A/N: Hey guys sorry I took so long with this last part. I didn't have Wi-fi for a while, and plus i've been reading and seeing Gifs about glee and i just didn't want to think about Glee for a while. I'll start watching when things are happier during glee. (For those of you that have been watching can i know your reaction to the santana and kurt scene? That was just wayy too much. It was terrible in my opinion. And seeing Kurt so sad is too much for me.)
Anyways,
One thing that is important to me for you guys to know is that just because Kurt is happy doesn't mean that everything is automatically better. He's still going to have bad days, but he's better now. He has a better mindset now. And he has all these people around that care for him. Family is what this story is all about.
The first part starts about a month after where the last chapter ended.
Enjoy!
"Hey Blaine. Sorry I missed your calls earlier. Is everything okay?"
"Everything is okay now. Kurt had a panic attack in school and passed out. He's home now sleeping." Blaine told Burt. Burt gasped.
"What happened? Did someone hurt him?" Burt demanded to know.
"No. One of his dance classes is like a self defense class and the instructor said that he freaked out a bit during a hands on activity and they couldn't get him to calm down." Blaine recalled, he looked towards their bed where Kurt was sleeping peacefully and smiled sadly. He heard Burt sigh on the phone.
"Do you need me to come up there? Because I will. I can be there in less than two hours if I buy a ticket now."
"I think Kurt would like that."
...
"Blaine? Why did you let me sleep so long?" Kurt said coming into the living area, rubbing at his face sleepily.
"He was worried about you." Kurt jumped at the sound of his dad's voice. "How are you feeling kiddo?"
"Dad? What are you doing here?" Kurt exclaimed, running to his dad to give him a hug. Blaine looked on with a smile.
"Blaine called me a while ago and told me what happened. I just wanted to make sure you were doing okay." Burt told his son. Kurt looked at Blaine adoringly and mouthed a 'thank you' to him.
"I'm okay. I didn't mean to freak out so much. I knew I was safe but my mind didn't." Kurt said sheepishly. "It's actually really embarrassing. Why didn't I go to Parsons?"
"Because you love music." Burt reminded him. Kurt just groaned. "You know things aren't going to be easy all the time son. Have you been taking your medicine?" Kurt nodded.
"I know things aren't going to be easy but I just wasn't expecting it. I was doing so good lately." Kurt murmured.
"You've been doing great Kurt. But just because you're much happier now, doesn't mean that everything just magically goes away." Kurt looked down sadly. He knew this but he was just so embarrassed he fainted in his class out of fear. He knew he had nothing to be afraid of.
"I know. I guess Finn feels so much better knowing that it wasn't him making me faint this time." Kurt joked. Burt chuckled.
"Finn was definitely relieved but he's glad you're okay. He wanted to come up but he said he didn't want to mess up Rachel's schedule of their visits." They both rolled their eyes fondly at that.
"I'll call him later." Kurt promised. "But since you're here, do you want Blaine and I to take you out? Or I can make dinner. It is my night to cook. I'm sure Nick and Jeff are expecting food when they come back from class."
"Oh no kiddo. Tonight Blaine and I will take care of everything. You just relax." Burt told him. Kurt looked over at Blaine questioningly.
"We have the rest of the day planned just for you. It was Burt's idea." Blaine smiled. Kurt couldn't help but smile wide.
"I love you both so much." He said hugging his father again and walking over to hug Blaine as well. "I hope whatever you chose involves food first because fainting makes me very hungry." On cue Kurt's stomach rumbled loudly causing them all to laugh.
"Of course baby. Let's just grab our stuff and we'll get you some food." Blaine said kissing Kurt's cheek.
...A few months later...
"So you aren't going to make it for my first performance?" Kurt asked, sounding heartbroken. He heard his dad sigh on the phone.
"It's not looking too good kiddo. I promise next time I'll make it no matter what, but I can't afford to miss any work right now." Burt tried to explain but he knew Kurt was disappointed.
"Okay." Kurt murmured. He held in tears. He knew that his dad couldn't always make it to New York at the drop of a hat but he really wanted him to be there.
"I'm so sorry buddy. I'll call you before your performance. Make sure Blaine records it for me too." Burt said.
"I will." Kurt mumbled shortly.
