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Chapter 36

Only For You

Paul's POV

I watched as the machines pumped oxygen into her lungs. I knew that keeping Sammy hooked up to all of these machines was useless because she supposedly wasn't there anymore. The doctors told me that they were going to give it another week to see if her brain would become active again. If it didn't, then they would take her off of life support. If it did…well it'd be a miracle. He said that there was a one in a million chance that she would regain brain activity. I was holding onto that fact, hoping that she would be one in a million and the big man upstairs would give her a second chance at life. I didn't know what I would do with myself if she didn't pull through this.

I heard footsteps behind me. Kissing the top of Sammy's hand I looked over my shoulder to see who it was, not at all surprised to see her father standing in the doorway. I forced a grin on my face and kissed Sammy one more time before I stood up to leave.

"I'll be back soon," I told her, even though she most likely couldn't hear me.

Dan patted my shoulder, "Go home for a while, I'll stay with her."

I nodded, staring down at my imprint, hoping that she would magically open her eyes right here and now.

"I'll let you know if anything changes," he added.

I sighed as my eyes began to feel heavier. I haven't been able to sleep lately with what's been happening. Just two days ago I was told that my soul mate's brain was no longer working. There is no way in hell that I'd be able to sleep after hearing something like that. But right now, I'm wishing that I'll calm down enough to sleep for a little while.

When I finally convinced myself that she wasn't going to wake up anytime soon I turned around and left. I quickly took off the clothes I was wearing and phased, carrying them in my mouth as I ran. No one was in their wolf form but me which I was extremely thankful for. I didn't need to hear what they were thinking about right now. I tried to clear my head as the wind whipped in my face. This is probably the most content I've felt in a while. Maybe I'll be able to stay that way for more than five minutes.

I phased back to human form and stood at the edge of the forest, holding onto a tree for support. Damn, if I would've known I was this tired I would've just use clothes pins to force my eyes to stay closed. I blinked a couple of times and managed to build up enough energy to get inside the house and take a quick shower. Once I was finished I changed into a fresh pair of cut off shorts and a grey t-shirt before I headed into the bedroom. I stopped dead in my tracks once I picked up a painfully familiar scent…Sammy's scent. I walked downstairs in an attempt to get away from it, but her sweet aroma even haunted me down there. I would've expected it not to be as strong as it usually is because she hasn't been here in a while, but unfortunately it was.

I stared at the floor as I stood at the bottom of the stairs, reliving the day where everything changed. I began to hate on myself once again. I knew I could've prevented all of this. I could've tried harder to keep her out of harm's way. I could've forced myself to stay awake that night. I could've woken up with her that morning and made sure that she was ok.

My fists began to shake as I kept thinking about all of the things I was capable of doing that day and how I didn't do any one of them. I was a fucking idiot for not being more careful.

I felt like I was on the verge of phasing and as much as I tried I couldn't think of anything that would calm me down. So I ran out of the house as quickly as possible and waited for it to happen.

It never did.

I didn't have enough energy to even phase. I rubbed my face with my hands and growled angrily at myself.

"You're a fucking coward," I kept bad mouthing myself like this for a while until I finally found a different way to let my anger out. I punched a couple of trees until my knuckles were bleeding. I waited until my hand began to throb before I went back inside. I trudged my way up the stairs and back into the bedroom, not even bothering to clean off the blood. Throwing myself onto the bed I closed my eyes in hopes that I'd be able to fall asleep. It was no use because as soon as my eyes were shut I saw Sammy. I could practically hear her screaming in pain.

I stared at the ceiling, feeling completely drained of everything. The only thing I felt anymore was miserable.

And as if I wasn't being tortured enough I smelled her fruity scent again. It seemed to consist of strawberries and mango.

"God damn it," I snarled, wanting to be rid of all of this already.

My gaze wandered in an attempt to get my mind off of her. But everything in this room reminded me of Sammy. I finally set my eyes on the pencils that were sitting on the desk. I sat up and glanced at my hand which was almost healed already. As I stared at the dry blood I thought about Sammy's drawings that Sean had ruined. I walked over to the desk and opened the top drawer, pulling out all of the small pieces of paper. I saw the words that were written in red but ignored them and flipped each of the pieces over, seeing little bits of her drawings on them. Then, as if a light bulb was turning on inside my head, I had an idea.

