thanks to anyone reviewing. all your reviews make me smile lol
I have had some serious time on my hands since school is out. I got the job I applied for which is at the school so I won't be taken away from writing ;) and i dont start school or the job for a month. let the story continue...

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Olivia and Elliot were back at the apartment. Most of their day off was gone already. Olivia was getting ready for that run she needed. Running was a stress reliever for her as well, and today she was stressed out just watching Elliot go through what he did.
"El, do you wanna go with me?"

"If you still want me to. Not gonna lie, I'm no better at running than I was before." He chuckled.

"It doesn't matter. You don't have to. I was just asking."

"Liv, what's wrong? You haven't hardly made eye contact with me since we left my mom's."

"Nothing. I'll go on my own. No big deal." She lied. Even though she loved Elliot she still had her walls and guards up constantly. She started walking towards the door to leave, but Elliot stopped her.
"El, let me out."
"Not until you tell me what's wrong."

She hesitated. "El, it's really not a big deal. Just me being moody. It's my time of the month, now move." She made another excuse.
"Make me." He knew she wouldn't. He could see it in her eyes she was holding back tears. Not from him stopping her, just the weight of the day getting to her.

"Tell me."
"If I do, you'll think I'm crazy." After she said that he grabbed her hands.

"I would never think that, ever. You've seen crazy in me and my mom. If anyone's crazy it's me and her," he said, trying to lighten the mood. It worked. She started tearing up again and opened up.

"I...I just feel...like if you can forgive your mom for all the shit she's done then why can't I?"

"You have to figure out the best time to do it for yourself. I did it because I hadn't even thought about it until you brought up your mom. I needed to do it, for me. You have to do it for yourself. Not for me, or someone else, just for you." That was it. Him saying that was the opening of the floodgates. She started crying and he just pulled her into a hug.

"I think we should go right now, El. I wanna just talk to her though and I'll see where that leads. Okay?"

"Okay Liv."

It was a beautiful moment between them until his cell phone rang. "Sorry, Liv, I've gotta get it. Stabler. Kathy. So great to speak to you again. No not really. Why the fuck are you calling me? Oh that's lovely. Why won't you do it? I have to go." He hung up the phone. "I ordered that there be a paternity test on the baby. She's refusing it right now. So now I have to call Novak and see if I can't get a judge to force her to take one."

He got on the phone with Casey. "Hey, yeah my ex wife is refusing to get a paternity test on the baby. She's 5 months supposedly. Okay, thanks." He hung up the phone, exhaling heavily. "Casey's gonna get a judge to sign for a paternity test. Casey said she's far enough along to get a judge to compel one."

"At least we're both having a shitty day. At least we're not at work," Olivia said, not wanting to think about what the stress would be like on top of work.

"True. You really wanna go right now?"

"Yes. I have to start learning to let things go. She's dead. Nothing's gonna change now. Come on."

They grabbed chinese food from their favorite place as a way to help the day they'd had.

Elliot was tense just going to the cemetery with her. He didn't know what to expect.

She hesitated getting out of the car, just like he did when he went to his mom's.

He was willing to sit there with her until she was ready. She dealt with him, and he was ready to deal with her.

"Okay, I'm going. Will you come with me?"

"Of course."

They walked up to the tombstone of Serena Benson.

Olivia just stood there for a minute, not sure of what to say.

"It's been a while since I came around. I have to talk to you now." She started crying. Elliot didn't do anything. He was giving her space to feel the emotions she needed to feel. He would comfort her later.

"I'm gonna say what I need to say. I wanted to say that all the shit that you did to me as a kid...it's made me who I am. You were never the best mom. I was taking care of you more than you took care of me. I can't believe I'm saying any of this to you, because I never talked to you when you were alive because I thought somehow you would learn how to be a mom and come running after me. I was pissed off about everything. I should have learned to let it go. You were a victim, and now I know what it's like. But why didn't you...get help?" She paused, silently sobbing.

"Why did you have...me? What made you hit me? What made you yell and scream at me all the time? Why didn't you just ever talk to me or say you were sorry for anything? I'm just wondering what kind of pain you must have felt to make you hit me. Why didn't you just give me up? Spare me the pain. Your stubborn like that." She gave a small chuckle. "I guess I get it from you. I understand why you had so much pain, though. You had to look at me every day and relive what he did to you. I am a victim, just like you."

