Theme: Needle
Weaker Than I Used To Be
A pinch at the crook of his elbow, one instant of pain before it was swept away in the rush of the cold liquid spreading along his arm, numbing as it went. The cold crept through his body at an agonizing pace, and the moments between the initial pierce and the and the dispersal of the substance to his heart and then his brain were agony.
And then utter nothingness. It was bliss. His name, age, loved ones- both present and absent- faded and disappeared beneath the onslaught of the drug. He surrendered to the chemical, tasting a bit of death in the action, just a hint of the final escape for those too cowardly. A glimpse of what he would be like without the world.
When had he first started this? It seemed as if he'd always been this way, dependent on that drug to erase the memories and make him forget himself in the bliss of escape from reality. Without the context of life, he questioned his motivations, questioned the very validity of his actions. What was he doing? Why did he keep coming back to this? And under the influence of that drug, he always resolved that this was the last time, that he wouldn't come here anymore. But the trip always ended, and the end of the trip brought reality crashing back down around him.
But for now, he slipped away from himself the same way the needle slipped from his skin as the syringe fell from his loosened fingers and clattered to the floor.
A/N: And the views are OVER NINE THOUSAND.
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