Authors Note- Happy Friday.
Disclaimer- S. Meyer owns all things Twilight.
Previously on Ambivalence;
I went to the door and unlocked the deadbolt and then the lock. When I opened the door, I was truly shocked as to who was behind it.
BPOV
Standing infront of me, looking very nervous and wary, was Rosalie. She had a bag over her shoulder and I was fully expecting her to have Tanya along with her, but it was just her, and her things.
I heard them standing up behind me, and Emmett say her name in complete shock.
" I know it's probably very wrong of me to be here, but I uh... I asked Edward's parents for your apartment address since your parents wouldn't give it to me. I really wanted to wish you both a Happy Birthday and tell you both that I am sorry. Alice was right, I don't have any friends because I lost the best ones I had. None of you guys, including Emmett deserved the way I acted."
I stepped back and motioned for her to come in. Edward grabbed my shoulders and looked me straight in the eye.
" Your letting her come in. She just said sorry, is that really enough?" he asked, searching my eyes.
I looked away from him and towards Rosalie. " Make yourself at home. Will you guys excuse us a moment."
Edward and I headed into my bedroom and I took a seat on my bed.
" Bella, tell me what the hell your thinking."
" I told myself that I would wait until she came to me, us, and she did. Look, I won't be best friends with her, because everything that happened to me was a mess. It will take awhile for me to trust her, but I have to let her try. We can just start out slow, and I won't send her home after being on a plane for like two and a half hours."
He sighed " If she messes with you. I swear to god she is going straight back to Chicago."
" Come on, let's go."
We walked back into the living room. Alice was glaring at Rosalie, who was in Emmett's embrace. I motioned for her to cut it out and she huffed, leaning back against Jasper's side.
" Come sit with us!" Alice said, reaching out to take my hand.
Edward sat on the opposite side of Alice and Jasper, and I sat next to him, curling my legs underneath me with my head resting on his shoulder as his arm draped over my waist. Alice grabbed the remote for the dvd player and cleared her throat.
" We are watching Juno, since I got it on DVD."
" I really want some orange tic tacs."
" I think I might buy you a pair of golden shorts." I said to Edward.
He scoffed " Yeah, like I would ever wear a pair of shorts that showed my thighs."
" You'd do it for me wouldn't you?"
Edward shook his head and Jasper laughed " I don't think Edward could pull off golden shorts."
" I really don't think he could either, I mean, maybe if he shaved and used a little lotion."
Everyone laughed " Yeah, no." Edward said.
" Just a thought, love."
" So, how has nursing school been, Rosalie?" I asked.
She looked up at me " Fine, it's fine."
" How's your best friend?" Alice asked bitterly.
I looked at her " Alice, cut it out."
" What, Bella? I'm just asking a question."
" I don't know, Alice. She isn't around anymore."
" Oh, really." Alice scoffed " Thats bullshit."
I shook my head and looked down.
Rosalie glared at Alice " I'm not lying. Ask Emmett."
" He's your boyfriend, of course he will cover your sorry ass, and I-"
" Shut the fuck up! Bella and I would like a decent Birthday, and Alice, if you want to bitch about your issues with Rosalie, do it on your own time. I don't want to talk about my ex-girlfriend because I don't give a flying fuck about her, and I really don't think Bella wants to hear about it."
Alice backed into the couch and was quiet " Sorry, everyone."
I stood up, pushing Edward's arms off and walked down the hall to my bedroom.
" Bella!" he said from behind me.
" No, Edward. Just let me be, I want to be alone."
I heard his footsteps stop and I walked into my room, wishing that I had a door and a lock. I pushed my sheets back and got into bed.
Today I'd really wished to just have a nice time with Edward, a romantic evening with dinner and exchanging presents. I loved my friends, and even the one that showed up unexpectedly, but I didn't like the drama. I didn't like any of it.
I just wanted a nice Birthday with none of it, but of course someone opens their mouth and has to talk about something that should of just been ignored for the day. I buried my face in the pillow and took a deep breath.
I could hear them talking, or more like arguing. Edward was talking to them, anger very obvious in his tone of voice.
" Well, I hope you happy that you got that off your chest, Alice because now she is probably very upset. She didn't even want me with her."
