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I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT!

Ch.34

Bpov

I wake up before Alice today, just as the first light of the day started to fall through the curtains. It also didn't help that I was nervous about the fund raiser tonight. All of my future deals and current deals where going I had to be better then anyone. No flaws no weakness, it was a simple plan.

I know most people would brush me off for first, being a woman that owns a huge company. And secondly, for being a teenager that owns said huge company. They doubted I could manage it but in reality, Jenks was just a front man.

He was the person everyone saw while I was the person making the big decisions. Partly why I wanted to take my job full time. I hated the idea of anyone thinking I couldn't handle it. Hated the idea of anyone thinking just because I was young that I didn't take my work seriously and that I didn't deserve it, I WORKED MY ASS OFF FOR THIS COMPANY!

I also hated that there would be sooooo many freaking people taking pictures. Stupid paparazzi ate this shit up like it was a joke. Sure, I wasn't famous like a singer or an actor but I was famous for the important business people.

I knew anyone that was anyone in the business world and to earn their respect I had to be a hard ass. I had to be a bitch and love it. I had to be smarter then the old farts at the head of a company.

But most importantly, I had to out shine my father. Every single time I was at one of these things people would compare me to him and vice versa. I had to be better then my father at everything just so that people could respect me enough to give me the time of day to speak for my company.

I enjoyed the shocked looks of the people when I would answer there questions or when I would ask them questions about things they thought I didn't know about. I spent most of my childhood being home schooled and most of what my father taught me was business.

I snort, I'm like freaking Ritchie Rich. Bella Bank's. I couldn't contain my laughter after that one. My ridiculous mind was something to be amazed with. My laughing woke up Alice who quickly glared at me and huffed. "Wha'ta time is it?" She mumbles still half asleep.

I chuckle. "Adventure time?" I offered not knowing the current time. She nods. "Oh… I like the puppy." She mumbles before snuggling back to my side which caused me to laugh even lauder.

"Whyyyyy do you wake me up with laughter?" She groans. I laugh again, my sides are burning at this point. "You're so… so cute! Hahahahaha, like the puppy hahahahha." I say laughing.

She grins down at me. "Yeah, and I bite like a bitch." She says before leaning forward and bitting my shoulder and I yelp a bit and shake her off. I wag a finger at her. "Bad girl, no biting Bella." I say wagging my finger at her before she takes a snap at it and I cup her face in my hands.

I tisk at her shaking my head slowly. "Bad girl, Alice. Will I have to teach you a lesson?" I ask in a seductive voice. I can't suppress my smirk when her eyes glaze over a bit. She grins a bit before her face going sullen. "Maybe?" She asks and I grin as I lean to her and pin her hands on the side of her face.

"Wait! Bella." She mumbles. I stop and look at her and she shakes her head from side to side and I let her go to see her jump off the bed and head to the bathroom. I frown, is she sick?

I start to get up when I see her in the doorway while she brushes her teeth. I snort and smile to myself as I walk over to the bathroom to see her leaning over the counter to spit when I come right behind her and reach for my tooth brush and paste and start brushing my teeth as well.

After Alice and I finish brushing our teeth and rinsing, I wait for her to smile at her elf in the mirror before I grab her hand and pull her to me. She crashes into me and it suddenly reminds me of the day I gave her a ride to school all those months ago.

I look at her lips and to her eyes then, to her lips again and inch closer. My hand cups her cheek and I stop in front of her lips and look in her eyes, to her lips and back. I know I'm driving her crazy and I love it.

I smirk to myself and then I press my lips against hers harshly. I pull her incredibly closer to me and I walk slowly over to the bed where I lay her down gently and flip us over so that she is straddling my hips.

"I love you." She mumbles as she breaks the kiss and I smile in a daze. "I love you too." I say and she kisses me again. After a minute her hand brushes over my shirt clad breast and I groan to her mouth as she hum's back.

