Chapter thirty-six
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"Hey..." Steve looked up from the ground when he noticed Catherine sitting up. "How are you?" She tried to smile but it failed and she began to cry. "Cath-" Steve moved to the bed and pulled her towards him but she shook her head and backed away.
"No Steve-"
"Cath I won't hurt you like Andrews did, I promise-"
"I know...I know." She nodded as she spoke. "But you're with Kono now, you're having a baby together and we both know what will happen if we get too close again."
"Hey listen-"
"No Steve. Look I will be fine. I'm strong and you know it. Go. Go back to Kono and back to Charlotte." She sounded genuine.
Steve reluctantly got up and nodded. He had meant what he said to Danny. Yes he cared for Catherine, but as a friend. "I wanted to be the one to tell you about the baby but I guess Danny beat me to it."
She laughed. "I'm happy for you. Really I am."
He smiled back at her before embracing her and kissing the top of her head. "Bye Cath. Let me know if you need anything. And I mean anything-"
"I know I know!" She winked. "See you sailor." With one final smile, he left the room and drove back to his house. It was mid-morning now, about 10. He walked in to find an empty house. Charlie was at school but what about Kono? He went up to his room and saw two envelopes on his bed. He opened the first.
'Steve,
I'm sorry but I have to do this. Things are happening too fast and I can't be in a relationship I'm not committed too. I don't know if you will make it alive through a day, I can only hope. But I don't want it to be like that for our child. I'm sorry I couldn't tell you this in person, but I knew if I did I would change my mind. And that's not an option. I just need time alone now. To think. And for the baby, I need to do what's best for it.
I'm sorry,
Kono'
Steve sank into his bed as he read the letter and tried to process it. Where had that suddenly come from? They were fine. Well they weren't but every couple had their issues. He reluctantly picked up the other envelope and saw a letter of resignation. Kono had resigned. What was she doing?
He jumped off his bed and grabbed his keys heading to her house.
Ten minutes later, Steve was banging on her door. "Open up Kono!"
"I'm busy."
"Bullshit. Open the door or I will break it down!" He yelled. A second later the door opened slightly and Kono peaked her head around. "Are you not letting me in?"
"I don't think that's a good idea."
"No? Really? Kono what the hell were those letters?"
"One was a letter of resignation-"
"Which is declined."
"You can't do that!"
"Yeah, Kono, I can. You're a good cop and you're part of the team. Letting you go would be unprofessional and I promised not to be that."
"This is different."
"Well it's declined." He paused. "What about the other letter." Kono shrugged. "That's all I get? No explanation? Do I not at least deserve that-"
"No you don't Steve. You went off with Catherine yesterday. You still love her!"
"No I don't. I don't. I swear on Charlotte's life. It's just for a long time I did, and it's not easy to stop caring for someone. I'm always going to care about her even if I don't love her." He said genuinely. "But that's not what this is about."
"Yes it is-"
"No you're looking for the easy way out. You're scared of what's happening between us. You're scared because we are moving fast, because we are having a baby-"
"I'm scared that you are going to go out and die Steve!" Kono shouted. "I don't say anything to you but nearly everyday you do something reckless that could get you killed. And one day it probably will. And our child can't know or care about you then."
"Why?"
"Because it will hurt it too much. Losing a father Steve, I mean come on, you know what that feels like. Do you ever want your child to feel like that."
"It won't." Steve's jaw was clenched.
"You don't know that."
"Neither do you. We can't just end what we have because you are scared of our kid getting hurt."
"Well I am." She looked into his eyes. "I'm sorry. But I can't deal with those feelings and thoughts. It's what's best for the baby. Danny told me, you were this close to dying yesterday." She indicated with her fingers.
"It was under control."
"No it wasn't. I'm sorry. I want you to accept this Steve please, it's hard enough already. Accept my resignation."
He saw her pain and fear. He hated it but he understood where she was coming from. He never wanted his child to experience what he did with his father. Kono was doing this to protect the baby. He nodded vaguely. "OK...OK but I'm not giving up on you Kono. I love you. And I love our baby. You can block me out as much as you want but that's always going to be my child." He said. Then he turned and walked to his truck with a sinking heart. He'd messed it up again. Or Kono had. But he couldn't blame her. Kono the door shut and sank to the floor. She began to cry. She couldn't believe she had done that. She lived Steve, loved him more than anything but she wouldn't be able to cope with the pain if she lost him. But she already had.
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