" Edward, I'm sorry. Sometimes my mouth gets the best of me."
" Then you'd better control your words. You'd also better apologize to her tomorrow."
She sighed " I'll go talk to her now."
" No, Alice. Not tonight. Look, I'm going to bed. Sleep well all."
He couldn't even stay away for five minutes. I heard him come into the room, and felt him get into the bed as it sank. Edward scooted closer to me and wrapped me up in his arms without saying anything. He kissed the top of my head and I relaxed against him, letting myself fall into a deep sleep.
I awoke to loud bickering.
Very loud bickering.
They were arguing about the shower, and who was to take one first. Alice wanted to, but Emmett said he needed one. Jasper argued that Alice and Rosalie would take forever, so he should go first and then Emmett. I groaned at the sound, humming into Edward's neck.
" GUYS!" Edward yelled.
I cringed.
All of them shuffled around the opening into my bedroom. I placed a kiss on Edward's chest as his fingers combed through my curled hair.
" Ew... Edward shirtless."
" I will put the shower line in order since Bella and I like quiet. Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie and Alice."
Alice gasped loudly, and Edward kissed the top of my head sweetly. I heard her stomping her foot on the ground dramatically, and I internally rolled my eyes at her antics.
" But, Edward!"
" I can change it and put Bella and I before you Alice."
" Okay, okay. Fine...But why did you want to put you two first anyways?"
He sighed " Bella and I shower together, and take a rather long time. So I figured I would do you all a favor."
" Oh my god, I think I just threw up a little."
I slapped Edward's chest lightly. " Shut up and stop lying."
He chuckled and grabbed my hand, placing a kiss ontop of it " Okay, so maybe I am lying, but we would like some alone time."
" We would?" I asked
" Yes, we would. Since our friends crashed our party yesterday."
They snickered and walked out of the room, the bathroom door closing a few seconds later.
" Your just full of sexual comments today aren't you." I whispered as he kissed up and down my neck.
Alice POV
Rosalie looked over towards the bedroom bitterly as I riffled through Bella's fridge to make breakfast. After my outburst last night I really felt bad. I love Edward and Bella and I knew that arguing with Rosalie was stupid, but I just let my feelings get the better of me.
" Are they always like that?"
" It's cute." I commented lightly. " They are adorable together."
I could see her wince.
" I know it's hard for you, Rosie. But they really love eachother and Bells seems really happy for once. I've never seen her so happy, even when her and Edward were really close best friends." Emmett assured.
She glared at the floor " Has anybody thought about how Tanya feels?"
" She broke up with him. And she cheated on him when Edward was in total love with her... Hold up a second."
Emmett and I looked at eachother in thought, obviously thinking the same thing.
" Rosalie, did you know Tanya was cheating on him?"
She was quiet, and the look on her face said a few things.
" YOU KNEW?"
EPOV
" YOU KNEW?" I heard Emmett yell loudly.
I groaned in frusteration into Bella's mouth and pulled away. Her tiny hands twisted in my hair and I gently pushed her away as she frowned.
" Lets please ignore them."
My hand ran down her hip and kissed her neck. " I wish. They just dont shut the fuck up."
" How long? Before he told her?"
" What now." Bella said, pulling her shirt down over her exposed stomach.
We stood up from the bed and walked into the kitchen. Alice was staring at Rose with complete murderous eyes. Emmett looked shocked as he stood and looked at his girlfriend, who was currently looking at the floor.
" Knew what?" I asked.
They all looked at me.
" Nothing, Edward." Rosalie said.
" Tell him." Emmett said.
She glanced up, looking at him with her blue eyes " Em..."
" Tell him." he repeated.
The room was quiet for a moment before Rosalie looked over at me.
" I knew that Tanya was cheating on you, before you said that you loved her." she whispered.
Oh fuck.
Shit was going down.
BPOV
I was pissed that they had to ruin my morning party with Edward, but the words that came out of Rosalie's mouth really made me wish that this wasn't happening right now.
My eyes widened at her statement.
Rosalie could of been the one to stop Edward for falling so deep and getting hurt.
" You didn't look out for him? You just let him be completely crushed?" I screamed.
Oh, I was pissed. Pissed for Edward.
" Get out."
" Edward, I-" she started
" GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE."