"I have to go now but like I said I'll call you. I love you son."
"I love you too dad. Bye." Kurt hung up, wiped his eyes, and took a shuttering breath.
"Baby?" Kurt jumped at the sound of Blaine's voice. "Hey, what's wrong?" Blaine sat next to Kurt on the bed.
"Dad isn't coming to my performance. He has to work and there is no one to cover for him." Kurt told him.
"Aw I'm so sorry Kurt. You know he can't be here for everything." Blaine said taking his hand.
"I know but this is important to me." Kurt sniffled. "I feel like such a loser for crying over this but I just want him to see how far I've come." Blaine wrapped his arms around his boyfriend.
"I understand. But he knows already. He's so proud of you and he wants to be here for you so bad." Blaine said softly.
"I know. God I'm so stupid. It's just a school performance. Why should it matter to me?" Kurt detaches himself from Blaine and wipes his eyes.
"Oh no don't just cast this aside." Blaine pulls Kurt into his lap and pulls his hands away from his face. "I know it hurts but it's going to be okay baby. I know you miss him being around all the time but he can't make it for everything."
"But the thing is that for all the time I was away from him before, I never had family support me for anything. And I was barely with him for so long and now I'm away from him again. I just want to look out into the audience and see someone out there who loves me." Kurt admits. Through his years in school where there have been school plays or any type of competition his mother would either just not show up or just wouldn't let him participate.
"But I'll be there and Nick and Jeff will be there. Santana said she'll skip class to make it and that, of course, means Brittany will come along." Blaine assured Kurt. "We all love you so much baby. We're your family too." Kurt nodded feeling a bit guilty that he hadn't thought about all the support he had with him already.
"I know. I love you guys too. I'm sorry, I know you guys are here for me. I'm just being a bit selfish." Kurt said finally looking at Blaine.
"It's alright Kurt. You have every right to be upset." Blaine gently kissed his forehead. "How about I go cut us some of that cheesecake you brought and we watch a Disney movie?" Kurt smiled genuinely and nodded. He leaned in to kiss Blaine softly.
"Thank you. I love you."
"I love you too."
...
The Winter Showcase was kind of a big deal for first year students. Being able to preform in it gave them a chance show what they were made of. Kurt wanted to prove that he was made to preform. He wanted blatant proof that his mother was wrong. That he would go far with his voice. He believed he could, he just wanted everyone else to believe it too.
It still stung that his dad wasn't able to come, but all his friends were there and that made him feel better. He was next to preform and his heart was racing. He was still known as the person who fainted in Ms. July's dance class by most of the students and the staff. He deserved to be known for much more.
The performer before him finished up their song and he waited for his name to be called. He was the last to go before a 15 minute break. He walked as confidently as he could onto the stage. He looked out to where the piano player was waiting for his cue and he nodded. As the melody started he closed his eyes, took a breath, and began to sing.
I don't know why I'm frightened
I know my way around here
The cardboard trees, the painted seas, the sound here...
Yes, a world to rediscover
But I 'm not in any hurry
And I need a moment
The whispered conversations in overcrowded hallways
The atmosphere as thrilling here as always
Feel the early morning madness
Feel the magic in the making
Why, everything's as if we never said goodbye
When he opens his eyes he immediately seeks out Blaine. Blaine is giving him an awestruck look. It felt good to know that Blaine was so effected by his voice. He looked towards his friends, each of them seeming extremely proud of him. But one face made him almost miss the next verse.
Carole.
Carole was there.
His step-mother. His wonderful, loving, sweet step-mother was at his first performance. It had never occurred to him that Carole would come. He assumed that since his dad couldn't make it, none of his family would be able to make it. If there was one word to summed up everything he was feeling right now it would be loved.
He had certainly felt loved multiple times by his family and friends. But right now, at this moment he just felt surrounded by it. Like all along he should have just known that she would show up. It was the best feeling in the world.
I don't want to be alone
That's all in the past
This world's waited long enough
I've come home at last!
And this time will be bigger
And brighter than we knew it
So watch me fly, we all know I can do it...
Could I stop my hand from shaking?
Has there ever been a moment
With so much to live for?
The whispered conversations in overcrowded hallways
So much to say not just today but always...
