The parts in italics are flashbacks, enjoy……

Taylor's POV

I closed my eyes taking in my surroundings; the white walls the plush carpet the crystal chandelier. Anything to keep my mind off the inevitable. Breathing in and out slowly I tried to keep my heart rate down as four words kept bouncing around in my head, "I can't do this." My thoughts were interrupted by a slightly high pitched voice.

Sharpay- are you ready?

She asked, excitement filling her voice

I immediately felt my heart react at the phrase. Am I ready? The question I've been asking myself for the past month and one answer always resulted whenever I asked, NO!

Sharpay- are you okay Tay?

Taylor- no

I quickly answered. Hell no would have been more appropriate though. I'm panicking how am I supposed to do this? It's one thing to lie to myself, I can deal with that, but to lie to some one else is just too painful.

Troy- what now?

I could hear the hope in his voice and I immediately cringed.

Taylor- nothing

I said untangling myself from his warm embrace. I immediately felt empty afterwards.

Troy- what do you mean nothing?

He asked holding my face making me look into his eyes.

Taylor- it starts and ends here Troy, it's … all of this is way too complicated.

Troy- love is complicated if you haven't noticed before Taylor.

Taylor- love has nothing to do with this

Troy- your right it has everything to do with this. Taylor I know you're afraid hell I'm afraid too. But I promise you we can make it I feel it I know you do too.

I looked away from him, knowing what he said hit directly to my heart. I had felt it I did but we had commitments to other people, no matter how much they hurt.

Taylor- I'm sorry but… it's too hard

Troy- we'll get through it baby just trust me.

Taylor- Chad and Jennifer

Troy- I'm done with Jenny, she and I both know that.

Taylor- what?

I questioned facing him again.

Troy- It's not official yet but on Monday I'm going to drawl up divorce papers.

Taylor- is this

Troy- no this isn't about you whatever decision you make its still going to happen.

I bit my lip and looked away from him again. I wanted it, I wanted everything he said but I knew I would hate myself possibly forever if I broke Chad's heart, knowing he was the one that put back together the pieces that Troy had broken. To do that to him would be unforgiveable.

Taylor- Troy I'm sorry please don't be mad at me but I just can't … Chad

Troy- Taylor don't do this, don't ruin your chance at happiness

Taylor- Troy I can't I'm sorry me and Chad are getting married. So just... leave please.

Troy- I'll go right now and I won't bother you again if you just tell me you don't love me.

Taylor- I...I don't love you

Troy- I think you're lying

I know I am

Taylor- I'm not I… I don't so just… just go

I replied before locking myself in the adjoining bathroom. I held my breath for about ten minutes until I heard the door slam shut. Next thing I knew I was on the bathroom floor balling and sobbing.

Sharpay- Taylor

She replied for the umpteenth time breaking me out of my trance.

Sharpay- Taylor what's wrong you look gorgeous and you're getting married to the man of your dreams right?

Dreams. God most nights I would try to ward off sleep because of his frequents visits there. He was always there wearing an inviting smile, not the disappointed grimace, and his eyes… they were always happy and warm not cold and emotionless like that day.

Taylor- Troy please talk to me

I exclaimed trying to catch up to his combination of run- walking.

Troy- what's there to talk about you don't love me. You made your decision.

He said staring at me with those menacing eyes. I visibly flinched.

Taylor- I'm sorry I just … I didn't want to hurt any one. It's better this way you know.

Troy- No, no I don't know, mission failed Taylor, you hurt me.

He replied his voice faltering a little. My heart broke hearing him say those words. The vulnerability, the pain in his voice. All of which were in mines when he hurt me all those years ago. All I used to want back then was to make him hurt how I did. Now all I want is to do anything to make it better.

Sharpay- are you thinking about him, Troy?

I shot a panic- stricken glance her way.

Taylor- how'd you?

Sharpay- there's a lot you keep secret from me, and I respect that. But I can tell. The look you get when he comes up in conversation. The same one you had just now, what happened?

Taylor-I love him

I whispered silent tears rolling down my cheeks.

Sharpay- Oh god Taylor

She softly whispered before pulling me into a hug.

Taylor- I don't want to hurt Chad

I chocked out.

Sharpay- Oh sweetie you're already hurting him

She said while brushing a stray tear from my cheek.

Sharpay- It's not fair to keep hanging on to him when you don't feel the same way he does. If you marry him,you'll be resentful toward him because you didn't pursue true love on his behalf.

Taylor- he's going to hate me.

Sharpay- if he truly loves you, he won't. You just can't love doesn't work that way. You and Troy being example A.

After a moment of silence, me taking in what she just said she spoke again.

Sharpay- I'll get Chad

I nodded a silent thank you and watched her sort of waddle away. God how am I going to do this? I love Chad, but I'm just not in love with him. I hope he finds it in his heart to forgive me… someday. My thoughts were interrupted by the knocking at the door.

Taylor- come in

I managed to get out, feeling a new stream of tears on my cheeks. I watched Chad saunter into the room with hands over his eyes. My heart was officially in my stomach.

Chad- What is it love? Shar said you wanted to talk?

I took a deep breath

Taylor- Chad look at me

Chad- no, it's bad luck to see the bride remember baby.

He replied in a playful tone. I reached for his hands pulling them away from him making him look at me. His eyes widened when he saw me in tears and he opened his mouth to speak. I immediately silenced him with by placing a finger to his lips.

Taylor- Chad… I … we need to talk

Whooooohhhhh!!!!!!!!! Cliffhanger Okay Okay Okay I know you're all sad cause this is going to end soon :[ . I know I know I am too. Anyways two more chapters left and I'm thinking of writing a bonus chapter please read and review ladies and gents. - Blueprincess