Chapter 35: His Whole World
Hidan slowly opened his eyes and groaned in the pain that hit him that instant. Hidan glanced around and knew exactly where he was… the hospital. How could he forget the familiar white walls of the building he was sometimes sent to because of his father? Hidan sat up and groaned as he saw a nurse come in and walked to him
"Glad you are awake, it seems you've been healing well" she said and Hidan groaned in pain; the pain from his neck hurts like fucking hell.
"Don't move your neck too much, it's still healing" she said
"What… happened?" Hidan asked as what happened was foggy to his brain; probably from the blood loss he had.
"You were in a horrible car accident; you had one long cut that encircled your neck. We had to sew it up and give you back the blood that you had loss. You're pretty lucky I'd say. You've only been out for 10 hours or so. You're condition is a lot better than the person you were with" she said and making Hidan jump as the memories of Kakuzu being covered in red came back
"Kakuzu! Where is he? Is he ok?" Hidan asked frantically. He needed Kakuzu to be ok; he'll never forgive himself otherwise.
"Calm down, don't move your neck too much. The stitching is still new. And as for your friend… he's in critical condition" she said and Hidan closed his eyes in pain. The nurse looked to Hidan with a sad look
"… I'm not allowed to do this, but would you like to see him?" she asked and Hidan looked to her and nodded. She got a neck brace and handed it to Hidan and Hidan looked confused
"Did I break my neck?" Hidan asked and the nurse shook her head
"No, but this is to protect you from moving your neck and breaking the stitches" she had said and Hidan nodded and put it on. Hidan started to get up but almost fell over. The nurse caught him and she made him sit on the bed
"I-I thought you said I didn't break anything" Hidan said and she nodded
"You didn't, but I think there is some trauma to your spine. This means you shouldn't walk at all, your spine is recovering and walking would only hurt it more and possibly permanent" she said and Hidan nodded
"Then what?" Hidan asked, "How am I supposed to get around?"
"I'll be right back" she said and soon returned with a wheelchair, "This will be the only thing to help you get around until you're spine heals enough for you to walk"
"…Can I go see Kakuzu now? Hidan asked and she nodded and helped him into the wheelchair. The nurse helped him down the hall to where Kakuzu was being kept. Right when they entered the room and saw the injured man, Hidan was crushed at the sight. Kakuzu had stitching running from ear to the corner of his mouth on each side; not to mention the many cords and machines Kakuzu was attached to. The nurse rolled him over to the bed. Hidan barely fingered the stitching on his boyfriend's face and saw more stitches on his body
"What… exactly happened?" Hidan asked as parts of what happened were still a blur
"You were thrown from the car and your friend here wasn't as lucky. His side got hit by a semi-truck" she said and Hidan closed his now teary eyes. Hidan remembers everything now. What Kakuzu did for him… and now, how it could cause his life.
"Wh-what's wrong with him?" Hidan asked
"Like you can see, he has multiple cuts that needed stitching… he also had some trauma to the brain" she said and Hidan looked to her
"Wh-what does that mean?"
"Meaning it had caused him to go into a coma. We don't know when or if he will ever wake up" she said and Hidan hand tears fall at the word 'if'
"Y-you're t-telling me there's a chance he might not wake up?" Hidan asked sadly
"That's right… I'll give you ten minutes alone with him, I'll come back in then" she said leaving. Hidan looked to Kakuzu and had tears flow down faster and started to sob silently. Hidan, defying the nurse, stood up and hugged Kakuzu
"I-I'm s-so s-sorry K-Kakuzu…" Hidan said letting out a sob, "Y-you t-take me… o-on the best… d-date of my life… a-and I-I almost kill-killed you in return… I-I'm s-so f-fucking s-sorry" Hidan said and started wiping at the tears on his cheeks
"Y-you sh-should have j-just let my dad… p-pick me up…. O-or let the semi-truck hit me like it was supposed to" Hidan said, "Y-you do-don't fucking deserve this" Hidan mumbled out and took in a deep breath and kissed him on the forehead
"I-I love you so much… pl-please wake up… please" Hidan begged quietly, "I-I can't live without you Kakuzu… I-I can't" Hidan whispered out and then the nurse came in
"Hidan-San, you're ten minutes is up… we also need to see if there is anything else wrong with your spine and vertebra"
"O-ok" Hidan mumbled out sitting back into the wheelchair and continued to look at Kakuzu while the nurse led him out of the room. As Kakuzu was no longer in sight, Hidan let out a deep sigh
"…If Kakuzu… get's better, can you transfer him to my room?" Hidan asked
"We'll see" she said wheeling him to his room and getting a doctor to run some tests on his spine
"Well it seems you haven't broken anything, but you have some trauma and deep bruising along your spine. For it to get better and not worse, you can't walk. I'd say it will be good by the end of this week or next tops" the doctor said and Hidan nodded
"So I'll be staying here?" he asked hopeful
"Is your place wheelchair accessible?" the doctor asked and Hidan shook his head
"Not even close"
"Then you will be staying here until you don't need the wheelchair anymore" she said helping Hidan onto the bed and gave him a button
"If you need anything, use this to buzz in any of the nurses" she said leaving. Hidan sighed deeply before taking off his neck brace and placed it onto the nightstand next to his bed. As Hidan placed it there, he saw there was a hand mirror there and took it. Hidan used it to see his neck. There was a huge cut that encircles his whole neck and was stitched… stitched… Kakuzu. Hidan had tears for and placed the mirror down before laying down and looking at the ceiling
'Kakuzu please be ok' Hidan thought before falling asleep. Hidan woke up and groaned; his neck is so sore… but he had no right to complain. His boyfriend is in worse shape… scars and stitches everywhere and in a coma. When and if, that word sent shivers down Hidan's spine painfully, Kakuzu wakes up he'll be in even more pain than Hidan could even imagine. And that was a lot for a child-abuse victim to say. And this was all Hidan's fault… it isn't fair… Kakuzu didn't deserve this. Why him? Why? If Kakuzu didn't make it... Hidan's newly formed world would crash into a million tiny pieces and ruin him completely. There was no way Hidan would be able to live a second in a world without Kakuzu being there… being alive. Kakuzu was his first friend, his first and only lover, his first time willingly… his everything. Kakuzu was his whole world