We'll have early morning madness
We'll have magic in the making
Yes, everything's as if we never said goodbye
Yes, everything's as if we never said goodbye...
We taught the world new ways to dream!
The roaring applause and the standing ovations were heartwarming. He looked out into the audience and saw his friends cheering him on. He saw Blaine with a knowing smile on his face. Blaine knew Carole was coming. His eyes shifted to Carole and she had the biggest smile on her face. Kurt impatiently waited until he felt it was okay to leave the stage, and hurried to where his friends and Carole were.
They were all standing by the time he got there and he went straight to Carole basically launching himself in her arms. She laughed happily and rubbed his back soothingly.
"Did you really think that I would miss you performing just because your dad couldn't make it?" She asked him.
"I love you." He murmured because there weren't any words to sum up the range of emotions he felt right then.
"I love you too sweetie." She smiled, pulling away slightly to kiss his cheek. "You were amazing up there. You belong up there honey." She told him and the honesty in her voice made him tear up.
"You were so great up there Porcelain. So worth skipping class over." Santana said smirking at him as he finally let go of Carole.
"No more skipping class this semester." He said sternly but hugged her anyways. "But thank you for coming. You too Britt." He hugged Brittany as well.
"You had Nick tearing up. I can only imagine how Wes or David would have reacted." Jeff jumped in. Kurt chuckled and hugged Jeff and an emotional Nick too.
"We probably would have had to carried both of them back to the apartment." Nick joked.
"David probably would have attached himself to Kurt. I swear if he weren't in love with Wes he would be going for your man Blaine." Jeff winked playfully. Blaine rolled his eyes and moved in to hug his boyfriend.
"I'm so proud of you baby. You were so beautiful up there. I couldn't take my eyes off you." Blaine told him. Kurt's cheeks hurt from smiling so much. He was about say something when he felt his phone vibrate. He fished it out his pocket, smiled at the picture that appeared, and tapped answer.
"Hey Dad."
"I only have a few minutes but that performance of yours was amazing kiddo. You had me tearing up. The guys in the shop saw it too. You managed to turn a bunch of grown mechanics into softies with your voice." Burt said chuckling proudly. Kurt laughed.
"Well I do tend to have that effect on people." Kurt teased. They both laughed.
"I'm so sorry I couldn't be there to see you. But I promise next time it's something big like this, I will be there." Burt promised.
"It's okay dad. I was upset before but then I saw Carole in the audience and I just felt like...I finally had a family." Kurt murmured all while smiling at Carole who grasped his hand and squeezed it.
"You always have family with us kiddo." Burt said and Kurt knew he was smiling. They've been a family for a while now but this really made the term hit home for Kurt. He finally had a real loving family.
...3 years and a few months later...
"Can you believe we've graduated? These past four years have just flown right by." Blaine said to Kurt joyously. They were out at dinner, celebrating with both of their families after their graduation.
"I feel like I say this after every milestone, but I seriously never saw myself making it this far and being this happy." Kurt murmured. Blaine smiled softly at Kurt and took his hand.
"I did." He said simply. Kurt looked up at him with curiosity.
"Really?" Blaine nodded.
"People like you who keep trying even when you don't see any light at the end of the tunnel, are the most extraordinary kind of people. I always imagined you to just shine no matter what." Blaine whispered, kissing Kurt's hand when he saw him tear up. "Since the moment I saw you, I knew." Kurt leaned his forehead on Blaine's.
"You've gotten even better at making me cry." Kurt groaned. Blaine chuckled and pecked Kurt on the lips. "I always knew you would make it far and be happy. But in the beginning I just thought it would be without me." He admitted then smiled softly as he continued. "I like this scenario much better."
"You and I both." Blaine smiled even wider. "To think that we've been together for almost eight years. We're kind of amazing together."
"We complete each other." Kurt stated seriously.
"I finally found you my missing puzzle piece, I'm complete." Blaine sang quietly causing Kurt to giggle.
"I don't care how weird it might be, but you are so singing that to me at our wedding." Kurt said and Blaine gave him a shocked look before smirking.
"Mr. Hummel is that your way of asking me to marry you?" Blaine teased. Kurt rolled his eyes.
