Chapter 32

"How long do you think this is going to go on?" Sam asked handing Dean a coffee, it had been two days since Madison locked herself in that room with the demon that caused her crash, her and his mother took turns torturing him until the brink of death and then Madison would heal him and start all over. Dean had two days to think about what was reveled, how his son died that night, it killed him knowing that he wasn't there to protect Madison and his child, he had wanted to talk to Madison as soon as he found out, but from what he could tell it would be a while before he was able to get any answers from her. Gus had told him everything he could about that night but Dean still needed to hear it from her mouth.

"I guess when she gets her fill"

"You don't think this is messed up, they've been in there for all this time, she hasn't ate or slept, she's going to burn out"

"This whole thing is messed up Sam" Sam sighed taking a sip of his coffee, he had felt like crap the past few days, all he could think about was that if he had let her talk he would have been able to prevent this from happening, if only he had been there for her his brother would have a son and him a nephew. He had tried to talk to Dean about it but Dean brushed him off just telling him that it wasn't his fault and telling him that they would talk to Madison when she was done with all of this. Sam looked back into the room seeing Madison cleaning the blood off of her hands, even doing something like that kept her eyes a different shade, Gus was trying to figure out how her eyes had stayed that shade the whole two days, Gus was worried that she wasn't controlling it anymore.

"I'm getting bored" Madison said walking over from the sink.

"I can bring her in now" Madison smiled at the mother and clapped her hands. The last two days she had done nothing but make him scream out in pain, it was an added bonus that she had gotten his mother to participate, but now she had something for him that would really fuck him up. Asmodeus lifted his head up weakly as a new presence made its way it to the room, causing Madison to break out into a grin.

"Sarah" He chocked out.

"So you remember me"

"Of course my love"

"Do you remember how you slaughtered seven of my husbands each on our wedding night, you took away my chance to ever have children, and now you killed an innocent child, you're not the same man I once loved so when Madison said I could get my revenge I took it" There was a reason that Madison had picked these two woman, as much as she wanted to inflict physical pain on him the psychological pain that he was experiencing was so much better, for the first couple of months she had blamed herself for the accident, even now she thought of all the little things she could've done to prevent it. She hadn't seen Dean since she came into this room, she knew he would have a million questions but she just wasn't ready to see the disappointment on his face, she couldn't bear the thought that he would blame her. She peeked over to the mirror, she knew someone was behind it watching her, she was surprised that they hadn't put up too much of a fight.

"You think you won, that you're gunna break me?" Asmodeus spoke to her as Sarah walked over to the table with all the toys they've been using.

"This isn't about me winning, I already lost everything, when you die I will still have lost everything"

"So what do you get out of this, having these bitches doing your dirty work, I thought you were more hands-on"

"You killed my son"

"And yet I'm not dead" Madison looked at the man, before turning and looking at the mirror in the room, she knew someone was there watching her.

"I've heard you scream, beg for mercy, you've bled, all because of me, your mother and lover are bound to me, everything they have done was for me, the two most important people in your life turned their back on you, for me" Asmodeus spit out some blood and looked at her.

"I'm going to kill you, and the Winchesters and any other person who have helped you"

"I've heard that before"

"You are nothing but my fathers whore" She smiled at him before back handing him.

"I see what you're doing, trying to rile me up, but I'm not going to be the one to kill you, It wasn't just my son that you killed" Madison waved her hand at the door unlocking it. "Dean, you can come in now"

"You think I care about your child, he was an abomination, a whore's child" Madison heard the door open and Dean walk into the room, she turned to him and saw the pain in his eyes, she kicked herself for not preparing him for this, but she just couldn't bring herself to say it out loud, that would mean she would have to talk about it and she didn't want to open that hole back up.

"Madison-"

"I was pregnant when you stabbed Dick, I found out when I was two months, I went to see Sam but he turned me away, I blamed him for the longest time, I did, but it wasn't his fault. When I left a van smashed into my side, sending me flying out of the window, I lost him, I couldn't protect him and I'm sorry" Madison kept the tears that gathered in her eyes at bay as she turned to Dean. "I'm so sorry"

"Maddie-"

"This is the man that's responsible for his death, I just realized that I could torture him for years and it wouldn't be enough, because it won't bring him back" Madison turned to Asmodeus, walking up to him. "You win" Madison turned and walked towards the door, her eyes turning their normal brown shade causing her hold to the two women to break making them disappear. She stopped as she put her hand on the door knob. "Dean you do what you want with him" Madison opened the door, ignoring Sam who was standing on the other side and she took off down the other way. Sam walked into the room looking at his brother.

"What do you want to do?"

"I'm gunna kill this son of a bitch and then I'm gunna talk to Maddie" Madison walked down the hall and to the room she had shared with Jason, she sat on the bed and let out a deep breath, as much as she had dreamed about killing Asmodeus, during the two days she thought she would start to feel better that the hole she felt when she lost her son would start to fill but nothing ever felt like it was enough, she had tortured him to her hearts desire and it wasn't enough to make this feeling go away, she still felt like something was eating her up. She lifted her head as the door opened and Jason stepped in.

"Maddie, I though you were-"

"It didn't help, I thought it would help but it didn't, why didn't it help?"

"You can't take away the pain of losing someone, I know it hurts but you got justice for him and that's what you wanted"

"I didn't kill him"

"What, Why?"

