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-Honestly, tonight's episode was so fucking amazing. Eli's the cutest boy to ever walk this earth.
And I liked how Clare was being all rebellious.. But next week; she takes it too far. Haha;
But I'm hoping the two make up; because they were honest to God adorable tonight! (:
What did you guys think of the episode?

-SongSuggestion ; "These Roses" by Gin Wigmore (:
And another song suggestion(; - "The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore" by James Morrison

MUST READ; In this chapter, I do Clare's POV for a little bit, towards the end.
I just wanted to try some thing new by showing what she's thinking in her head.
The whole story is in Eli's POV, just every once in a while- I might put a chapter in
Clare's POV (: - Hope you guys like it !

Chapter Thirty Six
"I Will Stay Addicted To You"

I woke up Monday morning, at 6:30; feeling like hell.

But it was kind of a normal routine for me now a days.. I always woke up feeling like a douche bag.

I'll admit it.. I suck; but I don't care- I can't care. I refuse to let it get to me.

I took a shower and then took a seat at my desk, opening up my laptop.

I went on twitter; I had a twitter account- but never used it. I had only made one because Clare had forced me to.

She claimed 'it was a way to express your feelings in short sentences'

I wasn't a fan of communicating with people though. I liked keeping to myself.

I was only going to this site to see what Clare had tweeted after our altercation last night.

I went to her page and scrolled down-

I began reading her tweets from last night..

11:59 PM - "Sick and tired of pretending to care for others who don't care for me. I'm done."

12:47 AM - "I can't fall asleep.. which explains my excessive tweeting.. I miss you/:"

1:33 AM - "Well I can't explain why it's not enough; cause I gave it all to you.. And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now; It's the better thing to do.. It's time to surrender, it's been to long pretending. There's no use in trying, when the pieces don't fit anymore."

2:03 AM - "I'll hide all the bruises.. I'll hide all the damage that's done.. But I'll show how I'm feeling, until all the feeling has gone."

2:10 AM - "And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call.. You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all... I will stay addicted to you."

Reading those made me feel sick to my stomach - I was so disgusted in myself.

How could I let her go? How could I hurt her so bad?

I guess I am a jackass.. but I've always known that.

It isn't some thing hard to see. It's pretty obvious.

I got ready for school, all though I didn't want to. Soon, I was in Morty; getting ready to leave.

I dreaded sitting in stupid classes that are insignificant to me and my life. Let's face it, I'm leaving after this week.. What's the point in trying any more?

I pulled up to Degrassi, and sat in my car. I kept my music on, and I just sat there- Blankly staring forward.

I never wanted to see Clare unhappy. But after reading her twitter, I know that she is.

I keep trying to not think about her, or this situation.. But she's all I've got.

Instead of thinking about this for the next half hour- I exited Morty and began walking towards the front doors.

I entered the school and approached Adam, who was talking to his brother; Drew.

"Adam, can I talk to you?" I asked him.

"Sure man." He answered, as he took a few steps from Drew "What's up?"

"I told Clare I was moving.. and we broke up." I told him.

"Ouch man. What did she say?"

"She yelled at me and I was harsh and cruel.. I said things I didn't mean- and she cried."

"Damn." Was all Adam could seem to say.

Yeah, that really makes me feel better...

"I know man." I replied. As I said this- I took notice to Clare walking through the front doors.

She stopped and the two of us made eye contact. I could barely breathe as I looked in to her eyes. She then suddenly shook her head and began walking the opposite way of me.

I sighed and looked to the ground - "How do I fix this?" I asked Adam.

"Clare's stubborn. You need to do some thing bigger then you ever have before." He answered "Try to find a way to stay here, instead of moving. I'm positive that she would like that."

"Obviously she would; but it's not going to happen. I've talked to both of my parents- and both are claiming there's no way out. I can't even bring Morty with me.. I'm fucked." I explained to Adam.

"I don't know what to tell you then." He responded.

Thanks for the help...

