She woke up again about 3 hours later, he had fallen asleep with his head on her bed holding her hand. She pressed the button for the nurse, when she walked in "I want to see my babies" she said. The nurse walked back in a few minutes later with a wheel chair. She pulled her hand away from Garrett, he looked like he would wake up but he fell asleep again.
They took her to the nicu, at the windows she looked in at her babies, "I want to go in" she said. The nurse went to talk with them. They came out with clothes for her to put on, then they wheeled her in. She just sat by her babies, they told her everything about them, how much they weighed, that they were strong, but they had to keep them on the breathing machine for about a week then try taking it off. "would you like to hold his hand" the asked her. "only his? She asked, "well she is smaller so maybe tomorrow you can hold hers too" the nurse said. She could not stop shaking her head yes. She had gloves on so she could not feel him ,but she sat there for about an hour crying.
She was wheeled back into the room, he was still sleeping. She looked at the nurse " can I walk" she asked . The nurse got her out of he chair and walked her to the chair. When the nurse finally left she just sat there and thought, she hoped he would be ok with just two kids, she did not think she could survive if he would leave her.
He woke up reaching for Bay she wasn't there, he called for her then he saw her. She was in a rocking chair crying, he got up and went to her "I'm sorry" she signed. He just looked at her "sweetie what in the world do you have to be sorry for", she just looked away. He hugged her, this was killing him, "baby you don't have anything to be sorry for we almost lost you, I don't think I could have survived if you were not here" he signed. " I can't have anymore of your babies so I'm sorry," she signed.
He went into the hall to get a nurse, he typed into his phone 'she needs to go back to bed'. The nurse went in and put her back in bed. When she was settled, he took a deep breath "baby I really don't care if we can have anymore babies, I have you and are twins that's all that I care about, I love you so much" he signed. She just laid there and did not say anything she was just staring into space. She finally fell asleep, her parents got there. He looked at them " she wont quit apologizing," they looked at him confused, "because she can't have anymore of my babies" he signed.
John stayed with Bay and Katherine took Garrett to see the twins again. They were allowed inside, " I really want to wait for Bay before I see them" he signed. The nurse said that she had already been there, and held her baby boys hand, and she said that she cried the entire time she was visiting. He just looked at Katherine "she is so depressed, how do I make her see all that matters is them " tears were falling from his eyes.