Title: Moving On

Author: Raven Shadowrose

Rating: M

Pairing:?/?

Summary: Dixie has been left broken hearted by Cyd's departure from the Holby team, what happens when Cyd is replaced by Hannah Darbyshire and Dixie takes a liking to her. Will she end up with even more of a broken heart or will she find the happiness that she has been searching for?

Disclaimer: I do not know or own any of the characters from Casualty, all original characters and the story are my property and I do not give permission for anyone else to use this story.

Author's Note: This story will contain will contain some femslash, if you do not wish to read it then by all means back away slowly the way you came, other than that enjoy the story and reviews are appreciated :)

Thank you to chan. nelson444, olivia. c. king1 and beethovenRIP for your comments. I really hope you enjoy this chapter, I am feeling quite sentimental about it :)

Chapter Thirty-Six.

Dixie lay with her head on Hannah's stomach, she'd tempted her to go back to bed for a while and it had led to them gently and slowly making love to each other for some of the afternoon. Dixie sighed and kissed the bare skin of Hannah's belly, they had to be in work in a couple of hours but for now she could stay in bed with her. Hannah looked quite contented and happy, she always had a glow after they had made love. Hannah always looked beautiful but now it was even more noticeable. Dixie put her head back down on Hannah's soft belly and cuddled up to her, she made little patterns with her fingers over Hannah's skin, it was always warm to the touch and caressing Hannah's skin always made her feel peaceful and relaxed.

Dixie thought about the approaching new year, it always made her think too much, she wondered what Hannah wanted from life, she was still so young and she must have dreams. Did she want to be a mum one day? Dixie wondered if Hannah wanted to get married, the more she thought about it the more she realised that one day she would like to marry Hannah and make their relationship really official one day. 'Hannah, do you ever think of the future?'

'Sometimes.'

'Where do you see us in ten years?'

'Ten years, that's a long time away.'

'I know, I'll be forty-seven, nearly fifty, nearly an old woman. Will you still want me then Hannah?'

'Why wouldn't I want you Dixie?'

'I don't know, I suppose I'm just being silly.'

'Fifty isn't old Dixie, you'll still be beautiful.' Dixie smiled, Hannah always made her feel better. 'Do you want to know what I see for us in the future?'

'Tell me.'

'We'll still be living together, at the end of a long winding street with lots of cats and all the children will think we're witches.' Dixie laughed, she liked Hannah's sense of humour. 'Seriously though, what do you want for the future? Marriage and children? I worry that I'm holding you back Hannah; you could have a lovely husband, children and a beautiful house and yet you're with me, is this what you really want?'

'Yes, it is what I want, you're what I want Dixie. I don't want anybody else. What's brought this on?'

'It'll be a whole new year soon, it always gets me to thinking about things.' Dixie moved her head from Hannah's stomach and lay on the pillow, she looked at Hannah, she felt a bit silly now that she had brought up the conversation.

Hannah looked up at Dixie from where she lay, she didn't want anyone else. 'Just because we're two women in a relationship doesn't mean we can't have children and get married. We can do both of those things, there's always sperm donation and then we can raise the child as our own.'

'You'd do that? You'd have a baby with me and marry me?'

'Of course I would, maybe not just yet though, we've only just moved in together, we'll know when the time is right.'

'I know we will, thank you for wanting to be with me.' Hannah moved until she was able to kiss Dixie, she felt Dixie's hand move and settle on her back as they slowly kissed. Hannah couldn't believe that Dixie still had a few insecurities here and there, but she would keep telling her that she loved her and wanted to be with her for as long as Dixie needed to hear it. Hannah wrapped her arms around Dixie, the older woman was lying with her head near Hannah's neck, she used one hand to stroke Dixie's hair and the other one to hold her close. 'You're beautiful Dixie, I don't think you realise just how lovely you really are.'

'Even though I'm carrying extra weight from eating too much over Christmas?'

'I mean it when I say you're beautiful.'

'Okay, thank you my beautiful Hannah.' Hannah felt Dixie cuddle closer to her, she gently stroked Dixie's hair and cheek, she really was in love with her, nobody else would do, Dixie had her heart.

Dixie was feeling quite happy, she loved and trusted Hannah, she just wanted to make sure that Hannah really wanted to be with her. Hannah's hand stroking her hair was making her feel quite content and relaxed. Dixie sighed happily, she really was in love. 'Dixie, you know I love you right?'

'Of course I do.'

'I don't want you to think that I don't love you or that I don't want to be with you.'

'I'll try and stop thinking like that, I'm sorry Hannah, you must think that I don't trust you.'

'I don't think that, you've been through things with your father that nobody should have to go through, it is only natural that you'll think of it from time to time. I do know one thing though.'

'What's that?'

'You have my heart and I can't think of anyone else more worthy of it.'

'You have my heart too beautiful.' Dixie smiled, the future with Hannah was looking very bright, she vowed to try and stop thinking so pessimistically about things.

Polly and Jeff sat in the lounge with Little Abs, Polly was stroking his head and Jeff was sipping at his coffee. 'I can't believe it is almost a new year again Pol.'

'I know, I do not know where this year has gone. I think I say that every year Jeff.'

'I do too, you're not alone Pol.'

'I'm looking forward to it being a new year actually, I hope it will have better memories than the one that is about to end.'

'Me too, we're all happy now. You are happy living with me Polly, aren't you?'

'Of course I am Jeff, you're a lovely man.'