" Edward."
" You better get the fuck out of here right now."
I reached for his arm but he shook it off roughly. He grabbed his car keys from the counter and ran out of the apartment like a bat out of hell, not even bothering with a shirt. The door slammed shut and it was as dead silent as a graveyard.
" He was hurt so badly and you could of prevented it all if you told him from the beginning."
" Bella, I didn't mean it. She is my best friend, I couldn't tell."
" What about, Edward? Huh? If I found out that say...Jasper was cheating on Alice, the moment I knew I would go straight to her because even though I love Jasper like a friend, I still have another friend to worry about. Another friends feelings, and while it may hurt the person being cheated on...I bet it wouldn't of hurt so much if the person wasn't already in love."
She stayed quiet.
" I think it would be best if you left. Your not really all the welcome here anymore."
" I-"
" No." I interrupted " You hurt the person that means more to me then anything in the world. Now he's been hurt twice. Betrayed by someone he was so in love with, and a really good friend that he trusted to have his back. You know what, just fuck it, I am done with this shit with you."
She walked over to her bag and started shoving things into it, while calling the airport for a flight.
" We can take care of things around here, Bella. Go to Edward."
" He's probably really hurt right now. I'm just going to give him an hour or two to cool down a bit. I know how he is. Let's just clean up in here."
" If you want us to leave, too. I understand."
" No, it's fine."
I went back into the bedroom and made my bed, picking up the discarded and still slightly damp clothes. I tossed them in the basket carelessly and headed outside of the apartment. Angela was standing outside, looking like she was caught doing something.
" Heard that?" I asked.
" I didn't mean to...Is your boyfriend okay, he seemed very angry?"
" No...Life just sucks right now."
" I'm not using the wash machine, so feel free."
I put the first load in and put some softer and detergent in the slots. I started it up and set my basket ontop of it. When I got back into the apartment, Alice was folding up a blanket with Jasper helping her.
Emmett, who was now dressed, picked up Rosalie's bag and gave me a sad smile. He pulled me aside a moment and looked at me
" I'm heading out with her. But I'll see you around, Bells. Tell Edward that I'm sorry for everything." he said quietly, giving me a hug.
" Sure thing. Be safe."
They headed out, Rosalie being quiet the whole entire time. I shut the door behind me and looked at Alice.
" Would you mind of I showered?"
" No, go ahead."
I showered quickly and dressed just as quickly, eager to go see Edward. I tossed on a pair of jeans, a t-shirt and a sweatshirt. Before stepping out of my bedroom I slipped on my converse, also throwing my hair up as I headed into the living room.
Alice and Jasper were lounging on the couch, watching television.
" Hey, I'm going to stop by Edward's. Maybe see if he will come back or something."
" Okay, take your time."
I was really wondering what condition I would find him in. I knew he had no access to beer anywhere, but he could still be livid like the time I found him when Tanya gave him that stupid note.
The fact that Rosalie had kept something so big from Edward was appauling. Even the fact that she never told him at any time was shockin. Rosalie might be a bitch, but once she is your friend, she is there with that person one hundred percent. We all thought even thought that no matter what she always would, like we always had eachother back. Of course after what she did to me and the whole breakup, she had changed and morphed into another Tanya.
I really could only imagine the pain and betrayal that Edward was going through right now. After getting off of the highway I drove towards Edward's complex. When I arrived there, I jogged up the steps and down the hall.
Before getting my key, I stopped and listened. There was absolutely no noise, just silence on the other side. Digging into my bag, I grabbed the key and jammed it into the lock.
When I entered the apartment, it was dark. Pitch black.
All of the curtains were pulled around the room, not a stream of light. I shut the door and made my way towards the bedroom. I bumped into a few things along the way until I came to his bedroom door. I opened it slowly.
There was one curtain open.
Edward was sitting in a chair, the window open and was smoking a cigarette. I closed the door quietly and walked up towards him. I walked around the chair until I was infront of him. He glanced at me once before looking back out the window. I knelt infront of him and sighed.
" Can I borrow that?" I asked.
He handed me the cigarette and I took one puff before giving it back. I blew it out in the direction of the window and lifted my hands to rest on his knee's.
" I'm sorry, Edward."
" It's not your fault...I'm sorry I yelled. It scared you."
