-The following chapter is shown through the eyes of DEREK/THUNDER RUSH-
crimson is the best friend i could really ever have. hes always been there and hes the greatest guy i know. even before we got pulled into this mess with the dream arch i knew he would always do some pretty awesome things... but this is unbelievable. the way he has changed is almost impossible to describe. what he has become is something that i never thought could exist... a God.
i have to respect crimson and his beliefs, but i never was much of a holy man. i'm an atheist... so i'm not always liable to jump to prayer in a time of need. but what crimson has become just completely blew all my beliefs out of the window... long before i knew he was a god. and i can sure as hell say that i need to change my point of views, but i'm not sure how or what i should change them to. i kind of wonder that if i spray to crimson now, will he here me? could he even talk back to me? i'm not sure what to think.
the scene at the ruins earlier today was just unbelievable. there was no way anypony could have seen that coming from a mile away, but now that we know... it makes so much sense. i've never been one to be jealous, but i'm going to admit that i am pretty jealous of him. i've never been one to admit something like that, and i sure as hell won't do it outloud. but i can't even begin to imagine what he's going through right now... i'm sure its got to be harsh on him though. the way he just snapped like that was unbelievable, i've never seen him like that.
he isn't an angry person... he really isn't. i've known him for as long as i can remember and he isn't an angry or spiteful person... but he has been lately. i must imagine that all of this must be putting an unbelievable amount of pressure on him... that would explain why hes been so stressed and disgruntled lately. i almost feel sorry for him, knowing that half that pressure he carries is because he looks over us. everypony he loves and cares for, those ponies seem to be his top priority... that only makes sense why he snapped when this demon guy took rainbow dash from him.
i'm not really sure when i'll get to see crimson again. part of me feels like hes never coming back... that he just quit. but i know deep inside that he would sooner die a million deaths than give up on his loved ones. i know that he will be coming back, he wouldn't let anything hurt us. i know he never could, it's not in his blood to let his friends down. but i feel terrible about all of this, i feel like i'm always letting him down... like i'm not being careful enough. i always feel like i'm causing him more and more trouble... but i know that he would forgive me.
crimson i'm sorry...