The week had gone by faster than we wanted it to and it was sadly time to leave to go back on the road. Jon had gotten along so well with both my parents and it was wonderful to witness. He finally had parents, even if they weren't blood.

*buzz buzz*

I felt my phone vibrating on the table as I leaned over to grab it.

*Incoming Call: Colby*

I rolled my eyes. I have been ignoring his calls and texts the whole week. I knew I would be seeing him in less than twenty four hours and he had no idea that I had chosen Jon. I care about Colby, I do, but he is toxic. More than anything I want to make him happy but my happiness needed to come first.

"Babe.. you ready?" I heard Jon ask as he entered the bedroom. I zipped up my suitcase as he came over to my side to grab it. I hit ignore on my phone as I slide it in my back pocket. "You okay?" He asked. I wanted so badly to lie, but we were starting fresh.

"No… no I'm not." I pulled my phone back out as I showed him my missed calls. "He hasn't stopped blowing my phone up."

Jon sighed. "As much as I hate to say this… call him back."

I looked at him confused. "What? Why?" I asked.

"He deserves to know Maddy. He was waiting just as long as I was for your decision but he has no idea that it's me. As much as I hate the thought of you talking to him again, he is still a man with a heart. Well… at least I think he has one." I slugged him in the arm as he laughed. "Sorry that was kinda rude.. But call him Maddy. I mean do you really want to tell him in person and let him try and convince you that you picked wrong?" He asked.

I shook my head. "No.. no I don't." He took my luggage off the bed as he placed it on the floor to pull up the handle. "Then call him. I will wait for you in the living room." He explained as he headed out. I pulled up his name in my missed call list as I hit call.

"MADDY! ARE YOU OKAY?!" He shouted.

"Colby I'm fine! Calm down! I told you that I needed time and you have been blowing my phone up like crazy! Are you okay?" I asked.

"I'm sorry I was just really worried about you. I'm alright. I miss you. When are you coming back?" He asked. Uhhhh this is going to kill me.

"Tonight actually and.."

"Really?! Great then can I come pick you up from the airport?" He asked. Maddy you might as well just tell him now. Do it.

"Colby we need to talk." The four words nobody wants to hear. "Remember how I said I needed time to decide where my heart was?"

He sighed. "Yeah…"

Before I could say anything I broke down. Tears were already falling down my eyes. This was breaking my heart.

"Maddy… talk to me. Please." He pleaded.

"My heart is with Jon. I'm sorry Colby, I truly am. I love him more than anything in this world. I'm not going to sit here and lie to you and tell you that I didn't feel something for you because I did but.."

"But nothing Maddy." He said interrupting me. "You feel something for me, which means you're not completely in love with Jon as much as you think. God Maddy. When are you going to do what you want? When are you going to stop letting him control you?" He shouted.

Anger started to arise in me. "Control me?! Excuse me? I always do what I want. Nobody controls me but me."

He laughed. "Really? So Jon showing up at your parents' house had no influence on your decision?" He asked.

"First off, how did you know he came over? And second, no it didn't. I made my decision way before he showed up."

He laughed again. "Right, sure you did. I cannot believe you right now. After everything he is doing to you, you still continue to take him back." Uh what?

"Everything he is doing? What's that supposed to mean?" I asked.

"Oh you don't know, that's right. Remember that night I told you that I'm always holding Jons secrets? Well I guess I don't need to do that anymore. The night before he proposed to you he was with Renee again. I watched them get into the elevator together at the hotel."

"YOU'RE LYING!" I screamed.

"No I'm not. Why do you think he is always constantly getting mad over the littlest things? Even if we look at each other he gets pissed off, right? Remember when you told me that you felt like he can do everything and anything and get away with it but when you do something he acts like you're the worst girlfriend ever? That's because he is guilty. He has been sleeping with Renee behind your back. Don't believe me, that's fine. But I can promise you that I'm not lying. Jon will never change, no matter how many kids you have, no matter how many times he tells you he loves you, and no matter the damn ring size you wear. He will always be that same guy he was back in his Mox days. He loves the attention he gets from women, especially Renee. So if that's who you want to marry and who you want Harmony around.."

"Don't you dare bring my daughter in this!" I yelled. "You have no right to mention her! You get that? God I can't believe I actually cried over telling you the truth. I should have kept it from you and just flat out ignored you for good. But no, I'm too good of a person to treat someone like that no matter how much they may deserve it."

"You're right.." He said, "You are too good of a person. You're a wonderful person. That is exactly why you don't deserve someone like Jon. Wake up and realize that he may love you but he will never and I mean never stay faithful. But whatever, I'm done holding secrets for him and I'm sure as hell done trying to save you."