I sighed once again, and stood there.. Trying to fix some sort of plan in my brain.

English Class..

I walked in to class five minutes late.

"Mr. Goldsworthy, your late." My teacher informed me.

I clearly knew that.. Thanks for the 'update' asshole..

"Take a seat." My teacher demanded

I nodded and walked to my desk; Clare and I made eye contact as I approached my seat. I then sat down- wanting to turn towards her and tell her I loved her.

But let's face it.. Even if I had told her I loved her.. She wouldn't care.

Clare's done with me, and I don't blame her.. 'Cuz I'd be done with me too..

-CLARE'S POV-

God, he was beautiful. His every move was like an angel was present. The way he'd nervously walk towards me and look straight in to my eyes. I was nervous when we made eye contact.. I felt like he could see and hear what I was thinking- what I was feeling.

In honest words- I found Eli to be perfect; the best boy I've ever met in my life.

But he always seemed to mess it up. He always seemed to find some way to screw the whole thing up. As much as I wanted to be with him- I couldn't. I couldn't continue to put myself out there, when all he was going to do was tear me down. He's human; he makes mistakes- I understand that. But how many 'second chances' am I supposed to give this boy?

I don't plan on getting hurt, time after time. Eli causes the pain.. So I have to stop the cause.

On the other hand though.. I'm so in love with this boy. Sure, I'm young- but he is the most perfect boy in the world. When his hands touch mine; I can barely speak. When ever his lips touch mine; I feel butterflies and my lips go numb. Just every little thing he does makes me want him more.

I'm hoping he read my Twitter.. I want him to know that I miss him, but I can't keep dealing with him. I guess I'm sending mixed signals- but he always sends me mixed ones.. So, I refuse to feel bad.

The bell rang, and I just sat there- awaiting for him to turn towards me and give me his beautiful 'half smirk'. Thank God, he did..

"Hey." He softly stated.

Stay strong Clare; Eli's not worth the pain.. Don't give in.

I didn't say anything, I just gave him a blank stare. The best way to show people your done with them is to show no emotion at all. I don't want him back- and I needed to show him that.

"Just talk to me.. Please." He begged. God, was he adorable when he begged.

"Hi." I harshly replied; I liked playing 'hard to get'. He seemed to get so mad that he wasn't winning. Eli expected me to chase after him, that's why I loved making him chase after me.

"Clare. Seriously, can't we make our last week together special?"

-Our last week together.. hearing that just makes it hurt so much more. Although I was refusing to go back to him - I really did not want him to leave.

He held me together.. Even when he was breaking me apart.

"Eli. I quit. Spend your last week with Adam or your mom.. I'm not going to be here to get hurt once more. I'm done- We're done." I told him. I needed to stand up for myself every now and then..

"Clare; I don't want to spend my last days with them. I want to spend them with you."

Please stop.. Your making me want you so much more.

"That's too bad." I, again, played hard to get.

"What about the dance Saturday?" He reminded me. Dammit, I forgot about the dance..

"What about it?"

"You said you'd go with me? Remember? I asked you two weeks ago." He informed me.

I was caught between what I wanted to do and what I should do..

Go to the dance with Eli? Or not go at all?

"I don't know Eli. Maybe you should just go to the dance alone." I know that seemed like a harsh thing to say- but I'm sick of caring. I'm sick of being Saint Clare who gives every one three billion chances. For now on; you hurt me once- and we're done.

"Clare- come on." He begged.

"No Eli. I'm honest to God done. Your leaving on Sunday anyways.. What's the point of getting back together if we're never going to see each other." I responded- as I stood up from my seat, with my books in my hands. "Goodbye Eli."

I then exited the classroom.

I, myself, was even shocked with how confident I was with my decisions. I wanted the boy more then any thing in the world, and I just turned him down.. But right now, I'm not mad at myself.

I know I've messed up though.. But I'm doing this for me; and no one else.

I will always love Eli, though. I'll always be addicted to him.