"Its not nice to tease me, Bella." She says seductively in my ear and I can't suppress a small whimper that escapes me. I knot a hand in her hair and pull her down to me again and smirk at her. "You had to be taught a lesson, my dear innocent little Alice." I say brushing my lips across hers as I speak.

"Which would be?" She asks breathlessly. "You shouldn't start what you don't intend to finish." I say in her ear as I lick the shell of it causing her to shudder above me. Her hands trail down my body once more until she grabs my wrists and pulls them up to rest next to my head.

She holds them there roughly and I can't suppress a shudder of arousal when Alice gets dominant. Sure, I love dominating her. But shit, its so fucking hot to see Alice take charge. "And who told you I had no intention of finishing, Bella?" She whispers before kissing me roughly.

My hands twitch wanting to grab onto her hair but she pulls back and smirks down at me before she looks at my hands and blushes a bit. I frown. "What?" I ask. She shakes her head before giggling softly and hiding her head in my shoulder letting go of my arms.

I lift up a bit and hug her to me. "What is it Alice? Come on tell me? Oh, and you stopped." I add with a smirk. She frowns at me and takes a deep breath before a look of determination flashes over her eyes.

"I want to try something with you Bella. Yes, it will be kinky. But I want to see what I would feel like to…" She trails off shaking her head softly. I frown and grin a bit, "To?..." I ask. "To have you at my will, like you have me almost ever night." She whispers soflty.

I smile a bit to myself and chuckle at her. "Alice, I'm always at your will. Trust me, you don't know how much I beg for your touch, be it just a brush of the hand on mine. And…I'm willing to experiment. My kinky little pixie." I add with a smile.

She chuckles and kisses me a few times "Yay! Now close your eyes I will be right back." She says. I raise an eyebrow before closing my eyes, instantly I feel her start to take off my shirt.

"Um, why are my eyes closed for the unvealing of my body?" I ask. Alice giggles. "Because I want to look over you while your not looking." She retorts and I shrug and start to take my clothes off willingly.

After I'm naked, Alice gets off the bed and I hear her rummage through some drawers until I hear a 'yes' and she walks back and I feel something fall over my eyes. I let her tie it behind my head and I smirk to myself.

"Alice is kinky. Alice is kinky. Kinky, kinky, Alice is kinky." I sing teasingly. She playfully swats my arm and I shudder a bit and I hear Alice hum. "You are so a masochist." She says to me and I shrug. "Maybe a little." I say teasingly.

She doesn't say anything but I hear her footsteps as she walks back to the dresser and starts to look in them until I hear a clink of metal as she walks over to me and pushes me down on the bed and straddles my hips.

"Can I take my blindfold off?" I ask. "Hmmm, no." Alice says as she slides up a bit more and I feel her grab my wrist and before I know it, she ties my wrist and the other end to the bed post.

A wave of arousal flows through me as I feel her tie up my other hand. I shudder a bit in excitement. "Shit, Alice. This is hot." I say to her and I feel her finger at my mouth. "I love how you look right now Bella. You're completely under my will yet you continue to tease me. Maybe I shouldn't let you off easy." She mumbles to herself and my ears perk up at hearing this.

Fuck, this is hot. "Oh, dear God, don't let me off easy." I mumble to myself and I swear I hear her laugh at me. Soon I feel her move off me and I feel something tie my legs down until I am a bound completely and I can't move.

I test the restraints and shit, there tight. I grin a bit and try to listen to where Alice is. She moves around the room for a few minutes, giving me the chance to focus on heightening my senses. I can smell vanilla in the air and hear a soft sizzling.

Is she lighting candles? I hear her move the night table a bit closer to the bed and a soft clank of a metal something that has my curiosity burning. My breathing is heavy already, my arousal just flaring up every time her hand brushes across my skin. Just then, I feel a hand trail up from my ankle to my inner thigh then away and to my stomach to the center of my breasts until it cups my chin.

I shudder a bit at the feeling of nails carving against my flesh. God, this is making me a horny mess. "What was that about not going easy on you, Bella?" She asks in my ear, I can feel the hot breath tickling my neck as she speaks to me.