'Thanks Pol, maybe you should tell the other women that.'

'I can do if you want me to.'

'It's all right, I think I've resigned myself to being single.'

'You're too young to be single forever Jeff.'

'What about you Pol, who is the right man for you?'

'I don't know, I just hope that he's out there somewhere.'

'Of course he is, you're a beautiful young woman Polly. When you find someone then I'll give them the talk.'

'Thanks Jeff.' Polly kissed Jeff on the cheek, it was nice to have someone that acted like a father to her. Jeff really was a lovely man and she hoped that he would find someone soon.

Jeff drained the last of his coffee and watched Polly stroking Little Abs, he was thinking about the future, his best mate was happy with Hannah. Jeff smiled, both himself and Dixie were living with women younger than themselves. He wondered what was waiting for them all in the coming year. Jeff understood what Polly meant when she said that she thought about the new year. He always thought about the kids, he'd sent them gifts at Christmas and talked to them but it wasn't the same, he wished that he could see them. Lucy wasn't the easiest person to talk to in the world, especially when it came to him and the kids. He hoped that when the kids were older they would decide that they wanted to see him. He was grateful that he was allowed to talk to them and send them gifts, he felt that it was important to let them know that he loved them as often as he could. Jeff shook his head, he was getting sentimental in his old age.

Dixie closed her locker after she had put her uniform on, Hannah was already changed and Jeff and Polly were just finishing off. Cyd had taken a couple of days off and she'd gone to see her family in Ireland. Dixie remembered the time that she was invited to go with her, Cyd's family was lovely, she'd already talked with Cyd to make sure that she'd arrived in Ireland safely and was pleased to hear that the family still remembered her. Dixie wondered if Hannah would like to go away somewhere, they were going to Yorkshire next week for James' wedding but she was thinking somewhere a bit further afield. She would talk to Hannah about it and they could decide where they wanted to go. Then there was Valentine's day, Dixie had always hated Valentine's day, she didn't feel like you should wait until one day a year to treat someone to a gift. She was going to have to talk to Hannah and find out what she thought about it, if Hannah really wanted to celebrate it then she would grit her teeth and say nothing.

Hannah and Polly came out of the hospital after dropping off their latest patient and they ran into Big Mac as he was on his way inside. 'Good evening ladies.'

'Hello Big Mac, you're working too I see.' Hannah smiled at Big Mac, she was always pleased to see him as he had always been nice to her.

'Yes, no rest for the wicked.'

'I know what you mean.'

'How is Dixie?' He'd also been supportive when he'd found out about her relationship with Dixie.

'She's very well, thank you Mac.'

'No doubt I will see you later ladies.' Big Mac took his hat off to Hannah and Polly and then went inside.

'Big Mac is so sweet,' Hannah said to Polly.

'He is one of the true gentlemen in the world.'

'He is indeed, I've often wondered how he doesn't have anyone.'

'I was thinking the same about Jeff earlier.'

'He's a lovely man too.'

'I know, it is a shame that he doesn't have anyone.' Hannah thought about what Polly said, Big Mac and Jeff really were two of the nicest men in the world, she wished that the world was a fairer place so that men like Jeff and Mac had someone to share their lives.

Dixie was getting more and more excited as it got closer to midnight, she wasn't sure what had got into her, maybe it was the idea of a new beginning. With the passing of the year she could leave behind everything that had gone on with her father and his views on her sexuality. She could look forward to a future with Hannah. Dixie pulled out the little bottle of champagne she had brought with her and poured it into four plastic cups, there weren't any proper glasses so the little cups would have to do. 'Jeffrey,' Dixie called out and he came into her office. 'Can you take two of these out there?'

'What is in there?'

'Champagne, I thought we could celebrate the new year.'

'I like that idea Dixie.'

'We might be on duty but I think we deserve a little bit of a celebration.' Dixie took out the remaining two cups of champagne out to Hannah and Polly.

Hannah took the little cup of champagne from Dixie and looked at her watch, they were stood in the doorway of the garage and looking out into the car park of the hospital. 'Two minutes and the year is gone forever. Does anyone have a new year resolution?' Hannah was curious as to what people were going to have for their resolutions. 'I'm going to keep learning the guitar,' Polly said. 'I will be a rock star.'

'That's a good one Polly. What about you Jeff?'

'I don't know, I haven't really thought about it. I think I will make time to spend with my friends and be there for them.'

'That's lovely Jeff. Dixie?' Hannah really wanted to know what Dixie was going to say.

'I am going to be more positive and look to the future instead of the past.' Hannah looked at Dixie and smiled.

'I like that Dixie.'

'What's yours Hannah?'

'I'm going to spend time with you lovely people and just be happy, there's a lot to look forward to in our future.' Hannah felt Dixie's hand squeeze hers. 'Happy new year everyone, it is time for a new start now. May we all be happy.' Hannah clinked her cup with Polly, Jeff and Dixie and they all drank their champagne, she looked up as the first fireworks burst out in colour over her head. 'Look, fireworks, I love fireworks.' Hannah held Dixie's hand and felt Polly take hers from the other side, she looked over and saw Dixie holding Jeff's hand too. It made her smile that they were all linked together by their hands and just watching the fireworks together. It was a new start for everyone here, she loved the fact that they were all together at the very beginning of a brand new year and one that was full of potential. She turned her attention back to the fireworks and put her head on Dixie's shoulder, it was moments like this that she'd come to treasure.