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SONNY POV
"Holy shit!"
"Sonny... I'm so, so, so sorry" Chad apologized hastily "I- Damnit! I'm so stupid, I'm such a- fuck" He groaned and beat himself up. The tears started rolling heavy down my face. This can't be happening. It can't be! I closed my eyes and leaned against the door. I hope and pray that I don't get pregnant. I hope that I didn't just fuck up my future that hasn't even started. I pushed my hair back and took in a breath
"Shit..." I breathed out "This can't be happening" I muttered to myself and opened my eyes again "Chad we really fucked up..."
"Yeah, I know. I'm so sorry. I am. I wasn't thinking and..."
"We're only eighteen. How could I be so stupid?" I hissed and banged the back of my head in the door softly "How could we be so stupid? So caught in the moment and not realizing that we weren't protected?" I fisted my hair and let more tears drench my flushed face. They were a mixture of a lot of emotions. Anger, panicky, worried, disoriented. My stomach was up in my throat at the moment and the tears began to make me sob. "What are we going to do if I do get pregnant?"
"I don't know"
"We can't abort it because I don't believe in that"
"Neither does my family" He wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed the top of my head "I'm sorry... so sorry"
"I don't want a kid right now. I'm too young. You're too young. We aren't ready at all"
"We'll figure something out" He soothed my back as I cried into his chest even though I could still hear the panic in his voice. My heart started racing rapidly at the thought of me not going to school and not going anywhere in life. Just being dull...
"This is bad... really, really bad" I croaked out, soaking his shirt with my cries
"What now?"
"If... it does happen... do you want to keep it?" I muttered into his chest and knew he heard me. His hand ran up and down my back
"If it does happen... yeah" He muttered back "We'll take care of it if it does happen a-and..."
"You can't tell anyone" I pulled back and wiped my face "Not your parents... and not Grady or Seth. No one Chad" I sobbed out "Not until we truly know and figure out some thing's..."
"I won't. I swear and if it doesn't nothing changes between us, baby" I winced at the word but nodded
"I'll take a test in a couple of days"
"But didn't your period end like two days ago? That's not possible because your body is still reconfiguring itself or something of that nature"
"Okay... that's why you're still in Sex Ed" I shook my head again "Yeah, it did end two days ago... and... and I don't think it's possible" I said the last part to myself. The ovulation period couldn't have started yet so... I don't think I would get pregnant. But just to be sure...
CHAD POV
I'm an idiot. I was so fucking angry and caught up that I didn't even think about a rubber. This is what my dad was talking. I hope I didn't mess up anything in our lives. Praying that this just is a pregnancy scare. I never ever meant for Sonny to get pregnant... if she turns out to be. I mean, I don't even want kids... right now. Maybe years from now when I'm stable and know that I can take care of the child and the mother. God, I'm so fucking idiotic and stupid! I wasn't thinking. I could've ruined our lives instantly.
"I'm screwed" She cried and rested her hands on her face
"Sonny..."
"I'm so tempted to punch you in the face" She sneered at me. As serious as this is, I had to fight back a smile. I wanted to punch my self to. For being a dick!
"I really am sorry" She stepped up in front of me and narrowed her eyes
"Out of my minds sake... y-you didn't do this on purpose so I have to stay, d-did you?" What. The. Fuck.
"No! I don't want a baby. I'm eighteen!" I exclaimed loudly. I don't want to be a father. Not for another load of years. Hell, even then "Why the hell would I do that?"
"It was a question" She mumbled and strode over to the door. I could see the tears all over her face. I'm such an asshole. Great, old Chad is back. As she opened the door, I placed my hand over hers and tried to stop her. She tensed a little and shook her head
"Sonshine"
"I kinda want to be alone" She choked out and stepped out of the door. I let her go and sat on the couch. I had all ten fingers wove in my hair and my eyes burned. Never have I ever stared tearing over a girl. Why am I an idiot? I breathed out heavily and stared at the floor, watching the tear from my eyes hit the floor. I'm not necessarily worried about getting something because Sonny and I both tested clean when my mother took us to the clinic. I'm partially concerned that… I've messed this relationship up completely. Fuck
SETH POV
As I sat in the kitchen with Chloe next to me and my parents stood in front of me at the opposite counter. Sonny getting in Oxford is great but those two are going to detonate on each other. I sipped my beer and listened to my dad talk about something with the studios. Chloe got into Arizona State which isn't that far from here. We talked about it easily and worked everything out smoothly. My father grew quiet when Sonny came through the backyard door with tears rolling down her face. She didn't look at any of us. Her fast pace led her to the garage where no one knows what happened. I shook my head and looked at the backyard door. Then a loud crash came from the garage followed by the rumble of her motorcycle engine.
