Callie and Lena walked into her psychiatrists waiting room. Everytime Callie was here, she felt uneasy.
"Go sit down there sweetie while I sign you in." Lena pointed towards the chairs in the corner.
Callie did as she was told and Lena went up to the desk to sign her in. Once she was finished, she turned around and walked to the seat next to Callie. As she sat down, she could see Callie's hands shaking. She took Callie's hand into her own and rubbed her thumb along the top.
"I'm sorry. I don't know why I'm so nervous." Callie admitted as she turned her head to look at Lena.
Lena let out a sigh. Callie always apologized for things she shouldn't be apologizing for.
"Don't apologize. It's okay to be scared." Lena assured.
Lena's phone buzzed. She pulled it out of her bag and read the message on the screen.
"That was mom. She said she's leaving work now and she'll be here soon." Lena explained to Callie.
Callie nodded her head. Stef didn't work very far, maybe 15 minutes away. Callie broke from her own thought's when she heard her name being called. Lena and Callie stood up and walked towards the door.
"Hello, Dr. Hawthorne." Lena greeted.
"Hello Mrs. Adams Foster, Callie. Take a seat." Dr. Hawthorne motioned towards the chairs set up in front of her.
Callie and Lena sat down and Lena took hold of Callie's hand again.
"Should we be expecting your wife?" The doctor asked Lena.
"Yea, she should be here soon. She's coming from work." Lena replied.
Like clockwork, there was a knock on the door. Dr. Hawthorne opened the door to see Stef standing there. She invited her in before returning to her seat.
"Hi babies." Stef said quietly before sitting next to Callie.
Stef was still in uniform, but she had taken her belt off and set it next to her. She put her hand on Callie's back and rubbed it like she always did to keep her calm while Dr. Hawthorne spoke.
"So what brings you ladies in here today?" She asked, folding her hands in front of her.
"Callie feels like she's not benefiting from her medicine. She had quite an episode three days ago." Lena began explaining.
Dr. Hawthorne nodded her head. "What kind of episode are we talking about?"
"She was throwing things and crying. It took longer to calm her down." Lena continued.
Callie felt her face turn red.
"What triggered this, Callie?" The doctor asked as she directed her attention towards Callie.
"I was just- I was frustrated with having to take medicine and it not working. I was just upset in general I guess." Callie admitted as she fidgeted her hands.
"Ahh. I see. What I want to do is have your mom's go wait out in the waiting room for a little bit so I can talk to you a little bit." Dr. Hawthorne explained.
Callie looked from Stef to Lena with fear in her eyes.
"It'll be okay, 'll be right out there. I promise." Stef rubbed her back.
"O-okay." Callie stuttered.
Stef kissed Callie's temple before walking out with Lena to the waiting room. They sat down in the same chairs Callie and Lena were in earlier. Stef looked at Lena before leaning in to kiss her.
"Hi love." Stef smiled.
"Hi." Lena laughed.
"She's so scared." Stef sighed.
"I know. She was doing what she always does earlier, apologizing." Lena said.
"For what?" Stef asked.
"Being nervous." Lena responded.
Stef blew a piece of hair out of her face. "That girl."
"Tell me about it." Lena rested her head on Stef's shoulder.
Stef turned and kissed Lena's head. Both women waited somewhat impatiently until they were invited back into the room. Callie looked emotionally drained. They sat back down to where they were before, Stef resting her hand onto Callie's back again.
"So, I did a psych evaluation on Callie, just like I did when she first came to me." Dr. Hawthorne began. "It's become clear that Callie is also suffering with bipolar disorder as well, explaining why she was having those freakouts and why the medicine was not working. I'm going to put her on Symbyax. It works as an antidepressant as well as a mood stabilizer. That way you won't have to take multiple pills."
Stef's throat went dry. She knew Callie would be upset not only because she still had to take medication, but also because she would feel even more isolated being diagnosed with two mental illnesses. Lena looked over at Stef, who looked tense. She ran her fingers through Callie's hair. Callie just nodded her head. Dr. Hawthorne went on explaining a few things about the medication, side effects and things like that.
"Do you guys have any questions?" Dr. Hawthorne looked back and forth between the three women.
"No, I think we've got it." Stef assured.
"Okay, I'll send the perscription to your usual pharmacy?" Dr. Hawthorne questioned.
"Yes." Lena replied.
"Okay ladies. That will be all. Just make sure Callie keeps going to all of her therepy sessions and takes her medicine. Give me a call if you have any questiones later." The doctor said.
"Thank you. Bye." Stef gave a small smile to her before standing up.
Callie muttered goodbye and Lena said goodbye as well.
"So, Callie. Do you wanna ride with me or mom?" Lena asked as they got into the parking lot.
"I was thinking I'd go pick up some food, I could use the extra hands." Stef suggested.
"What are you getting?" Lena asked.
"I was thinking Mexican." Stef admitted.
"Alright, babe. Sounds good. I'll go pick up the medicine then head home." Lena smiled.
The three separated, and Callie walked to Stef's car with her and sat in the passenger seat.
"You okay love?" Stef asked before pulling off.
"Uhhuh." Callie muttered.
"It's me you're talking to. I know you and I highly doubt that's true." Stef turned her head towards Callie.
Callie shrugged. "I'm alright, just feel weird."
"Why is that?" Stef questioned.
"Well, because I am. I'm depressed and bipolar. That doesn't sound very normal to me." Callie said.
"Normal is overrated my dear Callie. Those illnesses don't define who you are, you know that right?" Stef pushed hair out of Callie's face.
"But-" Callie was cut off.
"No but's. No arguing. You are you, not what you are diagnosed with. We love you no matter what and we will continue to love you. This doesn't change anything." Stef smiled.
Callie unbuckled her seatbelt and leaned over to hug Stef.
"I love you too, mommy." Callie said into Stef's shirt.
Stef smiled. She loved when Callie called her mommy.
"We better get going. Your brothers and sisters are probably starving." Stef said, putting the car into drive and driving off.
Sorry for the wait guys, I had a bunch of projects and other homework to do so I didn't have much time to update. Hope you guys liked it and I hope you guys are all doing well. Much love, xoxoxoxo