"I let Dean do it" Jason groaned as she said that, he really did not like this guy.

"Why?"

"It was his son too, I feel like a total bitch for not telling him, I should've prepared him for this, the least I can do is let him kill him"

"You don't owe him anything"

"I never said I did, does he hate me?"

"Maddie I don't -"

"Jace, do they hate me?"

"They were hurt, Sam took it pretty bad, Dean has been quiet about it"

"I should talk to them" As if on cue a knock sounded at the door, and Gus stepped in.

"The demon is dead" Madison nodded, she swore when she heard those words it would mean something, give her at least a couple seconds of bliss, but there was nothing and it killed her to not even rejoice in her son's killer being dead. "The boys will like to have a word with you, if you're up for it"

"Yea just give me a minute" Gus nodded and signaled for Jason to follow him so Madison could be alone, Jason looked at her in case she wanted him to stay, she waved her hand letting him know she would be alright. Once she was alone, she stood up and walked into the bathroom, it had been two days since she had done anything, and her body was begging to rest but she was to worked up to ease up, her muscles felt clenched up, her brain felt sore, she knew she was hungry but she wasn't in the mood to eat, the only thing that she felt that she had the will to do was take a shower, she needed to wash off the blood, and the feeling that all of this left her with.

"You're not going to go crazy on her when she comes in are you?" Sam asked, it had been almost an hour since Dean had killed the demon and asked to see Madison but she had yet to show up.

"She hid this from me Sam"

"I get it, I do but it's not like we haven't hid things from her"

"Nothing like this, I didn't hide the death of our son" Sam sighed and shook his head, he knew what his brother was going through, he was feeling it too. "I don't blame you Sam, Maddie doesn't either, it was an accident, a fucked up accident"

"Yea, but if I hadn't-" Sam was interrupted by the door opening and Madison walking in, she sat down in front of them and looked at them prepared for the argument that was bound to happen.

"Are you Ok?" Sam asked moving his chair closer to her.

"I guess"

"Maddie I'm-"

"Why didn't you tell me?" Dean asked cutting his brother off, he didn't want to have a long conversation about this, he wanted answers that's it.

"I didn't know how, there was always too much going on"

"You could've found a second to let me know"

"I know Dean I know and I'm sorry, I wanted to tell you every day"

"So why didn't you?" Madison lowered her eye's she didn't have a good answer for him, she was wrong plain and simple, there was no justifying it to him or herself.

"Dean I was wrong, I know that"

"Yea you were wrong, this is so fucked up Maddie, can you see that?"

"I should've told you-'"

"It's not just that, everything about this is screwed up, you being here with them in this place, you've got this guy acting like you're his and shit"

"I know I'm sorry"

"Was it even mine?"

"Dean" Sam yelled, he knew his brother was mad but there was no reason to accuse her of lying about everything. Madison lowered her head and stood up.

"I get that you're mad, I do because I wanted to blame everyone I could when this happened, but I'm not gunna sit here and let you talk to me like I was one of your one night stands" Madison made her way over to the door but didn't get far when Dean spoke up again.

"Weren't you though, It was just one night?" She spun on her heels and looked at him, she was trying not to take anything he said right now to heart, she knew he was pissed, she couldn't count the amount of times she lashed out at Jason or Gus just to place the blame some where else, but he was really pushing her.

"Ok You're angry, so I'm gunna ignore that, but I'm gunna leave and give you some time to let your brain reconnect to your mouth, so you don't say something that gets you shot"

"You wanna shoot me Maddie, go ahead you couldn't hurt me any more then you already have, and then you throwing your relationship with this dick in my face"

"What does my relationship have to do with any of this?" Madison walked out of the door and out into the hall.

"So that's how it is, we break up and you jump on the next guy who shows you attention?" Madison turned on her heel her faced clouded in anger.

"How dare you, we didn't break up you kicked me out remember"

"I gave you a choice, it was the blood or us, you chose the blood that was your choice Madison you left us"

"You wanted me to just stop cold turkey, I couldn't do that"

"Why would you keep it a secret though, and that wasn't even the biggest secret you had, there was an even bigger one"

"Of course I kept it to myself look at the way you acted when you found out, look how you're acting now"

"This isn't about the blood anymore Maddie you hid the death of my son from me, My fucking son Mad how could you not think that was something I needed to know"

"I know I was wrong ok, but with you getting out of Purgatory and then you kicking me out when was the right time to tell you?"

"Anytime, you had plenty of chances and you never said a word"

"Ooh yea maybe I should've said something when Cas got back, have a full audience, hey dean remember that time we had sex the night before you disappeared and went to Purgatory, yea well I got pregnant and then a demon killed it, that would've been a perfect ice breaker"

"A demon didn't kill him, you did, you couldn't protect him" As soon as the words left his mouth his face softened, Madison was looking at him in horror she couldn't believe he had just say that to her, She stared at him tears clouding her eyes. He reached his arm out.

"Maddie" she felt her body shake at the thought of him touching her, she held her hand up.

"Don't, don't ever touch me again" She turned around and walked as fast as she could to the doors and out of the building. Dean let out a sigh running his hands over his face he had never meant for the words to come out but with them arguing and screaming at each other he got too caught up in his anger. He knew he screwed up and he was at a lost as to what to do, he contemplated going after her but decided against it instead he turned around and walked back to the room where he had left Sam.