" No, it di-"
" You jumped about a foot in the air. It scared you."
I leaned forward. " Whatever, that doesn't matter. Rosalie left, and Emmett went with her."
" Why didn't she have my back? We have always been there for eachother, all of us. Why was this different? She could of prevented all of it, but she didn't."
" I don't know, Edward. I really don't. I told her that I was done with all her shit."
Edward held out his hand " Come here."
I stood up and he wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me into his lap. I rested my head on his shoulder.
" I feel betrayed..."
He took another puff of the cigarette and kissed my forehead.
" You smell like an ash tray."
" You love me anyways." he stated, putting his cigarette in the glass ash tray that was sitting on the end table by his bed.
" Well...Alice and Jasper are back at the apartment, so what do you want to do."
He sighed " How about you call Jasper, have him get a taxi over here and you and Alice can have a girls night at your place."
" You sure?"
" I'll miss the fuck out of you, but yeah."
I called Jasper and he was all for the idea. I bid Edward a goodbye and headed over to my apartment. If Alice was left alone for too long who knows what would happen. When I arrived to the building I went up both flights of stairs, unlocking both doors.
When I got in Alice had completely transformed the floor into a nail polish land. She threw a blanket over the couch, had many different nail polish colors, and nail polish pens on a flat surface on the ground. She had the dvd player ready and was smiling.
" Girl time is needed. So pop a squat and lets get to painting, I've got a movie ready."
We sat down on the ground together and she handed me her color nail polish, handing me her perfectly non-colored nails. I rolled my eyes and grabbed the bright pink nail polish. I polished them perfectly, not getting one little drop on her skin. Once I finished, I put a base coat over it.
When her nails were dry, I let her paint mine blue. Using a navy nail polish pen, she did little dots scattered on the nail. I did the same with her's, using a purple pen as she asked.
Next we did our feet, using the color of the dots for our base color, and then using the base of our nail color as the dots. We talked about school and other things, ignoring the topic of what went on this morning.
" So, I think Jasper is going to propose soon."
" What? Alice, your not even nineteen yet."
" So! We love eachother..."
I sighed " Alice, I know that. But don't you still want to hold off until your atleast twenty?"
"Bella, if Edward went up to you tomorrow and asked you to marry him, what would you say?"
" No." I answered truthfully " If he loved me then I would, but I would atleast wait to get actually hitched."
" Whatever, never mind."
" Alice. I am not trying to discourage you."
" I know, Izzy."
I cracked a smile and grabbed a handful of popcorn, I tossed a piece at her and she laughed, tossing it back.
" Looks like they had a fun night."
" Why did we get up a six thirty to drive over here?"
" I don't know! It was your idea."
" Whatever, Edward."
I felt myself being lifted up from the ground and soon placed on a soft surface. Bed.
" Go back to sleep, beloved."
I had must of been completely and utterly exhausted, because I awoke again at one thirty in the afternoon. Edward said he'd woken me up because Alice and Jasper got a flight out earlier so that we could have the rest of the weekend together, but I had said a sleepy goodbye and went straight back to sleep.
" So, when are you going to get up. Because tonight we are going out to dinner, and then we are going back to my place for some dessert and fun."
" Oooh, are we going to play twister."
" No."
" Scrabble."
" No."
" Oh! I got it; Monopoly."
" No, Isabella. I am going to feed you dessert and then we are going to my bedroom to put on a movie, and not watch it."
" Bu-"
" No, buts."
" Is 'no' the only word you know how to say."
" NO!"
" It totally is."
" It's not."
" Whatever."
He poked my side " Find your best dress because I am taking you somewhere fancy."
" Edward, please no. How about we just go to Panera."
" Seriously? I am not that cheap."
" Well, I am not wearing a dress. Maybe a skirt, but it's too cold and all my dresses are strapless."
Edward kissed my forehead " Okay, beloved."
I'd dressed in a black pencil skirt and a sweater/cardigan top that was shorter sleeved and had a small black bow in the from. I had on a pair of cream colored pumps that matched the top and had on a pair of pany hose to keep my legs somewhat warm. They weren't dark, just made my look like they had a little bit of a glow.