I scattered each of the pieces out on top of the desk and began to piece them all back together like a puzzle. I didn't know how much I'd be able to fix, but anything was better than nothing.

The second I walked out the door I saw Jared standing on my front porch…which used to be our front porch.

"What are you doing here?" I asked bitterly.

He leaned up against the railing and didn't answer me. His head was pointed towards the ground and his eyes seemed distant.

"Hello?" I waved my hand in front of his face to try and get his attention. He peered up at me, his eyes still indicating that his thoughts were elsewhere.

"I can't stand seeing Kim this upset anymore," he admitted.

My mouth clamped shut. I mimicked his stance against the railing and crossed up arms over my chest, "Where is she now?"

He sighed, "At Sam and Emily's."

I nodded, not exactly knowing what I could say to him just so he wouldn't feel as miserable as me. The accident had stirred up every single pack member. If one of us was hurting all of us were especially if it was because of our imprint. This had an effect on all of us.

"I don't know what else I can say to reassure her that everything will be fine because the reality of it all is," he looked up at me cautiously, "nothing's fine."

I fidgeted uncomfortably, "Prepare for the worst," I mumbled.

Jared's eyes narrowed, "Your optimism is shocking," he replied sarcastically.

"Well, what do you want me to say?"

He began to walk towards me, "You're giving up."

I furrowed my eyebrows, "I'm not giving up," I let a low growl escape from my lips.

"Yes, you are. I can see that you are."

I felt like I was being jabbed in the gut, "She's practically gone, Jared. She only has a week left to wake up and if she doesn't then…that's it."

He hesitated for a moment, "She'll wake up."

"How? Her brain isn't working any longer and it's been two weeks," I looked off into the distance, "I can't keep telling myself that she will get better, because if she doesn't make it then I won't be prepared for it. I'm better off being ready for the worst then not. I…I just know that even if she does wake up things aren't going to be the same. I mean what if she forgets who I am? What if she forgets everything?" I stared at Jared and watched as his head began to droop lower, "I have to be prepared for that…" I muttered.

"What if I said that there's a chance you could know what's going to happen?"

I stared at him as if he were crazy, "What are you going to do? Find a psychic?"

He rubbed the back of his neck nervously, "Uh, Jacob kind of already did. That's why I came over here…" he made sure not to look at me.

"What are you talking about?" I took a step closer to him.

He sighed, "Alright I'm just going to say it. Jacob told us all that he asked the Cullens if Alice could go to the hospital while none of us were around and see if she saw anything."

I snarled, "You're fucking telling me that that leech is at the hospital right now, using her fucking powers on Sammy to see if she's going to live or die?" I tried not to flinch at my words.

Jared put both of his hands on either of my shoulders, "Calm down they all went hunting prior to this they won't kill anyone. Sam's close by and Carlisle is staying with Alice just to be sure she doesn't do anything."

I shoved him off of me, "And you decide to tell me this now?"

"Don't shoot the messenger," he raised his hands in a defensive way.

I rolled my eyes and ran to the back of the house, quickly stripping off my clothes and phasing. I felt Jared phase quickly after me.

They're just trying to help.

I growled, They should stay the fuck out of it. Who does Jacob think he is?

He's her friend, in Jared's thoughts I could clearly see that he didn't exactly approve of it either but he was desperate. He wanted to know what was going. I on the other hand could sit patiently and wait.

I'm going to pummel his ass and finish off each of those bloodsuckers myself.

Jared quickened his pace and stood in front of me. I reluctantly stopped and shot daggers at him, Get out of the way.

Not until you calm down, he stood there ready to attack me if he had to.

I took a couple of deep breaths, Fine I won't kill them, maybe, I'll just get my point across.

And your point is?

That they should keep their fangs to themselves, I was about ready to just trample him.

Even if Jared didn't completely agree with me he still understood where I was coming from, They don't have fangs.

I was set back by that, What are you their lap dog? Or did you turn into Seth for the day?

He rolled his eyes dramatically and finally moved out of the way, Do what you want, but don't expect me to go along with it. Sam and the rest of the pack are waiting by the hospital. I won't help you if you do something stupid.

I don't care, I tuned him out after that and quickly made my way to the hospital. When I picked up the disgusting smell of the leeches I had to pinch the bridge of my nose in order to keep myself from throwing up.

