A/N Don't own it.
Sorry for taking so long – went on vacation and went I came back – well real life started again .
Here is a filler for you all. Please enjoy.
Edward POV
I know I am an ass. I admit it and have so to my therapist that I have major problems – but I want to fix them. I want to fix them and become a better Edward first for my family and myself but most importantly for my Mina and my Bella. When Bella allowed me to be in her life, I was completely enamored and grateful that she allowed me to be in her heart. Then – the old Edward – that person who tormented Bella came out and did what I could to torment her. I did the ultimate sin – cheat on her with other women. Worse - with Lauren.
Now, I regret every second of the day what I did to her. My therapist has helped me understand why I have done in the past and he is helping me realize that there might be a small possibility that Bella will never accept me back. I have accepted that but not without a fight. I love her – more than my own life. If I could, I would bring back Demetri to life so she can live the life she deserves – with a man that can worship the ground she walks on without cheating.
Recently, I have gone back to church. My mom and dad are rather religious, but we were never pushed after we turned 12. Dad believes that each of us will go back to God but it would happen on our accord. It finally happened to me and I find going back to church for forgiveness and for clarity. I pray that God will allow me an opportunity to be completely happy with my Bella and my Mina.
As the tonight progressed, I have noticed that my Bella has become more beautiful and sexy than ever. We are all gathered here and as she stands in her leggings and oversized Oxford University t-shirt, she looks sexy as a kitten. She and I have been able to talk more. We are slowly understanding each other. We have gone out to lunch a few times and we have talked a lot at mom and dad's apartment during family dinner. I miss her though – I miss holding her, kissing her, holding her hand.
Now George brings in three actors – handsome and young – to sweep Bella's heart. I AM GOING TO KILL HIM! Emmett comes by and sits next to me and smirks.
"Are you ok Edward?"
"Yeah – why do you ask? Do I look tense?"
"No surprisingly. That is why I am asking."
"I trust Bella. I trust and believe in our love."
"You are a better than me. I would be going nuts now."
"I trust her Emmett. Besides, it's not like I don't deserve it."
Then George came by as I said that. Bella was speaking to Kellan and Rose and Alice were talking to Robert and Jackson.
"You do deserve it Edward, but that is not the point of why I brought these guys over. Bella needs to feel that she is beautiful. We tell her all the time but it is different if a totally different man tells her. Besides, I know Bella – she would never cheat on you."
"Please tell me what you know George."
"I know nothing my dear Edward."
"Please…"
"She loves you Edward. You captured her heart and I try to tell her to let it go – but she won't. She is stubborn as a mule. I don't approve of you Edward but you seem to be working on your problem. Don't become the brute I know you can become. These guys can help Bella out."
I still didn't like it, but I had heart Bella enough.
Someone hit my neck "Edward! Snap out of it! Trust Bella. You got it."
"I got it."
She is definitely going to kill me slowly.
Bella POV – later that night after everyone left
Wow – George is a piece of work. That's my Georgie – Kellan, Jackson and Rob are real sweethearts. Tomorrow they plan to come over for movies and popcorn. I promised to cook some pasta for George so I invited them all. I know it must be hard just to get around for them.
It was really great talking with Robert. He is a great listener and he is a superb person. During our conversation, I realized that our world is so small. Robert and I actually had met a long time ago at some tea we attended and we both have mutual friends. Why we never met again is beyond our control, but I am very grateful to George in introducing Robert.
Kellan and Jackson are trouble – good trouble though. They make me laugh and forget everything. As well, it doesn't hurt to look that good. Damn, all three boys were HOT – HOT – HOT! All three are kind and thoughtful men. I know we can all be great friends.
If George thinks love can come out of this – he has another thing coming. Though it hurts like hell, I am totally and irrevocably in love with Edward. I know deep down he is my soul mate, and though he is lost for the moment, I need to be patient and wait for him. I know he is working it out with his family and therapist. At first, Alice and Rosalie advised me to stay away from him and find someone better, but I told them that I just felt we were supposed to be together.
Mum and dad agreed and trusted my sixth sense. The only advise was to NOT make it too easy for him to come back. I still love him – crazy as it sounds – I love him with all my heart. I just hope he won't break it again.