"It's not your job to save me Colby."

"You're right, it's not. That's your job. Goodbye Maddy." The line ended before I could say anything back. What the fuck?! I threw my phone down on the bed as I jumped up and headed into the living room with tears down my face. I heard laughing coming from the room as I turned the corner. Jon looked up at me as he stood up.

"Babe… What's wrong?!" He asked.

"Tell me…. Tell me the fucking truth Jon. You have one fucking chance. Were you with Renee the night before you asked me to marry you?" I asked. He raised his hand up to his forehead as he rubbed it. "TELL ME JON. NOW." I yelled.

He sighed as he moved his head away from his face. "Yes. Yes I was with her."

I covered my mouth as I felt my heart shattering inside of me. "Oh my god.. he was right." I cried. "Colby was right."

Jons eyes widened as he tried to step towards me. I backed up. "Colby told you this?! What else did he say?" He asked.

I shook my head. "Did you or did you not sleep with her. Don't lie to me."

"Maddy…" he tried to plead. "TELL ME." I screamed. "Yes, I slept with her."

"Oh my god." I turned my back towards him as I held onto my mouth again.

"Maddy please let me explain." Tears flooded my eyes as I kept my back towards him. "I swear to you I haven't seen her since then. It was a mistake."

I turned back around noticing my parents had gone outside as Jon moved closer to me. "Don't. Don't you dare come near me. I can't believe you Jon. You know… it's not the fact that you slept with her that hurts, it's the fact that you kept it from me. I had to hear it from Colby! You had chances after chances to tell me and be honest with me. Am I not worth that?" I asked.

No, no you are! Maddy I'm so sorry. I wish I could take it back but I can't. I was drunk and hurt, she was there. I love you Madison."

"Could have fooled me. Did you just propose out of guilt?" I shouted.

"How could you say that? How could you even think that?" He yelled.

"And all this time you were thinking I was cheating. This whole time you made me feel guilty for kissing Colby and having feelings for him, even though I was completely honest with you about it. At least I had the fucking decency to tell you the truth! I just.. I can't do this right now Jon. I don't want to fight anymore." I turned towards the front door as Jon grabbed my arm and turned me around.

"Maddy stop. I am not going to lose you again. Look I made a fucking mistake. I made a lot of mistakes. But proposing to you wasn't one of them. You weren't one of them. Renee means nothing to me but an easy lay, something to help me forget shit I don't want to think about. Does that make what I did forgivable? Hell no. I deserve to be left, I deserve to get that ring thrown at my face and be told to never see you again. I love you Madison, more than anything in this world. I was hurting so bad, I honestly thought I lost you for good. I drowned my sorrows in beer and sex, which is what I've always done. Since the day I left my mothers house that's what I always did to avoid pain and forget everything I ever felt. I have to learn to not do that anymore and when I'm with you I don't do that shit. You're the only thing in this world that makes me feel good and can make me feel like it's okay to…. feel. I'm a shitty person and you deserve so much better than me, that's a fact. So if me walking out that door and never coming back is what you truly want then I will go."

I stood there looking at him as I noticed his eyes were watering. He meant every word he said. For once he was being completely open and honest with me.

"Why did you lie?" I asked.

"Because I was an idiot. I knew if I told you that you would leave me. I would once again lose you."

I rolled my eyes. "You don't know that Jon. How many times have I've taken you back? I love you. I love you so fucking much. A marriage is based off honesty and trust. How can we have one if you can't trust me or be honest?" I asked.

"You're right. I should have been honest with you and I should have trusted that you may have stayed. I was wrong." At least he admits it. "I will just go and catch that flight alone. I understand if you want to stay here."

He walked towards the door as I turned around to him. "Jon." He turned back to me. "Yeah?" I walked up to my luggage that was next to the couch. "I'm coming with you." He looked at me in shock. "Really? Why?" He asked.

"I'm not saying this talk is over, because it's far from over, but marriage is about working things out even through the bad times. Even though I'm hurt and mad as hell, I still love you. I'll always love you. But this doesn't mean we are okay."

He nodded. "I understand. I don't deserve this but I will take whatever I can get."

I knew my heart was hurting but I knew without him I would hurt even more. When you truly love someone you do everything you can to work things out and fight for what you truly believe is worth fighting for. To me, our relationship was worth it.

(I went a little crazy and wrote way more than I should have. With the holidays I was really busy and not able to post so I hope this kind of makes up for it.)