Ok, so I have decided that I'm going to write from Kendall's point of view from now on, even though there aren't too many chapters left. Let me know if you all like this way better or if you want me to switch back to the way it was.

I stood and listened to our Sargent as he paced as if he were contemplating on what to tell us, "So, we are going into the city today. It's not much of a hike, just on the other side of those trees," He pointed into a row of trees. I wondered what was to be expected when we reached the other side of those harmless looking trees. "There are trucks that are going to be coming and getting us in an hour or so. Eat and be ready to leave in that time."

As soon as we were dismissed I turned to James who looked slightly confused, or maybe offended? "Why the fuck are we walking if there are trucks? "He blurted out. To be honest, it was a good question; I had been thinking the same thing.

"I don't know, it really doesn't make much sense to me." I said as I felt Logan and Carlos join in next to me.

There was no point in worry about the past when there was a very near future to worry about. I took James' hand and him back over to where we had pitched camp for the past night. I really didn't feel all that great today, I missed my family and my body ached from sleeping on the hard ground. I honestly didn't feel close to anything or anyone. Sure, I had James but at this point, I felt like we were just going through the motions. We held hands, shared tiny pecks on the lips or cheeks, and said 'I love you' but, I don't know. It just wasn't right. I needed to be shown and brought closer to him. It just wasn't easy out here in the cold, not getting enough sleep, and not ever being able to be alone.

After we got back the camp area we sat down and I looked at Logan and Carlos, the Latino had his back against a fallen log while Logan sat between his legs. He watched as Logan pulled out two packs of the pre-packaged meals. I felt a pang of jealousy as Logan leaned back against his chest and ripped open the meal beginning to eat the granola bar.

He felt a hand slide across his lower back, fingers wrapping around his hip, bringing him closer to James, "Hey, Kendall, you ok?" He whispered in my ear. His touch still gave me butterflies and his breath against my ear still sent shivers down my spine, don't get me wrong, just because I don't feel close to him does not in any way mean I don't still love him with everything I have.

I decided to go with the honest rout, "No," as soon as I heard my voice I realized that I sounded more pathetic than I intended to.

James tightened his grip on me. I felt his free hand curve under my chin, forcing me to look at him. I shuddered when I saw the deep concern in his eyes, "Talk to me."

I didn't know where to start, suddenly my mind flashed to my iPod, Jesus I wanted my music so bad. "It's just -," I really didn't know what to say," I guess, I don't know," I felt so defeated, I heard Carlos giggle behind me, definitely wasn't fucking helping right now.

I could feel myself getting angry and frustrated, so many emotions mixing, I didn't even know what I was doing until it happened, I guess I just snapped. I jumped into James' lap and wrapped my arms around his neck pushing my lips against his in a fast rush of lust; basically I attacked him with my kiss, if you could even call it a kiss. I ground my hips down on his feeling my body coming to life, though I knew we could only go so far, I knew people had to be watching by now, I knew Carlos and Logan were since their soft chatter had ceased. James wrapped his strong arms around my waist pulling me closer, egging me on. I pushed my hips to his again, the friction causing a moan to form in my chest only to hitch before it could reach my lips when James pulled my hips down to his, his fingers digging into the soft flesh with bruising strength. God damn it felt so good.

This is exactly what I needed. I just needed this sexual tension released and to show and/or be shown that I was still wanted. I could feel James, now hard under me. He pulled his lips from mine just as I was going to grind him again; the cold air was not welcome where his warms lips had just been on mine, "Kendall," his voice was rough and breathy at the same time, so damn sexy, "n-."

I cut him off knowing that he was going to try and stop what was happening, I knew it was the right thing to do, especially when they were pretty much out in the middle of nowhere with other guys. Though, if you threw a few chicks out here ready to get it on not one of them would hesitate putting on a show. I had my elbows resting on his shoulders, my hands tangled in his long hair. I pulled and he praised me with a deep growl forcing me to push my chest to his wanting to be a close as possible, I pushed my hips again.

I felt him begin to push me away from him when I ripped his head back, probably more forceful than necessary. He let out a groan of pain before it turned into a moan when I bit down on the delicate flesh directly below his jaw.

"Diamond, Knight!" I ripped away from James, making a note of the red mark on his neck that would surely become a bruise, falling off his lap onto the hard, cold dirt. I looked up at our Sargent and scrambled to my feet, James doing the same beside me. My heart pounded, though I couldn't tell if it was still recovering from our little make out session or fear of what was about to be said.

"Can you please explain to me what the hell is going on here?" He said his voice raised.

I looked over to where Logan and Carlos had been seeing that they were gone. I opened my mouth to say that it wasn't what it looked like, though that's exactly what it was before he cut me off before I could even start, "No, I change my mind. Please do not tell me." He shook his head before he said in a lowered volume, "You know what? You two are going to be on watch tonight." He turned to walk away though paused, turning to look at us once more raising his eye brows telling the two younger males, 'if you know what I mean.'

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