I suppress a small moan. "Nothing." I mumble and I hear her breathy laugh and it sends a chill up my spine, the good kind of course. I feel her tug on the thing that was blocking my veiw and the first thing I notice is that the room is dark, but candle lit.

I look around the room to see candles burning all around the room sending the sence of euphoria even higher up. I can smell the vanilla on them and Alice know's how much I love her perfume and bought it as candles.

Then I look up at her where she is standing next to the bed in a night gown… Fuck me. Fuck me, fuck me, fuck me. That is what that night gown is saying to me. Its deep red sending my mouth watering.

The thin material leaving nothing for the imagination and just making Alice look hot as hell. The fabric is almost transparent and I can see her breasts but barely see her nipples. The material flow's down and clings to her every curve making her look sexy as fuck.

The thin short skirt it has barely even cover's her ass and that thong… God, I want to be that thong. I suppress a groan but just barely as I see her run her hands along her own body teasing me. "Like what you see?" She asks lowly.

I nod quickly. "Yes, you look beautiful, baby." I say practically eye fucking her. She chuckles a bit and quickly straddles my hips before leaning forward and kissing me softly, I lean forward trying to deepen the kiss when Alice pushes me back down.

"Patience is a virtue." She says quietly and I groan when she rolls her hips against mine slowly. She runs her hands slowly, teasingly slow until she's cupping both my breast in her hands and massaging them while she kisses my neck.

I moan when she rolls my nipple between her fingers and brings her mouth over to sooth it. She repeats the motion around three times on each breast before her hips grind on mind again.

My center screaming and dripping for attention. Fuck, I need her to touch me. "Please, Alice." I moan when she grinds against me once more. "What do you want?" She asks me seductively.

I look at her body, she still has clothes on. "Take them off. I need to see you." I say looking at her body. She chuckles before she slowly runs her hands over her body and my abdomen clenches.

My eyes follow her hands as the slowly take off the night gown only leaving her in her thong and thin bra. My eyes scan over her body and I shudder when I feel her ghost the material over my body before throwing it to the side.

My eyes run over Alice's body her pail skin shouting at me to be touched, licked, loved… my god. I follow Alice's hands as they tease the straps of her bra before leaning forward so that her breasts are above my mouth.

"Do you want to take this off?" She asks me. I don't hesitate as I lean forward and nibble at the strap at the front of her breasts, trying my damn best to snap it off. And finaly after a minute I actually manage it.

Alice leans back before I can even take a nipple into my mouth and I try to hold back my whimper at the loss. "Alice…" I groan, can't she see I need her? I fucking need to feel her, taste her, touch her. I shudder when she grinds her hips against me.

She lifts off me enough to take off her own underwear and now she's bare in front of me. She suprises the hell out of me though when she cups her own breast and starts to massage it. Its not lost on me when she trails her other hand to her hips and starts to touch herself.

I whimper, this is sexy. Alice just uses sexy-ness. She is the most sexy person I have ever met and this just made her even sexier. Her hand slips easily between her legs that where on my stomach. She moans lowly as she sinks into her hand and my core clenches and throbs, the heat hard to ignore.

I watch with undivided attention as my Alice pleasures herself with her hand. Her head falls back as she gasps the hand on her breasts sliding down to her clit. She starts to tease her clit as she lifts up and down against my stomach her juices dripping onto my stomach making me moan and groan at the same time.

"God, Alice please…" I beg, I need her. Fuck, I crave her. My arms flex against the restraints and Alice moans as I look back at her body to see her not stopping her actions. I whimper and test the restrains again. "Fuck, Alice please…" I beg again and her eyes open just a bit to look over at me.

Her eyes are lazy and I think she's right on the verge of cuming. "What do you want Bella?" She asks breathlessly. "You, I want you. God, I want to taste you and touch you. Fuck, Alice I need you." I beg and she gives me a smile before leaning forward and giving me exactly what I wanted.