Elliot couldn't help it. He was tearing up hearing Liv talk to her mom. There was so much she wanted to say, so much pain and anger.

"Mom, I couldn't fix you, and I couldn't save you. So right now, I'm letting go of everything, and I'm letting go of you. I..." She started sobbing at the words she was about to say. "I...for...forgive you mom." She sat there crying, realizing what she had just said. It was another minute before Elliot ran up to her and just held her.

"You did great Liv."

They went back to the apartment. Olivia just didn't feel the burden she felt before. She still hadn't gone for a run that day. She told Elliot as soon as they got back, "I've gotta go, right now. It's 8 already. I'll be back in a bit."
"Be careful Liv."
"I will be. Bye."

She walked out the door and plugged in her headphones. She stretched and was ready to run forever it seemed. The song "What Doesn't Kill You (Stronger)" by Kelly Clarkson came on. She smiled a bit because it paralleled her life at the moment perfectly.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter, footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause your gone
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger

That song could empower anyone when their down.

She ran through the park without a problem. She ran for almost 40 minutes and felt much better. She ran off those extra calories but also it didn't feel like she was as stressed.

She walked about a tenth of a mile home to cool down.

"Hey El, I'm home!"

She didn't hear anything. She instantly became nervous. She grabbed her gun off of the sidetable and started stalking down the hallway. She checked the bathroom first. Nothing.

Next was the bedroom. She went in and didn't see anything out of the ordinary.

"Boo!" Elliot grabbed at her sides and scared her. She screamed and turned around quickly.
"Holy shit Elliot! I thought something happened to you! I hate you right now!" Her heart was beating so fast from the adrenaline and getting scared.

"Sorry." He tried to kiss her to say sorry to but she just backed away.
"No, your not getting away with it that easily."

"Aw come on it was a harmless prank."

"Nope." She tried getting around him to get out of the bedroom but he wouldn't let her through.
She tried pushing him but he didn't budge.
"Come on El, I have to pee. Is that a crime now?" She tried lying her way around him, hoping he would feel bad enough for her to let her through.

"Maybe." He started slinking towards her as she backed up. She saw her chance. She tried making a break for it but he just grabbed her.

"Elliot let me go!" He just held her hands and then used a police move to get them behind her back.
"WHAT are you doing?" She was confused and getting annoyed quickly.
"Getting you to forgive me."
"No, your just really pissing me off!" He could tell she was pissed, but he wasn't letting her go.

"Elliot, I'm gonna warn you one more time. Let me go," she said seriously.

"No." He poked his fingers into her in various places. It tickled her. Each poke caused her body to twitch and caused her to give a tiny yelp each time.

She made her move. She tried head butting him only to fail.
He chuckled, "You really are a rookie," he whispered in her ear, sending chills down her spine.
"What are you getting at Stabler?"

"You haven't learned enough yet." He started kissing her neck.
"What are you doing?" She held composure in her voice. She was fighting a moan.

He reached around the front of her to grope her breasts. She didn't want to give him that satisfaction. Her breathing increased a bit and so did his. He unzipped her jacket, exposing her bra clad breasts.

"El, what..." She couldn't form the words.

He reached and touched her core. She couldn't fight it anymore, she moaned in response. She felt his hardening member in her backside. He stopped what he was doing and completely got off of her.

Once she gained composure she turned to him, still breathing heavily, "What El, can't finish what you started?"

"Payback, from this morning."

"I didn't grope you this morning. I kissed you."

"You might as well have."

"Okay fine. I'm gonna go watch TV." She finally walked out of the room, pissed off he would do that to her. He grabbed her and threw her back in the bedroom.

"You're not getting away that easily. You still haven't forgiven me. Don't make me pin you on the ground."

"You're never gonna hear me say that."

"I can change that." He kissed her and started undressing her again.

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It was a heavy scene so i had to lighten it up at the end lol. i know in the beginning when elliot has casey compel a paternity test from a judge that its unrealistic because a mom does not have to give one from the baby because of maternal rights and what not.. i figured it would be quicker to do a paternity test than wait til the baby was born tho.
and thats a real song by kelly clarkson! awesome song and thats all ive listened to and it just fit into the chap.
anyways hope you liked it lol.