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Here's a somewhat Long Chapter for you guys.

More to come tomorrow! I hope!

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I went into the living room and noticed the time, 5 am. Great, 2 hours before I have to get to work. I laid on the couch, and that's when I heard the light moans. Thank god the house was so quiet, or else I wouldn't have heard her.

I sped up the stairs like I was 5 and was racing Peter. The door to our room was still open. I went right to her side of the bed, next to her scrunched up face. "Darlin.. You alright?"

"I'm just sore."I grabbed a bottle from the nightstand -her antibiotics.

"Here Darlin.." I handed her the pills and stroked her cheek."What are you doing up honey?""I couldn't sleep, but its fine, I have to work soon. I'll call Rose when I'm there she'll come over and take care of you."

She blushed a bit. "You don't have to do that." "Yes I do Darlin.. Besides, you'll be lonely.."

"Fine, girl time would be nice. You just hurry back.""I will."

She kissed me with such passion.

God, wasn't I riled up enough from both of these girls?

After a while, I had to pull back. "Darlin.. I have to get ready to go to work. Please be good to me.. It'll be hard to focus.."

***BPOV

He knows he wants to play, hell.. I do too.

I leaned in again, interlocking my fingers around his neck, kissing him again, with twice as much need.

He moaned into my mouth.

I kept up the momentum and pulled him on top of me. We both needed to connect now, more than ever. I needed him to feel that he wasn't alone in this and that I wasn't either.

He pulled away from me again, breathless but this time sucking on my collar bone.

"I know.. It isn't fair to you, but you've got me going crazy.. So I'd like you to feel how I do." His husk voice came out.

Damn, I missed that so much. I pushed him away. "No, you can't. I can relieve you but I won't get the same pleasure, the doctor said no sexual contact, whatsoever."

He groaned. "Fine."

I began my assault on his neck.. He instantly started growling. God, it was sexy.

My hands began tracing his stomach and back.

Just when I thought we were finally having some fun and he was getting some pleasure the alarm clock started blaring.

"Fucking alarm." I wrapped my arms tightly around his body. "That was a dream Jasper, ignore it and bring your lips back to mine" I whined.

He detached himself from my arms "I've got to get ready to go to work darlin.. As much as I hate to go, I have to. Sorry honey."

He got up and walked out of the room and into the bathroom. I heard the shower turn on and as quickly as it turned on, it was turned off. Within 3 minutes he had a shower and popped back out to me, in all his wet, glossy, glory.

"How… how do you shower that quick?"

He chuckled. "I normally don't but cold showers make you work fast."

He quickly dried off and threw on a white dress shirt and some dress pants.

"Don't worry about the laundry babe, I'll do it when I get back. I'll pick up some dinner too on my way home. So you just relax and have fun with Rose. Okay?""I will don't worry."

He walked over to me in 3 long strides. Crawling on the bed, his hand snaked around my neck and his forehead touched mine. He gazed into my eyes, with those gorgeous eyes of his. So very blue, making me all gooey inside.. "I love you Darlin… I'll be back before you miss me" he smirked and kissed me softly. I tried to prolong the kiss by dancing with his tongue. He pulled back. "I love you too Cowboy and I miss you already."

He smirked at me again. That sexy, sideways smirk, making me want to take him right then and there.

"I'll see you tonight" kissing my nose before pulling away.

He quickly got out of the bed and walked out of the room.

I rolled over trying to sleep again. I really do love him and I cannot wait to have kids.

Especially ones that will look exactly like him.

***JPOV

I took off down the stairs, grabbing my keys and a coat before running outside. In my rush, I didn't realize that there was ice. I slipped down the stairs hitting my back.

Great! Just Great! When did it rain and freeze? Fuck.

I picked myself up, brushing off my pants making a mental note to pick up some road salt on my way home tonight. Also, call Rose not Charlotte. If I can fall without being pregnant, then she will fall for sure.

I hopped in my truck and took my time to work. If my porch could make me slip and fall on my back so easily the roads have to be worse, yeah the only road that wasn't bad was the one to my office. I made it to work, no Jessica, not even Peter. I ended up being the first person there. The office was dark, everyone has to be late because of the weather. I went into my office and that's when my Dick started talking again.