She straddles my face and I lick feverently loving the moans that come out of her mouth. Then I plunge my tongue on to her and whimper a bit when I feel her clench around my tongue.

She comes quickly and once I'm done licking her clean she moves away and I lick my lips. I close my eyes to breath deeply when I feel a tongue trace my stomach. My eyes snap open as I look at her.

Alice starts to slowly kiss and lick her way down to where I'm throbbing for her. "A-Alice you don't have to.." I trail off when she lifts her head to smile at me. "I want to Bella." She breaths and then she licks me and I spasm and moan loudly.

She licks firmly and teases my clit with kisses and I start to rock my hips along the rhythm she placed un-able to contain my moans and grunts. I relish the attention she gives me as I focus on the pleasure and her.

She then starts to nibble against my folds and sucks my clit into her mouth before grazing her teeth against my clit making me cup powerfully. My eyes shut and my whole body spasms as wave after wave of pleasure asoults my senses. Shit, can you die from sensory over load?

My body becomes nothing, my muscles becoming play dough and my muscles jelly. My eyes remain shut for a long while as I cherish the warmth of Alice's body next to mine. My eyes open slowly as I start to regain myself.

That's when I notice that my arms are wrapped around her I look at my wrists and frown. "What happen to my restraints?" I mumble. Alice chuckles. "I took them off when you started to yell my name." She says.

I frown. "I yelled your name?" I ask. She giggles. "That and a lot more." She says. I chuckle and turn my head to look at her as she curls on my arm. "What did I say?" I ask. She leans up and rest on her elbow and chuckles. "Alice, Baby, yess, fuck yes. I love you, Alice, god, motherfucking yes, baby, Alice, fuck… love you… And I think that's pretty much it. Only that you yelled my name the first time." She says with a smirk.

I roll over and hide my head in her neck as I snuggle into it and kiss her shoulder and wrap my arm around her waist, hugging her to me. "God, I love you Alice. Thank you, thank you so much." I mumble to her.

She chuckles and runs a hand through my hair lazily. "And why the thank you Darling?" She asks happily. Her voice like music to my ears and I sigh and lean back to look in her eyes. "For loving me, back." I say my voice wavering a bit in the middle but I'm just showing her the vulnerably in my eyes.

My fear of the future, my fear of myself, all the hut I have felt and the fear of feeling more. The gapping emptiness that is in my life when she leaves me alone and the haunted girl I haven't let anyone see since Charlie died. My eyes sting a bit and my heart clenches at reliving this deep emotion but I want to show her.

I'm not perfect, I'm not as strong as I let on, I'm fucked up and haunted. Hurt and dangerous, yet she still loves me. Her hazle eyes shine with some cut deep emotion at looking at my eyes.

Her hand slowly cups my cheek and she looks at my eyes. "I will always love you Bella." She says quietly. I smilie at myself, Believe her… a voice in my mind says. I clench my jaw and shake my head softly. "Why?..." I ask.

My voice soft and pleading, I need to know why this… angel loves me. I need to try and understand. She cups my cheek. "Because your funny, smart, thoughtful, sensitive, cleaver, witty, you have this tortured past yet you have enough strength to laugh everyday. You should detest the world, yet you only fake it to hate it. You could have turned out so much worse yet… you try your best to find a reason to continue living." She says her voice just as soft but with an edge.

She's trying to convince me. "Alice… your talking about the Bella that exists because your in my life… before you came along… I was the opposite of everything you just said." I say quietly. "What do you mean? She asks. I take a deep breath.

Should I tell her? Tell her the whole truth?... Should I tell her the main reason why I wanted her to come to Paris with me?... Should I ask her the question that could make or break us? Or should I just hide it for a bit longer?

Choices… choices that I'm to afraid to make. There are three C's in life: Choices, Chances and Changes. You must make a choice to take a chance or your life will never change. I had mocked Charlie when he told me this… now, I finaly understood what he meant.

A/N: What the hell is Bella talking about huh?... interesting…. Please read the first A/N important stuff on it! R&R.