"Do you even know me? You're gonna get a much better proposal than that honey. Just wait and see." Kurt teased back. Blaine laughed and kissed Kurt once again.
"From you I would expect nothing short of amazing."
...A year and a half later...
"This school hasn't changed a bit." Wes said looking around the school wistfully.
"Dalton wasn't really the kind of school to change." Blaine pointed out as they walked down the stairs.
"It was more like a safe haven." Nick chimed in. Jeff snorted.
"Save havens don't have excessive amounts of homework." Jeff said. Nick gave Jeff a mock annoyed look.
"Despite the excessive amounts of homework, I think most of us can agree that this place has brought us a lot of joy." Nick said.
"And Kurt. Don't forget Kurt." David spoke up.
"Technically, Blaine brought Kurt here." Wes said.
"I didn't bring Kurt to Dalton. He came here himself." Blaine rolled his eyes fondly at his crazy friends. It was kind of rare for them all to be in the same place at the same time nowadays. It was nice to be with them.
"Speaking of Kurt, where is he?" Nick asked Blaine.
"He's spending the day with his dad. He said he'll make sure to catch up with us later on." Blaine smiled. Kurt was so happy to be back home. Kurt had seemed very stressed lately with work so Blaine took it upon himself to fix that. He was about to continue walking down the hallway when the boys just pulled him towards where the common room was. "Where are we going?" He asked them suspiciously.
"To the common room." Jeff shrugged.
"Um don't you think that people might be practicing in there?" Blaine asked, narrowing hims eyes at them. Something was up.
"Oh Blaine." David smirked, placing an arm around his shoulder. "We are like school royalty. We can do anything we want."
"Okay Wes you're the only sane person here." He ignored Nick's indignant hey. "What's going on?"
"Just trust us." Wes smiled at him. They made it to the common room and let him inside, but didn't follow him. He frowned when they all just smiled at him and closed the door.
"What the hell guys?" He asked, hearing snickering on the other side of the door.
"Not fun to be on the other side of a surprise is it?" Blaine jumped at the voice he heard. He turned quickly and couldn't help but laugh in disbelief.
"Kurt?" He asked. Kurt was standing in front of him with yellow and red roses.
"Totally cheesy of me right? I almost considered wearing my old Dalton uniform too." Kurt laughed despite, while he walked up to his boyfriend and handed him the flowers.
"Is this the part where you ask me to be your boyfriend?" Blaine teased him.
"No." Kurt smiled. "This is the part where I tell you how special you are to me. How much confidence and strength you gave me to just be myself. How much I love you for all that you've done for me. Blaine you are just so precious to me. I want to spend the rest of my life with you." Kurt got on one knee and looked up at Blaine who was now openly crying. "You are my best friend. You are the love of my life. So Blaine Anderson, will you marry me?" He asked. Blaine nodded, unable to speak just yet. He pulled Kurt up and kissed him hard. He pulled away slowly and smiled.
"Yes, I would love to marry you baby." Kurt was crying now too. He put the ring on Blaine's finger before kissing him again.
"God, I love you so much." Kurt murmured against his lips. They didn't even part when the boys let themselves into the room.
"Okay you two. I don't think it would be appropriate to have sex in the middle of the common room." Wes said. Kurt glared at him halfheartedly when Blaine pulled away from him.
"I'm much classier than that, thank you." Kurt huffed causing all the guys to laugh. Blaine kissed his cheek.
"We're so happy for you two." Nick told them both.
"Yeah, frankly it's about time. I've been waiting for this moment forever." Jeff smiled, hugging them both at the same time.
"So when do you guys start picking your best man? So I can start reminding you of all the wonderful things I've done for you." David said. Kurt shook his head.
"Um excuse you but if anyone they would pick me." Jeff told David, feeling superior.
"Sorry honey, but it's gonna be me of course." Nick patted his boyfriend on the shoulder.
"You guys are you really arguing about this?" Wes asked, always the voice of reason. "They just got engaged." Kurt smiled at Wes.
"Thank you Wes. You really are the only sane one." Kurt said.
"You're welcome. I have to keep them in line because the best man is obviously going to be me." Wes said casually. Causing the other three to get into an actual argument. Kurt and Blaine looked on amused.
