Chapter 38 Welcome to the World.

"Carina, What were you doing?" Severus was as tough as nails again, but in a good way, his sternness was from concern not the cold indifference she had lived with these past few days.

"I was going to free fall and then fly like I always do, but all of the sudden I didn't feel like flying, I just wanted to keep falling." She felt him stiffen as he held her. "I swear I don't know what came over me, it just took over me." she was still shivering even though it was the hottest day they had had in months.

Severus wondered about the oddly perfect weather conditions that were fit for flight. The wheels began to turn, and the bird had just happened to hit that certain window, and she felt like flying as soon as I got to my office, and looked out my window. Something wasn't adding up. Someone planted the whole thing to make him lose her and have to watch it. They hadn't banked on him pulling her out of the trance. His anger was wailing up and he held her tighter casting a furtive glance around. She wasn't ready to stand up yet so he swooped her up and headed for her office which was closest.

When he reached the office he warded the doors silently and laid her on a couch. He ordered her some crackers and left to get a potion for her quaking stomach. He gave her the potion and told her to sleep awhile. He left her office via floo and went to the Headmasters.

"Albus I believe there is someone in the castle who is trying to murder your daughter." He couldn't hide the possessive fury coming from him.

"Relax my boy, she was never in any real trouble." Albus smiled at the stunned looking Severus. "Should have known you'de put most of the pieces together though."

"Why! why would you dare risk her safety over such a reckless stunt?" Severus was outraged, flabbergasted, dang it he was pissed at the interfering old coot.

"Tell me Severus Why would you be willing to risk her health and happiness? Because you care! And I took every precaution thinkable to set this up. I spent the last few days making sure there were no holes so she would be perfectly safe!"

"Even still! I had everything in motion, everything was rolling."

"Yes Severus it was, but all in the wrong direction, don't you get it boy! You two NEED each other. You were only hindering yourself by pushing her away. In the end she will know the whole truth. She isn't a child who believes everything she hears. She test things, tries to poke holes in foundations, and she strives for proof, she won't easily be fooled by all this."

"I'm not making a potion! I'm becoming a MURDERER! I'll be killing her beloved father! Not to mention that you are one of my BEST FRIENDS!"

"Precisely Severus, she would never believe that you had killed me. She will investigate in every way she can and she won't believe a word of it until she talks to you."

Severus sat down, he was right, the old cunning,manipulative should-have-been-a-Slytherin was right.

"You my boy were trying to punish yourself, much like the muggle monks, by going without something you especially want. You want to be with Carina, yet you feel you don't in any way deserve her. However if you were to ask her she would tell you that she doesn't believe she could have ever deserved you, and your friendship. I did what I did today because I'll not leave this place knowing that the two of you are not happy, it's something I hold dear."

Severus left and went to Carina's office. She was asleep on her couch were he had left her. He bent over her and stroked her forehead, leaning over her kissed it and whispered in her ear, "You'll never know how much I love you."

"Why don't you tell her? You know when she's conscience?"

A/N Mystery Voice!!!! WHO SAID THAT LAST LINE?

depjunk- Cyrano De Bergerac is one of my all time favorites. I swear i had to end that chapter early because after putting in that paragraph i had to squirrel away with the book and read/weep over the pages. I want to give Carina and Severus a huge build up to that first kiss because its her first kiss and pretty much his first kiss too because its really the first love he has ever had so I have a big view of the kiss. In fact this whole story comes from my day dreaming about the kiss. So for the true first kiss I'm sad to say we have to wait. I try to hurry tho!!

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