Renesmee's Point Of View

Chapter Thirty-Six: Beats For Someone Else.

After spending the afternoon with Kyle and the kids I had to make an appearance at the charity masquerade that Hannah was hosting tonight. I wore a black and white dress. It was strapless, white at the top with a black sash and a white skirt. Over the skirt was a gauzy layer of fabric that was black, see through covering most of the white skirt. There were rhinestones attached to that black sheer layer.

I chose a black mask that complimented my black and white dress. I made my way down the huge stairs, but a stranger intercepted my tracks.

He took my hand and led me to the dance floor. His eyes were completely concealed by his silver mask. A complete stranger, who just didn't seem like a stranger. I felt, as if I knew him.

Without a word, we began dancing. We moved into the center of the dance floor. The clouds coming out of the smoke machine concealed us as if we were the only ones in the room. I was just staring into his eyes, as minutes seemed to pass so slowly. As if my mind were trying to savour every moment with him. This feeling seemed so comfortable. I struggled to remember my name. Renesmee. Renesmee Cullen. Without thinking I leaned up on my toes, he was really tall and my heels weren't enough and then I kissed him. I felt five seconds of pure joy, until I realised what I had done. I had never felt this way for anyone but Jake. This was wrong.

"Who are you?" the stranger asked as his hand reached for my mask. I pulled away and he unmasked his own face. It was Kyle. I just kissed someone who is engaged. I had to go. This wasn't right.

I couldn't feel this way for anyone but Jake. I had to leave. I had to get away before I fell deeper. I was betraying Jake, if I fall in love with someone else I would be giving up on him just like his sisters. How can I fall in love with someone who I basically a stranger? I don't know Kyle at all. And it took me what? A dance? To be in love? I will not believe that. Maybe it wasn't just the dance, but the way he handled the kids. Or maybe the fact that he looks exactly like Jake. I don't know.

"I'm sorry, I have to go," I told him letting go of his hand, his touch seemed so right. So meant to be. It made me feel the same way as what Jake's touch made me feel. This just made me more afraid, of what I felt. I knew that loving this person was wrong but why does it feel so right? Jake's my soul mate. There should be no one else who can make me feel this way. How is it that my heart can beat so fast for someone I don't even know that well?

My heart was beating so fast in shock. A feeling that was so familiar, so alike to my feelings for Jake. That scared me, that for the first time I felt this way towards someone else. That wasn't right. I'm in love with Jake. How can you be in love with two people at the same time? What's worse is that one of them is engaged. I can't tell Kyle it was me. How can I?

I got home and placed the mask on my bedside table. I forgot to return it but I'll just keep it as a memory of this night. I'll keep it as a memory of this stranger and a reminder that I can't get distracted from finding Jake.

I still had to see Kyle today at the orphanage again. It's going to be awkward for me cause I know, but what if he recognizes me? And I have to go to his engagement party tonight. So I'm spending the entire day with him.

The doorbell rang. It was only Kyle. He smiled, "Are you ready to go?" Don't look into his eyes or he might notice. Should I just shut up completely today? He could recognize my voice too. Gosh… I'm becoming paranoid.

I nodded and looked down. He probably noticed something was up. But Kyle opened the door anyway and didn't ask.

"So you were brought up in Forks." He broke the silence.

"Mmhm." I nodded. How does he know this?

He shook his hair. Damn this was awkward. "I've never been there."

It's funny how two people can look so alike; their personalities are so similar yet they live so far away and have completely different lives. Kyle was rich. Jake was not exactly poor but not rich.

"Renesmee." Kyle said waving his hands in front of me. "Renesmee!"

"Sorry. I was just daydreaming." I sighed. If only I stayed by Jake that night. Then this never would have happened.

"It's okay." I think he sensed I was keeping my distance from him. He stopped staring and kept quiet.

The rest of the car ride was silent and awkward.

"Miss May-May!" the kids screamed as they completely surrounded me.

"Hey guys, miss me?" I laughed.

"Is Mr. Giant going to play with us today?" the kids asked.

