Story of my life, searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul 'cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

Elena was trying to choose between the two brothers she'd fallen for. But, every time she thought she found the right choice, the other did something to change she mind. she knew it was wrong, but she couldn't make up her mind.

He's more than a man and this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

Stefan was more than a man, he was vampire and the way she felt, it was so much more than lust and love. It was the reason the sky was blue and the grass was green. He was the air she needed to live and she was his heart.

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be a murderer

He knew she was spending more time with Damon, and it hurt him. He knew they were out having a good time somewhere he couldn't see them. Elena could see something inside him break away and die every time she walked away from him to talk to or comfort Damon. She didn't want to hurt him anymore.

I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek, he's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Elena was fixing her hair for a date with Stefan when a kiss landed on her cheek. She spotted Damon laying on her bed.

"You're going out?" He murmured.

"I won't be gone to long, just hanging out with Bonnie and Caroline." She could tell he knew that wasn't truth and he answered in a dead voice.

"Have fun."

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be a murderer

Damon had had it so much worse than Stefan, and she knew it killed him to see her with Stefan. She saw him sinking lower every time. She didn't want to do this, she wasn't Katherine. Why did they both have to be so good to her?

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun
And put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore, anymore

They both trusted her and both loved her. They knew that she was with both of them, but pretended not to. She might as well have staked them both for the pain she was causing.

And I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be a murderer
A murderer, no no no
Yeah

Tonight she laid in bed with Damon, was going to school with Stefan tomorrow, having a movie date with Damon, then spending the night in Stefan's room. It was hurting all three of them, but none of them said so.