Wondering what has happened
Why nobody is here
The feeling of being trapped
As the tears appear
I am nothing
And everybody is gone
So silent...
Like the aftermath of a bomb
Looking around the room
As if waking from a dream
People...are here
But they seem to not recognize me
All these familiar faces
Looking at me so cruely
I huddle into a ball
While I feel their eyes staring...brutally
I stifle my cries
While everybody dances
I know I am nothing to them
But in hopes, I sneak quick glances
I am nothing
And they dont recognize me
Sad and emptiness consuming rage and anger
Is this meant to be?
Am I so easily pushed out of their lives?
So many memories of what we did
Now they are the past and I am like a ghost
Here I am, facing a life of emptiness and I'm just a kid!
I walk away from this room of memories
Leaving behind the familiar faces
Walking around like a ghost
To all these places
I sit down on the floor
Looking down at my hands, wondering how these pills got here
Hearing my name...did somebody finally remember?
Its too late...the pain turning into silent tears
They found me on the floor
With salty crystals still streaming
My mouth open wide
In a silent, painful, scream
They shall never know
The pain they caused over the years
How can something so strong
Give way so easily, even if somebody is near?
Loneliness can kill the heart and soul
An invisible death, something that cant be seen
Now I truly am a ghost
As I watch everybody gather round a body that used to be me
I guess it's really over
As I float and watch them...
They close my mouth and eyes
Forever silencing the pain that there would've been
Raining on the day they bury me into the cold ground
So cold on this day...everybody dressed in black
The color matches my heart and soul
As I turn away, the two become cold and I dont look back
The light crystals fall from the sky and my face
I cray out in rage
Not at the end of my life, like a book unfinished
No...just that they shall never read it...not even one page