A New Beginning
Chapter 37-What the hell happened to me?
Justin's POV
I didnt know what I was feeling. I dont even think I could feel anything. So many emotions were running through my body I couldn't actually pick which one I was. Happy? Sad? Miserable? I couldnt choose.
I had done a horrible thing. I didn't stop Amelie from going to Alyssa's body...to...change her. Dont get me wrong, I love Alyssa and want her back into my life so, so badly. I couldnt raise a five year old girl on my own. I couldnt go through the period stage on my own, that was Alyssa's job, I couldn't go through the days where Sophia runs home crying from school because she fell out with one of her friends. I couldnt do that without Alyssa.
But what the hell is going to happen now... if she becomes one of them. What will she be like around Sophia? Could I even trust Alyssa with Sophia now? Not a first I can't. If Amelie said is true... that she is going to turn Alyssa then she will be unbelievably hungry for the first couple of weeks. She wouldnt be able to control herself around me let alone Sophia.
What will Eve, Michael, Claire and Shane think? God... I know how Shane is with vampires. They killed his mother. Although my parents were bastards to me and they abused me all my life I would still hate vampires if they killed either of them. Now what if Shane's only daughter... only child is one? Would he want her anymore. No. Of course he would want her! Im just over reacting. Shane loves his daughter.
Will Alyssa be the same person? I mean... obviously she will be the same person. But will she act differently? Would she be the horrible vampire type that goes around killing people? No. My wife wouldn't do that. Alyssa wouldn't hurt a fly.
Or would she?
Whilst in the midst of my thoughts, Amelie came walking back into the waiting room of the hospital. I dont know how long I was sat there. Forty five minutes maybe. Possibly longer. I stood up straight away, unaware that there were tears rolling down my face. Amelie looked tired. Exausted actually.
After she got her breath back from walking a short corridor from Alyssa's room to the waiting room, Amelie finally said, 'The deed is done, Mr. Smith.'
All of the breath came out of me. I guess I was just hoping for her to say something like 'Alyssa is alive therefore we didn't have to change her into a blood sucker.' But no. That is just too good to be true.
Amelie went to turn around and walk back out of the room when I grabbed her by the arm and turned her back around. 'Is she..' I say, trying to keep the fear and desperation out of my voice. Amelie must have known what I was going to say because she nodded her head slowly. 'Alyssa is in her room. She is alive. Well... she isn't. You know very well what I mean, Mr. Smith. You have your wife back.'
I felt angry at that point as I watched Amelie walk out of the room. Why was she acting like this was an everyday thing for her? Maybe it was. Maybe she does this to everyone who was dying. Maybe she just wanted Alyssa with her as a new vampire.
No. I wasnt having it. If Alyssa was a vampire or not, I still love and care for her as much as I did before any of this happened. I have loved her ever since the day she came into that Drama class when she was sixteen years old.
After about half an hour of thinking after Amelie left, I finally got up the guts to go to Alyssa's room. It felt like the longest walk ever to her hospital room although it was only thirty seconds down the hall. I looked around as I got to the door. Nobody was in the corridor and the blinds for Alyssa's room were shut.
I took in a deep breath and opened the door fast. As I walked in I saw Alyssa stood on the other side of her bed, looking down at herself.
She looked... different. Amazingly different. She still looked like Alyssa, obviously but she just looked more... perfect. Her darkish hair was more vibrant and it looked like she had just had it styled at the hair dressers. her skin was a perfect tone, maybe a bit too pale although it looked like it had been air brushed on a computer. Her eyes were a white/blue colour with hints of red in and her whole body looked model material.
I fell for her all over again.
As she turned to face me, she stared at me with her eyes wide. There was a blood bag on the side of the table which was completely drained. She kept on glancing at it, frowning with a bit of a cringe and she looked back at me.
Her face was full of hurt and anger. Thats when I know I made a mistake. She never wanted this. She never would have wanted to be a vampire. And I let Amelie make her one. I didnt stop Amelie from doing this to my beautiful wife. And now look whats happened. She hates herself. The way she was looking down at herself and the way she was giving daggers to the blood bag sat perfectly still on the bedside table.
'Lyss?' I say cautiously after a few minutes of silence. I then realised that she was crying. Silent tears running down her face. Could vampires cry? Obviously they could. Alyssa just stared at me with hurt in her eyes. She looked almost guilty.
She had blood on her hands, thats why she kept looking down at them. But when she looked back up, she didn't take her eyes of me. She took a deep breath.
'What the hell happened the me?!'
Sorry its short and im so sorry I havent updated! Ive been busy! So what do you think? Dont worry, the story is going to get happier. I was thinking along the lines of a time skip then maybe another child in the picture? I dont know. Im still debating.
Anyway, Im not sure if any of you saw it but if you guys have TWITTER then follow my account called MorganvilleFan. On there I put a tweet on there saying 'for those who read my story a new beginning on twitter.' And it has a link on it. There is a picture that I drew of Sophia, Alyssa and Justin. Im not sure if I can post it on here? Maybe I could put a link to it on my profile. So after reading this, go onto my profile and it should be on there (a link)
Sorry for the long A.N! Love you guys and thanks for reading! xxxx