Oh just shut up already Damn it!

***BPOV

I tossed and turned for a few hours. It was now 11am. Rosalie hadn't shown up. I began to get worried. I picked up my phone from the nightstand and called her.

"Hey Izz Good morning! Your home now?""Yeah, I was wondering where you were"

"Oh dear. I'm out at the ranch. My car won't start. Major is boosting it for me.""Has Jasper called you?""No, what's wrong honey?""Oh nothing. He said he would call you to come over here and spend the day with me.""Oh. Well, I'd love to come over if you still want me to.""Of course I do! Send my love to everyone there."

"Dollface says hello…." a gruff voice In the background greeted me "Tell that lovely doll to come see me when she's all better.." Rosalie's laughter started drifting into the phone "Hear that? I'll be over as soon as I can! See you soon!"

"I did. Thanks." I smiled. Rosalie and Pete Sr. really made my day.

I decided to get out of bed. Ouch. Still hurt a little but it wasn't too bad.

I jumped into the shower, it still smelt like him. Mmm. I loved the smell of him. I decided to suck it up and use my body wash, effectively erasing the scent of Jasper from the bathroom and replacing it with my own.

I washed my hair, being careful not to drop anything since it hurts a bit to bend my body over.

I heard Rosalie pull up. Damn it. I spent a good hour in the shower.

I got out and dried my body off.. Heard the knocking on the door and just found comfy track pants and a shirt of Jasper's to wear.

I threw up my wet hair and made my way down the stairs.

"Hi Rose!" I gave her a big hug."Hey Izz… good morning."

"Have you eaten yet? I haven't.""Oh dear god no, I just fed the Major and Charlotte. She's due any day now. Soon as you called me I rushed right over honey.""Great, that'll be the first thing we do."

She laughed as she shrugged off her coat and walked into the kitchen with me.

"So are you alright?" She pulled out the eggs and some milk.

"Yeah, I'm great."

"I know this has to be tough on you. I won't press you about it, just know you can talk to me if you need to." She smiled at me and turned her back, beginning to make our eggs.

"I know. I just feel like I've failed as a mother, when I haven't even become one yet." I took a seat at the end of the island and Rosalie turned around.

"You haven't failed. It just wasn't the right time. Don't blame yourself Swan."

"I know, I just… I feel badly"

I looked away from her. "Of course you do. Have you ever thought this was just suppose to make you and Jasper become even stronger.. To make your relationship better? I know you're both suffering but at the end of the day, after everything that's happened up until now.. You both have needed something to make you both stronger."

I flipped on the radio and began making toast. "You know… Your right."

We both hummed along to the music, dancing as we went. Today was going to be a good day, I'm so glad Rosalie came.

***JPOV

I signed a few papers, called some men to do some work outside of the city limits. I didn't want to look at work today.

I decided to leave the office, I wasn't going to get much done anyways.

I got in my truck and started driving, I drove until I hit a familiar highway, might as well visit my Dad and my sister-in-law to be.

I took out my phone and dialled a number

"Hello?"

"Hey, Roz. I'm sorry its last minute but do you mind if you can go to my place and be with Bella today?"She laughed. "Whitlock, I'm already here. She called about 2 hours ago. Where has your mind been?"

I began mentally cursing myself, how could I forget?"Obviously isn't switched on today. Thanks Roz. Love you and her. I'm headed to the Major's, I'll be back later."

She laughed at my comment. "Okay fine. She loves you too. Bye."

I drove pretty fast, the weather sucked. No one was even on the road. Thank god, I was going 150 clicks. Not safe on a road like this, who cares really? I arrived in no time, I finally skidded out when I was parking my truck, right into the snow bank. Ha! It finally happens when I park.

I jumped out, not caring about fixing my parking job and ran inside, almost losing my footing at the door. What is wrong with me today?

I took off my shoes and coat and smelt cinnamon immediately. Mmmmmmmm.

"Hey Char, making those famous buns?" I walked down the long corridor and making a left at the kitchen.

"Jasper, oh myyy!" She flung herself to me, hugging me instantly, she kissed me and then stepped back. "How is Bella? Is she okay? How are you holding up?"