"Hey, do you want to get out here and celebrate this engagement?" Blaine asked, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively.
"Let's go." They walked away from the arguing group of boys as discretely as possible.
...A year later...
"I knew having you as a friend would lead to me wearing a fabulous maid of honor dress." Santana spun around in her gorgeous red dress.
"As a fashion designer, I couldn't be more proud of myself. You look stunning." Kurt smiled widely at her through the mirror he was looking at his outfit in.
"Still can't believe you made this dress Porcelain. I mean you randomly decide that you want to do fashion over music and suddenly you're a pro." Santana complimented him.
"Hey, I sometimes do some off Broadway plays but I don't know, I feel at home with both. I've always loved fashion." Kurt said still fiddling with his suit.
"Hummel stop messing around with your clothes. You look amazing. Blaine won't be able to take his eyes off you." Santana said softly, coming over to him and fixing his tie herself. "Now I'm going to go check on Britt, do you need me to send in one of your millions of best men?" She joked. He rolled his eyes. He and Blaine had three best men each. Finn, Wes, and Nick were his and Cooper, Nick, and David were Blaine's. Not the most traditional wedding at all but they didn't care.
"Yeah ask Finn to come." He told her. She kissed his cheek and left the room promptly. Finn appeared a few minutes later.
"Hey, you needed me?" Finn asked.
"Just wanted some company." Kurt smiled at his brother. "How is everything going out there?"
"Well you and Blaine planned this wedding so it's awesome." Finn shrugged causing to Kurt laugh. "Seriously man. I'm so happy for you guys. I can only hope, my and Rachel's will be half as awesome."
"Please, as if Rachel would want anything less than extravagant. You're going to have a pretty kick ass wedding whenever you guys decide to get married." Finn nodded and laughed because he knew how Rachel was.
"You know I've always pictured you and Blaine having a happy ending." Finn admitted. Kurt looked at him half amused, half curious. "Not like the fairytale riding off into the sunset on a carriage kind of thing but like the real deal. You two deserve each other." Kurt walked over to hug Finn tightly.
"Have I ever told you that you're the best brother anyone could possibly have?" Kurt asked.
"Yesterday you yelled at me for not savoring my food enough." Finn reminded him.
"You scarfed down more than half of your food before I even got a chance to sit down!" Kurt said sounding outraged but also giggling along with how silly it was.
"You should take it as a compliment. Your cooking is the best dude." Finn said. Kurt rolled his eyes but smiled. They both turned when they heard a knock on the door.
"Come in." Kurt instructed. The door opened revealing Cooper.
"Everything is all set K. Are ready to finally marry my brother?" Cooper asked, obviously overjoyed.
"Beyond ready Coop. You have no idea." Kurt told him but then frowned at him. "Shouldn't you and Finn be walking down the aisle together already?"
"I came to get Finn, relax groomzilla." Cooper said, snickering when Kurt glared at him. "You know usually the brides maids walk down with the grooms people."
"Well we both have three best men and one maid of honor. And Nick and Jeff, Wes and David, and Santana and Brittany don't mind it." Kurt said tiredly. They've had this discussion numerous times.
"Again, may I point out that all of those people are in relationships with each other." Cooper groaned.
"Not Wes and David." Kurt denied. Cooper scoffed.
"They might as well be. They call all their duets bromantic duets Kurt." Cooper stressed. Finn chuckled. "I'm just saying, I should be walking down the aisle with a beautiful single lady, who I could have a little fun with later." Cooper wiggled his eyebrows suggestively. Kurt shook his head.
"Which is exactly why you are walking down the aisle with Finn, you sex addict." Kurt said opening the door and ushering him and Finn out.
"It's in the Anderson blood K. You're going to have to learn to live with it." Cooper smirked, laughing when Kurt blushed.
"Santana said Kurt is just as bad as Blaine." Finn told Cooper. Kurt closed the door on them immediately. Those are my brothers, he thought, my crazy insane brothers.
A few minutes later his dad poked his head in the door.
"Ready kiddo?" He asked. Kurt nodded.
"I've never been more ready for anything in my entire life."
...4 years later...
"Do you ever think about starting a family?"
