I unfortunately do NOT own Twilight, I'm borrowing the characters, the amazing Stephenie Meyer created.

Chapter 35

I'll Never Let You Go

BPOV

It was now December, it had been two months since I last saw Jacob. Two months may not seem like a long time to normal people, but Jake and I didn't really count as normal. I collected my books and put my parka on, heading towards the door. I groaned when I saw a layer of white stuff covering the floor and white flakes falling from the sky. It was snowing. I pulled my hood up and headed outside, being careful where I trod, I was thankful I had worn my boots this morning. I felt something hit the back of my parka followed by a 'splat' I turned round.

"I figured you'd be the last one out of the building" Jacob had a goofy grin on his face and was holding a snow ball in his hand.

"You dare!" I warned.

"What are you going to do about it, Swan?" Jacob teased.

I put my bag and books on the floor and scooped up a pile of snow and tossed it in Jacobs direction, he dodged and threw one at me that hit me on my shoulder.

"This means war" I glared jokingly.

Jacob laughed and bent over to collect snow balls. I took my chance and threw one at his ass, it splattered on his jeans. Jacob stood up and pouted, he started to pelt snowballs at me, I screamed and giggled picking up my book shielding myself. I turned to run away, but ended up slipping and landing on my butt.

"Bella" Jacob rushed over to me.

I looked at him and couldn't control myself, I burst out laughing, Jacob shook his head and pulled me up, brushing me down.

"Thanks" I laughed.

"Come on klutz" Jacob held my hand and picked my bag and books up, carrying them for me.

"What are you doing in Alaska?" I asked.

"I came to pick you up" Jacob swung our entwined arms "I have a gift for you" Jacob handed me a book, I recognized it immediately, it was our scrapbook we made when were were about 10.

"Oh my God, where did you find this?" I asked opening it.

"Rachel and I cleared out our house"

"This is so cute" I hugged him. "Thank you"

"Don't thank me, I just found it" Jacob smiled.

We both got in my car and Jacob drove us back towards Forks. I switched the radio on, but forgot I was listening to the CD Edward made me for my 18th birthday, I went to turn it off, but Jacob stopped me.

"I didn't know you were into this type of music" Jacob stated.

"I'm not, it's just a CD I found" I lied.

Jacob stopped me from turning it off, when my lullaby finished Jacob ejected the CD and read the writing on the disc, it read My Bella

"What is this?" Jacob asked "My Bella?"

I took the CD off him before it got damaged "It's just a CD Jake"

"It's from...him isn't it?" Jacob growled.

"Yes" I admitted.

Jacob took a deep breath and it was silent for most the remainder of the journey, I felt tears roll down my cheeks, I didn't like it when things like this happened or when Jake got annoyed at me. Jacob pulled up outside and I knew he was looking at me, I wiped my tears and walked inside, I went straight to the kitchen, reading the note from Charlie to say he was at work. I felt two warms hands take mine from behind. "Bella" Jacobs voice was gentle.

"Let me go" I sniffed.

"No"

"Jacob" I protested, but Jacob ignored me, instead he lifted me up and carried me to the couch where he cradled me.

"I will never let you go Bella, I'm so sorry I upset you" Jacob leant down and kissed each of my wet cheeks several times "I hate to see you cry and I made you cry, I wasn't angry at you, I hate the fact you fear me getting angry"

"I don't fear you getting angry, I don't like you to be angry at me, I want everything to be perfect"

"Everything will be perfect" Jacob kissed my cheek again. "I promise"

"I love you" I whispered.

"I love you too" Jacob touched his nose to mine and smiled.

"I need to go, I promised Jared and Quil that I would help them get the tree"

"Tree?" I asked.

"Christmas isn't right without a tree" Jacob stood up and set me on my feet.

"You're getting a real one?" I asked shocked.

"Of course" Jacob nodded.

I guess I wasn't exactly surprised Jacob and the pack were going to cut the tree down themselves, Jacob kissed me goodbye and headed out the door. I prepared Charlie his dinner and he walked in the door, he shook his hair from snowflakes and hung his jacket up. "Evening Bells" Charlie called.

"Hey dad" I smiled.

"Billy has invited us to spend Christmas in La Push, I thought you would want to spend it with Jacob and your friends" Charlie spoke.

"Yeah, that'd be great"

"Dinner smells great by the way" Charlie inhaled.

I dished up dinner and sat down at the table with Charlie

"How's college?"

"It's okay" I sighed.

"Tough?" Charlie asked.

"Yeah, the work is a lot harder"

"How's the wedding planning going?"

"We haven't done much, but there isn't a lot we need to organize" I smiled, I was excited about getting married.

"My little girl married, eh?" Charlie sighed.

"I'm not little any more" I chuckled.

"Suppose not" Charlie agreed.

Charlie made me leave the washing up and I headed to La Push, driving carefully then normal, all though I wouldn't be surprised if this missile-proof car had some kind of abnormal power grip. I pulled up outside The Blacks and laughed when I saw Seth standing in the window balancing on a chair trying to get the twinkling lights in the right place, Leah was outside directing him.

"To the left a bit, no to the right, too far you imbecile!" Leah insulted her brother, I laughed and she turned "Oh hey Bella"

"Hey, Seth up a bit" I told him "Perfect"

Seth gave me a big thumbs causing him to drop the lights, Leah groaned and Rachel replaced him on the chair waving at me. I waved back and followed Leah inside. The pack had collected wood fire and left it on the porch and there was a wood fire burning inside, it was very cosy inside with all the packs heat and the fire.

The Blacks front room was like a Christmas wonderland. A huge tree, that I was shocked even fitted in the corner was covered in decorations, tinsel and lights. There was a small pile of presents forming underneath. I saw Jacob standing in the kitchen watching me, he was holding a piece of mistletoe. I walked over and before I could do or say anything he wrapped his arm around me and pulled me into him, crashing his lips to mine, I embraced the kiss. Unfortunately Jacob had to end it as I was getting a bit carried away in front of a room full of people including Jacobs dad.

"How's university with all the clever people?" Embry asked.

"It's good, but I'm glad to be home" I hugged Jacob and he kissed the top of my head.

"You two need to get a room, you make me feel sick" Paul complained.

"Shut up Paul, I put up with you and Rachel without complaining" Jacob shot back.

"Alright kids, time to retire for the night, I'm sure Seth will have us all up very early" Billy joked.

"Huh, why me?" Seth asked.

"You're the only one who still believes in Santa" Jared teased.

"No I don't!" Seth moaned.

"You wrote a letter to him last year and left food out for him" Leah added.

The pack laughed and pushed Seth out the door, playfully pushing each other round. Jacob took my hand and we walked down the porch back towards our house, I waved at the pack as everyone went home ready for Christmas Day.