CHAPTER 35 - thank you for the many reviews. I'm very very happy that you're still interested on the story and to know to have new readers... What can I say? I love this 2 characters, but it's pretty impossible see them together in the shows, so all we can do is write about them, imagine what we can call 'our alternative show'... This new chapter start right after Cristina's surgery, we will meet another well known member of Shepherd's clan... Please read and review (suggestions, ideas and also critiques are, as always very welcome...). Enjoy!

Brownstone 5 PM

"Carolyn, what a nice surprise!" Addison exclaimed, indeed she was disappointed and a bit scared by that unexpected visit, she had already planned a quiet afternoon at home with Derek.

"Hi Addison, is Derek at home?"

"He just arrived ten minutes ago, he is relaxing in the living room watching television… He had a very important surgery today!" She said inviting her former mother in law to come in the house.

"Derek, don't you say 'hi' to your mother?"

"Hi mom" he said hugging her "It's nice to see you here… finally"

Addison looked at the scene, she feels like she was in the wrong place and even if she thought was a mistake leaving the three of them, Derek, Carolyn and William, alone, she found an excuse to leave the brownstone.

"Do you want a tea?" Derek asked gently to his mother, "Don't be so formal, son, after all I'm your mother… I know that living with Addison means that you have to pay attention at 'ceremonials'…"

"It isn't 'ceremonial', mom, it's just tea… I had a long day at the hospital, so I thought a cup of tea was a good way to relax… Why didn't you call me to tell you were coming?"

"A mother can't see his son, Derek? I missed you in these months… you didn't call me…"

"You neither called me, mom… It hurts!... Do you want to meet William?" then he asked her

"So William is his name… Did Addison choose it?... I always thought you would call you first son like your father…"

"We chose the name together… and you have already three grandsons with that name…" he said defending his and Addison's decision.

Derek showed his mother William's nursery. The baby was quiet in his crib, so he gently picked him "Hi, buddy" he said kissing his forehead "Say hello, to grandma Carolyn!" and he gave the baby to his mother.

"I can't deny he's a cute baby, Derek..." Carolyn said giving the baby back to Derek

"Come on, mom he's more than cute!" he said playing with his tiny hand,

"Are you happy, Derek?…I mean this is really what you want from your life, or you're doing the right thing, because a woman without neither asking nor even telling you was so desperate to get pregnant with the embryos you created years ago... You weren't involved at first and in my opinion you should be involved enforcing you rights in her crazy decision. What you did it's very altruist, I can't deny that but did you ever thing what would be this situation if you didn't decide to move here in NY?... Is this the life you really want to have? Or are these people the ones you choose to create a family?... As a mother I can't stop to asking me these questions and even if this baby he's your biological son I can't stop thinking you are for Addison the equivalent of a sperm donor that just happen that lives with her. In my eyes you aren't a family, you are just three people that live under the same roof and it's sad especially for this baby that has no fault for this crazy situation... I repeat is this what you really want from your life or are you just doing the right thing, good Samaritan?... As every mother on earth all I want from my children is their best and their happiness... So I have the right to ask you this... Derek, you will be always my kid and I'll love you forever, but as a parent I need to tell you when you make decision or mistakes that I don't understand or I disappoint with…"

After the long Carolyn's speech Derek didn't know what to say, he knew that his mother had few points on her side "There are a lot of unexpected children in this world… but that doesn't mean that their parents don't love them…" Derek said to his mother, Carolyn moved closed to him and gently caressing his face like she did when he was a kid "As I said, Derek, all I want for you is your happiness" she said leaving him alone in the nursery holding William in his arms.

More than an hour later Addison was back at home "I was with Savvy" she said to Derek, that was seated on the couch of the leaving room drinking a scotch, she noticed the glass in his hand "This mean that with your mother things are still not good, right?", Derek didn't answer he was looking absently at his almost empty glass "Do you think I'm a good parent?"

"When you're around yes" she told him kissing his lips "You're a wonderful father!"

"…Why didn't you tell me anything when you decided to have a baby?…"

"Derek, you really want to talk about this…again?"

"It was my right knowing that I was going to have a baby"

"Derek, please… not again, I'm tired and I'm more than sure you're tired too… you know pretty well my reasons…"

"I… I can't stop thinking that maybe I've never known that I was going to have a baby if I didn't show here… That's sad and awkward Addison and not only for me but also for you and the kid"

"Derek, I know it was selfish, but I didn't involved you in my choice, because I was scary that you could refuse…I know it was a mistake… but try to see my point of view for once… You were my last chance to have a baby of my own…", Derek didn't say nothing, he finished to drink his glass of whisky then sat up from the couch and left the room heading towards the door of the house "I'm going to the hospital, I want to check Cristina…"

"Derek?" she looked at him, her eyes were saying to him to not leave the house "We can talk if you want…"

"I talked enough for today…"

Derek arrived at Mt Sinai Hospital, he wore his white coat and headed towards Cristina's room "Hey, look at you!" he exclaimed happily noticing his friend finally awake "…hey" she said still a bit asleep, "It's nice finally talking with you… Where's your husband?... he never left you in these days, you know…"

"He went to the cafeteria "I told him to eat something… how went the surgery?" she asked with still tired voice.

"Very good… In no more than 2 months I want to see you walking on your feet!" Derek told encouraging her "We did an excellent job on your spinal cord…"

"Is it true you operated with a surgery cup with Donald Duck?" Cristina asked him finally smiling

"Hey it was a gift from my cousin… It's a lucky surgery cup…I had it…" he was saying that it was the same surgery cup he wore when William was born, but then stopped himself "I used it in many surgeries…"

"Thank you, Derek!" Cristina said.

