfriend who has been trying to keep our relationship a secret has gone and made it very public without so much a a warning and Daddy is trying to make me walk again. How I don't know, but apparently he has some master plan that ends with me walking. So yes. I have my own problems. No matter what I do, or not do, I am forever labeled as the enemy and Daddy is working on a last ditch effort to heal an injury that will never heal. He is trying to do the impossible and I can't tell him no because I can see just how much trying to do this means to him." I felt the tars gathering in the corners of my eyes. "There. My problems might be small, but they are mine and I plan on working on them. Now. For the last time, if you will excuse me." I rolled away quickly. Metroplex already had the door open when I got there. I said a quiet thank you and rolled inside, letting the door shut and lock behind me.
Sideswipe watched the human who he had spent the night blaming and cursing for bewitching his brother roll away from him. He could hear the emotion gathering in her words and felt the weight of them. While he may not have thought that she had much to deal with, she surly believed she did. Maybe she was right? Maybe she did have more problems to deal with then he thought. Who was he to say? He had only just spoken with her for the second time. He did know that she was right about one thing; He had to talk with Sunstreaker. He had already planned on that. Though now, he wasn't quite sure what to say. She had shed a bit of light on a few things and also created more questions. Still, he needed to talk to Sunstreaker. Maybe his brother would be willing to answer a few questions he had on the femme. She didn't seem as bad has he had thought she was. Then again, he had only spoken to her twice. For now though, his brother was his only priority.