Kurt should have seen it coming. Sure he's noticed the reactions Blaine's been having lately, so it shouldn't have been such a surprise that Blaine would want kids. The other day at the supermarket, he was making silly faces at a kid to make him laugh. He cooed every time he saw a couple with a baby. He even babysat for one of their friends before. Blaine was amazing with kids.
Kurt didn't mind kids. He actually wasn't too bad with them either. But the thought of being a father didn't sit right with him for some reason.
"Sometimes." It was the truth. But probably not in the way Blaine thought it was.
"How many kids do you want?" Blaine asked him, obviously happy about having this conversation.
"Don't you think it's a bit early to start thinking about kids?" Kurt asked, hating himself a bit when he saw Blaine's face fall.
"We're 28 years old Kurt. I don't think that too early to start thinking about kids." Blaine said frowning.
"It's a lot of work. It takes forever to get on the adoption lists. Choosing a surrogate would be so hard. Not to mention we would probably need to get another place. Maybe we should just wait a few years." Kurt said, just staring at the TV. He didn't want to see the reaction on Blaine's face fall again.
"It's going to be a lot of work, but it's going to be worth it in the end. Don't you think?" Blaine asked him. Kurt shifted uncomfortably.
"Blaine can we just finish the movie? I don't feel like talking about this right now." Kurt asked, trying to avoid the conversation.
"No we aren't avoiding this anymore." Blaine said taking the remote and turning off the TV. "I've been giving you hints all month and you've been just ignoring them." Kurt looked over at Blaine and was surprised at how choked up about this he was. Even though he shouldn't have been so surprised. Kurt knew how much Blaine wanted to be a dad. "Do you not want to have kids with me?" Those tears in Blaine's eyes hurt so much.
"I want a family with you Blaine. Just not right now." Kurt said taking one of Blaine's hands. He didn't know why he couldn't tell Blaine how terrified the idea of kids made him. Blaine just nodded and turned the TV back on. The rest of the night he barely talked to him.
When Blaine went to sleep that night Kurt stayed awake. He left the bedroom quietly and dialed the number of the only person that may be able to help him.
"Kiddo it's after midnight. Your old man needs some rest you know." Burt said tiredly on the other line. Hearing his father's voice made him feel safe and warm. He could only wish that he would do the same for his own kid. But he could only imagine the worse.
"Blaine wants kids." Kurt blurted out. The line was silent for a bit. "And I know he would be an amazing father but I'm so scared dad. I don't want to mess any one up. I don't want to be the bad parent. I don't know what I'm what I'm doing."
"Buddy do you really think that you will be a bad parent? You're going to be amazing. Parenting is difficult but you'll get the hang of it." When Kurt didn't say anything he continued. "Why are you so afraid?"
"I don't want to mess up someone's life. I know I'm not like mom was but what if having a kid changes that? I would hate myself if I ever hurt my own kid." Kurt cried. He broke off into sobs after that. He jumped when he felt a hand taking the phone out of his hand and an arm wrapping around his shoulders.
"I've got it from here Burt." Blaine murmured. Kurt couldn't make out what his dad said next. "Alright. Yeah we'll call you back in the morning. Okay we love you too. Goodnight." He saw Blaine end the call and put the phone down. He looked at him with sad eyes.
"Why didn't you just tell me you were afraid sweetheart?" Blaine asked him looking a little hurt still.
"I don't know." Kurt admitted. "I didn't want you to leave me."
"Kurt, I would never leave you. If you don't want to have kids, sure I'll be a little sad but I'll get over it because I love you. You are my husband Kurt and I would never do anything to make you feel scared." Blaine said honestly. Kurt was constantly surprised at how much Blaine would sacrifice for him. Kurt always felt bad because of this. Blaine was always so giving.
"You never make me feel scared. It's just...the idea that maybe having a kid would turn me into the person that I've been trying so hard not to become." Kurt tried to explain. He felt as if he were 16 again. Still fearing his mother and afraid that he was only a few steps away from becoming just like her.
"Kurt if you have a kid will you love them no matter what?" Blaine asked him.
"Of course I will." Kurt said without hesitating.
"Would you ever hit them? Or hurt them in any way?" Blaine questioned him.
"No. I wouldn't."