"You're one of my dearest friends Cristina…"

Owen showed in the room with his usually cup of coffee and a donut in his hand "Hey you!" he said kissing Cristina forehead "Derek, I imagined you were spending the evening at home…"

"You know man, hospital is my drug… Did Captain visit Cristina after the surgery?"

"Three hours ago, she was still asleep, he wrote the visit on her chart" Owen said "He said everything was ok"

"Bad temperament but excellent surgeon" he said referring to his former father in law "Tomorrow he will check again Cristina's condition!"

"I talked with Richard and Meredith" Owen said "I told them the surgery went well and that you were awake… How you feel?" then he asked to his wife

"I'm good… I mean I had a terrible headache and I feel a bit nauseous, but these are common effects of the anaesthesia…"

"Do you want rest, honey?" Owen asked gently

"Yeah…"

Derek looked at his friends smiling at them, then he left the room to give them their privacy. He decided to go back at home, he opened the door and headed downstairs in the kitchen where Addison was seated at the table reading a magazine with a cup of tea near her, he looked at her and said "Chocolate cupcakes!" showing the gift he bought for them

"You're back!" she said smiling at him "How is Cristina?"

"She's good!" he said smiling back "I'm sorry Addison, I was a little stressed, I had a very long day and then my mother…", she moved closed to him "Ssssh…" she said hugging him "You're back!"

"… William is your best mistake, Addison… and you're right… If you asked me to implant the embryos I would said no… Thanks for not asking me…"

Next - morning

Brownstone 7:30 am

Derek was in the kitchen eating breakfast, he was safely holding William in his arms, Addison was in the other room talking at the phone, 2 minutes after she came back to Derek that asked her "Who was at the phone?"

"The hospital!" she answered "I have an emergency, a patient of mine was admitted 10 minutes ago…"

"So?"

"She's 29, she's pregnant and she's bleeding, so I have to go to the hospital now… I know that a uterus is not important as a brain or a spinal cord, but for a woman, especially a pregnant woman, is important Derek… I need to be there in 10 minutes…"

"Wait, wait, wait, today is Teresa day off, what are we going to do with William?" Derek asked

"He comes with us…"

"What?"

"Come on Derek you have only patients to check, you don't have surgery today for once you can give me an hand with the baby…"

Twenty minutes later the entire family was at Mt Sinai hospital, Addison was already in the ER checking her patient and Derek was in his division with William "Dr Shepherd, this is adorable…" A nurse said looking at the sleepy baby in the car seat, "When he sleeps is adorable, when he screams it's the problem… Can you help me with this?" Derek said asking the nurse to help him with the front carrier, "Isn't the baby too small for this?" the nurse asked, "Maybe yes but I don't have an other solution and Addison is performing a C-section…Is Captain here?"

"Not yet…" the nurse answered helping him with the carrier

"Well, I'm going to check Ms Young…"

Derek headed to Cristina's room and gently opened the door to check her, Cristina was still a bit sleepy so she looked again at her doctor and then she said "What are you doing with a baby in my room?" 'yes, Young was finally back' thought Derek, but before he could answer to his friend Owen showed and said "Look at you, little man!" he said playing with the tiny baby's hand "Did daddy carry you in this ugly place?", Cristina looked astonished at her husband "Owen do you know this baby?"

"He's William, Derek's son" he said focus on the tiny baby, Cristina looked at Derek with a query glimpse and Derek answered "Long story… How are you today?" he said trying to change subject.

"Shepherd, you smell!" Cristina said to Derek, he sniffed the baby "Ohh, sorry I have to change William…" he said picking the baby from his carrier, "wait, wait… Tell me you aren't going to change the runty in my hospital's room, Shepherd" but it was too late, Derek was already opening William's bag and picking a clean diaper.

In the same moment Captain came in Cristina's room "What are you doing with the baby here?" he asked concerned seeing his former son in low with his grandson and without his daughter "No, no, no, you operate on brains and you have no idea how to change a diaper… Let me show how you do this"

"Are you really changing a dirty diaper, Captain?" Derek asked looking astonished at Addison's father, "Do you really think I never changed a diaper in my life...with two kids?"

"You have maids and waiters at the mansion… and nannies" Derek said unbelieving what he was seeing.

"Do you know this kid?" Cristina asked to Captain, the surgeon that operated on her

"First thing, this isn't 'this kid', he is William Edward Montgomery-Shepherd, second thing you need to know is that William is my first grandson!" then looking at Derek he said "Derek since you are here, I need your help to drain an aneurism…"

"I'm an attending, not a resident or an intern" he trying to answering back to Captain

"Beg your pardon?" Captain said looking at Derek

"…I mean Addison is in surgery and…"

"Call the nanny!" Captain said without understand what was Derek's problem

"It's her day off…" he said clearing his voice

"Well, since you know both Owen and Cristina, Mr Hunt can watch the baby while you perform the surgery with me…What is the problem?"

Derek nodded then he asked Owen if he could watch William while he was in surgery, "No problem, man… William will be fine"

"There's a bottle in his bag if he is hungry" Derek said to Owen, he kissed William head and came out of the room with Captain thinking 'This time Addison kills me'

Cristina looked at Owen that was holding William in his arms "Seriously, Owen?"

...LIttle note, for me Stephen Collins will be always reverend Eric Camden, I love his character in that show... What do you think of the chapter? Please let me know reviewing the chap