A\N: Okay, I'm happy to say I'm in a better mood than yesterday. Sorry to everyone about that, but it's been a very long week.

I know I was thinking about the song "Let it go" by Freddy(?) when I wrote this, so that could be considered theme music I guess, but it doesn't entirely fit in with this chapter.

Anyway, this chapter and the last chapter kind of screw up since they were supposed to be earlier, and would explain why Inuyasha didn't want Amaya to leave right away in the chapter "Grave Mistakes". We're gonna get more into detail about that in the next chapter, and I, once again, may surprise you with what my sadistic little mind can come up with for out poor inu.

Okay, to the Reviewers (Thanks-- you guys have been so tolerant of my little rants!):

-Wish-full Thinker - phew Well, I'm glad it still made some sense. -- Koi has many meanings (carp included) but the version I'm using is a shortened version of "koibito" (Or something similar to that) and it means "Love." Lol, no, I try not to bash my characters in my actual stories-- I leave that for the rants before and after. I agree with you completely, people go out of their way to make the characters they don't like go pyscho. I find it actually hard to do that, cause it drives me nuts if I know I'm going OOC. Anyway, thanks, I'll try not to push myself too hard!

-xolovexinuyasha - "Music is the universal language." -- I am a firm believe in that, and it does most certainly calm my savage beast.

-Box Queen - I am, yeah, thanks. The doctor's gave me a few anti-depressants and sedatives to go along with my other stuff, and I'm better now.

-dogdemoninuyashaandkagome - Thanx: )

-sourapple10000 - It wasn't confusion, necessarily, just wondering. It's all the other authors faults for putting characters from the past in the future and acting very OOC. -- I know... the 36th chapter... sheesh... o.o

-MustluvKits101 - Lol, yep. I may not like Kagome very much, but I definitely like her better than Kikyo.

-woflygirl13 - Yeah... sighs sometimes you need to have them though, or things can get really outta control. Still, stupid doctors... -- I hope I will continue to amaze you with my "skill" my "story" and my imagination too! It's fun to keep people on the edge!

-Lost Soul 4 Rizzle - You mean to say you don't find her creepy in the anime? She's a woman whose come back from the dead like three times already and who is still obsessed with her past lover who she continually tries to drag down to hell with her and promises to kill. Hm. Maybe you and I just have different definitions of "Creepy".

-ultimateromantic - Like I said to Lost soul 4 Rizzle, in my opinion she already is one scary bitch. I actually didn't find her to be that strange in this chapter-- she was just trying to express her feelings toward her past lover (who she's tried to kill a myriad of times) who continually pulls away from her and who she thinks can't even remember that much about her after suffered under torture for who knows how long. She was already obsessed before. I was just trying to figure out how she would react in this situation.

DISCLAIMER - You know the drill. Own the story and OC. Nothing else.

Time to Let it Go

'I'm not going to let you go, Inuyasha.' Kikyo's soft voice reached his ears, and Inuyasha forced himself not to tense, because the woman clearly thought he was asleep. 'I promise I'll never let you leave me again.' Inuyasha's mind whirled at her words as he felt her body go lax against him, and tears rose unbidden in his eyes as his confused mind muddled over her words.

She couldn't be serious... could she?

No... she couldn't be... he loved Kagome... not her, Kagome!

Inuyasha's mind spun as tears of agony cascaded in tiny rivers down his face, his mind and heart torn between what he had known, what he had lost and regained, and what he now had, what he wanted to have, he knew he couldn't stay with this woman.

She had meant something to him in the past.

But now, that's exactly what she was.

And he couldn't go back there, not when the future was finally starting to appear before him in a way that did not seem intent on hurting him.

He knew the quest for Kagome and everyone's freedom would be dangerous, that he would probably fail, but he wanted it back, he wanted it all back, and that included the people he had unwillingly lost because of Naraku.

And even though Kikyo was one of those people, she was also one of the ones who had tried to take those people away from him. And he couldn't let her do that.

He wouldn't be able to live if he lost them all again.

But in order to gain them, he had to give up her.

And now, after all that he had been through, even though it caused the newly awakened older part of him a great deal of agony, he knew he was willing to do that. He was willing to, after all these years, finally let her go.

Because this was his life.

And he wouldn't let anyone-- not even Kikyo-- take it away from him. Not ever again.

And if it meant he had to hurt her to accomplish that, then so be it.

Because he is life, and she is death, and those to things cannot coincide together-- one would always smother the other.

And if it was Kikyo's plan to smother him, then he sure as hell wasn't going down without a fight.

Because he wanted to live.

And he would live.

Because everyone had a right to life...Even him...

And no one had the right to take it away. Especially not someone who had already died. Of this, he was sure.

Every so gently, Inuyasha pushed to body of the sleeping woman off of him and slipped from the bed, moving toward the window, silently wishing Amaya was here to help him.

He didn't call for her though.

If he did, Kikyo would waken, and then their plan would be ruined.

So he simply sat on the edge of the window, staring off into the night sky and waited for the woman he had once loved to wake up.

His mind was pounding with confusion, but his heart was clear and certain: He loved Kagome, he always had, and he always would, and that, if he did not get to her soon, his entire being might shatter from the mere force of the idea that he was not with her.

He would have to tell Amaya, get her to find a way to get him away from here, and soon, because he couldn't cope with the idea of not seeing Kagome for who knows how long.

Hardening his resolve, his eyes darkened to a deep shade of gold as he stared out at the moon, which was in it's last stage, signifying the end of the month. It occurred to him that he did not even know what day it was, let alone the month, and a low growl of anger slipped from his throat before he could stop it.

He glanced at Kikyo, but she did not even so much as shift, and he let out a small sigh of relief.

He was angry at that woman for keeping him locked away, for trying to make him forget and keep him entirely dependant on her, but for the moment he could do nothing.

Nothing but wait.

Because it was time to let it go.

He leaned back and stared out at the sky, his eyes unconsciously drifting closed and, before he even realised that he was tired, he was soon fast asleep, having strange dreams of Kagome riding on a giant eagle-like bird, both of them surrounded by a strange purplish light as they pierced through what seemed to be an eternity of darkness... the only light for miles and miles around...

END

A\N: Don't really have anything else to say. I've got a couple of tests coming up this week so I really need to get to studying for them.

SPECIAL THANKS T0 - Wish-full Thinker, xolovexinuyasha, Sexy Kat, Box Queen, dogdemoninuyashaandkagome, sourapple10000, MustluvKits101, wolfygirl13, Lost Soul 4 Rizzle and ultimateromantic -- These are the great reviewers from the last chapter, and the reason that this one is up! If you like the story so far, you have them to thank!

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