"Then I promise you that you will a great father. That our child will love you so much and they'll feel safe with you." Blaine gave him a small loving smile. "You know what it's like to not feel safe and not feel loved by a parent. I know that you would never treat your child like that." Kurt closed his eyes and rested his head on Blaine's shoulder. He was bursting with emotions that he didn't know how to let out. "You would make a great dad." Kurt whispered. He felt Blaine kiss the top of his head.
"So would you." Blaine murmured. "You're going to be just like your dad. Kind, loving, understanding. It's all going to be okay. I promise you." Kurt nodded, and shifted himself so he was facing Blaine. He took a deep breath and held both of Blaine's hands.
"I want to have kids with you." The smile on Blaine's face was enough to make him know he was making the right decision.
"A-are you sure? Because we can wait. I want you to be completely ready." Blaine said, despite all the happiness he was feeling inside when Kurt said he wanted to have kids. Kurt simply kissed him on the lips.
"Do you want to adopt or get a surrogate?"
...2 years later
"Okay, you guys can go inside and meet all the kids. Just say hi and let me know if you feel a special connection with anyone of them. Take your time." The lady said with a sweet smile on her face. Kurt was a bundle of nerves. He didn't know if he could do this. What if all the kids hated him? He felt Blaine squeeze his hand.
"It's going to be okay." He said. Kurt closed his eyes took a breath and nodded before opening his eyes again.
"Okay. Let's go."
They walk inside and most of the kids are doing there own thing. There are some other people around interacting with some of the kids but otherwise they were preoccupied.
"Where do we start?" Kurt asked quietly. Blaine just walked them over to a table where two kids were coloring together. Blaine introduced himself and Kurt and the he asked the kids about themselves. The kids in turn asked them both to color with them. Blaine did most of the talking since Kurt's nervousness had gotten the best to him. Kurt jumped when he felt a tug on the hand Blaine wasn't holding. He looked over to see a little boy with curly red hair looking up at him.
"H-hello." Kurt said softly, giving the little boy his full attention.
"I'm Oliver. What's your name?" The little boy asked him. Kurt was in shock. This little kid came to him for some reason. Suddenly he felt his nervousness ebbing.
"I'm Kurt." He told him. Oliver nodded and suddenly reached up to his neck. He tensed a bit when he felt the little boy touch his scar that his mother gave him so long ago. He was surprised at how gentle the little boy was.
"I'm sorry." The little boy took his hand away. "I have scratch too." Oliver brushed back the curls that dangled on his forehead revealing a scar going horizontal on his forehead. Kurt's eyes widened and his jaw dropped a bit. "Mine doesn't hurt anymore." Then he looked over to where Kurt and Blaine's hands were intertwined. "Are you married?"
"Uh yeah, this is my husband Blaine." Kurt introduces him. Blaine had been listening the whole time, perfectly content with just watching Kurt interact with the cute little boy.
"Hi Oliver." Blaine greeted him with a smile.
"Are you taking care of him?" He asked Blaine. Which shocked both of them.
"Of course. We take care of each other." Blaine told him. Oliver looked happy with their answer.
"My dad didn't take care of my mom. He was mean to her. One day she was gone and then I was here. Ms. Katie said that she's happy now and she's watching over me. Which makes me happy." Oliver mumbled to them, while climbing into Kurt's lap. Kurt's mouth dropped opened at the boy's words. He seemed like he was no older than six years old or seven years old yet he talked like this. "She said she's going to find a family to take care of me and make me feel safe." He took the crayon that Kurt was using before and started coloring on a blank piece of paper. Kurt looked over at Blaine hoping his eyes were able to tell him what he was thinking.
"Hey Oliver?" Blaine asked him. Oliver looked up at him. "How would you feel like living with us? We would keep you safe." Oliver looked back and forth between the two.
"You want me?" Oliver looked surprised. Kurt wondered how long he had been here for.
"Of course we do. As long as you want to live with us." Kurt said. He was so sure that Oliver was a perfect addition to their family. Was it strange for him to already love a kid he hardly knew?
"I like you." Oliver said beaming happily at Kurt then at Blaine. "Does that mean you'll both be my daddies?"
