Chapter 35

Bella's POV

It was early morning when we decided to head back to the cabin, as I still had some questions that needed to be answered. As we neared, Peter and Emmett, both started yelling at Jasper about projecting. I couldn't help the laughter that escaped me, causing Jasper to look at me.

"Hey, I thought going out to the river would have gotten us far enough away from everyone else," I said once I stopped laughing.

"You got to be shitting me. You were by the river," Emmett said as we came through the trees into the back yard.

"Damn Bro, next time ask Bella to shield you. My dick hurts from all the sex, and you know how Char gets when you are projecting," Peter said.

The guys all seemed to being blaming Jasper, but if you looked at all the females, they had huge smiles on their faces.

We went up stairs, so we could shower and change out of our ripped up clothes. As we were showering, I started to think back to all that I had heard as I was burning. I knew that I needed the answers to those questions. Are we going to be at war with the wolves? What was my dad told?

"Darlin' you look deep in thought. Anything I can help you with?" He asked me.

"I'm just thinking about stuff I heard while I was burning," I answered back.

"You keep amazing me Darlin', as most don't remember what they heard while burning," he said to me.

"Well I remember a lot and just so you know, I am still pissed at you for changing me. However, the sex was incredible," I said smirking at him.

I had to slap his hands away from my body a few times as I was trying to dress. Part of me wanted him touching me, but my answers were more important than another round of Jasper's grabby hands.

"Jasper, please. We can have more fun after I get my answers," I growled at him after he tried touching me once again.

"Why are we wasting our time talking with the family, when we can spend the next few days naked?" He said pulling on his t-shirt. I licked my lips at that thought, causing myself to moan, which only caused him to smirk at me. I hurried and finished up getting dressed.

As we came down the stairs, both Tanya and Irina glared at me before saying, "This is all your fault if you would have just died our lives would have been perfect," came from both the girls in unison.

I am so sick of people blaming me for their screwed-up lives. I acted without thinking as I leaped and beheaded Tanya, throwing her head through the window. I was just about to do the same to Irina, when Jasper did it for me.

I could feel everyone looking at me.

"I did nothing to those two. I think we should have burned them with Aro and Alice," I said not feeling I had done anything wrong.

"I'm not saying I condone what they did to help Edward and Alice. However, do they deserve death for their crime?" Carman asked.

"Carman, I know you don't know me from Adam, but I did nothing but love Edward. Only later to be told that I was just a pawn in a sick game that nearly destroyed me. Those two admitted to helping them and kept them informed of my whereabouts. I should have seen to it that Edward also lost his life. It should be against our laws for one to mess with another's soul mate," I said my voiced laced with anger.

"I would have to agree with Bella on that one. I would hate for someone to have kept us from each other," Eleazar said.

"I don't want to talk about Edward or Alice. I want to know what was told to my dad." I replied, changing the subject.

"Well, he knows the truth, as Jacob told him everything," Carlisle replied answering my question.

"Are we going to be at war with Jacob and his friends?" I asked.

"No, the treaty I signed with Jacob's great grandfather covered the Cullens, not the Whitlocks, and you and Jasper were way outside the treaty boundaries, and why refer to the pack has his friends?" Carlisle explained while adding his own question in for me.

"I said friends because, I know many of them are just that and the few times I had talked with Jake, he only referred to them as his friends," I stated back before adding, "So, will I be able to talk with and visit my dad?"

"Once we know for sure that your blood lust is under control, I don't see why not," Carlisle answered.

"Can I talk to him on the phone? I miss him, and I didn't even get to say bye to him," I said giving Jasper a look.

"I don't see why not," Jasper replies

"I have one more question," I said.

"We will answer whatever you ask," Carlisle said.

"I understand why none of you stepped in when Jasper claimed and bit me. I also understand why you all kept your distance when I went after him. Is this anger I feel towards him normal?' I asked causing everyone to laugh.

"It's a very normal reaction. The only difference between you and a normal newborn is that you can think. Most act on pure instincts and for you, it seems to be thought and then an executed plan," Jasper answered my question.

"Why am I so different from a normal newborn? I asked needing my answers.

"This is just a guess. I have no real answer for that question, but to me, it's because you were supposed to be one of us," Carlisle stated.

"That doesn't make sense because Michael and Michelle saw themselves as vampires. They both have acted more like normal newborns than me. The only exception being that Michelle has never once craved human blood," I stated back.

"Darlin', does it really matter as to why you can think about your actions before you act?" Jasper asked as he ran a finger down my side.

Slapping his hand away before answering, "Yes, why can't I be normal for once in my life?" My question caused everyone to laugh. After a moment, I laughed right along with them.

I have never been normal. I should have known that even becoming a vampire was not going to make me normal.

We all talked for a while longer as we started asking Demetri and Heidi questions, so we could get to know them. My family is not the family I had dreamed about years ago when I first learned about vampires, but I will take it as it is.