Edward had headed back to his apartment to get ready, and I was eager to see what he had planned for us tonight. I did my hair, putting it in thick curls. I pinned alot of it up, but left a few strands down to frame my face, and used some smokey makeup for my eyes. I put on a little bit of cherry chapstick and spritzed some perfume on.
I rolled my eyes when he knocked on my door.
Slowly I walked to the apartment door and opened it.
I was so damn lucky to have such a sexy boyfriend.
Edward was wearing a pair of dark and medium-ish wash pants, a white button down with his black leateher jacket with a skinny, grey and black striped tie. In his hands he was holding a bouquet of flowers. His eyes were scanning over my body, and I felt a red blush sweep over my cheeks.
" These are for you." he said, handing me the bouquet.
" Thank you, Edward. Here, let me get a vase and we can head off."
I had one under the sink, it was glass and square. I filled it with water and put the roses in. For the oddest reason I had butterflies. But this was actually our first official date really. I mean, we went out for lunch every once in awhile, but this was actually planned for a special occasion, or special occasion's.
When we got outside the door, I locked it up. Edward put his arm around my waist.
" You look absolutely beautiful tonight. I don't think I will be able to keep my hands off of you."
" Ha. Okay."
" We are taking the motorcycle." he stated as we got down the steps outside.
We got into the garage and he grabbed his key from the pocket. He rolled it out onto the driveway before stopping so we could get the helmets on. I fastened mine on gently and slid behind him, wrapping my arms around him and putting my feet up on the pegs. I was careful where to put the heel.
" All set."
" Yup."
And we were off.
" Gramercy Tavern. It was rated a four point five out of five."
I handed him my helmet and he smiled at me. We walked in hand in hand. The setting inside was very romantic and dim lit with candles on the tables. Edward gave the reservation name and we were let to a table. It was high up on stools, luckily the stools had a back to them. I set my bag down and slipped off my jacket.
" Edward..."
" Don't start now, beloved. I wanted to take you somewhere special after the disaster Birthday with friends."
I got a sweet iced tea and Edward got a water.
" Can I have this whole menu, please?"
" Whatever you wish. Actually, I can get you just a taste of everything."
He reached over the table to grasp my hand was was laying on it, entwining our fingers together. I looked at him over my menu and gave him a small smile. When our waitress came I decided on a medium cooked New York Strip Steak with a side of ziti pasta with parmesan cheese and tomatoes. Edward chattered out his order and she took the menu's.
" How are you classes been going?" I asked.
" Great...I mean, I'll have to go to three years of law school after this, but it's exciting. I just want to be able to spend as much time with you before all of the homework piles up."
I smiled " I'm glad that you feel that way."
" Well, of course I want to spend as much time with you as I can. Who wouldn't."
" Don't flatter me."
He leaned forward " Why not?"
I coughed " Just saying."
" Bella, I like to flatter you and give you compliments. And give you gifts. Why don't you like that?"
I sighed " I don't know...Edward, I appreciate it but really, speak realistic."
" Fine. You are the most beautiful creature that I have ever laid eyes on."
My cheeks burned red " See!"
" It's true, Bella. Just look in the mirror and stare for a moment."
After about ten minutes our food was delivered and I was eagerly cutting through the steak. Once it was cut, I speared a piece into my mouth.
Now this was a good steak.
" Fuckkk, that's good steak."
Edward chuckled " Here, try this."
He had a lobster on it's plate, along with a little thing of warm melted butter, with a small six ounce steak and a baked and loaded potato. He forked a piece of the lobster and dipped it in the butter, reaching over to feed it to me.
I moaned biting into it. " That's amazing."
We ate our dinner, sharing quiet conversation throughout the meal. I ate every little bit of the steak that I had, and scarfed down the delicious pasta. I shared a little bit with Edward, as he did with me and the waitress came back, taking our plates.
" Would dessert be desired tonight?"
" No thank you, just the check please."
I slid my jacket on and left it unzipped. Edward put his on, buttoning all of the buttons up. He took out his wallet and tossed a tip on the table, tucking a few twenties into the receipt book. Edward grasped my hand in his and walked us towards the exit.
" How much was it?"
" Not telling. Now, lets go back to my apartment, I have dessert to serve."
Authors Note- Rest of the night finished next chapter...Review if you'd like.