I held my hand up, motioning for her to stop. "Better question is, how are you and the major doing?"

"We're fine, you overbearing fool" She laughed. "Now, how are the two of you doing?""Well, we lost the baby, but she's home and safe with Rose, I was suppose to be at work today but I couldn't focus I had to come see how my lovely sister and make sure my dad wasn't being a hard ass on you."

She laughed again "Why, he's never a hard ass to me. He's just hard on you- you're the one he feels the need to still toughen up. You know that."

"Yeah, yeah." I laughed and made my way to the tray of warm buns.

"Mister Whitlock, none of that here" She slapped my hand with a wooden spoon.

"Devil Woman!" I chuckled as I shook a fist at her.

"Yes, Listen to Charlotte son. Before she gets upset and has us both running for the hills."

Looking up, I met my father's face, his blue-green eyes glossed over and his mouth slightly turned up at the corners. Wearing his classic white shirt and blue jeans, with his brown cowboy hat, with some worn out patches, from years wearing it outside working on the land and his worn brown boots.

"Son…" he tipped his hat to me, moving further from the doorway and into the kitchen. I counted his steps in my mind, hoping to god I didn't piss him off today.

"Major" I bowed my head, taking a step forward "How are you this morning?"

He wrapped an arm around me, squeezing the life out of me, slapping my back. I began to do the same

"You know, still fighting the war. I feel great now that you've come to visit."

"I know we haven't been by in some time Father. I'll be sure to bring Bella by when she is better.""You better. So she's fine at home alone? Without you?" he raised an eyebrow

"Roz is there with her, she needs a girl there more now than me so, I came here." I shrugged my shoulders."Ya'know" Charlotte chimed in, "I could've gone today Jasper." She sounded heartbroken."No.. Charlotte. I nearly killed myself leaving the house this morning and I'm not going to risk the next Whitlock boy, especially when his father is my brother." I kissed her cheek.

Father put his arm around her, pulling her to him and brushed some of her hair out of her face, "The boy has a point my dear. Now please honey, go have a seat, you've been on hot coals running around since Roz left. Go and rest, let dear old papa handle this." It was a nice tender moment. He was always a rough, tough, bad attitude, step out of line and you'll get it type. I guess being a grandfather was changing him."Oh fine fine" She tore off her apron "you Whitlock men are so stubborn, not letting a woman do anything…" she began to walk out of the room. "Please take some home to Bella."

"I will." she kissed both of our cheeks and walked out of the room.

The major took off his hat, revealing the blond hair with red strands running through it.

"Still battling the blond and red hair? You know you could dye it and be done with it." I laughed

"So, my dear Jacqueline has a child to look after now?" why was he changing the subject. I didn't want to think about this right now.

"Yes." I looked down towards the floor. Trying to will some of the pain away. I cannot think about this now. I have to be strong for Bella.

"Will you promise me something?" I looked up meeting his eyes. "I know that we have had our differences but please promise me you'll let Bella make an honest, good man out of you and get married, have a lot of children. Don't let yourself become me." his hand touched my shoulder.

I took a step forward "Major, I'm so much like you, more than you could even imagine."

He removed his hand, making it into a fist and slamming it into the table behind me. I jumped, out of fear. He always instilled much more fear in me than love.

"No, that you aren't. You are so full of your darling mother you just can't see it past your stupid demons. It is Peter who is most like me. Except he's got your mother's love in him that out-shines anything he ever got from me." He took a deep breath "Don't ever let yourself slip to that dark place within your soul. I know I brought that out in you but I'm warning you boy.." he waived his finger in front of my face, I began to sweat, wondering what I have said and if it would involve punishing me.

"For fuck sakes I know. Why are you being like this?" There was rage in his eyes if eyes could change color they would be as red as the red strands that ran through his blond hair."I see it in your eyes, your thinking what you shouldn't be. Remember what happened with Tanya."My blood started boiling. "Shut up!"

I raised my voice even louder this time "Don't you dare say her name. That was forsaken long ago!" My voice began to quiver. I knew what was coming, I tried to brace myself. I spoke out of turn and you never do that, not in his house.