"I don't think it went well" My mother exhaled
"Obviously" My father narrowed his eyes "They argued"
"No doubt about that" Chloe nodded "Go see how your brother is" As she said that Chad slid the backyard door open and closed it behind him. His eyes were red... he had tears. Chad never cried over a girl... shit this is bad.
"Bro" He held his hand up to stop me and clenched his jaw. Without a word spoken, he left the kitchen and went upstairs.
"This isn't good" Chloe muttered
"He's crying; it's just an emotion" My father shrugged. I shook my head again and explained to him
"Chad never cries. Especially over a girl. Ever" He quirked a brow and sipped his glass of orange juice. I contemplated whether or not I should go talk to him but… Chad's hardheaded.
SONNY POV
I sat on the pier ledge and looked out onto the water that the moon shined over. My bottled water was next to me while I held a small box in my hand. There was only a few people out which was perfect for me to think. There are so many ways I can tell you what I'm thinking. One way is to just explain it all. I really, desperately want to go to Oxford. That was my major choice when I was filling out applications. I started re-thinking it immediately when Chad had walked into the kitchen. I have no control over why I started to rethink it but I know it didn't feel that good. I want to stay but I definitely want to go. It's hard to think about and it's very confusing. The tears didn't stop ever and I don't think they were going to anytime soon. Driving with tears in your eyes is hard enough but when they don't stop. It's downright dangerous.
I pushed my hair back and opened up the box that I got from Walgreens pharmacy section, in my hand. I popped one of the small white tablets from the foil and into my mouth before I opened my water. I swallowed everything and sighed heavily. Plan B you better work! Even then, there's only an 87.5% chance that it'll work. I seem to beat the odd every time.
I stood up slowly on the ledge and closed my eyes. I haven't done this in a long time. I hope my timing is right on this. When I heard the waves crash onto the pier legs, I took a deep breath. I'm not trying to kill myself. I just want to jump into the water and feel the drop in my stomach when I'm in the air. I heard the waves crash again. I think I'm fucking crazy… but it's so fun. I could use a little fun. There's the third crash. I jumped and held my breath for the four second fall to the water. I hit the freezing cold ocean and swam a little to level myself out. Man, that felt amazing. After a minute, I came up for air. My wet hair clung to my body, as did my clothes. I floated on my back for a while, little tiny waves washing over my body and whisking away my tears.
"Dad… tell me what to do?" I murmured
CHAD POV
"Chad…" Seth came into my room after a couple of hours. Sonny wasn't back yet and I was lying on my stomach with my head buried in my pillow. All the lights were out in my room and I was in nothing but a pair of basketball shorts. I didn't want to talk to anyone nor did I want to do anything. I'm fucking fine "Dude…"
"What Seth?" I snapped and felt the bed dip because of his weight when he sat on it
"What happened?" He patted my back sincerely. Usually, I would talk to Seth but I don't feel like it.
"Everything fucking happened. College fucking happened"
"You knew this was coming, Chad"
"Yeah and it's a pain in the ass" I'm thinking about the Oxford thing and I'm thinking about what would happen with Sonny being pregnant. My mind was aching and thinking way too hard "Just… leave me alone, Seth"
"Chad…" He started "…whatever happened in there, I'm pretty sure that you two can work out. I mean, four years then she comes back"
"It's too many complications to work out right now"
"That's bullshit…"
"Leave. Me. Alone" I pronounced. I didn't want Seth to actually see my face. On how upset I was and how red my eyes were. He probably wouldn't care but it's a pride thing "Seth, get out"
"Chad… listen…"
"I don't care. Just get out for fucks sake. I don't want to talk about it!" I yelled at him. He exhaled and stood up
"Fine… but I told you not to screw this up" He left the room and closed the door behind him.
There are times were you want to be heavily drunk. This is one of those times. I don't know what to do with myself honestly. I've fucked things up so bad and I don't know how I'm going to fix them this time. Sonny and my stupid 'not thinking about protection' self was destruction. It was a slow path of self destruction… and I hated it. I hated the tears that never seemed to stop, I hated that any new form of expression I had towards love was because of Sonny, I hated that I can't do anything about this fucked up mess right now! I never knew that I could screw up this bad. I'm Chad Dylan Cooper, I barely screw up… What the fuck happened to me?
Around one in the morning when I was just drifting off into sleep I heard Sonny come in the house. I placed the pillow over my head and shut my eyes. I wanted to block everything I heard out for the rest of the night. But I couldn't help it at all. I listened to the faint sound of her door close and removed the pillow from my head. Though we fought and everything is turned upside down right now… I still love her.
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Heads up! I'm putting this story on break or vacation because I'm turning sixteen. (yeah... I'm young...) My parents are taking me on a seven day cruise. BUT! I will write chapters when I have time on the cruise and will comeback and upload like a crazy person. I will try to update one more time before I leave on Saturday... but if i can't... I'll read from you soon! Hugs and Kisses :)