Please see chapter one for all warnings etc…
Make My Heart Start Beating
37
Considering we went to bed late last night I wake up a bit earlier than my alarm and Sebastian is wrapped around me spooning me with a very hard piece of anatomy jabbing me in my back.
Technically I still owe him from last night.
Morally torn I turn over to face him and he jabs me in my stomach. Nibbling my lip I decide to try and wake him up with a kiss and I end up getting an 'hmm' from him.
Kissing down his jaw I take my time on his neck and his shoulder. My hands roam his torso and I'm getting turned on with the puffs of breaths he gives and the way his hips buck now and again. He's warm to the touch and my fingers explore him as thoroughly as I can.
"Hmm, tiger," his voice is sleepy and its exactly what I've been waiting for. Pushing him onto his back my hand skitters down his stomach following the path of freckles and I really want to take my time there another day. Reaching the waistband of his boxers I get them down and off and he mutters, "Seriously? God tiger, what a way to wake up."
Kissing down his stomach and chasing a few stray freckles as I go, I lap at his now fully engorged cock and I get to taste his pre cum. Salty with an aftertaste of Sebastian. I'm fairly sure I'll choke myself if I deep throat him and settle for licks and small sucks with plenty of fingers and hands.
Sebastian thrashes slightly as I work on him and I try and remember what he did to me, translating licks to his foreskin and the way he'd fondled my balls. Taking more of him into my mouth I bob slowly doing my best to not catch him with my teeth and to keep up the suction.
I can't be doing too badly as I get more and more pre cum from him and then he's tapping me on the shoulder, "Tiger, nearly there, babe." I give him the same wink he gave me and he chuckles, "Okay mon amour," I jump at the name and then I'm busy swallowing around the pulsing cock in my mouth as he cums with a strangled groan.
Flat out on his back Sebastian's panting with his eyes closed and even now he's smirking. One eye cracks open slightly and he blows me a kiss, "Tiger, you can do that anytime you want," he rubs his face and crooks a finger at me.
Laying down next to him I startle when he pulls me in for a hug and angles so he kisses me. I jerk my head away when his tongue runs along my lip but he just encourages me to open up and then our tongues tangle, he breaks the kiss to mutter, "Fuck that's sexy, tasting me in your mouth."
A bang on my door is followed by, "Boy's you have work today, don't be late," and my dad stomps off down the hall.
"Cockblocker," is all Bas says and we get up. I grab the shower first and argue against sharing as he'll only distract me, "But tiger, that's what the shower's for."
"No Bas, showers are for washing," and I the close the door in his pouting face, "I won't be long," I sing through the door at him to hear him groan again.
It isn't until I'm dressing that I realise I bypassed the scales completely, I didn't need them, Sebastian's eyes where more than enough to say that I looked good. Bouncing down the stairs for breakfast I breeze into the kitchen.
To find Finn raiding the fridge, "Finn!"
He jumps guiltily, "Hey Kurt, wow you're dressed and not pinning Bas, you know you should ask him first and have you seen the bread?"
Rolling my eyes I get him the bread from the cupboard, "Thanks bro, hey bro?"
"Hmm?" I'm getting mixing bowls out for homemade pancakes, heart healthy versions for dad.
"Are you and Bas," and when did my brother start calling Sebastian Bas? "Serious? You seem kinda serious and I've not seen you this glowy and happy in..." the man frowns, "Nope can't think when, a long time. So are you serious? I mean the two of you."
Stunned I stand there awkwardly, "I think so. I mean I'm fairly sure I am." I'm not sure how to explain it to Finn. "I know Bas' reputation, and I know what he was like as a kid, and I think he like likes me," oh that is so High School of me. "We've not really talked about it though," I flush guiltily, "And after my little moment of running away so he couldn't break up with me..." I stop at the knowing look on his face, "Okay Finn spill."
A big sappy grin breaks out, "Bro you should have seen it, Bas started texting Dave to find out if you were still alive and then when you asked if I wanted to go to the fair the next day I totally went all James Bond on you and took you off so they could stage an intervention for you and Kyle says Burt grilled Sebastian for like hours and he wouldn't budge until he got you in his life," I'm swinging between being flattered at how far Sebastian's gone to keep me and annoyed at my family for interfering in my life even if I did need it. And I'm worried how Finn got that out in one breath, I know he's practicing speeches but he needs to breathe.
"So then I coordinated and got your phone and there were only calls from Bas on there," I get an even bigger grin from him, "And then you got sick and then Bas made you all better."
And then Finn frowns, "Bro? What happens if Bas breaks your heart?" He looks really worried now, "You're not going to go all zombie like again are you?"
I can't resist those puppy eyes and hug him, "No I'm not going to go all zombie like."
"Good," warm arms hold me, "'Coz the others are all going on about how horrible Bas was in high school but none of us were perfect, except maybe Tina and Mike most of the time, and if we all got to grow up to be nice people then why can't Bas? So I told them to butt out and leave you alone, and then Mercedes got scarey on them and they backed down."
"Thank you," I mean it and add, "Finn, you don't have to worry about me being a zombie anymore. I've woken up now," I mix in David's metaphor too for sleeping beauty. "And the only reason it all went so bad was because I put all my dreams on NYADA and Blaine and I forgot everything else, I forgot my family, my friends, my various other talents. I was so focused on NYADA being my ticket out of Lima that it crushed me when I didn't get in and Rachel did, I did everything right and I still wasn't good enough for them.
"And then I broke up with Blaine because of his horrible parents, and Blaine didn't fight for me, I wasn't worth it to him, and I just couldn't cope. All my life everyone has told me no, or that I'm ugly, or too gay, or too everything but perfect. And the one guy in my life who was supposed to love me walked away like it was easy to do and..." Oh god it still hurts, but it's more of a sting now than a full-blown stab in my heart.
I rest my head on Finn's chest and he holds me, now this was something he wouldn't have done so easily back then, he might still get freaked out by the gay thing but he's much calmer with it too. "With Bas, he's, hopefully, going to be a huge thing in my life, a giant massive thing, but he won't be everything. I really, really like the Bastian I know now, and I want to know everything about him, I want him to know everything about me, even the bad bits and I'm scared," I can finally admit it, "I'm scared I won't be enough for him and he's going to move on as easily as Blaine did."
"Bro," Finn gets his inspirational look on his face but before he can say anything...
"I'm scared too," Sebastian is standing by the kitchen door, "After everything I've done in my fucked up life, why the hell should you even like me and yet you say you really like me," that blank unreadable look is back on his face.
"I do," I tell him, "I really really like like you," and I sound like I'm twelve telling a boy I have a crush on him.
"I really really like like you too," he says.
We stand there staring at each other and we're both adults we should be able to do this, but we stand there like idiots. And then Finn pushes me from behind until I'm safe in Sebastian's arms.
"That's better," my brother declares and then asks, "So where's the butter?"
A/N: Sorry for any and all mistakes, I've tried to catch those I could, but I'm only human.