"I will not." His rage was flaming through those blue-green eyes of his. I could see the red spilling through. "You know what I have said is the truth. You need to come to terms with this boy…" I knew what was happening, his own red eyed demon was breaking through its own cage, except mama being the ice that put him out wasn't here.

I shouted, speaking out of turn again. "I have. Why else would I have allowed myself to fall in love again? Some fucking father you are." Might as well keep going, I already know what I'm in 's when I felt it. His fist connected with my face instantly. I stood there and took it, controlling my demon within me.

I had to tell him, "You know what" I had an harsh tone. Not smart but I didn't care. "Major" I couldn't even call him Dad or Father, how harsh is that as a kid. "You.."

I shoved my finger in his chest "You are the reason I battle this red eyed demon every fucking day. You can't even see you unleashed something even worse inside of me, thanks to you. I'm exactly like you. That's why I hate you that's why we always fight. I was too weak to stand up to you, guess what DADDY? This ends now." I felt the heat in my body, it was flowing through my veins.

My father for once, took a step back. He was Scared of me? The son he pushed around and beat daily?

I was bold, I took 2 steps forward, looking him dead in the eye.

"You tell me to deal with my demon. Let's give Jasper a whole bunch of medication, let's slowly kill his mother, oh and for good measure we'll beat his fucking ass every fucking night for stupid shit."

"I never killed your mother." Tears in his eyes were threatening to spill over.

Fuck that was a low blow and I knew it, although, the heat felt so good through me, I couldn't stop this even if I tried. Fuck, where was Peter or Bella? I can't stop this on my own.

"You were slowly killing her by hurting me. She always tried to stop you, you never heard her at night, after every strike I took from you, she would always cry over and over again. When you would leave.. Who was fucking picking her up, putting her back together like humpty dumpty huh?" I took another step forward. "You'd break me physically but you killed the mother I had. You broke her heart." I was mere centimetres from his face. "You heartless piece of shit. Anything bad I do in my life, is because of you. You did this. You made me this stupid temperamental asshole. I am the person that Mama didn't want me to become."

He didn't say a damn thing.

"From now on, You don't fucking strike me. I'm no longer that 5 year old who you can strike whenever I speak out of turn. You fucking keep your hands off me and my brother."

I stepped back from him. "There is no way I'll be free of this thing now but I will make sure the red demon will never spill over like yours. Never again."

"I'm now going to be with my sunrise. She needs me more than ever. As for you, you no longer haunt me and I will no longer let your faults ruin me."

I walked out of the kitchen, not wanting to see his face. I hurt him pretty bad. Did I have to say most of it? Probably not, but it always ate at me. I'm glad its out in the open now.

I was near the door putting my shoes on. Upon straightening myself out and grabbing for my coat when Charlotte jumped me, yet again.

"Oh Sugar. I love you hon. Please, please.. Don't leave like this."I hugged her as tight as I could, minding her huge baby belly. "I love you too sweetheart. I'm so sorry. I didn't come here with these intentions. I have to go. I should've been with Bella today. I'm sorry. I Love you." Tears were pouring down her face like rain drops running across my windshield. I kissed both her cheeks and then her forehead.

"Don't be so hard on yourself. This is all on me and the Major. Okay? I Love you. Please, don't freak out."

Her emotions were haywire. "But Jas.." I put a finger to her lips.

"Don't Char. You just relax. You need to take care of my nephew in there." I rubbed her belly "I'll call Bella and Pete from the road. Its okay…you have my word."

My Father materialized from the kitchen and grabbed Charlotte's hand. "Pumpkin, let him go. Its fine. How about we go dance or watch a movie. Come on honey."

"Listen to him. I'm fine." I kissed her again. "I Love you. I'll call you when I get home, Promise."I turned on my heel walking out of the house. Charlotte had every reason to beg me to stay. I don't blame her, last time shit like this went down.. I found myself in disrepair.

This cannot go on any longer. I've got to tell Bella exactly what is going on, she deserves to know and I've been an asshole holding back on her.

She's my everything and she deserves to know everything.

I got into my truck and drove away from the house and farm that was once my home.