"No, not today, he has some paperwork to finish." I explained.

"Actually," Kyle said, "I could put that aside for an hour or two. Let's play a game."

Damn. "I thought you were busy today." I mumbled.

"Well, Miss if you don't want me to play, you could just say so. But you're disappointing a whole lot of other kids by doing so." He feigned a smile.

He definitely knows something's up.

"Let's play hide and seek!" Amy yelled. "Yes let's play that." A bunch of kids agreed.

"Okay Mr. Giant's it!" Brandon screamed. "Run away!" the other kids yelled.

Seeing the other kids leave I had to run too. But Kyle grabbed my arm.

"Why are you avoiding me?" he confronted me.

"I'm not. I'm just playing hide and seek like the kids want." I said the first excuse I could think of.

"What about the car ride?" he continued, "You wouldn't look me in the eye, you barely spoke, I'm trying to think of what I did wrong. And I just can't seem to figure it out."

"I'm not avoiding you. I'm just…" I spaced out, "…thinking about your engagement party tonight. Hannah must be strung out. Well got to go hide. Bye!" I said quickly as he unknowingly let go of my arm and I ran off to hide; I turned around to see he was completely stunned. I didn't really give him time to process that.

I'm sorry. But you're just not him. And it's confusing. And you're probably confused. I know it's driving me crazy. I just want to see Jake. And then I won't be confused about Kyle anymore. And I won't mistake him for Jake ever again.

I wasn't sure what to wear for the engagement party, I didn't want to go, but it was compulsory for all company employees to attend to assist the bride-to-be, in case she needed people to boss around and take her stress out on. In that case I won't wear white in case Hannah wants to wear that. Or black cause it might be rude to go to a happy occasion wearing funeral colours. In that case I might just wear red. I decided to curl my hair with a curler because I hate my curls. It looked quite nice afterwards. I wore a ruby necklace around my neck and gold bangles on my wrists.

I was waiting for the spectacular entrance that the bride to be would make and she did look beautiful. But Hannah did not look happy to see me when she entered. She was wearing a red strapless ball gown. Her hair was pulled into a bun on top of her head and a crown was fitted around the bun. I realised why Hannah was giving me looks across the room. My dress was the exact same red as hers. So much for staying away from the attention.

Kyle was looking at me. Please stop. Hannah is noticing this. Now she looks mad again and now she's making her way over to me.

"Renesmee." She smiled with her piercing eyes. "Nice dress."

"Thank you." Okay that was a stupid answer. I should take it off. Yes probably.

"We're short of waiters. Do you mind?" she shoved me into the kitchen. Wait. Does she want me to serve food tonight?

"I really have to g-" I started.

"Thanks so much." She shoved something into my arms. Okay a uniform… it wasn't completely appauling. Just not something I would ever wear in a million years.

I wore the uniform and picked up the tray of chili prawn and fried dumplings and started to serve people. And it was really easy too, until she decided to step in and make my job a living hell.

"Renesmee! Don't you know that Mr. Henderson is allergic to shell fish?"

"Renesmee! You forgot to give them napkins."

"Renesmee! Mrs. Richards' plate has been empty for half an hour! That's not how you serve guests."

"Renesmee!" she shoved my into a CEO of an allying company, "Look you got food all over him. His suit looks expensive, how are you going to pay for that?"

Okay. That was totally her fault. "That's it!" I yelled, "I've had enough. You're just a huge bully who likes to boss people around because your life honestly sucks. Okay I admit I've been a really selfish and spoilt person, but you! Honestly, you're worse!" I swear she was egging me on. She fell to her knees as I stood up for myself.

"Miss Cullen do you want to get fired? My father is your bosses' boss. You really shouldn't piss me off." Hannah getting back up.

"No you really shouldn't piss me off! You have no idea what I'm capable of." Okay I just sound like a monster now.

How did Kyle fall for someone like that? I mean. Man she must have been hiding her hideous personality for a long time or Kyle was just an idiot. So what if I get fired. I need money but I'm not going to work for a company that fires you for standing up for what you believe in.