"Sure buddy. As long as you're okay with that." Blaine said. Oliver scooted himself over to Blaine and hugged him. Blaine looked at him with glassy eyes and Kurt could feel tears in his eyes as well. They were going to be a family. Oliver hugged him next and that's when Kurt knew that this was his family and all his doubts and nervousness were gone.
"Come on let's go tell Ms. Katie." Blaine said standing up and taking Oliver's hand. Oliver reached for Kurt's hand and they walked to the other room together. Being a father wouldn't be easy but Kurt would do anything for this boy and he knew Blaine would too.
...2 years later...
"There's my grandson." Burt said picking up Oliver who had attached himself to his leg. "How are you doing Ollie?"
"Good! I learned my 13 times table! 13 times 1 is 13. 13 times 2 is 26. 13 times 3 is 39..."
"Woah there buddy, I believe you. I bet your uncle Finn doesn't believe you though." Burt said and chuckled when Oliver wiggled himself out of his grip to run over to Finn. Blaine smiled at him.
"He's been really excited about multiplication lately." Blaine told him. Burt laughed and walked over to hug Blaine.
"He's a smart kid. You two are raising him well." Burt patted his back before releasing him. Blaine smiled.
"How could we not? He's the best kid in the world." Blaine said looking over at his son with a proud look on his face.
"He certainly is." Kurt said appearing with Oliver's book bag in the doorway. "Hey dad." Kurt said moving in to hug his dad tightly.
"Hey kiddo." Kurt laughed at the nickname his dad wouldn't let go of even though he was 32 now.
"Where's Ollie? Reciting his times table again?" Kurt asked soundly extremely amused.
"Finn can handle it. He is an elementary school teacher after all." Blaine reminded him.
"Papa! Uncle Finn said he wanted to see if you can say your 13 times table too!" Oliver came running over to drag Blaine to where Finn was. Burt and Kurt snickered at how adorable he was.
"So how's everything been son?" Burt asked.
"Everything has been just amazing dad. I'm so happy he's liking school. He's making friends and he's comfortable at home now. " Kurt sighed happily. Burt was so happy to see Kurt smile like that. The first few months after they adopted Oliver were rough. Oliver had nightmares sometimes, which triggered Kurt's nightmares once again. But no matter what, both Kurt and Blaine managed to stay strong for Oliver and take care of him. He was beyond proud of them both.
"I knew you'd be a great father Kurt. That kid looks up to you and Blaine so much." Burt said and Kurt nodded.
"I know. It's the best feeling in the world. We love him so much." Kurt told him. "It's hard sometimes but he's worth it." They both looked on at Oliver, Blaine, and Finn giggling at something then hiding under the table in the kitchen together.
"Daddy! Grandpa! Come here, we're gonna scare Grandma when she comes home!" Oliver whisper shouted to them. They both laughed and walked over to them.
"Mom is going to kill you for scaring her." Kurt told Burt. Carole and Kurt both didn't like to be scared at all.
"Hey, taking risks keeps things interesting." His dad said with a wink.
"Well I guess this family is always one for taking risks." Kurt sighed dramatically, getting under the table with the others.
"Can we get ice cream after we scare Grandma, Daddy? Papa said we could if you said yes." Oliver whispered.
"Of course sweetie." Kurt smiled at him. He felt Oliver press a kiss to his cheek.
"I love you Daddy." Kurt's smile widened.
"I love you too Ollie."
So what did you think? Let me know by leaving a review. If you need me I'm here crying because i actually finished something.
I'm going to miss writing this story so much. Thank you so much everyone who read it, followed, favorited, and reviewed this story. It really means alot.
I'm thinking about a prequel or maybe drabbles that have to do with this story. Let me know what you think please!
My other idea is of course Kurt centered. Having to do with Kurt not being use to being touchy feely people or people wanting to be around him in general. It will be kind of shy!kurt and it would have some implied violent scenes (not like the ones in this story, completely different) It will be a Klaine story of course. Let me know which idea you would rather read.
(And of course i'll continue lost hope to those of you that read it)
Seriously thank you all and i hope you enjoyed this story. Kurt is basically who i wish i could be if i didn't have anxiety (the warrior thing in the last chapter refers to my tattoo i recently got as a reminder to stay strong..thats just a little unnecessary fun fact).
So until next time everyone! xx