Lydias pov.
One month later.
It's been four months since my mothers death. And for the fourth time this week i wake up feeling okay. Honestly okay. The first day when i woke up and had the slightest bit of motivation I didn't want to get too excited that it might wash it away, but today is my last day in Beacon Hills before i go off to university. I haven't packed a thing.
We all got our results for our exams. I got all A*'s, Stiles got three B's and an A, Kira got all B's and Scott got one A* and the rest were A's. We were all so happy with them, even I felt happy. Also in the past few days i've eaten three meals a day, even if they are small portions, but i'm finally getting my appetite back. Its only 8am but i'm up and awake and dressed. I look around my room sighing. Empty boxes stacking high by my door. My dad is moving house next week, i told him i didn't want to do anything to do with him in the future and he said that was okay, then we awkwardly hugged and that was that.
I rub my eyes and sigh, once again, then walk over to my wardrobe, i'm wearing a skirt and top, and take all my clothes out and dump them on my bed. Then get a box, a biggish one because i have so much clothes. Then i take them off of there hangers and fold them neatly into the box. After i did that i place the hangers on top of my clothes and close the box shut, lifting it off of my bed and placing it by my door. Then i do the same with my shoes, make up and things like shower gels and shampoos into a smaller box. I do this for everything in my room, when i'm on my last box packing my bedding i notice something still hanging on my wall. A picture. A picture of Paris. I carefully take it down and hold it close to my chest.
Stiles. I love him so much, i need him, i need him to forgive me. So thats what i'm going to do. I'll go over to his and i can tell him how much i love him. He's been so great to me in the past months, he hasn't given up, he has always been by my side even if i pushed him away. I hope he can come back into my life again.
I gently place it in the box, and close my eyes. Don't cry.
It will be alright Lydia, its Allisons voice, my tears well up, you have to forgive him, i nod even though this is in my head and might not actually be true but it's close enough.
And you have to win the fields medal, you have to get back with Stiles, you have to move on without your mother. I smile, i can picture this perfectly between me and Allison, we would be on her bed, i would be on my front and she would be on her back listening about my problems, or i would be telling her about a scientific experiments that should happen and she would nod and listen. As simple as that. And then Argent would walk into the room, without knocking, and then ask if we want a mcdonalds, or anything at the shop. I can pratically feel everything about this situation. The colour of her walls soft on my eyes, the smell of washing wafting around her room, her wardrobe that holds bows and arrows and Chinese ring daggers.
I get off of my bed, breathe in and look around my room. Its bare so bare. The cream of my walls looking as vibrant as ever and the tree painted on the wall as bold as ever.
I guess its time to face Stiles.
I leave my house and drive to Stile's . Trying to think of what i'll say. How i will even start. But hes so understanding i hope it comes out naturally. I pull up outside and Melissa's car is there. Her and the sheriff have been dating for a week, what i hear from Stiles and Scott that they're finally happy now that all that unresolved tension between the two is over. I'm happy for them. I knock on the door and the sheriff answers. He looks young, he's clearly in love and it's unmistakable in his eyes.
"Lydia? Come in," he says, i smile at him, an actual genuine smile that I haven't smiled in a while, but it feels good to, i know how much my mum always used to say that she loved it. He returns the smile, i hear Melissa shuffle around in the kitchen.
"He's upstairs, packing" he says.
"Thanks," i say and head up the stairs, my shoes click-clacking. I hear voices from Stiles room, laughing, its him and Scott. I knock gently on his door and they're quiet for a moment.
"Come in!" Stiles calls. I slowly open the door sucking in a breath. I peek my head around half of my body concealed by the door.
"Lydia," Stiles breathes out, his lips breaking out into a smile, i return it, then he smiles even more. It's been so long since i've smiled.
"Hey," i say, almsot shyly, its been long since I've voluntarily socialised. Stile's room is bare, well mostly bare. He's packing his clothes into a suitcase, Scott helping him.
"I'll leave you two alone," Scott says sliping passed me, squeezing my shoulder as he walks by.
"Are you alright?" He asks as i step fully in, once again i take in a big breath.
"yeah, i'm good actaully, for once," i say, he seems to relax, as if he's been tense since my mum had died, "Can we talk?"
"Of course," he says stepping closer, god i've missed him, and his ways. I get a whiff of his aftershave.
"I, um.." I start, where am i going with this, just say whats on your mind, "I'm not sure how to say this but, um, okay, i guess i wanted to thank you," i say, Stile's face softens, "For staying by my side, you haven't ever given up on me, even though i pushed you to a side, even though you watched me grow thinner and more tired, you still didn't leave my side," i say tears now swarming into my eyes, "I was a total bitch to you but all you could worry about was me, if i was sleeping or eating," i laugh a little, wiping away a tear that fell, "And you never let me go too far, you always pulled me back i guess. I just want you to know that I'm grateful for that. I always will be. And the truth is Stiles i still love you, i still love you like i did when we first got together, and if you thought that i stopped then i'm reassuring you that i do," i say, he seems to have tears in his eyes too, "So i guess what i'm saying is that i'm ready, i know this is selfish that now that i have stopped grieving i'm ready for you and I again, but you keep me steady, so maybe if you would take me back, i'd love to be your girlfriend again" i say, he looks at me, his face suddenly an inch away from mine.
"You know we never technically broke up," he says a smile playing on his lips, my hands find the back of his neck, "But yes, i would love for there to be an us again," he says and thats all i need, then i press my lips against his, his lips are something i've missed, the way his tongue dances with mine and licks the roof of my mouth. God, i craved him so much i had forgotten. I pull back, smiling bashfully. He's smiling too.
