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EPOV

"She is going to be fine Edward, you have to trust me."

"You know I trust you Alice. I am just…confused."

"About what?"

"The woman I love is sitting up in surgery for some reason that I do not know about. You will not fill me in nor will any of the staff here. She is carrying a baby that is not mine and that I…to be honest Alice, I almost hate it because of what it is doing to Bella." I looked at Alice's face, begging her with my eyes to let me in to what she already knew was happening. He mind raced with confusion, going back and forth between Bella laying in a hospital bed and random places we have lived since becoming vampires. She was fighting whether or not to tell me what was going on.

"Edward…" Her mind went to a new scene. One where Bella was screaming but the pain was no longer physical. Her heart was breaking.

"Alice, what does this mean?"

"She is no longer pregnant Edward." Frozen in thought, I tried to process the information. She came in pregnant but will be leaving with nothing. My confusion grew even more and I tried to figure out why I once hated the thing growing inside of her but now longed for its return. The baby would never be mine, but Bella deserved something better than this. She would wake up from surgery to remove a baby she didn't even know she was carrying. I never thought it was possible but I hate James more than I ever had. I will find him and make him suffer for the things he has done to Bella.

No, Edward! You can't just go back on everything you have built to this point. Alice's thoughts intruded on my plans.

"Alice, you do not understand…"

You don't understand! You would be risking more than you realize if you go out and hunt for James. Focus on Bella. Focus on taking care of her and helping her get through this, not your own selfish intentions.

I was angry but Alice was right. Bella would be waking up soon and I had to remember that she was going to have to deal with this and I had to be there for her. I could deal with James later…

BPOV

Lights. I don't remember these lights. Hotel? Too bright. My body feels so tired and I wish that beeping would stop. It smells weird in here.

"Edward?" I could barely get the words out but I knew that he would hear me. If I could only get my eyes to open, maybe I would be able figure out where I was. It was almost too bright to open them. What is going on? The last thing I remember is sitting in the back seat of the car with Edward. Where was he?

"Edward?" This time I was able to open my eyes and look for him. Hospital? Why am I in the hospital? Where is Edward? Where is anyone?

"Edward!" my heart began to race and my body shook with fear. Why was I in this place? I can't remember anything. The beeping went faster and my heart began to pound.

"Bella?"

"Edward? Where were you? Why am I here? What happened to me?" He rushed to my side but I was not comforted by the look on his face. I looked down at myself and realized how many machines I was hooked up too and the slight pain in my stomach. I looked back at Edward and his eyes were black and concerned. He said nothing.

"I need you to tell me what happened."

"What is the last thing you remember, Bella?"

"We were in the car from the airport. I remember being sick on the plane and just not feeling well. Did I get the flu or something?" I started to relax a little and a smile came over my face. I didn't believe I could actually embarrass myself more than I had before.

"I'm sorry I am human" I weakly giggled hoping to draw a more relaxed look from Edward as well. He just stared at me.

"Edward, I am fine. It was just some food poisoning or something. I am so embarrassed that you had to bring me here for that." His face continued to lack emotion other than worry.

"You are starting to scare me. Talk to me Edward!"

"Bella, it was not food poisoning" His face was stone. I was no longer relaxed.

"What's wrong with me?" I spoke slowly. I almost didn't want to hear the answer to the question. I fought back tears I knew were going to fall. I tried to reach back in my memory for what had happened over the past couple of hours but the information was too scattered to make sense.

"We came to the hospital because of the pain you were having in your stomach. They took you right to surgery."

"But why? I mean the stomach pain could have been from anything. How did they know I needed surgery?" I was becoming more confused. A soft knock came from the door. Alice walked in to the room as well as Esme.

"I think you should step out of the room for a moment Edward." Alice had the same frozen look upon her face. There was a lack of emotion as both Alice and Edward stared at each other. Esme looked as though she was fighting back tears, if it were possible for her to cry. She walked up to Edward and laid her hand on his arm. I thought I saw her lips move but I didn't hear a sound. Another moment where I wished I was a vampire so I could hear what they were talking about.

"I don't want Edward to leave. Don't go, please!" The tears fell. He walked to my side and sat on the edge of the bed. His cool hands gently touched my cheek.

"I will not be far. I promise." My heart sank. I didn't want him to leave me ever, especially not now. He leaned in a kissed my forehead. I could not stop more tears from falling, almost begging him to stay. He was out of the room instantly and Esme and Alice sat on the bed.

"Bella, the pain in your stomach was due to a miscarriage." My head began to spin. Nothing was making sense at this point. I stared at Esme as though she was speaking a foreign language.

"They had to rush you into surgery because you started to lose the baby." Baby?

"They were able to get everything cleaned out so you should heal quickly…"Their voices started to fade into the background and my mind took control.

"I need to be alone…" I stared at the wall across the room, not looking at either of them.

"Bella, are you sure you want to be alone? We can ask Edward to come back in now?"

"I need to be alone…"

"Sweetheart, I don't know if that is for the best. Please let one of us stay with you or let us get Edward." I slowly turned towards Esme.

"I need to be alone…" They looked at one another and quickly left the room.

Alone. I wish Edward was here but I needed to work through this. A baby was growing inside of me and I didn't even know it. Now there was nothing. I was confused because I was not sad about losing the baby but angry. I was beyond mad because James took so much from me and not only did he put me through torture, he had gotten me pregnant. Then a miscarriage. Was it a blessing? Why did this have to happen to me? Why was I the one he had to find and put through this? I hate him. I hate him more than anything or anyone I have hated before. My heart was pounding in my chest. It could have exploded. I would never have a normal life. This would always sit in my heart and on my mind. I hate him. I hate him. I HATE HIM!!! A scream erupted from my body. Tears of anger flowed from my eyes and my hands gripped the sheets below me. Another scream followed and it was something that started to scare me. There was pain all over my body, some from the physical ordeal I had just been through and some from the emotional struggle I was now facing. I didn't want this. I didn't want any of this. All I wanted was…

"EDWARD!!!"