I ignored my pack brothers as I made my way into the hospital, heated as hell and ready to kill. Sam shouted after me, telling me I'd regret it if I did this. I just chose to ignore him and continued on until I saw them, pale faced and all. Carlisle was standing beside the small pixie one as she stared foggily off into the distance.

"Get the fuck out of here," I practically shouted at them.

The bloodsuckers both turned to me and stopped concentrating on Sammy. I shakily took a couple of steps into the room.

"Paul, we mean no harm-,"

"The hell you don't," I spat at him. I heard footsteps coming toward the room, "Just get out of here before I rip both of your heads off."

I saw the small one begin to move toward me, "Please just let us finish."

I didn't listen to her, "Don't come near me," I warned.

She looked at me as if she were disappointed, "Ok, we'll leave."

Just then, Sam walked into the room along with the mind reading leech. It's a sight I never thought I'd see, a werewolf walking into the room beside a vampire. What was this world coming to?

"Paul back off," Sam ordered.

"You let them come here without telling me first. So no, Sam, I won't back off," I snapped.

"They're just trying to help."

I eyed all of them, "Just leave her alone. We don't need your help."

The pixie walked even closer to me which caused the other two to follow her just in case I decided to do something, "She's fighting for her life, Paul. It's not over," she said.

I felt slightly calmer, but just knowing what she is made me not want to believe her.

"He doesn't believe you," the asshole with the mind raping power butted in.

She rolled her eyes, "Of course he doesn't. Well believe it or not mutt it's true."

I growled, "Get out."

"Fine," she, along with Carlisle and Eduardo –or whatever the fuck his name is- finally listened to me and left. I felt every muscle in my body relax as the stench became more bearable. I looked to Sam, "I truly hate you, Sam."

He sighed, "What else is new."

I looked at Sammy and sat in the chair beside her bed, "Where was her dad while all of this was going on?"

"Getting food."

"And Jacob?" I was going to beat his ass wherever he was.

"Watching Renesmee."

Again my eyelids started to feel heavy. I rested my head on my hand that was resting on the arm of the chair and closed my eyes. I guess Jacob's beating will have to wait.

"You really should try to listen to Alice. She knows more than you think she does," I heard his voice getting farther and farther away as he headed out of the room.

"Shut up, Sam."

Even though I acted like I didn't believe her, I was hoping that what she said was right.

With her words repeating in my head, I finally fell asleep.

Sammy's POV

The closer I got to the dark, the weaker I felt. I was finding it hard to breathe and even harder to keep walking. The only thing that really kept me going was thinking about Paul. Anything else made me feel even weaker. I was getting extremely close to the little light in the dark when my body decided to give up on me and I collapsed to the ground.

I laid in the sand for what seemed like hours. I found it hard to keep my eyes open. I was ready to just sink in quick sand or something. My gaze concentrated on the only source of light in the darkness as I felt myself slowly slip away.

Just as I was on the brink of being completely gone, I heard him.

"Keep going," he said.

My eyes widened in alert. I searched for him because he sounded so close. I could almost feel his breath on my skin.

"I…can't," my voice sounded hoarse.

"Try," he whispered, "for me."

I held onto his words with everything I had and breathed in and out slowly. As soon as I felt I had enough strength I stood up and balanced myself.

"Only for you," I began to walk again, keeping my head up as I passed the line between the light and the dark and entered the unknown. Everything was fine so far. I just kept walking with my eyes set on the small light.

A couple of minutes later I entered a huge cluster of trees and did as best as I could to walk through them. But the longer I walked for the harder it was. I had to try and make my way through an immense amount of shrubs that were practically taller than I was. I would give anything for a machete to cut down all of this crap. It wasn't like I could see with how dark it was. I was walking blind.

It seemed to keep getting harder to reach the light but I could tell that I was making progress. And the more progress I made the worse I felt. I was running out of energy and being powered only by adrenaline now.

The only thing I was thinking about that kept me going was that I had to get to Paul. I kept telling myself that I had to get to him and then I would be ok. As long as I had him I was ok.

Nothing else mattered.

I sped up my pace, no longer caring about the shrubs. I was running as fast as possible when I finally reached the end of it all. It suddenly began to feel as if I was falling. White was all I saw and there was nothing but the white that surrounded me. I didn't care where I was going just so long as Paul was there. And I hoped that he would be there.

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