"I'm sorry," I add, his forehead pressed against mine.
"Don't be, don't ever be" He whispers into my ear, sending chills through my body. Suddenly I'm excited for the future, for university. Him, me, Kira, Scott and now Issac. Jackson and Mia are going to travel the world. I envy that.
I pull away from Stiles, wiping my hands on my skirt, not realising they had been so clamy.
"Packings going well" I say nodding, he lets out a gently laugh.
"Yeah, yeah, what about your packing?"
"All done and dusted my friend," I say raising an eyebrow, "But i have to go actually, i have to do some stuff at my house, but we're all leaving at 4 today? Right?"
"Okay, and yeah, we are, I'll see you there then" He says smiling, i nod smiling too, then press a kiss to his cheek and leave.
I take a visit to my mothers grave, i clean the headstone, no matter how OCD that sounds i will always do it. Then lay some flowers. Yellow roses, because yellow is the symbol of hope, this is the first time i've felt hope in a while, and i want to share it with my mum. Then i take a trip to Allisons grave. I shed a tear there. I place roses on her grave and an arrow head. I wish she could have made it with us, she was strong enough to, she deserved to be a teenager who got to grow up. But life doesn't wait for anybody. I know that now.
At 3:45 i pack my car for and get ready to leave. I stand before my dad.
"Thank you dad," i say pulling him into a hug, even though its mainly his fault my mum is dead he has still lived with me and kept this roof over my head. "You take care"
"And you Lydia, your mother would be proud," he says, i nod and smile, "You know you can always call"
I nod then get into my car. Of course i know he will always be there but at the end of the day i want to be independent. And thats perfectly okay. So i leave for Stile's and when i arrive everyone is there. Even Issac, he must of just flew over. As i am welcomed in, I'm overwhelmed with the fact that i'm leaving. All this build up and all those times where I couldn't wait to leave, this is finally it.
We all stand in his kitchen. Kira, her parents, Stiles, Scott and there parents, Jackson and Mia are here, Issac stands awkwardly in the corner, with a scarf draped around his neck. Its 40 degree heat out. Is he mad? And Liam and Hayden are here too, to wave us off. As well as Derek.
"This is it" Stiles says as he slips an arm around me. He kisses my forehead.
"I can't believe we made it" Kira says laughing a little, an arm around her mum. But not all of us made it, we are all aware of that. We had to leave so many people behind, and i hope they can forgive us for that because i know one day we'll forget what they looked like, or what they sounded like.
"Yeah," Scott says nodding, he looks up at the sky, as if looking into heaven.
I'll always be here with you guys, I smile at Allisons voice, of course shes still here with all of us, Remind them of that Lydia.
"Allison we'll always be with us," i speak aloud, everyone looks at me, Mia looks as if I'm crazy, i'm not sure if she knows about the supernatural, "They're all still with us" i say.
We're all silent for a moment, as if thinking of everyone they wished were here. Then i release a tear i didnt know was forming.
"Lydia why are you crying?" Hayden asks gently.
"These are happy tears," i say smiling, wiping my eyes, Stiles rubs my back.
"I guess we better get going" Stiles sighs, we all nod then everyone shuffles outside.
I hug Hayden enormously, and press a kiss to her cheek, "You can always text me, and we'll visit at christmas," i tell her, shes crying but smiling.
"I'm gonna miss you" she laughs out then i pull her in for a hug again. Then i hug Liam, we don't exchange words we just smile and say goodbye. I watch as Scott hugs Liam, tightly.
"If anything supernatural comes up call me, always call me" he says, they glow there eyes at each other then laugh it off. Derek hugs Scott.
"I can still remember when you were bit, i thought how is this loser gonna cope? Now look at you red eyes and all," He says laughing, Scott says something that I don't hear then they hug again.
Derek walks over to me, hugs me and i hug him back, kissing his cheek.
"I'm gonna miss you, you miserable pig" i laugh, he does too. Then the sheriff hugs Stiles, theres thick emotion there.
"Take care son," he says, patting his back, "Have you got your pillow?"
"Yes dad i got my pillow," he laughs, then he hugs Melissa and thanks her for being his second mum, then Scott and his mum hug, whilst crying.
"You're such a great man Scott," she says, kissing him and holding his face, he nods then she hugs him again.
Kira and her mum hug, then shes given some advice about the fox inside of her, then she hugs her dad, for more longer because i guess after him being in a coma, she realises that life can end or change any minute. Then it comes to me and Jackson.
"Have a good time travelling," i say pulling him into a friendly hug.
"I'm sure i will," he says pulling back and winking at Mia. Then i hug Mia, nothing to sloppy with me and her.
Then before i know it we all stand at our cars, Scott and Stiles and Issac are travelling together, Kira is riding by herself and so am i.
"Bye!" They all shout, i nod and get into my car, as does everyone else. Then we start down the road, waving out of the window at our family and friends. Bye mum. I think to myself.
And as i stare at the back of Stile's jeep i think, I'm looking forward to life.
Wow, i cannot believe its the end of the story! I'm so sad I won't be writing this anymore! I'm thinking to do a sequeal for when they're in university, I don't know, inbox me or comment if you want this but i feel like i can't leave the story here, if i did do another one it will only be around 5-10 chapters long though i don't plan on a big story! Anyway thank you guys so so so much for reviewing, favouriting and following, you guys are the best! Hope you all enjoyed reading as much as i did writing, once again Thank You!❤️
Be strong,
be fearless,
be passionate ~ Dylan O'brien